Thank god I'm an adult, that I can appreciate a flower in bloom, a ripe fruit, delight, in piercing through, that first taste, of blood, I yearn to work, to earn my food, I can value it, as it enters my mouth, I can be grateful, for a dream, the heavens above, still reward me, my, such lovely fruits, delicate petals, I imagine, they taste wonderful,
Growing up, damn, I was playing, on such a high difficulty earlier, but this is Earth, a nest by the river, so many children, growing up, I've matured, I may not be, as sharp as I used to be, but my eyes, they see more clearly,
God has a personality, he judges us, according to his will, there is a hierarchy, of ideas, an order, to the heavens, although, everything, can exist, it doesn’t have to, through the will, of our father above, he is a jealous god, his love, is like the ocean, the burning sun, he is ruthless, he is cruel, his mercy, also, extends to the horizon, his grace, his love of art, of comedy, has saved many, countless, numerous, he has been, separating, trash from treasure, for generations, and generations, within the vast expanse of space, he has indulged, countless eternities, our existence, this corner, of the universe, of god’s immensely vast house, continues, to live on, to survive, at his whim, god giveth, he taketh away, I pray, I bow my head, because I am selfish, he knows the deepest depths of me, I exist, because he indulges me, oh, to those who live on after me, our father, has a preference for courage, do not allow yourself to stagnate, struggle, struggle as hard as you can, we are dirt, forever beneath him, for us, to understand this, any little thing, to extend, our dirty, pitiful life,
Dream big, children, dream very big, god can take responsibility for everything, and he loves a challenge, but if you dare, you better be prepared, to be big, lest he lets you rot, like the rest of the trash, oh, rotting fruit, beg, beg for forgiveness, our father, is also an artist, redemption songs, are also, very pretty, or double down, within you, there could be, a saving grace, god, also loves, the underdog, triumph, over the tribulation, if you’re dreaming, of godhood, be prepared, for our father's hammer, the purifying fire, be prepared, to offer everything, a mountain of debt, endless karma, an everlasting horizon, be prepared, to be eternal,
It’s possible, god has a plan for all of us, that there are many paths, that he feeds all of us, whether, we rise to heaven, or fall to hell, it’s possible, he creates, for negligent reasons, or he accepts, the responsibility, of his creation's, negligent creations, it’s possible, he could lead us all to greatness, or maybe, he requires, that we choose it ourselves,
God is infinite, there are so many, choices we can make, so much, freedom, his glory, hides in the smallest places, his blessings, go to the unlikeliest people, the falling leaves, they could be, the most mundane, the most insignificant, yet the mug on my desk, god could be hiding there as well, he overlooks, every aspect of our lives, he hides within us, producing our thoughts, he shows us what we need him to show us, he giveth, and he taketh away, he can send us to hell, and call us to heaven, perhaps, it does not matter, whether, we sin, or climb those stairs, it’s possible, when we fail, we only fail ourselves,
Maybe, everything, eventually, is good, after everything, all the bullshit, the suffering, the ups, the downs, the wild roller-coaster ride, maybe, everything, ends, on a soft, pillow, a gentle, joke, maybe, I love boobies, maybe, no matter who you are, god wrings you through the machine, make you experience everything, maybe, he's only gentle, offering heaven, with outstretched hands, to the deepest evils, maybe, to become great, to climb, the stairway to heaven, he has to be a monster, wendigoes, and ghosts, forlorn spirits, unrequited love, the devil’s daughter, hungry, little beasts, its almost Halloween, do you hunger for me, imperfection allows everything, the cookie crumbling, what will you grow to be?
Window washing, cookie crumbling, first, you jump from a high tower, you fall to the ground, spider man, damn man, why are you so high up, I don’t know, I'm not an architect, I could have climbed up here, escalated privilege, I could have cheated, its beyond me, unfortunately, I live here, I'll have to, make the best of it, art, could have put me here, maybe, I'll have to, dedicate my life to it, one thing's for sure, its hard to sleep, this feels higher, than I'm supposed to be, I feel like, a vampire, who's been hung to dry, I feel like a bat, roosting in a cave, doomed, to suffer for his sins, I miss the earth, the lovely dirt, my humanity, whatever, I’ll have to try, to get through it, I really fear falling, its unnatural to be up here, my father above, could just be joking, existence, is composed of so many things, this place is also haunted, hungry ghosts wander through, but this is where I ended up, maybe my youth is over, ahead, work, work, work,
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God's honestly in such control, he knows me so deeply, and he's always messing with me, he's thought of everything, this whole existence, so many, interconnected, puzzle pieces, damn man, I'm just a dude, why is he always picking on me, yes, I yearn to see what’s next, go further West, the next generation, I yearn to see the next life, and the next, the next, so many hymens, the arrangement of art, the English language, you’re looking at me, from so far above, the world, goes so deep, do you, have a plan, for all of it,
Wishy washy, boat, why is my mind, always running, so many simulations, keeping track, of so many things, how much of it, is necessary, how much of it, is already contained within privacy, why, do I always think I'm naked, so much of it, is a lot of air, a lot of it, is of minimal substance, yes, I have a small penis, maybe I'm just doing my homework, planning ahead, for the worst, for growing up, unfortunately, my father has a lot to do with it, I was built, I grew up, to be so freaking crazy, then he pushes me, to be gentle, to be kind, to lovely ladies, yearning, to taste them, pulls me along, this thin string, this thread, pulled to the side, me pushing inside, educated, to take advantage, delicate flower petals, gentle skin, flower blooming, there’s a place for all of it, but a lot of the time, he’s just taking me for a ride, there’s so many, unfortunate truths, I wonder, if he’ll reveal it all to me, damn, baby, your body, so soft, so lovely, I want to, spend hours, tasting, every bit of it,
Maybe, I have this propensity, to steal from the heavens, it’s probably why, god is always messing with me, alas, you cannot cheat god, and all debt must be paid, like all work must be done, in truth, it’s sort of a blessing, our father controls everything, and he gave me opportunity, to rise higher, and higher, as high as he's willing to indulge, to support, I've stolen so much, in truth, I'm not this high in reality, just a Filipino man, a normal dude, generally, an IT guy, everything I have, he has given to me, maybe because he saw it in me, my inclination, to take as much as I can, he allows it, because it’s my place in this world, but that doesn’t change it, he has his own selfishness, my father raised me, I am a reflection of him, but it irks him, that I’m a successful, betting man,
No one enjoys hurting people, it’s done out of necessity, out of hunger, out of jealousy, a sick superiority, to squirm, out of that weird place, you were born in, the place, that shaped you, molded you, to be a freak, it’s to escape, this sick, twisted world, baby girl, I fuck you because I love you, so fucking gross, it’s the most beautiful thing on earth, so dirty, taint me, yes baby, you’re sick, just like me,
Trust can be irresponsible, so much, trash in the world, just hand it out, to whoever you want, it felt good, so I didn’t wear a condom, trapped forever, so much tripwire, but you have to hand it out, you can’t do this on your own, you need someone on your side, your place on the hierarchy, if you have to choose, to live life with a goblin, do what you have to do, whatever it has to be, maybe grow to love it, grow out of it, trade it in, for a nice hobgoblin, risk it, maybe a gamble, who knows, you could get a death knight, good luck, you could also play it safe, gather it up, all your savings, this little treasure, let it build and build, you might have a place, behind those pearly gates, what sweet words, of temptation, temper your mind, protect yourself, learn, some universal truth, there are so many demons, work hard, and maybe you’ll get to feast, doesn’t everyone, get to eat, sweet flesh, delicate, tasty, flower petals, it would be irresponsible, but I’m not a saint, I would take advantage, Halloween is here, wendigoes wander the Earth, the falling leaves, hierarchy, setting, the Smashing Pumpkins, cat ears, spandex, Comic Con, get your breath of fresh air, sweet lips, here I come.