Chapter 57: The Feeling of Power Wasn’t my Usual, but it was Nice, Regardless.

(Kami’s POV)

After leaving Alisa’s side, I hadn’t indulged in murder for a long time. Without her by my side, I didn’t really feel the desire to kill. And that really hasn’t changed much.

Of course, I am enjoying this right now. But that is surely due to how, for ten years now, I was trapped in the weak body of a child. Now, I had the power to kill once more, and I was venting my desires as such.

In a sense, it could also be because I know that I will meet up with Alisa sometime soon. Perhaps with her being in the same dimension, it was close enough for me to want to sate my desires for murder…

Slash!

It has hard to say, and honestly, I am mostly focused on killing at the moment. I watch in glee as the knight that I just cut down lifelessly falls to the ground. My smile only grows wider as I see his body trampled on by my army.

This feeling of control, the ability to kill anyone I well truly please to kill, is intoxicating. It makes me yearn for my full power once more. Only now do I realize that I took it all for granted. I didn’t kill enough, not in the least.

And I have also realized that I hurt and failed my wife. I shouldn’t have left her… It was a selfish and wrong thing to do. At that time, I was sure that Alisa just needed to be alone for a while.

But that was wrong, and Celia’s approach was far better than mine. The memories of Alisa that Celia shared with me easily proved that. It is something that I will have to beg her forgiveness for, eventually…

Ria: “Your attacks are slowing down, Kami.” She informed.

Celia: “Are you getting tired?” She asked with a concerned tone.

Kami: “No, I am fine. My mind was just wondering for a bit, sorry.” I reply with a slightly embarrassed tone.

Celia: “That’s good. If you do get tired, then please say so. Ria can just pause time, and we can let you rest for a while.” She said with a warm tone.

Kami: “I thank you for the offer, but I am fine.” I deny.

This woman… Celia… Her domain is the best fit for a person that I have ever come across. For most higher beings, their domains are only partially connected to them. With me, I do love murder, but it isn’t like I kill everyone. Just people that I don’t consider innocent.

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Celia is different. She loves all females, regardless of how cruel they are, or if they had done terrible things. It makes sense why she draws so many powerful beings to her side, including me.

Alisa was the only one that I’ve ever trusted, and the only one that I ever really bothered to converse with. The same cannot be said for Celia. If I thought her evil, I would assume that Celia is using some magic to control people. But she isn’t.

Most higher beings are self-centered, and they see races under them as significantly lesser. Celia won’t ever see any being like that. Ria has already told me how highly she values life.

All life, that is. When she needs to kill, Celia will kill, make no mistake of that. But if there was a better solution, or if murder isn’t the only option, Celia is the only higher being that would take a different path.

Stuck up higher beings would call her naïve, or even just childish. In my opinion, she is a ray of hope. Maybe she will be the one to break the cycle of higher beings acting horribly.

It is hard to say, but even I feel like a horrible person after meeting Celia. And it isn’t due to her not having her full power at the moment, either. Even without mine, I still acted like a higher being.

Slice!

Kami: “…”

Celia: “Are you sure that you aren’t tired, Kami?” She asked with a smile.

My thoughts got the better of me, and I was clearly distracted. As such, I didn’t react in time to a knight slashing her sword down at me. Even with this power, the attack would have greatly injured me.

But that isn’t important… Celia jumped out of Ria’s arms, and she blocked the attack for me. Her back was bleeding. I knew that it was, even without me seeing it. Celia didn’t even react like she was injured.

Ria just quickly killed the knight, and she then went to heal Celia. Not even she reacted. This was the norm for Celia? How many times has put herself in harm’s way to protect a girl? I haven’t known for more than a few days…

Kami: “Celia… such a way of living isn’t sustainable.” I say with a serious tone.

Celia: “Everyone tells me that, but I do not care. If a see a girl about to get hurt, I will protect them. There is no thinking over rather or not that I should do so, or how living like this will eventually destroy me.” She replied with a nonchalant tone.

Ria: “Most of our family members have already advised her the same, Kami. Unfortunately, this isn’t something that Celia is willing to compromise on.” She said with a sigh.

Kami: “She will lose her mind, Ria. If Celia lives her life trying to save everyone, she will not retain her sanity.” I repeat.

Celia: “I will not try to save everyone, just those that I can save. And besides, you aren’t just “someone”, Kami. You are part of our family, so, of course, I will protect you when needed.” She said with a smile.

Kami: “…”

I couldn’t respond to her retort at all. I continued on with the slaughter, but it was safe to assume that my heart was no longer in it at all. Instead, I wonder about the existence of Celia…

Is she a martyr for women? Is her seemingly selfless ability to help and save women her true domain? For what reason was she put into existence? Now I understand the views of those mortals… Celia is an oddity above oddities.

Lots of Thinking Later.

Thump!

The heads of the queen and king fell down before me. In the process of thinking, I didn’t even realize that I had made it to this point. The people cheered as they all committed suicide, as their uses were all used up.

With a sigh, I sat down on the throne. This kingdom was dead, and I felt decently more powerful than when I started this rebellion. Oddly, there wasn’t much satisfaction… As Ria and Celia looked at me, I was at a loss for words…