Ki'el learned quickly just how naive it was of her to assume that she could learn inscriptions, even with Kuli's help, in a day.
Ultimately, the goal as she knew it was to create four tokens that would sit in the four corners of the room and produce a simple floor from whatever mystical force Sobon used. But before she could get to the logic of the inscription, she had to first get the hang of creating any kind of script. And Ki'el was... not exactly practiced with writing, in general.
It's not as though she had never. It had simply... not seemed like a thing to practice once everyone died, like most things.
{ If there is any hope, it will be by learning from the start, } Kuli suggested. { Find dirt where any success, or failure, will not bother others, and I will show you which is the first concept. }
So Ki'el wandered into the woods, disregarding places where the natural qi gathered or flowed strangely, and found a patch of loose dirt. With only her finger and her intent, she inscribed a very basic mark, not much more than a circle with a dot in its center. And... naturally, the mere act of having vague 'intent to inscribe' in her finger was not enough. She considered it for a long moment, then moved on to what Sobon had taught her: forming a thread of aether, as she had done when she created her aether cycles.
This seemed closer, but there was nothing to anchor the thread to the dirt, and indeed, Ki'el could not think of a reason why the hole in the dirt would ever contain a much smaller thread of aether. And yet Kuli remained patiently and silently there, as though certain that an answer would come to her.
And it had worked, Ki'el knew. Sobon, and Lai Shi Po, and many others, carved into materials and left behind inscriptions. But why--how? How could script remain in empty space, carried along by a thing that did not touch it? Or was the carving, the empty gap, some kind of lie? But no--Sobon of all people would not have carved into materials if the carving was not meaningful.
She considered, and considered, and decided at last that Sobon spoke always of aether being a force that connects things. And if the act of cutting into something is necessary for inscription, there must be a way to connect the cut to the script. And she already knew that Outer and Inner spins of aether both affected the area around them, even if she didn't understand.
Eventually, rather than trying to figure out the nuances of how to do it with pure aether, Ki'el decided to apply the intent with qi, with only the intent to remain within the gap. That produced what she desired--but exactly that. It was only a thread of qi, without useful intent, that remained in the design that she etched in the dirt.
Still, it was progress, and in spite of Kuli's initial assessment, Ki'el was very happy to have gotten that much done within the first... how long had it been? Ki'el looked up and decided that it had been, perhaps, an hour or more, but not much more than that. That was good--but she also didn't need prodding from Kuli to know that it did not suffice, a fact that Kuli herself clearly understood, for she remained quiet.
Next will be an inscription with intent, Ki'el reasoned, looking at the dirt. What is the intent of this circle, Kuli?
{ It is exactly and only a marker, } Kuli replied. { Although this is a bit messy, you can imagine the intent is only to give the place, the exact center, a name. Only... it is not a name, or it does not need to be. To create a floor, you will need at least three 'named' places, but four will give you a square floor. }
Ki'el considered. Although she did not understand Sobon's math, she could imagine that there was a language to it, a language that only had to be spoken once places and concepts had names. This place; everything within a distance of this place; everything between these places. Her sword, she knew, had a place in the hilt, and created a place in midair, and created a pure blade between them. When Sobon had simply done that, it seemed almost godly. But when she considered the possibility that she could do things like that with magic... it made sense that there must be words, must be a language. Must be a way of being clear about what you intended.
Can you not do it all with a single point? Ki'el asked, while thinking these things, knowing that Kuli was listening silently.
{ The word for 'down' that you would need is complicated. This is much simpler. }
Ki'el frowned, willing to accept that it must be true, but completely uncertain as to why. What is complicated?
{ It is tricky to explain in only a few words, } Kuli responded, very patiently. { You have never been without weight. The way to be certain where 'down' is requires knowing how to find the ground without feeling weight, or falling, or seeing or touching. It can be done, but it is... tricky. }
Ki'el accepted this after only another moment of thought. But this could still be done with fewer marks.
{ Yes. If you make the main inscription more complex. It will not happen today. }
No, Ki'el knew, it would not. Instead of worrying any further, she looked back at the first inscription she had made, considering the shape once more. A symbol only to provide a name.
{ A name for the exact spot in the center. }
Ki'el imagined that she understood, because she was feeling clever, that the form of the inscription didn't require using the center point, but she had no reason to question or fight against it. Instead, she went back to drawing shapes in the dirt, and within a... perhaps third of an hour, had managed to perform a mark well enough that Kuli told her it was correct. And she sat there in the dirt next to it, with an inscription that did nothing, and asked Kuli how she could be sure, herself.
{ Form a thread of righteous aether, } Kuli suggested. { Intend for it to move towards that point. Do not release it. }
Ki'el did, and she barely had started to form such a thread when it seemed to pull away from her, and towards the point. She blinked, immediately aware of how useful it would be to be able to point towards something of hers, but when her concentration lapsed, so did the thread and its pull. She frowned, thinking. Could I intend my aether to pull towards anything I choose?
{ That is complicated. It is similar to some things Sobon spoke of. Much later, if you know the intent 'name' of a thing, you may be able to. But even some things that have been named are not able to be reached, even if they are close. The rules are not worth speaking of today. }
Ki'el appreciated that Kuli understood her questions as broad, and not needing full answers, and she was sure that Kuli also appreciated that she did not push too hard. But now, Ki'el looked back to the dirt, thinking of a different, and probably much harder, question. How can I make a mark like this that I can take to our room?
{ With something sharp. Or with aether, or qi. } Kuli didn't see much reason to elaborate.
Ki'el considered, then stood and walked back to the kitchen. The grumpy man who Mian had been assisting was there, cleaning things, and looked up at the door when she paused there, squinting in what was not quite a glare.
"I would like to borrow a knife," she said.
"My knives are not for crafts," he said, sounding very cross. "Ask Sister Futi."
Ki'el flinched, but nodded, and moved away. Sister Futi, at the moment she arrived, was speaking quietly to a rather short, mid-aged man, one whose age and lack of cultivation had cost him much of his hair and given him rough and unpleasant skin, though when he heard the last of Futi's wisdom and turned to the door with a nod, his eyes at least seemed polite. Still, as with many that Ki'el had met, the man moved past her without a word.
"Young sister Ki'el." Sister Futi's voice was, to her surprise, a little sharp, if quiet. "I did tell you I know what happens around this house, did I not?"
Ki'el felt a small wave of embarrassment come over her, and she grimaced. "It is nothing--"
"Inscription is difficult, and getting it wrong will often lead one to damage one's own spirit," Sister Futi said, her glowing eyes narrowing as they locked on to the girl. "But more than that, it is clear to me that you were speaking to someone. Were you not?"
Ki'el could feel Kuli's alarm, as well as her own, but she closed her eyes, took a breath, and stepped fully into Sister Futi's office. "Yes. A gift from my master, which contains part of his wisdom."
"I trust you understand how that looks, on the same day you accuse a man of demonic possession."
Ki'el... had not, but chose not to rankle at the accusation. "It is not demonic," she said. "and I could explain what I was doing, and what I intend." She paused, feeling the older Sister continuing to glare at her, and decided to say just a bit more. "I know it is rushing," she said. "But trust that I would not be doing it if we had been given a room with a functioning floor."
"You want to use engravings to replace the floor?" Futi's voice went from a little cold to actively scornful.
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"No. A temporary one. Nothing more." Ki'el could feel her good mood actively slipping away. In truth... she had been lost enough in the details of what Kuli had been teaching her that she had given no thought to how others felt. Or rather...
Or rather... when was the last time Ki'el had really needed to think about how others felt?
She swallowed as she stood there, suddenly feeling an age older than her body actually was. Mian, Sobon, and Lui had been kind, but each of them had kept a distance and asked little of her. She had not been around people as a normal matter... not since before.
"You seem distressed," Futi said, her voice not showing any sympathy.
"I... apologize, Sister Futi." Ki'el blinked away tears. "I... was thinking that I have gotten sloppy. And I realized that I have not had to worry about people misunderstanding my intentions since my village was destroyed. And that was... a while ago."
"Destroyed by what?"
"Pirates. Djang slavers." Ki'el looked away. "My master Sobon and I eventually found and killed them."
"Are you sure?" Ki'el blinked, surprised, as Sister Futi moved around the desk. "For demonic cultivators, prolonged deception is nothing unusual. If your so-called master was secretly behind the whole thing--"
Ki'el could not help laughing at the thought, which stopped Futi mid-sentence.
"You find that funny." Sister Futi leaned back against her desk, her glowing eyes finally fading, to take in Ki'el with their natural forms. "Clearly you think you know your master very well."
"No, Sister Futi," Ki'el admitted, "I can assure you that I do not know my master well at all. However." She stood up proudly. "My master's primary focus is inscriptions. I have seen things you could not begin to imagine, Sister. Whatever you imagine fooling me would do, it would be unnecessary for him. I do not know his past, but I can assure you that if he were a demon, the world would be in grave peril indeed."
"I see." Sister Futi crossed her arms over her chest and leaned back a little more aggressively into her desk. "And this gift from your master containing his wisdom, it is also a form of inscription?"
"It is... a complicated thing. I could not describe it."
"Did it involve your blood? Was anything done to you by force, even for a moment?"
Ki'el just smiled and shook her head. "No."
Sister Futi still aggressively took a breath. "Still, I do not like the idea of you doing inscription work without training."
Ki'el raised her eyebrows, and for once, let a shred of genuine irritation into her voice. The coldness to it surprised her. "You seem alright with me sleeping without a floor. Perhaps what you like should not be terribly important to me."
Futi instantly tensed, but forced herself not to react. "Whatever your relationship with your master or the outside world, Ki'el, to me, you are only another child who thinks themselves infallible when they are not."
"I am not infallible," agreed Ki'el. "I am cautious, and I am following closely the advise of my master."
"I know nothing whatsoever of your master. He could be a genius or he could be a drunkard in a ditch."
Ki'el opened and then immediately shut her mouth. Instead of answering directly, she looked away, wondering how exactly to phrase things that would not draw too much attention or be too thoroughly questioned. And yet... in the end, a prideful part of herself still spoke up into the silence, perhaps unwisely. "My tuition here was paid for by an artifact my master produced and sold at auction. One artifact." She looked back at Futi, who still leaned against the desk, looking unconvinced. "And... ah, perhaps it would have been easier to say. As Elder Gol and Senior Brother Du can attest, we arrived at this island in the company of Lai Shi Po."
That got Sister Futi's attention. "Your master is a friend of Lai Shi Po?"
Ki'el started to say more, but a push from Kuli cooled her head just a touch, and she reconsidered. "My master studies spatial qi, which is a topic that Lai Shi Po..." she considered her words, so as not to sound like she believed the woman was in any way lesser. "...continues to research. Since they share interests, they have cooperated somewhat."
"I see." Futi frowned at her. "And yet you were not provided with tools, which means your own instruction had not reached that level. I am willing to believe your master is an inscriptionist, assuming Brother Du backs up your claim. But you have no tools and only gold qi. Even if your master left you a talking scroll or any such nonsense, doing inscription work without someone to assess the quality of your work is reckless, and inviting any such experimental scripted objects into the Lesser House is forbidden. If you wish to practice in the forest--"
"I don't suppose Lai Shi Po remains at the Sect?" Ki'el interrupted, though in truth, she doubted it was so. While she had no doubt the woman could get completely sidetracked by a topic, she had also been intending to deliver others of the Xoi family to another city after leaving this place. At least when Ki'el and the others had left the flying box behind, there had been no talk of giving them a temporary place to stay, or even asking them to walk around.
But then, Lai Shi Po had gone off to look into a "project" on very little prodding, and Ki'el could imagine the woman simply forgetting the passage of time.
"If you think I'm going to ask her anything on your say-so, you're out of your mind," snapped Futi. "I may be tied into many matters related to this island, but I hold no sway whatsoever, and certainly not over visitors."
"If she remains, I would only ask that she be told I wish to speak with her," Ki'el said, innocently. "If she does not, you do not need tell me. I am aware enough of the woman's temper to know that even if she remains, she may not be inclined."
Futi paused, swallowing, and her eyes lit up silver for a moment before the light faded. "A message will be passed to her."
"Thank you. I will... simply be meditating outside." Ki'el went out, already feeling the confidence that she had been displaying unravel.
She had not told Po about the gift of knowledge Sobon had left her. And indeed, Po knew almost nothing about Ki'el. It was foolish for her to try to pretend that she, herself, was anything like ready to take even a moment's instruction from Lai Shi Po, even with Kuli to help.
All I wanted was a knife, and a floor to sleep on, Ki'el grumped silently to herself. It has... barely been a day since we arrived, I suppose. And yet in that time I've worked, learned, fought, healed, argued over and over...
As she stepped outside, Ki'el was pleased to see a friendly face, at least. "Xam!"
"Ki'el." Xam had an unexpectedly haggard look on her face. The slim Djang woman, who so far to Ki'el had seemed mostly elegant and perhaps a little arrogant, now was starting to look like she had been though a lot worse than Ki'el. "I heard you survived your trial very well. I'm glad."
"Thank you." She paused only for a moment, before blurting out, "Can I have my sword back?"
Xam paused, but held out her hand to Ki'el's, depositing the sword hilt in it a moment later. "Going to practice?"
"Meditate." Ki'el extended the blade in its dullest, staff form, reversing it and placing it in her lap as she sat to the side. "It calms me."
"Because of your master?" Xam hesitated a moment, but sat down beside her. "She seemed very wise."
Ki'el started to say something, then stopped, unsure. Xam knew something was strange about Sobon--they had met with Sobon in a different body, and Xam had seen that boy killed. But any discussion of Sobon's gender sounded strange in her head. Even so, after a moment, she said, simply, "He."
"He?" Xam looked at her, and it clicked after a moment. "Ah. Of course." They sat there, Ki'el not so much meditating as trying to calm down and clear her mind. It was starting to work, when Xam spoke again. "Ki'el... back then, Mian said something about being centered in his heart. And I've asked him about it since, but he really doesn't sound like he understands the concept, not in words. Can you... say more?"
Ki'el blew out a breath and looked up at the sky. She didn't resent the question at all, and thought Xam deserved an answer. "Master said that people... that their spirits are made of parts, like the organs in the body. And a given person's spirit may be associated with an organ, or something similar, and it... is useful." She frowned, feeling that it was not a great answer, and gently prodded Kuli for help. Though the augment remained silent, Ki'el felt her memories and understanding clarify a little in response. While she considered that, she spoke a little about her own Skin center and Mian's Heart nature, and what Sobon had said about each.
"I do not really know how it affects most people," Ki'el said, "and I'm not sure how I would recognize your nature or what to do about it. But Sobon made it sound very simple, in principle. Understand yourself as... perhaps as, having to deal with that part of your spirit most directly. When I had to go up the stairs the first time," Ki'el turned and glared at the entrance to the Lesser House, "it felt like an attack. Because I have to deal with my skin nature, my response to attacks is..."
It dawned on Ki'el that her response to Futi had been much like responding to an attack as well. She had not been violent, but she had done a great deal to ensure that she could continue to be as she was, even asking that Lai Shi Po be contacted. She felt suddenly embarrassed, and cleared her throat to avoid thinking about it.
"...my response to attacks is to close off and... try to remain as I was. Mian... it is better for him to explain, even if you say he does it poorly. But he seems to believe it helps."
"I see." Xam extended her legs out in front of her, looking at her cloth shoes. "My response to threats in my life was often to leave, or to fight. It is why I left my family, and why I took... a break from the military service. I often thought of it as weakness, cowardice, which is also why I went to the military. Because I am not a coward, or weak." She suddenly hopped to her feet. "What does that make me? Foot-focused?"
"I would not know," Ki'el said. "If I have a chance to speak to Sobon, I will ask."
Xam nodded. "You believe she--he is alive?"
Ki'el hesitated. "He is... not gone."
Xam studied her, then after a moment, shook her head. "If you ever hear back about it, I'll listen," she said. "I'll think about the idea on my own, but it's very vague without more details."
"I know." Ki'el took a deep breath, and closed her eyes. "I will let you know."
Xam gave her a strange look, as Ki'el continued to simply sit. "You aren't slacking, are you? Do you have a task?"
"Sister Futi told me I was excused for a short while. I am making use of it." She paused, a desire to talk about her floor project warring with embarrassment about how she'd behaved, and about her probable lack of success. "Perhaps... not the best use. But I am... advancing."
"Keep your mind on passing the Golden Wall." Xam stood back up, half turning to look at her. "Nothing begins until you can convince the Sect that you are worthy of further instruction. In some ways, spending time in the Lesser House instead of free in the world below is a waste of time." She reached out and touched Ki'el's shoulder, seeming firm but supportive. "I believe you can do it. Mian as well. But doing it soon will require focus."
"I know." Ki'el smiled, and soon enough, Xam went in. Not long after, she left again, with hurried steps.
Ki'el meditated with her sword again for only a short while before something in her stirred, and she looked up, seeing a familiar pair coming towards her. Brother Du was escorting Lai Shi Po, who looked... peaceful, for a moment, as she looked around at the woods, but the look hardened when she looked ahead and saw Ki'el.
Or, Ki'el hoped, when she saw the Lesser House. She could only imagine the woman had as much disdain for the place as she did. Either way, she took a deep breath and rose, deactivating her sword as she did. "Po."
"Ki'el." Po locked her eyes on Ki'el and gestured with her head. "Let's stay away from the House. If I stay here too long I'll be tempted to rebuild the entire building on principle."
"I wish you would," she said quietly, but no one engaged that thought as they stepped away into the woods.