ENDLESS WONDERS NEVER CEASE

Shinji eyed Asuka who had a data card plugged in her chair in the wreck room and was casually spinning a three dimensional hologram around of a bike engine tweaking the simulation it had been a long time since he'd seen her do this six months in fact.

He carried on drawing on his drawing pad finishing the pencil sketch which was actuality of her he had drawn one of Rei the other day, Asuka's digital drawing had given him an idea in that he could do a large scale painting with all of the pilots faces together which could maybe go up in the Elysium gallery.

It was the heart of where most of his works and Rei's went, though he had heard that they'd sent Asuka a letter recently and Rei had said that she would be visiting them soon. They were the only ones in the wreck room Toji and Mari were at the gym and Rei and Kaworu were shopping in the Arcade though they'd be back soon.

It was one of those really lazy days at Nerv 02's repairs were almost done and the new upper face plate was now locked in place it being switched was probably for the better anyway since when it had transformed originally the massive pointed upper canine teeth and lower sabres had been an issue and last time they'd had to do a quick fix by cutting and chopping to get the plating to fit.

Now the upper face plate was a perfect fit and the gums and teeth had neat grooving around them just like the other Evangelion's all four green eyes lenses had been fitted back in and the two cracked ones sent back to Germany for refurbishment and two new ones put in place. Maya had also had them do a much more intensive study on the two tail ends the other day.

"Hey Asuka." Asuka looked up giving him a smile. "Yes." Shinji looked up. "Thank you for the book you know it's been really helpful." Asuka raised an eyebrow. "So are you going to ask him out?" Shinji put down his pad. "I'm going to try, it's just hard." Asuka breathed in deeply. "To be fair I never asked your sister out, it was the opposite way around so I can't really comment."

She paused before speaking. "I know everyone probably thinks it's the other way around but it wasn't I didn't have the courage at the time emotionally to even go there, I was such a wreck when Bardiel brought me back." She looked up meeting his gaze. "So you'll be doing what I couldn't." Shinji looked at her. "Rei has more courage than people realise, the media undersell her because they think she's quite and sweet." Asuka smirked. "On a personal level I can tell that's not true your sister is a spitfire."

Shinji felt his smile widen. "Yeah I know, I mean when we argued at school which was quite rare she had a flaming temper granted it was short and sharp but you got this idea that when she was angry you were in trouble." Asuka looked down slightly. "Would love to see what her beast mode looks like because that would just be so out there."

She looked at her hologram as a question came to mind. "Did they find Bukavac?" Shinji shook his head in annoyance. "No and they've searched for two days, I mean that thing is massive I don't know how it could just vanish like that? The news and media feeds haven't seen anything nothing even Eos couldn't figure out where it went. They believe that, that thing would need a massive bay and that's assuming it's the only one because you would need a place as big as Nerv if not bigger just to hide it."

Asuka felt her good eye narrow. "I'm not looking forward to seeing that thing again personally and I dread to think how many more are out there, I mean if they're anything like that one then we are in serious verfickte trouble." She tensed slightly. "My Evangelion was a toy to that thing granted you and Rei blew part of its ugly face off but despite all the canon fire that things was worse than taking on an angel and even when one pilot is having trouble the other can still work it."

Shinji stood up moving over to her putting a hand on her shoulder. "I'm sorry about Hikari and that I doubted you, it wasn't right or fair and I didn't know that you thought it was love at the time which only makes it harder because she not only stabbed you in the back but she broke your heart as well." Asuka turned to him. "Its okay Shinji I don't blame you or Rei for doubting me and considering our history together and how I treated you the whole thing with Hikari looks very plausible." Shinji looked at her. "Rei told me that you're going to do the press conference so all this can be put to rest not to mention they've been running stories all yesterday regarding the truth and how you were set up."

He raised his hand. "You should see the whole press interview footage where Kaji is going through the whole thing, they even have a part where Ritsuko comes in live feed behind him on screen and makes a formal apology to you and the German division." Asuka eyed him. "Like I give a scheisse about her formal apology to me, though her apologising to my division I do like since they defended me from the very start over that whole event." She felt a sly smile form. "Hopefully my grandma got a kick out of watching the whole thing." Shinji was about to say more only to stop as Rei and Kaworu appeared he stood up. "Ah you're back did you get everything you needed?"

Rei gave him a very sly smile. "Oh yes we did." She put the shopping bags down looking through them pulling out a thick graphic novel. "There's the Gamera volume five you wanted." Shinji turned taking it. "Finally took the shop long enough." Asuka eyed the cover and spine which were both in very good condition. "You read Gamera?"

Shinji looked at the thick graphic novel. "Yes why?" Asuka looked at him for a long moment. "Just curious, I prefer Godzilla myself." Shinji turned the graphic over looking at the back cover. "Why does that not surprise me that you'd like a massive atomic reptile that blows things up?" Asuka eyed him in annoyance. "That's rich coming from a guy who likes an over sized rocket powered turtle." Shinji breathed in deeply as he put the graphic novel down. "I thought you'd like Gamera since he has upward facing teeth like 02."

Asuka eyed him. "My unit looks nothing like Gamera and the upward facing sabres weren't inspired by him!" Rei looked at them both ignoring Kaworu who looked like he was about to laugh. "Please will you both stop arguing over whose better? You know I had a life time of you both doing that at Misato's." She watched as they both went quite instantly going back to what they'd been doing clearly knowing they'd been caught in the act of acting like school kids all over again.

Kaworu carefully pulled up the small picnic basket in his hand. "I was wondering if you wanted to come with me up to the Delphi gardens Shinji, I have some nice food and drink for us to share." He gave Rei a knowing side ways glance. "And we could spend some time together." Shinji eyed him in confusion. "You don't want to go to the Spa?" Kaworu looked up. "Not today." Shinji stepped towards him. "Sure I mean whatever you want."

Rei slowly moved over to her bag she had been dying to do this since she'd entered the room she slowly eased out a two piece swim suite which had thick horizontal red and white stripes while the chest had a steel zip going up the front. Misato owed her a favour and since she'd gotten Asuka to go to the press conference she had gotten her to tell her what her swim suite size was based off her plug suit.

This was important as the chest and underwear part had to be a comfortable fit as there was nothing worse than uncomfortable swim wear. She walked over to Asuka who wasn't really looking up she was busy turning her holographic motorcycle engine. "I got this for you Asuka." She watched as Asuka looked up only for her face to turn to shock followed by uncertainty. "So we can go up to the spa together." She felt a seductive smile form on her lips. "Because I know you'll look gorgeous in it."

Asuka felt her felt swallow as she began to fidget nervously. "I'm grateful for the gift I really am but some other time maybe." Rei put her hand down stopping the other woman's from working on the hologram. "Come on Asuka we are not going swimming we are just going to one of the hot tub pools." Asuka felt her good eye dart she was feeling hot now. "You know those hot tub pools are open everyone can see you."

Rei looked at her clearly she really had never hung out in the Spa as she had no idea that some of the glass spa rooms could be closed off so that people couldn't see you and she had no intention of using the spa area Shinji and Kaworu used. She wanted to use hot tub on the level above which had always been her favourite to lay in and read her books and when she thought about it now there had been a couple of times when she'd left that hot tub room and gone out onto the seating balcony and looked above watching Asuka training with Kyo one on one.

She'd been wearing her red sleeveless gym top and black baggy gym pants always bare foot as they had swerved and danced in brutal combat against each other which was no holds bared she'd always wondered what was going through her mind and why she liked the pain but now she knew the answers to those questions. "We are going to a hot tub that has a closed off area Asuka, we won't be using the one in the weight lifting area and the only time people will see you is when we get drinks that's it."

Asuka could feel the blush creeping into her cheeks now as she spoke very meekly. "I don't have a decent towel." Rei lowered the swim wear. "Yeah I knew you were going to say that as I've seen that the only one you have is for drying when you get out of the shower and you really need to get rid off it, so I got you this brand new one its thick and fluffy."

She opened the long thick fluffy towel which had a 02's new face stitched in to it roaring jaws wide open and its tongue sticking out with the words Verpiss dich in big bold letters under it. "This is way more fitting for you and its all cotton I have one of 00 and they are wonderful."

Shinji eyed Asuka could she seriously look anymore out of her depth right now? She was staring at Rei like she was from some other planet and she had this look in her face which had never seen before in that she looked really innocent and she was blushing like crazy. He breathed in clearing his throat. "She has a point you really do need a new towel you should throw that old one out along with your dented locker today." Asuka turned realizing that Shinji was still in the room along with Kaworu. "Why are you both still here? Go away!"

Rei turned to her brother giving him a look in the hopes that he wouldn't say anything else she moved towards Asuka feeling a smile form as she spoke in a soft low voice leaning closer. "You know I'll be wearing that black one piece you know the one you really like and you've been talking about recently." Asuka leaned forward putting her hand on her face was this hell or heaven because right now she couldn't figure out which it was?

Her brain felt like it was about to explode she tapped the button closing down her simulation putting her data card away oh yeah she could rip off Bukavac's face, yet she was terrified of swim wear and being seen in it, she had naively assumed that Rei had been joking about the spa some days back she should have known better.

Rei slowly put down the things as she put a hand on Asuka's knee as she used her other hand to raise her head very gently seeing that the other woman's good eye was refusing to meet her own. "Please Asuka come with me, I normally go up this hot tub on my own and its no fun, I want you with me." She looked up. "It will just be you and me and if people start to bother us we can close the blinds they're electric."

She felt her smile widen. "And like I said a couple of days ago in our conversation if anyone bothers you or mocks you, you can punch them. You know like you did when Yuki was being vile and saying horrible things about me and you broke his nose defending my honour." She leaned closer giving her a gentle kiss on the cheek. "So you have nothing to fear."

Asuka took in a deep breath this woman was going to be the death of her she just knew it she got up slowly out of her chair trying her best to recompose her self. "Okay I'll come, just don't expect me to swim I hate verfickte deep water." Rei smiled as she passed the things to her. "Alright you take these and put them in your gym bag." She watched as Asuka walked into the changing rooms clearly getting her gym bag from her locker, she realized that Shinji was staring at her in shock. "What?"

Shinji eyed her speaking a whisper. "How did you do that? I could never get her to do that in a million years." Rei eyed him as she walked over to bar pulling her gym bag out she had left it there earlier putting it over her shoulder. "She just needs a soft touch sometimes that's all." Shinji blinked. "No seriously you're going to have to explain that to me later." Kaworu put a hand around Shinji's shoulder leading him away. "Well let her explain later, because we need to be going now."

8

Asuka walked the wooden stairs that led to the hot tub she'd never been more subconscious in her life, they'd gone to tropical bar on the swimming pool level which had all been fully repaired and brought some drinks now she was following Rei up the wooden stairs to a place she didn't know and she just felt so out of her element. Despite redressing side by side in the changing rooms she felt weird as hell getting back into swim wear again the last time she'd worn swimwear was before Shamshel she'd been so much more confident back when she'd been a brat.

Now she just felt out of place and like some sore thumb she eyed the alcohol in her hands which was for both of them hers was a lager bottle where as Rei's was a cocktail of some sort. She swung her towel over her shoulder seeing that Rei had brought up some waterproof bag with her along with towel which was for their key cards and wallets. "Is alcohol allowed in here?"

Rei turned giving her smile seeing Asuka give her that innocent look which was adorable. "Trust me its fine, its just like the swimming pool, plus you're not training this afternoon you are having your photo shoot redone remember?" Asuka looked at her she felt kind of stupid for letting that slip her mind. "Oh yeah, I forgot." She paused before speaking. "You're coming with me right?" Rei stopped by the wooden door she opened her bag pulling out her key card slotting it in watching as the door slowly rose up. "Yes I am."

She turned slightly. "Now come inside." She pulled her card out stepping inside watching as the door came down locking it would only reopen when she swiped her key card on the opposite side and they had hours since the shoot wasn't until late in the afternoon. Asuka walked inside seeing that the room had a wooden plank side and floor and a large empty hot tub in the centre it was seated in the curve of the glass. "I thought all of the hot tubs were like the one on the weight floor."

Rei put her things down. "No they are all different but I prefer this floor myself it's much more private and I find it really relaxing." Asuka eyed the deep round wooden tub which was sunken into the floor as she put the drinks down along with her things. "How come it's not filled?" Rei looked at her she seriously had never spent any time here that was so obvious but in a way this was going to make this much more fun.

She walked over to the tub pulling back the wooden panel revealing the controls. "All the controls work from here, it de floods itself once a guest has left and cleans the water then refills again with fresh, it means you get to choose what you want in the water because it can filled with bath salts and essential oils."

She looked at the controls. "Plus you can change the water temperature and the whole glass room has special bamboo blinds which come across on either side and connects in the middle blocking out the view to anyone looking across and the lights come on, you can even set room temperature as well." She began to type watching as two sections came up from the floor to hold drinks on ether side and on the opposite side a small water spring came up. "Oh yeah and there's a spring just in case you get to hot or need to drink cool water, some people get very drunk up here sometimes or so I've heard and need a cool off."

She looked at the panel. "So what would you like essential oils or bath salts or a mix of both?" Asuka looked at the controls. "I really have no idea just anything that's not rosemary it clings to me and it kind of smell's like Mari's LCL plus my step mother used to wear it in some perfume form and I never liked it even then." She looked around her. "Is there a camera in here?" Rei looked at her. "Yes but I asked them to turn them off while we are here."

Asuka raised an eyebrow. "Why?" Rei smiled as she started to type trying to find the most relaxing bath salt combination which was lavender and vanilla which would help Asuka relax her body and muscles. "I wanted us to have some privacy and I felt that it was important since it's your first time here, its bad enough having employees eyeing through windows with out it being recorded as well, they were very understanding about it."

She paused as another question came to mind. "What does my brother's LCL smell like to you?" Asuka watched as the tub started to fill turning orange in colour due to the bath salts the warm water rising slowly. "Cherry blossom..." Rei looked up as the tub started to really fill now its warm water rising. "What about Kaworu?" Asuka breathed in slightly. "He smells like freshly cut grass." Rei put her fingers in the water checking it was warm. "And Toji?" Asuka eyed her water. "His is weird it smells like burnt wood cinder like when you've just made a bonfire and the smoke leaves that warm smell on your clothing."

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Rei looked up. "That just how they all smell to me and of cause you smell of sunflowers." Asuka leaned closer running her hand through the other woman's short hair. "And you smell of alpine forest." Rei took hold of her hand as she slowly stepped in to the tub. "Come on in Asuka the waters warm."

8

Maya eased up her newspaper she was reading as she lay on one of the wooden lounge chairs opposite the tropical pool, she didn't care she was taking the afternoon off the team could survive with out her for half a day. She lay back enjoying the suns rays which were coming down from the geo front. She could see Mari swimming with Toji in the tropical pool close by Mari was slightly more relaxed but still not fully relaxed but that would come in time.

She watched as someone stood over her blocking her light she eased her newspaper down eyeing Kaji who was in his gym shirt, shorts and sandals as he gave her a coy smile as he spoke. "You're never going to guess who is up in the right side hot tub three levels up?" Maya eyed him. "No offence Kaji but it's my afternoon off, can you leave me in peace, I want to relax and maybe get drunk it's been a long couple of days for me what with Bukavac and a lot of other stuff going on and I need to seriously wind down." Kaji put a hand on her wooden lounge chair. "Ah come on have a guess." Maya eyed him. "I have no idea probably Makoto being a jackass again."

Kaji smirked he couldn't wait for her reaction. "No Asuka and Rei." Maya lowered his paper. "Please you couldn't drag Asuka to water let alone get her in a hot tub and she doesn't even own swimwear." Kaji put a hand on his chest. "She does now you should go see for yourself, go to the third floor to the right's balcony you can see them clear as day." Maya stood up putting down her paper. "Okay I'll go so long as you keep my seat." Kaji smirked as he sat down in the lounge chair. "Okay but if I'm right you owe me a drink when you get back."

Maya grabbed her robe pulling it over her swim wear as she made her way up the stairs. Every effort she'd made to get Asuka adjusted to water had failed and she didn't care for hot tubs she never been into that kind of thing it just didn't interest her so this had to be Kaji's idea of a joke. She moved on to the third floor which was the aerobics floor seeing that loads of people were gathered on the balcony looking above she eyed the man opposite. "What is going on?" He turned realizing instantly who she was. "It's Asuka Miss Ibuki she's with Rei in the hot tub."

Maya looked at him before moving forward getting a better look only for her to stare in utter shock, it was Asuka there was no mistaking it. The eye patch stood out like a sore thumb not to mention the hair she watched as the woman next to her smirked. "Oh this is going to be so good they might just get it on." Maya rolled her eyes. "What is wrong with you people you act like you've never seen a gay couple before?"

The man opposite turned smirking. "Oh come on Asuka is such a tiger, we all just want see how she behaves around Rei because we've been hearing so much lately." Maya folded her arms. "You people are really twisted, you know I though this Asuka being some creepy predator was done with!" The man paused seeing that she wasn't impressed before speaking. "Sorry I think your misunderstanding me Miss Ibuki I used the word tiger because that's what she drew in her artwork. A lot of people think the close up image of that were tiger with the glowing left eye is herself or like a visual representation of her unit which embodies Nekomata I mean the right eye in that image is blue like her own yet tigers have green eyes and we know that her units eyes are green."

He paused as he raised his hand. "As for her behaviour I wasn't saying it as a negative because we've heard Rei brings out the best in her and we just want to see her happy because we had no idea how unhappy she's been up until recently." He looked up slightly. "Plus she doesn't normally visit the hot tubs and we are all really surprised that Rei managed to even drag her down here to get into one since she's hates deep water and doesn't swim."

He breathed in deeply. "In fact come to think of it this is the first time in ages she's even come back here because we never saw her after the fight with Mari and we've just kind of missed her not being around here, because we are so used to the other pilots coming and going. We did ask them where she was and they just kept on saying that she wasn't well and we heard this really awful rumour that she had a break down and smashed up her hospital room. Not to mention that we've heard that she has cried a lot recently and we found that sad too, so we just want her to get better and be happy like the other pilots." Maya blinked okay this was a surprising twist she took in a deep breath so clearly everything she had done had helped and that just felt so good.

Rei watched as Asuka took a long drink from her bottle as she laid back it had taken her a moment to really relax but that was okay she wasn't used to it. She moved over to her. "Can I try your drink?" Asuka looked up slightly. "Sure." She passed her the bottle. "It has a slight kick which might taste odd if you don't drink beer or lager often." Rei took her bottle taking a drink feeling the slight bite. "Yeah I see what you mean, it's not bad though." She put the bottle down picking up her cocktail glass. "Here try this."

Asuka looked at her. "You know I don't normally drink cocktails." Rei moved the cocktail closer. "Come on try it." Asuka took a drink before pulling away. "That's really nice what is it?" Rei felt her smile widen. "It's called a boozy milkshake this ones vanilla." Asuka looked at her in surprise. "You're telling me alcoholic milkshakes exist? I thought it was a pina colada or something." Rei shook her head. "I hate pina colada." Asuka felt a toothy grin form. "That makes two of us then because everyone I've ever tried was awful."

Rei moved closer she slowly took hold of the black patch pulling it gently free putting it to one side watching the patterns blaze and spin the other woman's her left eye. "So another thing we have in common then, funny how that works out." She leaned closer pulling herself once more into Asuka's lap she was starting to like this position a lot she leaned forward meeting her lips enjoying the slow kisses that followed as she ran her hands through her long red hair.

Asuka breathed in feeling the twinge of something she hadn't felt in such a long time it seemed to start as nothing like a spark floating in air as it travelled down her body only to suddenly ignite in her lower body like a fire. It was sexual desire but it was so different from the times before because it didn't feel like a void because her other feelings existed balancing it, it wasn't ravenous hunger and it wasn't forceful wanting lust either it was so different and so unlike anything she'd ever felt before. It was like every nerve ending was firing yet unlike so many times before when she'd felt this sex just didn't feel like the end game. She suddenly wanted to touch every inch of the other woman's body all over just to feel it all again in a different and new way and make her feel good.

Rei blinked she could feel Asuka moving her back very gently against the other side of the hot tub her kisses had changed there was something in them that was different though it was difficult to pinpoint only that they felt fire some yet gentle. Since they'd started this relationship she had led and she'd never minded but suddenly Asuka was leading and the other woman was moving her arms very gently outwards running her fingers along them as her hands took both of hers as her body pressed against her own.

She watched as Asuka stopped looking at her for a long moment as she spoke in voice that was like silk. "Where would you like me to kiss you?" She blinked seeing that the back molars had lengthened as had the canines but she didn't care, she knew she had nothing to fear as the other woman's left eye burst in blazing light it was so bright this time that it was like an intense glow in the soft light of the room.

She looked at her moving her hand slowly and gently up to her face speaking quietly. "Asuka can you feel sexual desire?" Asuka breathed in speaking softly. "Yes." She felt her eyes dart as the uncertainty take over. "Please don't be afraid, I won't hurt you." Rei blinked in confusion. "Why would I think that you'd hurt me, you've never hurt me?"

Asuka looked down slightly. "I don't know my past with Shinji I'm sure he told you that sleeping with me was not fun." Rei looked at her for a long moment. "Let it go Asuka, it doesn't matter anymore and I know you better than that."

She paused realizing something for the first time that a group of people were looking at them some distance away from the banister on the other side of third floor, they couldn't hear them through the sound proof class but it was annoying and right now she wanted to be alone with Asuka. "Asuka would you please shut the blinds it's the third button on the right on the console."

Asuka moved away feeling a cold smile form she knew they'd all see her eye and her teeth but she really didn't care, she watched as they all suddenly went still staring at her as she eased out her tongue licking one of her canine teeth before pressing the button watching as the bamboo blinds started to move across on both sides slamming shut in seconds causing the soft lights to brighten though only slightly. "I hate verfickte audiences." She moved back towards the younger woman. "You'd think they'd never seen two women kiss before it not like you can't watch that on prime time television nowadays along with every other sexuality under the sun."

Rei laughed. "No I think they're more interested in the fact that it's me and you." She raised her hand out of the warm water. "You do know that they have started calling you a tiger after your artwork?" Asuka smirked as she moved back so she was leaning over her slowly easing her body up against hers. "Well I can live with that title, it's better than the old one."

She leaned closer speaking softly in Rei's ear as she took her hands again looking her straight in the eyes. "Where would you like me to kiss you?" Rei looked at her gods her voice when she spoke like that it made her nerve endings fire off she could suddenly feel herself blushing which was such a rare sensation. "Please kiss my lips."

Asuka leaded forward meeting her lips, as she took her hands gently easing them out of the water as she put her own over them as a question came to mind that she had not asked came to mind as she spoke through her kisses. "How many women have you been with?" Rei breathed in sharply she was feeling seriously distracted now and it was getting hard to concentrate. "One or two…."

She breathed sharply. "We just never really got past second base…because they got annoyed over my unwillingness to have sex." Asuka's hand suddenly moved finding her swim suite slowly working it way up to her breasts as she spoke in a cold tone. "Such pathetic human beings they are, that they would throw away a divine goddess like you."

Rei could feel the heart racing now, she'd been in a few sexual situations before but it didn't even compare to this it was the way Asuka was touching her it was so slow and gentle yet so fearsome and sensual. Shinji had said that when she was fired up sexually she could be like a blazing star burning in the night sky but he had said that, that was normally when over him she'd had wanted control and to dominate and be pleasured by him and had given very little in return and never did any form of foreplay.

Yet she was having the complete reverse every movement was to give her pleasure everything was for her. She was the focus in Asuka's world she wanted to please, pleasure, caress her and do everything in her power to make her feel good and special and every time she tried to move her hands to Asuka's body she kept easing them free as she carried on with her kisses and caress's she was so flushed and it was so hard to stay focused.

She had always expected Asuka's sexual drive returning would be a very a huge moment but she had not expected it to be this way. Asuka moved to the other woman's ear speaking softly. "Where would you like me to touch you, show me where do you like it best?" Rei blinked she was going to die before the day was up she could feel it she took hold of Asuka's hand carefully placing it on the lower waist along with the other one only to hear a knock on the outer door. "What!?"

A male voice sounded. "Champaign for the happy couple, compliments of Nerv staff on the third floor." Rei turned holding none of her anger back as she spoke. "Put the bottle through the drink slot and go away!"

Asuka watched as the Champaign bottle appeared as a slot was swung around opposite the door which even had glasses in it and the section was relocked from the other side. "They don't miss anything here do they?" Rei's moved her hands to Asuka's face easing her back to face her as she spoke. "Please do not stop." Asuka felt a sly smile form as her hands moved back in to the place where they had been as she started to move them slowly and gently speaking softly once more.

"You are so beautiful." She breathed in deeply before speaking. "I spent so many years dreaming about you and yet my dreams could never do you any justice." She paused as she began to kiss her neck. "I also never thanked you for all of those times in our youth when you saved my life in battle when facing the angels and I called you cruel names, like bitch, wonder girl and doll because you hardly ever spoke and just took orders."

She carried on moving her hands. "So I'm going to thank you, now with the only thing I can offer you, which is my love." She met her green eyes which were wide now. "So tell me your every desire that I might fulfill it as best as can. Tell me where you want to go and I'll make it happen, if there's something you really want I'll find it for you." She felt a smile form. "Because you should have everything the world has to offer and more, nothing should ever be taken from you and I swear I'll take anything back from anyone who steals it from you with force if I have to because I want only for your happiness."

Rei blinked she had no idea what to say her voice had just been stolen and maybe that was for the better as she felt Asuka's lips meet her own again and the caressing of her body started a new as she closed her eyes sinking into the sensual utter bliss.

8

Shinji watched as Kaworu poured a sweet wine into a glass as he passed it to him as he spoke softly. "I heard from your sister that you're fond of sweet grape wine." Kaworu carefully poured a glass for himself as he pushed a box of sweet chocolates confectionery towards him. "Asuka also told me that you're fond of confectionery or to be more pacific the chocolate that is cream filled so I got you some." Shinji looked up sharply at the attractive man who had thick white hair and red eyes, who always smiled softly at him and who over these past three years, had caused such a channel in his emotions.

Asuka had not been wrong he had been running away from his feelings for a long time because he was afraid of how the world would perceive him but right now he could admit the truth to himself he was bisexual and no longer cared what others thought of that, though it taken him three years to comes to terms with it. Why should he care, Asuka didn't give a damn about what others thought of her Rei didn't care either and if they all felt this way and were happy why shouldn't he be happy? He deserved to be happy having someones love was what he wanted and he just felt deeply connected to Kaworu granted he'd had other relationships after Asuka but they never felt fulfilled they had felt empty.

Kaworu had always been his friend he had always asked him what he wanted and he had listened to him over the years and he had held him during those few times when he'd cried because his feelings were getting to him. Though the question that now played across his mind was did Kaworu share his feelings?

Like Asuka he hated rejection they had that very much in common though they dealt with it very differently he preferred to go away and hide and be alone with his thoughts while she got angry and lashed out. He took a sip of the wine enjoying the rich sweet flavour looking at the other man who was lying on his side with his hand on his elbow looking at him quietly.

They were in a more secluded area of the garden which had hanging vines and shaded trees "Thank you." Kaworu eyed Shinji as his smile widened. "It's nice here, your sister was telling me all about it the other day." He paused eyeing the small pool nearby which had white pillars close by. "She said she found Asuka over there hiding because she didn't want to do the display." He looked up as a question came to mind, it was one he didn't want to ask but knew he had to. "Do you still bear any feelings for Asuka?" Shinji turned to him. "No not at all." Kaworu looked up slightly. "You're not jealous at all that she's found love in your sister's arms?"

Shinji looked at him. "No I'm happy for her she's been through so much as lately and I know it's been really hard on her." He looked up slightly. "She never loved me Kaworu and I never loved her, when we were together we were both stupid in that we were trying to fill a void in that we both wanted love but neither of us really knew how to love and our emotional problems just made it worse for each other. I also knew that she always had feelings for Rei though she would never admit it and denied it outright even after we spilt up but I knew better because of the way she looked at her."

Kaworu moved his finger around the rim of his wine glass. "Would it be fair to say that perhaps during your relationship you had trouble finding common ground and the ways you both dealt with your pain did not help each other at the time, hence you ended up colliding like comets and shattering apart in the night." Shinji breathed in deeply. "That would be correct." Kaworu looked up. "How do you view the concept of love and gender?"

Shinji looked up sharply he wasn't stupid he knew that was a very leading question. "Love knows no gender." Kaworu sat up slightly moving a little closer to him. "Do you enjoy it when we make music together?" Shinji nodded feeling the other man's hand as it took his he was nervous now but it was more the anticipation of what was about to come. "Yes very much so." Kaworu looked him straight in the eyes speaking softly. "Would you like to make a new kind of music with me, a tune if you will where we are together and sharing each others love?"

Shinji looked at him for a very long moment feeling the blush start to creep into his cheeks though unlike so many others times he wasn't so nervous about it because Asuka book had given him more confidence and her disc had helped him work out at least how the sexual aspect worked. "I would love that."

Kaworu eased up his hands putting them very gently on the side of his face he was such a sweet man who could not fall in love with him? "It makes me very happy to hear you say that." He leaned forward meeting his lips which were sweet from the taste of wine as he kissed him long and slowly before pulling away looking straight in to his dark brown eyes seeing a sweet smile appear on his lips. "You should tell me all the music you like best."

He paused realizing that a couple Nerv employees were looking at them in surprise he spoke calmly. "Can I help you?" The man and woman shook there heads still staring at them in shock. Shinji eyed them he wasn't in the mood for this right now and he could already see why Asuka got annoyed when she was trying to have quite moments alone with Rei because some times Nerv employees just didn't know when to get lost and leave well alone. "Then go away!"

Kaworu looked at them calmly. "What Shinji means is you are both being very impolite by staring so please leave." He watched them go turning back to Shinji as he ran his hands through his dark black hair. "You should pay them no mind people will stare and be surprised, people can sometimes not realize that their own actions are strange."

He looked up slightly. "What matters is us and how we feel not how they judge or view us." Shinji gave him a full smile. "You make it sound so easy." Kaworu put his hand on his shirt gently pushing him back onto the grass as he straddled him. "It is easy." He moved his fingers to his face. "But I understand your feelings because for you this is very new but know that I'll be here to guide you along the way."

Shinji eased up his hand running it through his thick white hair. "You've done this before? With men I mean." Kaworu looked at him as his soft smile widened. "Yes a few in my home country but understand this none of them made me feel the way you do, they paled in compassion to you and they cared more for the sexual side when I preferred the emotional. That is not to say I don't enjoy sex but let's just say much like your sister my attachments have to be as much about the emotional as they are about the physical."

He put a hand on the other man's shirt as he leaned closer to his face. "I don't think I'd be wrong if I said that maybe you feel that desire as well to feel attached and loved." Shinji didn't bother to reply to him he knew he was right, he always was he leaned up meeting his lips again no longer caring because he knew that this where he wanted and desired to be.

End of part 46

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