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<12/05/2011 - 08:55 | Saffrin Middle School (GA Studies), Austell, GA, USA>
As expected, Lumina managed to make a full recovery two days after the wedding. As amazing as her abilities were, I told her to hold off on using any special tricks until we better understood how it all works with energy consumption, and she agreed.
I didn't get to spend the weekend with her properly, but I knew there was still plenty of time ahead of us. After all the time I spent with her in the past, it was easier for me to come up with new and exciting ideas for us to have some fun. Whether it was walking around at night, watching movies, playing board games together, or going out to eat together, I knew my long list of things to do would wind up being infinite in length.
As I sat by the usual gang in my Monday classroom, I let the familiar gaiety wash over me from my fresh memories of the ceremony, as did Lumina. We were at that fun phase now of staring deeply into each other's eyes with her mirror, chanting each other's names over and over until we ran out of breath. Our love made us crazier, but I wasn't crazy for loving her. I wished I could be there with her in person now, holding her, telling her over and over how much of a cutie she is. Just the thought of being with her in person made my heart soar, my mind sinking into the vice of new infatuation.
"—And he was just staring dumbfounded."
"Did you ask him why?"
While Laura and Banarus conversed with each other, I knew I could get away with letting my dreamy and spacy expressions show a little. The class day might have been boring, but Lumina was all my mind could think about, every aspect, every detail, every concept; it all equated to the essence of Lumina.
Lumina sighed after realizing there was nothing within the class to talk about. I would normally let her listen in on interesting topics of discussions, though Georgia Studies was never-ever interesting to either of us. "Another day, another snore fest in class."
"Yeah..." I didn't care. Hearing her speak to me at all right now meant the world to me. Every breath she took, every gesture she made, and that amazing blushing smile she made every time I complimented her in the mirror ranked top on priority. As I reminded myself that she was now my wife, I felt like partying so much in the excitement that my body shuttered a little.
"I just wish your friends would talk about something more interesting."
"I wonder if there are any other fieldtrips we could go on."
"I see. Had enough fun on the last one?"
"More than you realize Lumina. This winter has been so perfect." I couldn't stop the watering love reflecting through my eyes as I thought back and considered how lucky we both were. Wahsega was the best moment of my life, and then it was followed up by the next best moment of my life. I enjoyed all of it because of her, because of Lumina, because I got to be near Lumina and synchronize my feelings with her. "Wahsega was so amazing! And I guess I did kind of enjoy pretending to be a girl for the whole day."
Lumina laughed loudly at my response, mainly because the mention of it brought back every single memory of Wahsega so strongly, as if it happened today. "It's a strange system. Your wife loves getting off on humiliating people, and my husband is a cross-dresser... There's a statement I can never take back."
"Now that we're married, what do you think we should do next?" I started tracing and scribbling my finger on the flat surface of my desk, getting more into the mood by the thought of our possible honeymoon.
"Like what? Us being married is really the best thing, but you don't actually expect us to have a physical honeymoon, do ya? I wasn't kidding when I told you we can't have sex while you're down there."
"Well, I understand the problem with that..." Really, I do. Even though I was thinking about it more and more, becoming less embarrassed about the idea of having sex with Lumina, I knew it was a physical impossibility for us until I'm up there with her someday. "But Lumina, I still want to have some fun going out with you. I want to try several new places, have lots of new experiences with you, and spending all the time I have with you. Maybe we can have a month of super romantic dating."
"You really mean that?" Lumina got even more excited, reminding us that given the circumstances and differences of our worlds, I would have to be the provider and inventor of our new moments.
"We should go on another date very soon, just for the fun of it. We can consider that to be our honeymoon, just the two of us."
"You always have the simplest ideas Reed. Nothing's too complicated for you to work out." I knew now I made her happier, and we both started shifting our voices to be lovelier than before, in the mood only for romance. "Okay. Let's figure something out after school gets out today, okay?"
"It's a date... Wait, you want to phase out the connection like before?" I want to keep looking into her eyes, into her soul for as long as I could, to get lost in her never-ending beauty until I could become one with her in every manner.
"Just until this worst class ends. I can't stand it here."
I guess Lumina gets bored of these classes as well. Even mighty Altiri are no match for the desolate, spirit-crushing annoyance of public school. "Very well. I'll call you right back if you doddle though."
"You know I won't." Lumina left me with those words as she phased out the connection, promising to see me again very soon within the same day.
I knew the connection was phased after getting used to the different sensations of how the telepathy feels passively, but even though she was only leaving me for a moment, my mind couldn't shake the thought of her away. My lips curved into the strongest smile of bliss ever; my eyes might as well have become heart-shaped. Lumina... My love. My wife. My soul mate. Lumina. Lumina, Lumina, Lumina. Just invoking her name brings me to life inside, an energy so certain and electric.
"You seem quite happy today." I didn't realize until many seconds after - that Zero was talking about me.
"Nah, he's just staring off into space."
I have to give it to Banarus on this one. She doesn't know the difference between the instance and when I'm talking to Lumina, but this time, I really was letting my mind wander. Why wouldn't I? Thoughts about Lumina are the best thoughts I can have. "As a matter of fact, I am." There's no sense in my lying about how I feel inside. I think I might be the happiest person on Earth.
"Oooh! Did something happen with you and Lumina?" Suddenly hyper and excited, Laura floated off her seat by squatting halfway, trying to get up in my face as usual.
Her question came at me out of nowhere, so she did catch me off guard. Who knows whether I was still blushing from earlier or not? "What do you mean did something happen? Things have been happening. Lumina and I have been an item for a while now, but you already know that." Why are they picking on me all the sudden? Now I have to make sure I don't say anything crazy or suspicious.
"I still have not seen this Lumina though." At last, Banarus let us all know how skeptical she was of Lumina's entire existence, and she wasn't afraid to show it. "It's kind of hard to believe you found someone so special when you won't even show her around."
She's not for someone to gawk at! "I'm sorry, but I have my personal reasons for doing that. Lumina's life is a bit more personal than the average person." I knew it was the right thing to say, but my ammunition didn't carry the same kick it had before.
Laura played the role of detective right beside Banarus, so much that I imagined her in a Sherlock Holmes outfit. "Didn't you say you were going together with Lumina at Wahsega? Somebody has to know her from there."
At least they waited a full month to say something about it. "Well, I only said that Lumina was arriving to Wahsega at the same time. I didn't say anything about her enrolling or registering in any of the official classes and other activities."
"So she was just there illegally, and nobody knew it but you?" Zero sounded the least bit convinced. I had told her before that I was sneaking Lumina into Wahsega behind the backs of all chaperones, and on a few technicalities, I did do exactly that, in our own special way. So I don't see why she's bringing it up again. "Cause I was watching pretty closely when you went to the dance, and I didn't see you hanging around anyone outside the ordinary."
This is getting out of hand. I have to change the subject before they decide Lumina is too interesting to ignore. "Look. Everything about the situation is more complicated than you can understand. Yes, Lumina was there with me. No, nobody around here got to actually meet her. And yes, I did my best to keep her presence out of sight and mind from all the teachers. Really, it wasn't that hard for me to sneak out of the cabin Saturday night."
Before I could realize the mistake I just made, Laura and Banarus both shared their sudden blushing expression and outburst, loud enough for everyone to hear, though thankfully without sufficient context. "You snuck out to be with your girlfriend that night?" Both spoke at the same time with the same words.
I decided to just go with it, since that's actually what happened. I mean, is it really unbelievable for a guy to sneak out of a cabin to meet his girlfriend outside, assuming that's how they're envisioning the scenario? "Well forgive me for spending one night with Lumina under some different scenery."
This time, I didn't know why, but all three of them gasped at once, Zero with the most shocked expression. "You and her spent the night together? Reed!"
Talk any louder, and the whole school will jump to conclusions! "Jesus! It's not as if I walked out there and started banging." Just saying that was too embarrassing, and it had Banarus laughing too hard to keep up with the conversation, but I focused on the reactions of everyone else, whom seemed less interested after that tiny clarification... Zero, why would you think that's what I meant? "I meant what I said literally; it wasn't a euphemism." I was glad to have the extra understanding Lumina gave me that night though. If it weren't for her one-day boot camp on mature language, I would have never survived this long under their pressure.
"Awh, still a virgin!" Banarus tried to tease me about it, under the assumption that I would have been embarrassed to admit it...
Okay, so maybe I am a little, but it's not as if Lumina and I actually can do those things together anyway. Since when is it uncool to be a virgin at my age though? "That supposed to be a bad thing?"
They ignored my question, with Zero patting me on the back instead. "I guess we should just be happy that you have someone like that."
"Yes, you should." I finally got to relax, sensing that the worst of their prying was over. When I answered Zero, it brought my mood back to where it was moments ago, how dreamy Lumina is. "After all said and done, I know that she's the one I'll be with forever."
"Aawwh!" Laura, Zero, and Banarus all gave me the same response, looking at me and the mysterious woman like we were a cute couple.
Then, Laura threw another curve at me. "Are you going to marry her one day?"
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If I had been drinking water, I would have instinctively splashed it back out, with my eyes wide with the ironic surprise. "Why are you so passive about saying that...?" Wait, how do I answer this question? I can't just let them know I'm already married to Lumina, or they would wring my neck for answers. At the same time, I don't want to lie to them.
"What do you mean? I think it's a fair question. Right Banarus?" Laura glanced to Banarus for confirmation, and Banarus gave all of us two very slow and certain vertical nods.
I was pinned to the wall now, granting myself the little time I didn't have to think about this. If I simply lie to everyone right now and give them the most expected answer of 'Maybe one day,' then it would be a total fib. I can't just come right out and admit that we are married already either. I'm sure that would cause issues; I was warned that it would already. Plus, even if I did let it slip, they would then want to see the proof, which is sitting in a computer on the opposite end of the universe! "I... Where I go and what I do isn't anyone's business." I knew that wasn't my best line, but I was getting too nervous to come up with anything but a simple evasion.
Laura just stuck to her guns and kept giving me that annoying teasing face of doubt. "Oooh, that sounds like honeymoon secrets to me. You probably got married in secret already while we weren't looking."
"No way! How do you already know about that?" Without thinking, I stood up out of my seat to gesture my panicked response. I couldn't figure out how Laura was able to see through me this easily!
Mirroring my panicked surprise, all three of them jumped their hands on their desks for lift off, screaming their shock right into my face. "Whaaaaat?!"
"Keep it down, girls!" Ms. Hill wasn't happy about the huge disruption to our independent classwork, but she didn't beat them over the head either.
"Eh?" I didn't understand what was going on right away. It made no sense for them to be this shocked at something I said if Laura figured it out already— Oh, you gotta be kidding me!
"So then, you are married to her already?" Banarus wasn't her usual cheery self anymore. She wasn't really upset by the news, just too shocked to crack any more jokes about the moment.
What the hell just happened? How did that just happen?
"You're holding out on us!" Laura's eyes got crazy, reminding me of some of the scarier sides to a few anime flicks I've seen. She was smiling too, desperate and crazy for the details. "I was only kidding about the honeymoon thing, but to think you already have one in progress? Give me all the juicy details!" Nobody had seen Laura this energetic before, but who wouldn't be after hearing someone in eighth grade getting married to an unseen sweetheart?
"Hold on a sec," Zero interrupted, now turning to directly ask to my face. "Are you actually married to Lumina?"
Zero is skeptical, but that's to be expected. She wouldn't ask me the same question even knowing I slipped up if she believed it to be true. She's sharp as always... But I didn't mean to let it slip like that; it was an accident! What do I do now? If Laura and Banarus actually suspect that there is more going on between me and Lumina... There's no reason to try lying only to Zero... But I have to find a stopping point fast! What to say... Come on, think of what to say! "Well..." My face started burning red with embarrassment, and I couldn't look her in the eyes. Part of me wants them to know, even though I know where it will lead, but I don't know what to say anymore. I can't tell them I'm not married with a poker face.
"But..." Zero's expressions contorted a little, as she finally came to the same reaction her other two friends made. "How?! You're only fifteen! Marriage isn't legal at that age."
Hit with that small epiphany, Banarus put her finger on her cheek to think, with Laura to follow. "Oh yeah, that is true."
"Care to explain?"
The three of them all started looking at me, staring in wait for me to explain the impossible! Their mix of surprise and skepticism scrambled my mind... I've been ambushed! Do I call Lumina back now and have her freak out with me? If I did let Lumina know about this now, she would slap me on both sides of the face asking me how I could be this stupid, so I won't be doing that. But I have to say something... "Look... Marriages for people of different ages do exist. They're just not common." I'm screwed!
Sharing her confusion with me, Banarus tried to unravel the mystery with her gang. "But I thought you would have been married over here."
"Hell no!" This is it! This is my way out! I read somewhere that people of younger ages can get married in other countries. In some cases, it's forced marriages. The point is, this didn't technically happen in the United States. My body might have been left in Georgia to rot, but all of my entire essence and attendance was elsewhere. "I wasn't lying when I said I hated Georgia, so I really didn't get married here."
"When did it happen?" Zero was totally zoned in on me too, desperate for the clarification she could wrap her head around.
"December first, this year." There's no going back now. I just literally admitted to the three of them by my own volition that I was married to Lumina. However, I still have a chance to make this seem more normal than they realize.
"That was five days ago!" Ignoring the limit on the noise, Laura couldn't help herself in pointing out the shocking revelation, one I didn't really care for.
"Getting to my point, Lumina and I went to a different nation for a while. Over there, the marriage in full legality has been declared and documented, even though those documents are not going to be made public. Lumina has to keep some of those things secret from most people."
Still not convinced, Zero tried to level with me by learning more. "But, that doesn't make any sense. What country would even allow somebody your age to marry?"
Country, country... "Ehheem... I'd rather not say." I'm up against a wall here! Now they know Lumina isn't from the U.S. That leaves many other nations up for guess, but they're never going to get it right anyway, which means I can't tell them anything.
"Oh, why not?" Banarus crossed her arms with some disappointment. "This is all sounding like a lame excuse to pretend like you are married."
"What would I ever have to gain by pretending something like that?" I had to quickly shut up and calm my breathing. I shouldn't be this upset to hear her say that, but it was similar enough of an insinuation that everything about Lumina and her world wasn't real. Nothing about that wedding was make-believe for me; every moment I've spent with Lumina has been the most real thing to me in my entire life! "Come on guys! I'm trying to be truthful here, but there are just things about the two of us we can't talk about. I'd rather just leave it at that than to try lying to you." If they can't respect that, then I'll have no choice but to start setting up an emergency story of fake information for them to feed off of.
Banarus and the others stared at me in silence, obviously trying to get a read on what motivations I would have for being so secretive about everything. At the same time, I could see the struggle of doubt fighting within all of them.
"I can't talk about where she is from. All I can say to you right now, is that we really are married; nothing about this is pretend."
"That's so amazing Reed!" Laura grabbed my own hands as a means of congratulating me, leaving me to believe she had less trouble believing all of this.
"Yeah..."
"But where exactly is she from? I take it she's not from the United States?"
Oh Zero, I'm so sorry about this. "Not exactly..." It's cruel. I know it's cruel. But I haven't technically lied to them yet. I want to keep it that way.
"Mexico?"
"Eh, no." I'm pretty sure I would know if Lumina was an el Latino.
"Britain?" Laura got in on the action too, taking wild guesses of random counties.
Banarus wanted to be more precise however, and reminded Laura of the other detail. "No. Think of countries that have loose marriage restrictions."
The nerve of them all... I let out a fair sigh to get their attention before they would waste any more of their time. "It's no use guessing all of them. I'm not going to rule out each option for you. That would just be stupid on my part."
"I don't get why it has to stay a secret though. Is she like, a space alien or something?"
While my face started turning white, Laura laughed at Banarus's idea, imitating what her idea of an alien was by putting fingers on both sides of her mouth. "That would be the best! I – am – from – planet – Neptune. We come in peace." They all started laughing at the mockery Laura was making.
I on the other hand wanted to sink down into a hole and die. You've got to be kidding me. I'm so glad Lumina isn't here to see this right now... Don't panic! Don't even react! It would be suspicious if I reacted to it now.
"Oh, I get it now!" With the blazing buzz of a breakthrough in the mystery, Zero seemed so happy with the answer she thought of on her own, while all of us waited on her silently to elaborate. "Think about it. A foreign nation, keeping secrets... Lumina is either an international spy, or, she's enlisted in some kind of military branch."
What did I say earlier? She's the sharp one. Zero might have missed over the crazy accurate guess Laura glossed over, but she managed to put enough pieces together to get one thing right. Altiri aggressor groups are essentially deployable units of the Altiri military. In essence, Lumina is in the military, even though it runs different than other armies on Earth. But now I have to admit some of this in order to make it more believable... Actually, military secrets might seem more plausible to some of them.
"Well, I would feel really stupid calling her a spy. She's not some kind of secret CIA agent from another country."
"But she is in the military, right?" Zero didn't second guess herself, and she waited on my confirmation before going with the theory.
"... She's in a military... I just can't say which one." I'm sure nobody has ever heard of the Altiri military before, and these girls are sure to Google anything I say at this point.
"So that's why you're so protective of her!" Satisfied with enough for Zero to draw the rest of her own conclusions, she sat there with her head turned in deeper thought.
Again, it's not technically a lie; just a colossal misdirection.
"Whaaat?" Banarus wasn't happy to hear it, but only because she didn't guess correctly first.
"That was good thinking Zero." In fact, Laura's appraisal of Zero must have gone up twenty points based on how impressed she sounded. Then she turned her attention back onto me. "Still, Reed, come on! So what if she is in the military? Don't you at least have something like a photograph, or something else to describe to us what she looks like?"
"No, I don't." Telepathy just doesn't work that way. I can't ask everyone to form a circle and link hands to share my perceptual senses with the others during my link with Lumina, because it just doesn't work that way. I asked her those kinds of questions until I ran out of breath long ago, so I would know, depressing as the truth may be. "I'm not allowed to keep a photograph of Lumina in public anyway. Communications between us are severely restricted as well. So I can't just dial her up and have her speak to you."
"Aoh!" Laura deflated, disappointed.
"And if that weren't bad enough, try to imagine the usual physical distance between us. Lumina and I aren't able to be together all the time. She gets called back to her home so often, I only have the winter each year with her in Georgia. Once it's April or May, I don't get to see her or even hear from her at all, until it's late September, or even mid-October, maybe August if I'm really lucky. Things are still great between us, but it already isn't easy for me to handle what I have, to..." My voice slowed down to a stop when I saw the growing distraught and despair in all of their faces. I didn't understand why they were looking at me like this, as if I were explaining to them how my cat died.
Laura conferred with the others before turning back to me, her sour expression unchanged. "Long distance, and only less than half the entire year? I'm sorry Reed. I didn't know things were that messy."
Even Zero seemed visibly upset. "No kidding. One moment, you're having fun. And the next, you're separated for such a long consecutive amount of time..."
Well, it certainly is quieter now... At least they finally stopped asking me questions. If I knew sharing the most painful aspect of this would shut them all up, I would have said so sooner. Still, they don't need to be all down and depressed on my behalf. "There's no need to feel bad about it. Sure, the summers are not going to be fun, nor will they be easy for me to deal with. But I'm willing to endure it, because I love her more than anything in the world. Six months of solitude and longing are not going to break up what we have."
"Still, that's some rough shit dude. Even I couldn't put up with something like that." Banarus got all serious on me, enough to freak me out a little, but this time, I felt like she was actually speaking to me on a real level unlike ever before.
Still, it is weird. I wasn't expecting them to feel bad for me even a little, considering what I wasn't telling them. I wasn't trying to make them understand the hardships of all this... But I guess it works. I just hope they don't ask to see Lumina at least. Thoughtography isn't a power anybody has. "I..."
"You don't have to tell us about this if you don't want to." In a full reversal, Laura wasn't curious to learn more about us anymore, having presumed I was torn up about everything inside.
Unable to say anymore, I just let my stare drift down to my desk, following their desolate moods. I kind of feel guilty about this. I know I'm the one who upset them by keeping everything all hush-hush, but... I kind of want to tell them anyway, deep down. Man, this sucks! Here they all are, a wonderful band of friends I could have, if only the real truth could be delivered to them, even just one of them...
But what happened between me and Maddison can never-ever happen again, not under any formats, not under any circumstances! Besides, I got so lucky with that situation. Because Maddison didn't blab my secret to the world after all, my reputation here didn't budge in any direction. If she did share it, I wouldn't even be sitting with these three right now. Instead, I'd be alone, isolated in a corner with the school constantly laughing at me, as the others who used to know me pretend I don't even exist. I don't think Laura, Banarus, or Zero would ever behave that way, but I can't be sure anymore. So, this is just the way things have to be. I'd rather get the chance to hang out with them on some level than to be ostracized from their presence entirely.
"Tell Lumina, whenever you can, that we're all happy for you." Banarus's concern wasn't unexpected given how I made her and the others feel, but I didn't challenge her on it.
"Sure, but, will she be okay with us knowing what we know?"
Zero? You're so far away from knowing anything, that I feel terrible for keeping it from you. Still, they have a point. I don't want to let rip to Lumina that I accidently slipped to these three that I was married to her, but she's going to find out anyway. Even if I tried to pretend like the conversations never happened, sooner or later, someone like Zero or Banarus is going to bring up the concept of our marriage, thinking it's only a private chat between them and myself, when it will actually be between them, myself, and Lumina. In either case, I'm the one who's going to get grilled for it anyway. "Well, she might have a few questions towards me, but she should be fine with the amount you all know. After all, she isn't some crazy person who would kill me for this much." Or so I hope.