Today I almost doubled the effectiveness of my use of Ki. It’s easy to get good at something when you have functionally infinite energy. And I have to say, it feels weird to refer to it by its proper name instead of the one I made up. I think I am just going to refer to it as Solar Energy

Oh yeah, the scholars sent a message requesting a teacher for me, hopefully, something will come of that.

As a result of Grey Iris being integrated into my body, I can see people’s souls. It is distracting, but turning it off feels worse. I feel like this should be a much bigger deal than it actually is. I mean, it’s more than just seeing them, I am able to reach out and touch them, manipulate them. This is the very core of what you are, all your thoughts, your memories, everything that makes you, you, or at least that’s what I’ve been led to believe, and I can control it.

Yeah, I’m not very good at it, but that’s not due to a lack of natural talent but rather a lack of practice. Dungeons are always naturally talented at manipulating the soul, it’s just that most of them are several decades old before they are even capable of it. I’m not even sure I should use this power, not because I’m worried about what I might accidentally do but because of the implications of being able to change people according to your will, regardless of theirs.

A while ago someone told me that in order to be successful in this world you needed to have an idea, a theme if you will, that your power follows. It could be something like elementalist or something like healer. All paths to power are correct so long as you stick to your path with no deviation. And I should stop lying to myself, I am powerful. I never wanted power but I love the pursuit of it. I love the sense of pride I get when I unlock eldritch secrets or figure out exactly how to do the thing perfectly. I live for that moment.

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So the question is ‘what is my theme?’ And I don’t know. There was a time when I would have said that it was plants, but then I learned how to heal. Add on to that my dungeon core, my Solar Energy, my forest, my Ents, my Fate, and now most recently my ability to manipulate souls and I don’t know where that leaves me. Yeah, a couple things have obvious connections, like my plants, forest, and Ents are all connected in obvious ways, and my dungeon core, forest, and my Ents all work together fairly well, but how do plants and my dungeon core work together? And out of all of that Fate doesn’t seem to fit anywhere, but to be fair I haven’t really put any effort into it. It has always just been there, passively working in the background.

I don’t think this is a question I am going to solve in a single night, I don’t think I should solve it in a single night. I either need some major inspiration or I need some time to think about it.

Other than that it seems like Wujiang is going home today. The retired old martial artist is going to be with his wife and children, or was it grandchildren? It wasn’t too clear which. Considering the fact that he lives more than a continent away it isn’t likely I’ll see him again unless he visits me.

Anyway, Good Night Diary.