Chapter 30

I really am such an idiot sometimes. Attributing the mushroom’s natural rejection of me as something willful? It’s so fucking dumb. I really am worthle….

No. No remember what the therapist said. I can’t give these thoughts any power. I have to acknowledge the thought and let it go.

After a few moments, I calmed down.

Intrusive thoughts, or so my therapist claimed, is the process of subconscious thoughts that is upsetting or distressing. They’re a bitch and half to manage or get rid off.

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And I got it bad usually when this happened when I was human I would just spend time with my pup. After I didn’t have him anymore and all I had myself … bad stuff happened. But my therapist eventually gave me some helpful tips to manage em more effectively.

Did not think I would still have them as a mushroom. Glad I got that last tip before I died.

Usually she would tell me about methods that simply snapped me back into the present. Like the rubber band trick. Put a rubber band around your wrist and snap it when you feel yourself losing yourself to the thoughts.

But this last session she gave me, she told me about a technique that helps a bunch. Its called cognitive diffusion.

it lets you look at a thought instead of looking through a thought.

after I calmed down some, I focused my efforts on how to figure out what this mushroom I was now connected to, was and what it did.

What if instead of using the connection I grow a sensory network on top? That way I could see other creatures reactions to it and figure out some its functions. If animals avoided the mushroom id see if it’s poisonous. Or if creatures loved it they’d eat it. Either way id find out something about it.

While I was doing that could I also encourage it to send some of it’s nutrients towards me? I don’t know how’d I do that but id give it a shot.