Two days later, Ki'el felt a strange urge to go out into the city of Redfang Wall. Although the group in total had not been idle, the city bureaucrats had kept Xam and Brother Juno occupied with, according to their retellings, an endless back-and-forth series of tasks scattered across the city. Even so, they'd yet to meet with the City Lord--although apparently, despite Subcommander Rui's cynicism, they were being allowed to move forward in the process anyway.
The urge to wander felt unnatural enough to concern Ki'el. She was beginning to spend more of her days meditating and rebuilding her qi, even thinking on qi and aether again... but not so seriously as to have made any notable progress. The sudden urge had come on quickly, and it was all too specific, but when Ki'el hesitated, Kuli had insisted that it was fine.
{ I have been sending messages to nearby spiritual gods. This one would prefer to meet in person. You are free to refuse... but I believe it would be good for you. }
[ Is that what all that was, ] Meixu added from Ki'el's shoulder. The fox had continued to be overly affectionate with Ki'el, though she was beginning to sense a stabilizing of his spirit. [ You needn't worry, then, young Ki'el. It's a city deity, it will be quite safe. ]
Although Ki'el asked the others--mostly Chian and Mian--if they wished to come, in the end, she set out into the city with only Meixan, the fox resting once more on her shoulder.
It was a pleasant walk, mostly. The city was far from level, the roads going up and down a number of hills as it went. Similarly, the... aether of the city seemed to vary wildly, with some areas fresh and upbeat, others heavy and sodden, others sickly or inflamed. At the worst... Ki'el was aware enough of her surroundings to notice several of the city's Djang giving her strange or dirty looks as she moved through certain parts the city, especially in the areas with the worst aether, but she did her best to put them all out of mind. She had... uncomfortable thoughts, as to why they might look at her like that, and all of those thoughts would pull her out of the moment and put her in dark places, if she let them.
Those looks and thoughts vanished when Ki'el turned onto a wide and steep staircase carved into a rocky, forested hillside. The entrance was flanked by wide walls decorated with images of a large, predatory creature that Ki'el did not recognize, walls that supported some spiritual barrier around a mountain or large hill. Through that gate, everything seemed like it might have been a different world entirely--the smell of the air, the feel of the aether, the sounds... even the sun seemed a bit brighter, even if it was in the same position in the sky.
[ It's a spiritual barrier, ] Meixan informed her when she was stopped to marvel at the difference. [ It marks the domain of a spirit beast turned god--something that they tend to create when they decide to settle down in a place. ]
"Do all gods have shrines like this?" Ki'el had seen smaller worship sites in her youth, often smaller family sites, but she never had any impression of power from them, not like this.
Ki'el felt the fox on her shoulder shifting, and she turned to look at him, but the fox's eyes were the same as ever--guarded, and unsure. [ Spirit beasts and spiritual gods are a varied group, ] he said after a moment. [ Staying in one place to act as a protector is usually because they have formed a contract, and those might have power to spare. But not everyone is like that. ]
Ki'el looked around, feeling the difference, before turning back to the stairs and continuing to walk up. "The barrier is some kind of natural spiritual ability?"
[ More like a script, ] Meixu answered. [ If you went hunting, you'd find places where it's being supported. Don't, though. ]
Ki'el gave the small fox a look that told him that she wasn't stupid.
It was a long staircase, seeming to Ki'el to be far longer than the hill should have been tall. By the time she felt she should have reached the top, looking ahead, she only seemed to be halfway there, and she was beginning to sense something lurking in the trees that flanked the staircase, prowling around her.
{ We are invited, } Kuli answered her hesitation. { The guardians are not hostile. }
This was feeling more and more like another situation where Kuli had been making decisions on Ki'el's behalf without her knowledge, but under the circumstances, she did not feel inclined to argue. In truth, she had no interest, right now, in watching over everyone else's decisions, even as they applied to her. She just wanted... well, she wasn't sure what, at the moment.
Except a home. That... she was beginning to understand that the feelings she'd had when she left the sect were not going away, not calming down. Dulling, perhaps, but no more than that.
When Ki'el finally reached the top of the hill, she found the temple to look almost foreign to her. She had seen certain elements of Djang architecture, sure, but this... whether it was a religious temple or simply a building to provide comfort to a spirit beast, it certainly didn't look or feel like normal buildings, even in the Djang style. The hilltop itself had been cut perfectly level, and there were five buildings, four at corners around the central fifth. The four outer towers were three stories tall, and each level had wide verandas around a smaller, sealed inner section, the walls of which were decorated with more images of the same beast that had been at the entrance.
The center building had five stories, with the fourth and fifth stories having the same wide verandas and the same decorated walls. Strangely, the fourth story also had four wide walkways that connected to the third floor of each of the towers, sloping down as though it might have been a roof--but it was clearly meant to bear weight. The fifth floor was the only place Ki'el could see with an open doorway, but she could see nothing within from so far below.
All around the buildings were various idols and totems, often with heavy use of metals like gold and silver, and clearly precious gems marking certain features. Most of them were carved with obvious script and suffused with energy, and though Ki'el could not see them closely enough to try to identify the characters of the script, none of them gave off normal qi pressure. Even the ones that seemed to be peaceful in nature gave off aether waves that felt harsh to Ki'el, and she wondered if that was the deity's nature, or the inscriptionist's, or... some other factor.
There was one human-looking attendant standing in the plaza calmly, as though waiting for Ki'el. It... her intuition about the person was very strongly that they were also of spirit beast blood, but there was no outward sign that she could see, except perhaps a distinct facial structure, but that could have been for more common reasons. Ki'el hesitated only briefly before approaching the person and bowing, not quite sure how to broach the topic.
"You are the Lady Ki'el and the [ Superior Assistant ] Kuli, correct? And one guest." Her eyes flicked to Meixan, who did nothing to correct her or provide information. "Our lord is awaiting your presence on the fifth floor."
Ki'el remained bowed for a moment. "If you would show me the way..."
"I was wondering if you would try to jump," the attendant laughed cheerfully. "You would have found your qi abilities sealed within this barrier, but some are simply so impatient. Of course, we will take the main staircase." The woman gestured to the building behind her, where a doorway slid aside without any obvious use of energy, and no apparent person there to have done it.
Ki'el was slightly curious, but she had no doubt it would be trivial to hide such workings in a well-built temple.
Following the woman up the stairs took longer, again, than Ki'el felt it should, and she found that the woman managed to get far ahead of her despite Ki'el never feeling like she slowed down or needed to rest. She frowned, but made no attempt to argue or to complain, especially since the woman ahead seemed patient.
The stairway only led to a closed hallway, with many sliding doors on either side of the hallway, doors that somehow blocked any aether that might have passed through them as easily as they blocked the light. It merely led to another stair, and Ki'el felt sure, this time, that each stairway was longer than the last. A part of her wanted to complain, feeling like the restriction must be some kind of tease or abuse, but she remained silent, moving stubbornly up stairs and down hallways until at last she reached the fifth and final floor. Although she got the impression that the climb had taken far, far too long, when she looked ahead, the shadow of the sun through the door did not seem so different than it had been.
In between her and the open door, of course, was a massive spirit beast.
[ Ban Molu Rotan ] was the beast's name, according to its qi, and it was a very large striped cat--and Ki'el could feel intense power radiating from it in general, but also radiating from its claws and fangs in particular. She had no reason to have doubted that it was an incredibly powerful beast--but it was also clearly presenting itself as such. Ki'el bowed again before it, still unsure why she was here.
"Lord Molu Rotan, I present to you the young mistress Doua Ki'el, the [Superior Assistant] Kuli, and the [Political Exile] Meixan."
Political Exile? Ki'el felt herself freezing, but she felt no change in the fox on her shoulder, not even any sign that he was bowing or otherwise being polite to the local guardian deity.
[ Meixan? Oh... from the old days. ] The massive beast got to its feet and moved closer, but although Ki'el noticed with her eyes and from the shifting spiritual pressure, it seemed to make no sound, and she did not feel any flex or shift in the floor below her as it moved, despite its size. Ki'el noted that the woman who had led her in retreated quietly as the deity approached her, and shut the door a moment later. [ I suppose this is a sign of old wounds healing? ]
[ There is no further need to forgive, but some things will never be forgotten. ] Meixan's mental voice remained steady. [ The girl reminds me of my daughter, is all. ]
His daughter? Ki'el resisted the urge to turn and look, but she could tell that her own qi was in flux. Was that what seemed so strange in how Meixan was treating her? Or was there even more still unspoken?
[ I see. And you, Superior Assistant. ] Ki'el felt the massive beast's eyes lock on her, though its spirit and intent seemed to pass her by almost entirely, doubtless locking on to Kuli herself. [ You said that you are restricted in how you can broadcast messages because of your host. I trust this is easier? ]
{ It is. Young Kuli's spirit has recovered much, but I would not have wished to hinder her any further. And... I believe she would be interested in hearing what I will tell you as well. }
[ The matter of the so-called wisdom of the (Ri'lef). ] Ki'el felt a strange sense at the word as it flowed through her, a hesitation, like the word felt foreign to the one speaking it, even as it was passed along clearly. [ Their [ web of fate ] is not small, and they strike me as genuine, but I detest being ensnared in things I do not understand. I may allow you to make your case... if you can provide what was promised. ]
Ki'el paused, surprised, and with some effort, focused her thoughts on Kuli. [ This matter is about the people who created you? ]
Ki'el felt the attention of the spirit beast turn to her, but not meanly. Ki'el felt herself flush, though she should have known that the deity would be able to hear her question. [ You were not aware? ]
{ Ki'el is still a child, and she has many more important things to worry about. But yes, Ki'el. The Ri'lef have long negotiated with the spiritual gods of this world, in the interests of keeping balance. Although you are my primary concern, I remain in contact with my creators, and was asked to perform a few tasks should the opportunity arise. Now, more than ever, this is necessary. } There was only a brief pause. { Guardian Deity Molu Rotan. Of the many secrets of qi and spirit energy, the most common among guardian deities is why the two seem to be the same, and yet different, is that not so? It is not so much a secret as it is knowledge beyond that of this world, and it is knowledge that can be passed, with some effort. }
At last, the spirit beast stopped staring at Ki'el, turning and moving back to where it was laying before. Before it had even sat down, though, it spoke again, a strangely introspective timber to its qi. [ Qi and spirit energy are [yin] and [yang]. Qi absorbs, carries, amplifies the power of the world, while spirit energy rejects it, combats it, dominates it. This much is known. ] Something in the spirit beast's transmission, though, held doubts, perhaps even deep ones.
{ The power that you call Spirit Energy, and the power you call Qi, are both crafted elements, gifts from the Grand Masters of the Heavens. As your words suggest, they are reflections of one another, but I gather from your words that you do not understand why. } There was a pause. { Ki'el. While we talk, can you create two of your aether cycles? One left, one right? }
Ki'el... had itched to do that for a while, but Kuli had suggested that she wait. Now, though, the timing of the augment's request struck her as odd. "Did you ask me to wait only so that I could do it now?"
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{ No. I worried that you would use the aether and do more to slow down your healing than to help it. But... it will be a helpful demonstration for now. }
Ki'el frowned, but cleared her mind, finding that Kuli managed to help her do that even as the augment continued to speak. { There are forces in the [universe] more fundamental than qi and spirit energy, and young Ki'el was taught to use some of them by her master. You have likely seen how the qi and spirit energy mirror each other, progressing similarly, but the way they react to intent and their methods are very different. }
It was Meixan who responded to that. [ Every spirit beast that tries to learn qi techniques discovers that very quickly. Qi at first appears unstable and violent, but it is the way we use the power, not the power itself. ]
Ki'el found herself almost automatically generating a small Righteous Aether cycle first, and was able to put together a Sinister Aether cycle in only a few more moments, taking the time to make them as close to the same size and thread diameter as she could. When she finished both, she felt Kuli releasing her, and then catching her up to the conversation, she found herself wondering again just what--or who--Meixan was. But... more than that...
"Are you saying that spirit energy is based on the opposite of Truth aether?" Ki'el held the two cycles before her, and she felt the spirit beast before her scanning the two small circles floating above her hands.
{ Yes. Aether comes in tiers, the lowest tier being what Ki'el has produced here. At every tier, there are two ways of using the aether, and they are opposites, in a similar way to how these two energies appear to be mirror opposites. At the lowest level, as a consequence of their nature, one [Opposes] and one [Supports]. Each level is built on the layers beneath them, and each level uses all the forms of power below them. Even at the second layer, [Space Aether], one must [Support] one thing and [Oppose] another at the same time. }
[ That energy is very small and thin, ] Rotan's projection held a kind of lazy curiosity, but it also felt more intense to Ki'el, perhaps because he was no longer shielding her from it. [ Far thinner and purer than either qi or spirit energy. More fundamental, you say. ]
{ Qi and spirit energy are designed to ease the transition, so that [children] do not make great and powerful mistakes. } Kuli's mental tone remained matter-of-fact, despite what Ki'el might have expected to be a condescending use of the idea of adults as child-like beings. Instead... Kuli's intent seemed to very carefully weave together the idea that people, eventually are expected to grow past the stage, and that it is not shameful to be ignorant for a time. { The lowest levels of qi and spirit energy have all aether above this level sealed off, but it is still a more powerful energy. In truth, both qi and spirit energy are of the fifth layer of aether, and their [weight] cannot be compared to that of the real thing. }
There was a silence after that, as the guardian deity, and Ki'el, and Meixan all considered what had been said. After a moment, Rotan spoke. [ There is a limit to how strong one can grow, in either spirit or qi, then. ]
{ The limitations on this world have more to do with this world's youth than the fact that the natural energies are of only a certain complexity. With the right education, more is possible than any on this world may ever accomplish, using far less. }
Ki'el was only half paying attention. She had a question... but she thought it was not wise to ask, nor even think it. She had no idea how subtle a though the guardian deity may be able to pick up. Instead, she tried to find something else, another thought to distract her, and ended up speaking a question. "I understand that qi is based on Truth aether, which tries to create the effect we desire...? But what is its opposite?"
There was a pause, and Ki'el felt the aether around her stirring for a long moment before Kuli replied. { Truth and Contradiction are the two forms of Consequence Aether. Just as Righteous and Sinister aether reinforce or weaken body and soul, [Truth] can create or reinforce an existing [law], while [Contradiction] weakens or removes a [law], or creates an effect [similar] to a law being removed. }
Ki'el... had felt, before, when other people felt shock at her words. And she had felt, at the Sect, the strain on her qi when she forced herself to speak a whole thought into others' minds, when doing so changed how they thought, fundamentally. Now... the words that Kuli spoke rang so completely true, and somehow still managed to get tangled up in Ki'el's mind... and Ki'el was sure it was not only her. From the sudden snap in the aether around her, she thought that Kuli had done something to offset the strain on her when providing that information to the spiritual deity.
Even so, Ki'el felt an intense pain shoot through her meridians... and also, through her mind.
The concept of a spiritual [law]... it tangled through Ki'el's thoughts and memories in a strange way. Such a law was a thing both true, and sometimes fake; it could be made true, with power, but if it was created, then its creation was a part of its own law. And law, both true law of the universe and false law created by people... all of that could be bent with spiritual power... but they wove through creation itself, or they could. But...
Ki'el did not understand. And she did not mean to understand, did not desire it, or not exactly. She understood that this was all far above her, things that she never should have been expected to understand. But somehow, with but a few touches to her mind, Kuli still managed to pull her tangled thoughts into focus, guiding them into order.
Qi effects were creating and enforcing laws; they started very small, but could become very powerful. Ki'el's sword qi and fire qi had been simple "laws" that had specific, determined effects. That was a framework that she felt Kuli creating.
Ki'el's thoughts, with the help of her augment, straightened out the rest in moments. If qi was a 'simple creation', then a 'simple resistance' would be similarly unimpressive--just a refusal to be affected by something. The intent might need to be phrased a different way, and there might be different consequences, but both powers could accomplish the same overall goal--just as Ki'el might win in combat by strengthening herself or weakening her enemy.
The true power of such laws, Ki'el understood, was that they could truly set what the universe understood as 'true'--if given enough energy to perform the task. Somehow, Ki'el's mind drifted again to Sobon's description of his homeworld, of the idea that all the people in that world were a part of a grand array, a working that controlled the civilization as a whole. Perhaps they did, or perhaps they did not, make use of such aether, but... Ki'el understood that the power to 'determine what is true' changed the fates of not only people, but cities, nations... worlds.
As soon as Kuli let go of her mind again, Ki'el felt the pain return, if much more weakly, and she felt her thoughts scatter, the strange vision of another world fading but not disappearing. She sat up without much of a struggle, holding her head... and looked ahead of her, to see the large spirit beast guardian deity also pawing at its head, as though nursing a similar headache.
[ You don't do things by halves, ] Meixan commented, though the fox was also upright and looking at Ki'el... or at Kuli. She might have thought, to look at him, that Meixan had received no similar shock or breakthrough, but Ki'el had been close enough to him and for long enough to tell that he was actually in spiritual turmoil as well, and simply retained his poise. [ A fascinating insight, though I wonder how practical it is. In truth, does it change anything? Do we treat either qi or spirit energy differently now? ]
{ Let the others recover first, } Kuli chided, though a moment later, answered. { It was requested that we provide proof that we--the Ri'lef, not Ki'el--are beings of great knowledge and wisdom from the heavens. With this, there should be no doubt of that. }
[ No. ] Rotan removed his paw from his head and looked at it, grouchily, as though the massive thing had somehow been the cause of his pain--or as though he expected to find blood on it. But the beast simply sat up a moment later. [ But you said that spirit energy was created by this law-removing power. How does one create with removal? ]
{ Spirit energy, like qi, is aether that restricts its own use. Qi 'creates' seals on its power, while spirit energy 'rejects' its own power, until certain milestones are met. You are correct that it is more complicated than that... but that is a matter that should be left alone. Those who are worthy can reach the correct heights in time, while those who are unworthy... should not be given a path forward, or not commonly. }
[ Perhaps so. ] Rotan stood up fully, and then stretched his massive back, his fore claws extending as he also stretched his legs out. [ Very well. This Ban Molu Rotan will entertain the idea of joining the Ri'lef [web of fate]. But I would still prefer to understand what it does, its purpose. ]
{ [Sacred] energy connects across time and space, similar to how guardian deity worship is performed, } Kuli answered, immediately. { Those deities who need strength to defend their charges may borrow from those who have enough, at the times they have enough energy, while those who offer their energy will not be asked to suffer in order to strengthen someone else. }
Ki'el concealed a frown. She understood--or had been told--of Sacred aether, and also its mirror, Corrupt aether. But... Ki'el stopped her thoughts after a moment, unwilling to worry about something that should be asked of Kuli in private.
[ This much we are aware of, ] Rotan admitted after a few moments of thinking about it. [ It is the role of a guardian deity to oversee the fates of those in their domain. However... your answer gives no indication of what fates you think are going to be too great for us to contend with individually, of when the power will be used or why. ]
{ A complete contract will be provided to you. The terms of when it may be used, and when it may not, are laid out carefully. }
This time, Ki'el was sure that she sensed Kuli sending a message, perhaps to the [Tidal Corona], and although it was faint, she was sure that she sensed a message in return, one that she thought Rotan received. The large creature tilted its head and closed its eyes, focusing on its thoughts.
[ I will consider the terms. You may go. ]
This time, Ki'el did not mistake the words for a mere invitation, even for a moment, and bowed and turned away immediately. She was surprised, when she got to the door she had come in through, when she realized that Meixan had stayed behind... but when the door opened in front of her, she stepped through without hesitation, trusting that the fox was more than wise enough to know what he was allowed to do... or at least, what he could get away with.
She felt slightly more concerned when the door shut behind her, with Meixan still on the other side, but she forced herself to walk away despite that. Ahead of her, another door opened, showing a staircase, though Ki'el was... unsure whether it was the same staircase she had come up.
{ I am sorry. }
Ki'el paused in her steps only for a moment, but found that the simple words from Kuli did ease a tension within her, a frustration. Tell me, she said, leaving the words open. What exactly the augment felt sorry for would change how she felt about it.
{ I have not forgotten that you wished to be a part of determining your own fate. In a way, this meeting has changed your fate in ways you cannot understand. Molu Rotan will watch over you, and it will be for the best, but... I did not ask, or inform you. } There was a pause. { I also wish to thank you. For not speaking the question that came to mind. It would have been safe to think about--Molu Rotan does not read minds--but the unease in your heart would have caused him concern. }
What lies above Truth and Contradiction? Could I possibly reach it? But Ki'el was no fool. She could barely begin to touch on Space aether, let alone Time, Fate, or Consequence. Even so... she yearned to at least know the name. What great power was there above Consequence Aether? A power so grand that every use of it must involve the use of both Truth and Contradiction at once? Ki'el shivered, just thinking about a being whose aether could create or destroy whole qi natures as an accident, as it performed some other task.
{ Not only am I unaware of the answer to your question, my people are, to the best of my knowledge. And... it is for the best. Even the Ri'lef would covet power if they had the name of it, just as you have come to wish for the power of Truth and Contradiction after hearing how they work. While someone should understand such matters, so that issues can be discovered and addressed... it cannot be allowed to spread as freely as other matters. }
Ki'el... would not have said that she wished for the power to use Spirit Energy, but her mind had begun to think about it, to question whether it would be the right tool for certain things. But even then, she had no idea whether it was truly all that helpful. Is there any advantage to qi and spirit energy over aether? When properly used?
Ki'el had a strange feeling at that, and realized only after some reflection that it was Kuli feeling surprised at her question. { Qi and spirit energy are intuitive ways to use aether. Their advantage is being able to learn them and use them quickly and easily. But because of their natures, aether, qi, and spirit each make certain tasks more difficult. Raw aether use requires education, more than you may ever be provided with on this world, even with the help of Sobon and the Ri'lef together. Some tasks that would take centuries of effort to [research] the aether script to accomplish can be created as qi or spirit energy effects in decades or less. }
Ki'el considered that, some part of her mind eagerly engaging with the complicated thoughts. Then... when you say that I covet Truth and Contradiction, you are wrong, she decided after a moment. I am not interested in fast ways to grow stronger. I simply wish to finish learning, and when you teach me that there is more yet to learn, I find myself thinking eagerly about the day when I understand enough to see beyond the next door.
Ki'el felt the augment's aether shift slightly. { What if I told you that there are some things you will never learn? }
There are, Ki'el agreed, with only a moment of thought. But I do not like it when you tell me you know, now, what I will not learn. Perhaps you are right, perhaps you are wrong. But to say that I will not sounds like you wish for my ignorance, in furtherance of a goal I do not understand. What if my learning things will be helpful? What if it will be easy for me? What if I can be trusted? Will I still not be taught? If there are no teachers, no way to learn it, then we will discover that at the time, and there will be no one to blame. But my life is already full of strange things. Perhaps life will surprise you, as it does me.
Ki'el could tell that her augment was considering those words for a time, and then that it chose to simply remain quiet for a while after that, despite perhaps having finished its thinking.
When at last Ki'el reached the bottom of the stairs and the entrance to the Temple building, she found the woman who had led her up standing there, with Meixan sitting placidly on the floor next to her. Although Ki'el did not get the sense that she had interrupted a conversation, she still felt awkward, as though their patience in waiting for her was disguising something else, though what, exactly, she was unsure.
[ Thank you, cousin, and perhaps we will have that drink soon, ] were Meixan's parting words to the woman, who simply bowed, the nearby door sliding open of its own accord. The fox leapt again to Ki'el's shoulder, and looked at her, and this time, she studied his eyes for a long moment before looking away. Knowing that Meixan had said something about a daughter... there was something there, a deep regret.
"Goodbye, [Political Exile] Meixan." The woman gave a toothy grin, but bowed. "Goodbye, Young Mistress Ki'el, [Superior Assistant] Kuli."
When the doors had shut behind her, and they were beginning to walk down the long staircase out of the temple, Ki'el finally asked. "Exile?"
[ The Diamond Lord did not keep my family safe, despite a promise. I broke our alliance the day I found out, along with many other things. I was politely invited to never return, and I agreed. ] Meixan's thoughts did not contain the kind of feelings Ki'el might have expected. They were... dry, perhaps. No longer fresh. [ I can feel that invitation is no longer binding, but some artifacts remain, especially among those old enough to remember. ]
Ki'el considered those words, and thought long and hard about asking more questions, but her mind was already full of other things, and she found that she felt better thinking about aether than about her newest companion's painful past. Another time, she promised herself, before her thoughts bent once more to the idea of spiritual laws, and the powers that enforced and restricted them.