Ki'el quickly discovered that the Inner Sect did not rely on anything like a meal hall or dining room, but rather had a number of restaurants, and the quality of Sister Xari's choice was not noticably beneath what she had been served when dining with the Djang Imperial Prince and Princess.
That was, however, the quality of the food. The presentation of the restaurant, in keeping with the aesthetics of the entire Sect, was austere, plain. Sister Xari had an entire conversation with the chef without meeting them face to face, passing messages with coded intent that... perhaps Ki'el might have been able to understand, had it not been so quick and out of nowhere. Xari seemed to misunderstand Ki'el's pensive look, though, at missing the communication, because she waved at her dismissively as they took seats at a plain-looking, thick wooden table.
"Those who cook, even in the Inner Sect, are also disciples, and those who make it into the Inner Sect are always working at and thinking about qi," she said. "Whether that is communicating with intent, or considering how the same principles behind pill alchemy can make the best possible roasted cabbage." She gave Ki'el a strange look. "You need to promise, Ki'el, not to spend your own money or points on Inner Sect food unless you get all the way here. Even for a relatively wealthy member of the Outer Sect, commissioning food from an Inner Disciple is unreasonably expensive."
Ki'el nodded, but having dined at high quality restaurants before, she thought she was prepared. She was... only half right.
In truth, Ki'el had not been motivated by her stomach in a long time, and she did not wish to be. As she had spent years gathering fish and overripe fruit, and finding ways to cook them despite minimal education, she understood that flavor was a luxury. When Sobon had accepted an invitation from a Djang military commander for dinner, she had successfully resisted any food lust, as she did not want to see the Djang as her benefactors in any way, not after what happened to her village, and not after what almost happened to her.
Dining with the Imperial Prince and Princess had been more tempting, but she understood that restaurant to be a corrupt thing, one that would charge any amount of coin it pleased and simply pay to have suitable ingredients and labor brought together to perform culinary miracles. Seeing spoiled people partaking so greedily of mounds of food had made it clear to her that whatever good there was in the food she was served, there was also a hidden cost, a darkness beneath it all, and while she could admit the food was good, she did not feel a desire for more of it.
But here, when a handsome cook came out with two plates of cooked vegetables, his hair tied up in a bun, smelling of the kitchen and only his own intent touching the food, she found very little excuse to place a barrier in her heart between herself and good food. And when she selected a radish covered in light sauce from her plate and tasted it, she understood that she was in danger.
The flavor itself had intent. Not merely did the intent exist; it was a discussion, complex and interwoven between ingredients and methods, spices and sauces, tools and containers, flame and air. There was intent to the fact that a wooden ladle had been used to spoon the radish out of its container, intent that conveyed knowledge, wisdom of cooking. Though there were only traces of the effect that the choice had, at least to Ki'el, the existence of the intent itself could not be denied. There was intent behind every cut of a knife, behind the amount of heat, behind the cooling, behind the storage. And behind all that intent...
Ki'el blushed deeply, and all the way from her hair to her toes, as she realized she was unable to shake the chef's face and hands from her mind, as every discussion of methods and ingredients showed them in a different light, from a different angle. Ki'el was not a girl who crushed easily on people, but his clear competence, focus, and energy were there on display, never erring, always focused on creating an absolutely perfect experience.
For her.
"Yai s'wei, Brother Boloi," Xari said with a laugh, "I should have asked you to tone down your qi. The poor girl can't take it!"
"I wouldn't have even if you'd asked," the man said, his voice not as smooth as his intent, though Ki'el was not in a state of mind to care. "It's the onion braising method. I am sure that if I can perfectly contain flavors within an onion--"
"Ah-ah, we've had this conversation before," Xari said, wagging a finger Brother Boloi. "I don't care how alike they are, you won't make a perfect pill simply because of your onion sauce."
"I'm closer," the Brother said, his voice already distant even as he turned back to the kitchen. "It's just not the right intent, not yet."
"Breathe," Xari whispered to Ki'el, "he's used to the attention by now. I think half the reason he married his wife is because she's one of the few who still finds fault with his cooking. Who still can." She took a bite of mixed rice and vegetables, and had a... somewhat embarrassing reaction to them herself. "Goodness knows, I cannot," she added, with her mouth half full.
Ki'el appreciated the permission to look foolish, and also, appreciated the word that the man was married, as it made it easier. The knowledge was not enough to stop some part of her imagination from running wild, with the images of the man's dextrous hands...
She had to stop and take a deep drink of tea, letting the action and the heat clear her head a little, though not enough. Never enough.
"In some ways, Ki'el, you already strike me as a person who belongs more here in the Inner Sect than in the Outer Sect," Xari said conversationally, and Ki'el glanced at her, unsure whether to respond yet, or at all. The woman took another bite of food, enjoying it for a long moment, before continuing. "Several of the instructors I've had over the years have said some variant of an old adage--that the Lesser House are those who feel entitled to knowledge, that the Outer Sect is for people who understand that they need knowledge, that the Inner Sect is for those who genuinely search for knowledge, and that the Core Sect is for those who will consume every scrap of knowledge we have and still hunger for more." She paused, and added, "One said that the Elders are those who forgot why they came in the first place, staying until they had no home left to return to."
Ki'el considered the first part, even as she laughed at the last part. Do I feel entitled to knowledge? Do Mian or Xam? Or Chian She frowned a little, as she thought about it. Many have said that we do not belong, perhaps because of that, or in that way. But the way forward is not easy, either. She paused, and cleared her throat, finding that with her whole-body flush her voice was somewhat strained. "I... I do not know where I belong. I do search for knowledge, and I am humbled to have a chance to pursue it. I... do not know that I could consume all the knowledge that a place like this could have. I imagine there is a great deal here that I do not really wish to know."
Xari spooned up more rice with sauce, not looking at Ki'el. "Oh, it's not a rule in any sense, but it is a cleverly worded observation. And don't think about the Core Sect--if they invite you, then they invite you, but no amount of wishing or striving will make them view you as one of their kind. They are hungrier for knowledge than you are hungry for Brother Boloi."
Ki'el shot Sister Xari a hateful look at that, but the woman just laughed, and finished her plate. Ki'el, somewhat more in control of herself, also endeavored to finish her food, but... it was difficult. She... supposed that she could have asked Kuli to filter out the intent, or something, but... but this was... normal.
It was normal, to react to good food and a handsome man. And it was strange to think about, but Ki'el had not had a normal life, and she did not want to turn immediately back into the strange Islander girl who carried a strange master's legacy in her mind, though she knew that was who she was. It was... better, for her to simply be a girl teased for blushing when she thought of a man.
Her emotions steadied... no, they began to deaden the more she thought of it. Perhaps if she could have never thought of it, she might have remained as she was, but... she looked down at her plate, and although she lifted the flavorful rice and beets and onion pieces to her lips, the spell over her was broken.
"Getting lost in your own head?" Xari observed, as Ki'el chewed and swallowed, enjoying the taste and appreciating the intent, but no longer consumed by it. "That's another thing. You're not nearly normal enough for the Outer Sect. Brother Du has said nothing about your background, Sister Ki'el, but it could not be more plain. You are one of the greats, or you will be."
Ki'el looked up at her, surprised by the frank praise. "You think I am will be a great person?"
"Brother Boloi is one of the best cooks in the entire Moonstone Island Sect, Sister, and dare I say one of the more handsome, and he could not keep you from brooding for more than a few minutes. You will spend your entire life within your own mind, and you will either master it or be crushed by it." Xari flickered her hand across her own plate, and the sauces and leftover rice vanished, leaving the plate as though it had never been used. "Given what you showed us earlier, I don't think you will fail. That means you will be something very special, someday."
Ki'el felt a flush going across her face, but for a very different reason. "Thank you, Sister."
"It's nothing. And I should say, because I know you are thinking it." Xari leaned forward onto the table, the proximity and her eyeshadow making her eyes seem huge to Ki'el. "It goes beyond what your master taught you. I have seen people blessed by special masters, Ki'el. Many of them cannot be kept down, and many end up in the Inner Sect. But many of them do not. Some people blessed by masters believe that the mere fact they were chosen is what makes them worthy. Those of us who take on apprentices learn quickly enough that being chosen is a guess, a leap of faith. Few masters, if any, are consulting the fates and gods to determine who is the one most worthy of their blessing. They do not know what we will make of ourselves, just as we don't know what our apprentices will make of themselves. I have been very disappointed by several of my apprentices, and one young boy who I had no expectations of proved to be a genuine prodigy, once given a chance to thrive."
"You may have great gifts given to you by a master, Ki'el, if you did not choose, yourself, to make use of them, what good would they be? Can you not imagine a way that you could misuse what you were given?" When Ki'el seemed uninterested in finishing the last scattered bits of her own food, Xari waved her hand over the plate, making the remains of it vanish as she had her own. "Those who are destined to remain in the Outer Sect--those are people who understand that knowledge will make them stronger, but they do not have a reason to grow stronger, not one they have found yet. And if they remain forever in the sect, it is likely they will never find such a reason. But most are loathe to leave, just as those in the Lesser House are."
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"Those who come to the Inner Sect are those who are not advancing as fast in the Outer Sect as they might wish. They have purpose, and they have the beginnings of a path, but the Outer Sect's resources could only let them reach that path if they spent a lifetime studying. They struggle day by day, hour by hour, to get where they are going, but the path is longer than they have time for. And a member of the Inner Council sees the promise of their path, and brings them in. It is here that we can ask question that would be laughed at by those in the Outer Sect, propose projects that seem ridiculous. And even if it takes years, even decades, we make them work."
Projects that seem ridiculous... Ki'el couldn't begin to imagine what projects she might see herself undertaking, in a few years. What even existed beyond the levels that she knew? What would she find when her own qi had risen above Bismuth, where Sobon had been when he left? Even the thought of passing out of his shadow was terrifying, but to imagine standing where Sobon himself had stood, and planning to go further...?
"You are a long way from the Inner Sect, even if you someday end up here," Xari said, and Ki'el was surprised that there was no caution in the woman's tone. But then... did Ki'el need that caution? She could not imagine that she could get to a place where she could consider herself on par with Sobon, or even Brother Boloi, or Brother Du. "The path is long. I believe that you will pass out of the Lesser House without a problem, but if you wish to raise even further, you must always have a goal. It is by measuring the progress towards your goals, especially noble and distant goals, that you feel dissatisfied, and your dissatisfaction will lead you forwards." She took Ki'el's plate, and her own, and moved to the kitchen. "I'll be back in a few moments. I wanted to speak to Brother Boloi."
Ki'el sat there, considering Xari's words, and suddenly asked Kuli, What do you think? Although she had no particular intent with the question, and no real understanding of why she would ask, she... valued the thoughts of the augment, whatever its true nature was.
{ There are many things I could say, } Kuli responded, { but perhaps this will settle your mind. In Sobon's world, people who gain great power also lay that power down when they do not need it. Soldiers whose power can rival the Diamond Lord return home to be normal, mortal people. To become a great person does not need to mean remaining atop the world for your entire life. At least... not there. }
Not there. Ki'el understood the meaning. If she wished to remain in a place like the Sect, or like the Djang Empire, then once she reached the peak of her power, there would be those who would fight her to prove themselves, and if she was weak, they would kill her. She closed her eyes, thinking of her island village. No... it is too close to the Empire. Even if I can find it again, even if I could convince others to resettle it, I would not be able to hide there. But there must certainly be places in the world where she could live in peace.
But then... Sobon had also said that he had hopes she would help him--with what, she did not yet know. And Ki'el did want to help, and wanted to understand her master. But... was it her desire to gain great strength? To become a great blade, a sword that could protect others? She had her doubts, but... but it was also very early for her to be trying to decide.
"Come along," Xari said, and Ki'el startled, then got up and followed her out. "If I know Brother Du, Sister, he will give you a modest sum of Sect Points for what you have done. But trust me when I say that performing any service for a member of the Inner Sect is worth far more than we can reasonably give you, and you have given us something very interesting to think about, which would be worth a great deal, if it were properly paid. But if we gave you that many Sect Points, you would not know what do to with them, and your time in the Lesser House and Outer Sect would be very unusual. So please consider me, at the very least, to owe you a few small services. It is the least I can do for not letting you have the actual resources you deserve." She paused, and looked back. "I will walk you back, and if you have any questions at all on the walk, just ask, and I will answer."
Ki'el swallowed, but nodded, catching up to walk beside Sister Xari. "I received several ingredients in a forfeiture, but neglected to ask the Elder about them--"
"Elder Gol is stingy about information in the best of times. Ask."
Ki'el leaned on Kuli only slightly to have the information at the tip of her tongue. "A few grams of Cloud Pillar Silver. Lesser Circulation Herb Pills. Mellow River Herbs. Lesser Spirit Crystals and Low Spirit Gems. And time with a Lesser Inscriptionist."
Xari nodded. "Mellow River Herbs are medicinal, I believe, and not an ingredient for any cultivation aid that I know of. I recall they reduce pain, especially, pain in the nerves. Lesser Circulation Herb pills help your spirit and intent to reach parts of your body that it normally does not, and is very useful for attuning your body to your qi. Those whose spirit does not respond to their qi may find it helpful... but it can also lead to qi deviation. They are useful pills, for the early phases, but like all aids, you cannot rely on them forever."
"For Cloud Pillar Silver... it is a common and lesser metal, which is normally used as the inert part of an inscripted item. It is not elementally aligned; the term cloud here refers to the aphorisms about clouds and dragons." She paused, and glanced over at Ki'el. "If you are not familiar... the most common phrasing is Soaring over a dragon to become a cloud. That is, passing over greater talents--taking the resources that could have gone to them--and entering the heavens yourself, but becoming something ultimately common and low. Cloud pillar in this sense would be a cloud that reaches down to the ground and up to the heavens, but does not go beyond them. Cloud Pillar Silver can hold moderate amounts of qi, but is not the right metal to channel great power through it."
Ki'el nodded, but wondered idly what Sobon would have thought of the material. He turned sand into a weapon capable of killing an elder at Mithril Qi. I imagine his understanding of any material would be very different from the Sect's.
"For the Spirit Gems--I am tempted to say that you should simply be rid of them, return them to the Sect for points. I trust that these are mere reservations?" At Ki'el's nod, Xari continued. "They are a resource for those who are desperately searching for insight, a crystalized fragment of intent, and at the Low ranking, it will be general and uninspired. For someone who can understand spoken Intent, you would be better off asking a member of the Outer Sect to simply say a word that troubles or confuses you. It might be pricier than a spirit gem--certainly pricier than a mere Low gem--but generally, if you buy that kind of service, you can at least ask them to rephrase the same Intent several different ways, as long as you are asking the same question each time. That is more valuable than even a better Spirit Gem."
"For Spirit Crystals... they are a resource for those who have difficulty cultivating their own qi. Even in the Lesser House, it is difficult for me to imagine someone actually making use of Lesser crystals, but... I suppose there are many there who have various kinds of difficulty. As with many of the others, Sister Ki'el, I imagine they are useless to you, though perhaps you can find someone who needs them." She paused. "As for the lesser inscriptionist... along with the material you already have, you would want a good channeling material to make even the most basic of items, and you would want to have a firm understanding of what you want done. Even questioning them takes time, and most will cut you off the moment your time is up, even in the middle of work. Have your materials and your intent ready, and don't let them waste your time."
"Is a channeling material necessary?" Her own inscriptions--and the advanced version Lai Shi Po had done--had simply made use of the space left behind by the act of engraving into the base material.
But Sister Xari huffed at that. "I suppose there are base materials that do not require it, but as I said, Cloud Pillar Silver is not good for channeling. An engraving without filler material in an unsuitable base material will often fail, if not immediately, then after months or years of use. Someone above the Lesser grade might do better with the same materials, but so long as you are purchasing a Lesser Inscriptionist's time, trust that their abilities will not meet any lofty expectations you might have."
Ki'el considered that, and glanced at Xari. "Are you an inscriptionist, Sister Xari?"
The woman half turned and gave her a grin. "I'm not much for concealing my interests. Yes, but not as my main focus. I often use scripts projected onto qi, and in particular, am quite proficient in setting up formations of several participants."
"Ah." She nodded. "My master's focus is similar."
"Really?" Xari favored her with a strange look. "I wish I could meet him. Given the effect he's had on you, I have to imagine that he could say three words to me and trigger a breakthrough. I wish someone would." She glanced away, sounding irritated. "I've been stuck at Sapphire Qi for too long."
Sapphire? The same as Base Commander Rai? Two whole tiers above Elder Mofu? Ki'el swallowed, but nodded. "What is it like?" She asked, to cover her nervousness. "Being at Sapphire."
Sister Xari just hummed at her, as they began to pass over a bridge, which Ki'el realized was only two away from the Lesser House. They were most of the way there, now. "The transition to Earthly Gem phase was strange. Many people stay trapped at the peak of Mithril for a long time, unsure of how to face the Tribulation or how to face their own demons. But for me, that tribulation less trouble than crossing the Golden Wall. Amethyst Qi, the lowest of the Earthly Gems, brought with it a profound sense that I had misunderstood my own qi, and I have ever since been searching for insight into exactly how. I only reached Sapphire Qi, the second tier, after understanding something," she added a teasing lilt to her voice, "that I won't be spoiling for you."
Ki'el nodded. "And in return, I promise I won't spoil your progress by spilling any of my master's secrets." Although she said it with a joking tone of voice, Ki'el wondered whether things that Sobon had already told her might contain secrets that Sister Xari needed. Was it possible? She supposed so, though how likely it was was another question entirely.
"Ah," Xari said, not sounding too disappointed, although she mimed being shot or stabbed in the heart. "How ever will I go on without the profound insights of my Junior Sister?" She grinned down at Ki'el a moment later. "In truth, someday I hope to be able to have better discussions with you, Sister Ki'el, but those conversations will be better for the experiences you have between now and then. You will speak more confidently and know better what we are ready to hear. Until then..." She glanced ahead, but they were still an island away from the Lesser House. "...Care to hear some gossip about Brother Du?"
Ki'el gave the older woman a strange look, but she couldn't hide a smile, and couldn't honestly turn down the offer.
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When at last Djang Ren Xari said goodbye to her cute new junior sister, she took a few moments to go to the edge of the island and look down. It was never quite the same, looking down at the world from any of the different islands of the Moonstone Island Sect. The flow of qi throughout the islands gave each of them a different feel, and... it had been a long time since she'd had reason to come here in particular.
She looked off into the distance, her mind bouncing between many thoughts, but settling on the one she least wanted to face, the disturbing message from her uncle.
There is to be a meeting of the Ren family very soon, he said. One of your cousins has done something very foolish. There may be war with the Ban family. If it comes to that, your services will be required. Family above all, Xari.
Her thoughts skipped over the message, refusing to acknowledge it. A war with the Imperial Ban Family might mean the end of the Empire, or else, the end of her family, and if so... it might well mean her own death as well. Even if she wanted to distance herself from her family name, the Diamond Lord might not be so forgiving. And she did want to distance herself from her family; there was too much hate in the core of the Ban family, too much poison.
But without them, where would she be?
Xari closed her eyes and growled. She hated politics, and she always would. Why not let a stupid cousin be punished for whatever fool thing he did? She huffed and turned away from the edge, trying to keep her thoughts on something better, brighter. On Brother Boloi, and the secret thoughts that they had shared, the thoughts he was quite good at keeping hidden from his wife. That put a smile back on her face, and she wandered idly back up the islands, hardly noticing the others as she passed them, even when the members of the Lesser House gave her wide berth as they passed.