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<02/08/2018 - 17:00 | 1010 Link Street, Marietta, GA, USA>
"Please? Let me see, just this once."
"I said no. Sheesh!"
I should have expected this sooner, but I've been neglecting the subject for a reason. It was getting harder each time to get Lumina focused away from my online tastes. I normally phase the connection out before visiting my bookmarked sites, but I guess I got careless this time.
"I already know you're a lewd pervert. No need hiding your tastes from me any further."
Seems she's getting better at teasing me about this too. I love to indulge any excitement Lumina has about anything, but this is the one thing I think is too weird to share with her. Also, I'm not a lewd pervert. I just like to bring up amazing galleries of nude girls on the internet is all; every guy does it from time to time. What I'm not okay with, is sharing the results of these images with my one and only. "Come on, just drop it already."
"Why not?"
"Because it's weird, showing someone else my porn."
"I'm your wife, Reed! It's not weird if I take a peek into some of the things you like."
She has me there. Of all things to be embarrassed about, this might be a bit much. I've let the two of us see each other naked before... But this is still strange. Is it supposed to be strange to show my girl my own stash of gold? Either way, she has that stretched naughty smile and giddy energy as if she's just found out an amazing secret already. She might not understand embarrassment that much, but she certainly can tell when I'm experiencing it. "Alright, fine. But the first moment you start judging me, I'm through showing you any part of this side of my tastes, okay?"
"Promise. No judgments."
What am I doing? I'm about to show an Altiri countless hot bodies. In the past few times she's seen this, it was on accident and only for a second or two, but now I'm willingly letting her study all of it. It was too late to back out now, after clicking my tabs back open again. "This is only part of it."
"Wow. They really have no issue posing naked."
"Yeah, that's the point of these websites." Sometimes, goldmines like these vanish, so I download as much as I can to local folders, viewing them offline. Videos or pictures tend to have the same theme.
Lumina simply studied things bit by bit while I cycled through more of the images, especially the ones I found most interest in. "It's actually kind of cool."
I don't know how to respond to that...
"I'm amazed at some of the places they're in. That one there is literally out in an open field."
"It's one of the strange aspects that I have with these images. Yeah, lots of models are super hot and all, but it's better if I simply imagine myself right in their positions. I mean, look, this one here is standing on a crowded beach! It's so amazing, I'm jealous!"
"Ah, so that's what's going on."
I hate my stupid telepathic mouth. "Stop making that face as if you figured it out. I just like some of the backgrounds is all."
"You like the backgrounds, or you wish you could be naked in some of those backgrounds?" She added a soft yet sexy giggle that could have made my heart explode.
"I guess you figured it out after all." There's a common theme to all of the albums and galleries I look for and download, be it images from real people or artwork from Hentai. At first I was only interested in the 'ENF' tag. People are way cuter when they're embarrassed as heck to be caught naked in front of others, and I've had several personal fantasies of that happening to myself. However, the new thing I've been into involves being naked in risky or public places, areas where other people either might or definitely do see the person in the nude. I've been in and out of pornographic material for a long time, and I have to say, exhibitionism really is the most potent fetish I've ever had.
"Still, isn't it supposed to be embarrassing to be seen naked in public?"
"It is... But it's also hot, I guess. I don't know. I'm not sure if it's even normal for me to feel that way."
"Why then is it embarrassing? I mean, what exactly is it about nudity that everyone gets so humiliated about when it's a natural part of the body?"
"I'm surprised Lumina. After all this time, you still have no idea about the concept of embarrassment, as it pertains to nudity at least."
"Yeah, well, you never were able to explain it to me."
Once again, she has me there. I never understood the reasons why humans get all hot and bothered when they're seen naked by others. It's even harder for me to make sense of, since that exact same feeling has become fuel for my fetish, where it wouldn't be for most everyone else. She has a good question though, one I'm now more curious about. Why do people get so embarrassed about their own bodies? When did that all start? "Maybe we were conditioned into feeling that way? I'm not really sure Lumina."
"Hm... So, you really like it when people see you naked, huh?"
"Lay off will ya?"
"Doesn't that make you a nudist at heart?"
"A nudist?"
"Yeah, a person who wants to be naked all the time, who loves living in all aspects without clothes."
"I know what a nudist is Lumina." I shouldn't be surprised at the false conclusion she's come to. Even I'm only now giving it any real thought through comparison. "But I think you're confusing being a nudist with being an exhibitionist."
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"Aren't they the exact same thing?"
"No, they're not..." And that silence means she wants me to explain it. I can only try my best. It is at least interesting enough to talk about with her. Heck, this would be interesting for anybody else out there. "I've seen a lot of images in my time, so I'm getting better at telling the difference. I've even watched a weird documentary on a nudist colony before, and it did highlight something for me."
"Which is?"
"Nudists and exhibitionists love to be naked, but I don't think nudists actually get off on it like we do."
"We?"
"Yeah, me and other people who have a fetish for it."
"Oh."
"With nudism, the principle is about living life naked solely for the purpose of loving the body and being fully comfortable being in that state at all times, even in social situations. They don't really make the situation a sexual desire, nor is it actually a turn on for most of them. If you stuck a nudist out in public for an hour, they'd be comfortable, and their arousal would be at nearly zero if walking around was all they were doing."
"Okay..."
I don't know how I was able to congregate this all in my mind now, but I felt more sure about it as I told her about the principles of it all. "An exhibitionist is different. They crave a sexual satisfaction from the mere idea or possibility that others are observing them naked in public. Stick one out in the open to walk around the city for an hour, and they'd be ready to explode with any further stimulus. It could work indoors too, so long as the area is normally meant to be used for very public events such as a restaurant or a bar, an arcade maybe..." I shut my eyes trying to block out everything I felt. Just mentioning these public places made it too easy for my mind to imagine me standing in such places naked, and I didn't want to get too horny while connected to Lumina.
"So then, you get off on the others seeing you naked, or on the embarrassment the process makes you feel?" She meant her question to be a binary one, but my answer was more complex than she bargained for.
"Yes. Both the exposure and the embarrassment are essential parts of the equation. I don't know why that embarrassment gets me so sensitive, I just can't help it." What's done is done. Lumina already put together that I love to be naked in public, but at least now she'll have the context and understanding about it, thus can she never find it weird.
"That's so weird!"
Never mind...
"But in a good way. I kind of like it. Knowing this about you is just another thing I find amazing."
"You... You really think me being kinky is amazing?"
"You tend to hide that from me all the time."
"Like the time you asked me the other month if you could watch while I masturbate to the computer?"
"Well, I was just curious is all."
"Lu—" Wait a minute... Say it isn't so... "Lumina? Don't take this question the wrong way, but, have you ever masturbated before?"
"Uh, well... Maybe once or twice, but I don't think it felt right when I did try it."
Now she's embarrassed? "So, you barely tried it, but not to orgasm?"
"It's not as simple as you make it sound."
"Maybe Altiri are just less sexual than humans are."
"You really think so?"
"Only one way to find out. All you have to do wait until you're alone, and give it a go. But it helps if you have something that helps when you do."
"Something that helps?"
"I understand why you wouldn't have porn in that world, but at least tell me you have a fetish or a kink Lumina. You have to tell me, after what I showed you."
"I don't..."
Did she cut herself off, or is she sure she doesn't? "Everyone has a fetish!"
"I mean, I don't think anything works for me like that."
I had no idea Lumina was so, vanilla. Well this is awkward. "It doesn't work if you force it. That's why it didn't work for you in the past. You have to think of something that arouses you at the same time, letting it build until you can't take it anymore." Why am I the one teaching her this?
"So then, I should think only of you?"
"Eh," my body froze at the thought while my face turned red, thankful out of sight of anyone else... Does Lumina really think of me that way, that she could masturbate while chanting and shouting my name to the heavens? Come to think of it, why wasn't I that way with her? "Yeah, I guess that could work for you..."
"Awh! Did I embarrass you again? I bet you're getting hornier the more I tell you that."
"Shut up!"
Lumina simply laughed her ass off at my own humiliation, something she could always enjoy. I didn't want to admit she was right, but I couldn't really argue my way out of it either. "Maybe you can imagine yourself in public with me watching you as well."
"Are you trying to make me lose my mind?" I've never let her see me orgasm before, and I'm not sure if I'm ready to show that to her. How would that even work in telepathy?
"One of these days Reed. One of these days, I'll get you to cum in front of me."
"I... I never should have shown you those stupid photos." What do I say to her after that?!
"Haha! You will submit to me one day. Hey, you should show me your video cache too; it doesn't have to be right now of course."
"Why must you make this so weird?"
"I'm not making anything weird... Is it really strange to you?"
"It is weird Lumina."
"Well it shouldn't be. You should be able to trust me with anything. Don't you know what I am to you, how much you mean to me? Whatever you like, I'm going to support." For once, she was actually being serious.
At the same time, her words dug into me with truth. She found all of this to be fun and natural, while I was the one using phrases like 'weird' and 'strange'. Any why? Well, I just don't have an idea for why I find it weird, but Lumina is correct. She's my loving wife after all. I shouldn't feel weird to show her anything.
Maybe it's because I've heard a lot of couples' drama about women getting mad at their men for watching porn in the first place. On some level, I can understand this much. I mean, in the beginning, I was looking at models for their bodies like everyone else. If that trend would have continued, it would have meant I was getting off on looking at other women naked, without getting off on looking at Lumina naked, which now that I think about it would have been a problem. Instead, I care much more about the backgrounds in the images than I do about the models, because I imagine myself in their shoes when I'm seeing it all, imagining myself naked in a place like that. Does that mean I fantasize about myself?
Stay focused. All this means is that unlike other girls, Lumina wants to enjoy the porn with me. Maybe she's really curious about what's behind these layers of the internet, since she's never really had the chance to study it much. Maybe she's curious about my own fetish itself. If she wants to see me orgasm right in front of her, I shouldn't stop her from seeing that...
"But I just don't think I'm ready for that yet." Despite my inner voices, the fear bled through this time. It's not as if I don't think about Lumina all the time, the way I want to hold her hand, hold her body closer to mine, making out with her for hours on end, but it's just different since this is something we can physically involve ourselves in now, despite the lack of physical proximity. We can't do half the things other couples can do via telepathy, but apparently watching and listening to each other masturbate is something we can do. I will point out that she thought the idea first.
"Well you don't have to do it right now, silly. Whenever you're ready. I want to watch. I want to see how you do it, what you experience in every moment."
"You're crazy, you know that?" Why is my heart beating so fast right now?
"No crazier than you, someone who wants to be seen walking naked on the beach. Tell you what, if you decline my request, I'll make sure I remind you of all the hot places you like to be in, at the most inconvenient times. Imagine the looks on everyone's faces when they see an unexpected bulge from the front of your—"
"Alright! I get it! I won't decline. Just lay off the teasing already."
"But it's so much fun."
"For you, I've noticed."
"Nonsense. If you hated it that much, you would have forced me to stop long ago... Maybe you have other fetishes as well, like being dominated by me."
"You really like to speed things up, don't you?"
"I'm just honest about myself, and about you."
"It's a deal then. I wouldn't want to owe you one. But only on my terms and time, okay?"
"Okay!"
What have I got myself into now...?