"Closed-door cultivation?" Xam's face darkened just at the term, one which Ki'el understood but had not encountered. It must have showed in her face, because the woman spoke again after a moment. "A noble needing that kind of seclusion... people shouldn't need that unless they're trying to break through a barrier in the Gem phase of qi or higher, or preparing for a tier change. At lowest, that would put him at Mithril Qi, preparing to advance to the lowest Gem. And that's... way too much for us."
"The Sect won't let someone like that crush us, though. Right?" Mian looked at her, naked concern on his face. They were squatting at their usual campfire site, although it wasn't dark yet; Ki'el had also left a message with Sister Futi, and with Sister Benai, for Chian to meet her, but neither would promise anything.
"Rules are rules," Xam said, looking at her husband, "but there are always ways of getting around rules. If you know that the worst consequence is to be thrown off the island... surely there are ways to ensure someone will land safely, as long as they perform you a service. That, and sufficient money to make up the difference..."
Ki'el hadn't thought like that, and couldn't help the chill that swept through her at the thought. Was that what Kem Jee Sai had been offered? If he should be caught, he would not be in danger? But what about his master? What about his space ring?
"So it's another case where the powerful just break the rules?" Mian's voice had an edge of... panic? Ki'el couldn't quite identify the stress. "I shouldn't be surprised. It keeps happening over and over again..."
"It was suggested that I should use the points I have gained to pull us all out of the Lesser House," Ki'el finished her summary. "Purchasing whatever resources we need to ensure it. And I have the assurances of an Elder that we will all be allowed to begin the examination as soon as we are ready."
"I can do it anytime," confirmed Xam, with a firm nod of her head, but Ki'el was looking at Mian.
The man hesitated, but shook his head. "I went a long time without relying on others," he said, finally, "but I got nowhere. If sect medicines or treasures can allow me to catch up to you, at least in the short term... my pride's already worthless. Just tell me what I need to do."
Ki'el nodded. "I don't know," she said, looking at Xam, who looked back, "but we should go to the Hall of Earthen Recitation, together."
Xam sighed. "Hopefully they will tell us what we need to know about the medicines," she said, not rising, but turning to look towards the path. "I've gone to ask for help several times, but the Elder has not given advice on medicines. He says it's because there are different ones for different paths, but..." Xam left the rest of the sentence hanging.
They sat in uncomfortable silence for a few moments, but Ki'el caught a flash of movement in the distance--movement and red. She turned, and raised a hand. "Sister Chian!"
"Kiel!" The other girl's voice sounded edged with panic. "I'm... I'm glad you're okay." She slowed to a stop a little ways away from the campfire. "Benai told me... that you were attacked. That there... is going to be a lot of trouble from now on. That... I should probably..."
Ki'el might not have been as bold, if not for what the Elder had said. She... had, for a long time, felt more than comfortable sitting aside and letting the world turn without being offended when it left her behind. But... the elder had said it so simply. I bet you'd say the same about the Fox. This elder, who barely knew her, thought that she wanted Da Chian to stay with her. And... Ki'el realized that she did.
"Come with us," she said, although it felt to Ki'el, as she said it, that she was watching herself from the outside.
She saw Mian turn to look at her, saw Xam eyeing her, but neither said anything. Chian, though, seemed confused. "With you?"
"We must advance out of the Lesser House," Ki'el said, feeling like her thoughts were slow, confused, even as she spoke. "An Elder told me they will let us test out even before our first month is complete, but we want to be sure we are ready. We will go to the Hall of Earthly Recitation to ask for medicines... but we do not know quite what to get."
"Ah..." Chian straightened. "There are a number of things, but I think it's Benai who would have the most information. She's an expert on raising people out of Gold Qi..." her voice trailed off. "Ah... but mostly, for..."
"People like you," Xam said, Ki'el thought a little coldly.
"Yes," Chian said, not sounding bothered. "But I imagine she knows more than enough about medicines to help."
"May we speak with her? Now?" Ki'el wasn't quite sure why she felt distant... except that some part of her was leading, and it was not what she was used to. Was that wrong? Wouldn't Kuli tell her if it was?
"Of course," Chian said, straightening slightly. "She's usually meditating in her room, unless the Sect makes her take a task."
"Then let's go." Ki'el felt her heart pounding as she stood, and with a mental twist, she pushed a little Righteous aether into her spirit... but it did little to restore the balance. Why?
{ It is your heart, } Kuli answered, finally. { In an emotional, not a spiritual, sense, although it exists, spiritually. It is a part of your spirit that wants to guide and protect. It is... not exactly your mind, and you must be vigilant, to keep it from making mistakes. But it is a part of you, and your aether will enhance it along with your mind... unless you focus your aether carefully. }
I have not felt like this. Ki'el felt her body moving after Da Chian, though her thoughts turned inwards.
{ You have known your heart to be hurt and alone, } Kuli answered. { And this will become a problem if left alone. If the path that you, the mind, take... if that ignores what your heart tells you, your heart will not trust you. And if you leave things to your heart entirely, it will try to take over at times when you will need to think and act wisely. You must act as you know your heart wishes, but remain in charge of it, in order to reach the greatest heights. }
Act as my heart wishes? Ki'el felt bewildered. What does my heart want?
{ Your heart is a part of you. It wants what you want, but without understanding as much. }
When Ki'el realized that she was standing before Bai Benai's door, without any answer to what Kuli was telling her. But... she also turned to look at the pathetic half-room where she and the others had been sleeping, its floor still missing, the raw wooden board that Xam had procured still sitting there, its obvious splinters around the edges still something that Ki'el didn't want to even look at.
It feels left undone, Ki'el admitted to herself. But many things are. I had hoped... when I left...
She had hoped, when she left the Lesser House, that her friends would be there with her. She had hoped, when she left the Lesser House, it would be leaving a better House behind, with at least their one room finally fixed. But already, she didn't have enough time, and Mian was still behind. She wanted more time, to bring Mian to the peak of Gold Qi with her and Xam... and she wanted to be able to...
To ask Chian properly, even though the girl had said they were friends. Because...
"Ki'el?" Mian put a hand on her shoulder. "It will be fine."
Ki'el looked back at Mian, her thoughts starting to get lost--but she noticed Kuli, gently, collecting them, and she appreciated it. She knew that she was on the edge of something, but... now was not the time.
She took a deep breath, and turned to look at Chian, who nodded her towards the door, and Ki'el knocked.
"It's not as though I don't know you're there," the voice inside said, and Ki'el could hear a certain bitterness. "Just come in. At least... Ki'el, and you, Chian. There's not really a lot of room."
Ki'el hesitated, but opened the door, finding--as she knew--that it was true. The woman was sitting there, somewhat centered in the confined space, with no candles or spirit lights evident to keep the darkness away. Although Ki'el couldn't quite see, she got the impression of something behind Benai... but declined to try to figure it out, stepping in instead.
As soon as Chian closed the door behind them, however, the space changed.
Ki'el didn't know--and didn't find reason or courage to ask Kuli--whether it was an illusion or some more profound technique, but she found herself in a wide circular room lit by spiritual flames along its unbroken stone wall. The floor beneath them was like bottomless water, but solid beneath her feet; when Ki'el looked down, she thought she was looking through the floor, though there was nothing to see except blue that faded too quickly into black.
"You want something from me," Bai Benai's voice sounded strange, in the space.
Ki'el turned to look at her, but only took a deep breath. In this moment, she could have wished that the force that had driven her forward had the right words for her to say... but also, it felt like that was wrong, selfish. She was here because of what she wanted.
"In order to get out of the Lesser House swiftly," Ki'el said, trying to keep her nerves in check, "I was advised to use Sect medicines to advance myself and my friends, as soon as possible. And..." She hesitated, again unsure, but spoke, only because her feet and her heart had brought her here. "I... would like to ensure that Chian can take the test alongside us. I will use all my sect points, and any other resources I have, to ensure it."
Ki'el kept her eyes on Bai Benai, even though she felt a spike of qi, or emotion, from the girl next to her.
There was a silence for a time, and Ki'el found herself matching the stare of the old woman--and the more she looked, the more firm her belief became that Bai Benai was a very old woman. It wasn't obvious in her looks, but in the unwavering spirit behind those eyes--eyes that must have seen a great deal, more than Ki'el could imagine.
"Sister Futi told me that you are favored by the elders," Benai said after a time. "Enough that they want you to survive the consequences of this ridiculous children's spat. But the Sect is foolish in so many ways, about so many things. Always sticking to old ways, no matter who gets hurt." She lowered her head, but kept her eyes fixed on Ki'el. "Not that I have done differently."
Ki'el said nothing in response, unsure what even could be said to that.
"Of course they have the resources to pull people out of Gold Qi as easily as they wish," the woman said after a moment. "The most common medicines begin your journey down specific spiritual paths. For you, young Ki'el, I do not suspect they will have any medicine pure enough to meet your standards."
"I am not worried about myself," Ki'el said bravely, although it wasn't true.
"Da Chian's tribulation is more expensive than a normal one, at two hundred fifty Sect Points," Benai continued, "which she has mostly collected, or so she's told me. But for her to advance, the ideal medicine would be the Wheel of Light and Sky Tonic."
Below, Ki'el noticed a flicker, and glanced down, surprised, but a sheet of paper--not white, but some pale green material--with complex directions shot out of the water beneath her and hovered before her. She took it, surprised.
"You will need time with at least an Intermediate Alchemist, to produce a tonic of at least the Common grade." She scoffed. "Any medicine less than Common is the poor practice of a novice alchemist, and not suitable for any serious matters, and even a common tonic will be a compromise." She paused. "For the others... I am unaware of their paths, and I doubt they are aware, either. But it would be foolish not to at least ask."
Benai gestured, and Ki'el heard the door open. Although she didn't turn to see her friends enter, she heard Mian suck in a breath as soon as the door closed. Had the nature of the room been hidden while it was open?
"In order to find the best medicines for you, I would know your path," Benai said, her tone more formal than it had been before--more formal than Ki'el remembered the woman being any other time.
"Can't say that I even--" Mian began, but Xam spoke up.
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"My clan has perception techniques, but I don't favor them. In the military, I used mostly movement and stealth talismans. I am coming to understand that my... nature involves movement and footwork, but beyond that, I am uncertain."
Benai stretched her neck slightly, from where she was sitting, and Ki'el got another strange unseen half-vision of the woman's spirit nature, but didn't focus on it. "I see. Sword, spear, or bow?"
Ki'el blinked, uncertain of the question, but Xam answered, "Spear," without much thought, and the woman nodded. "There is a spirit medicine, a hallucinogen, known as the Thousand Mile Waterfall Flower. If you can endure its effects while cultivating, it may start you on a path of movement and water qi... if you so choose." The woman relaxed slightly. "A flower of sufficient quality--at least Common--will also temper your body, and significantly improve your chances at passing the tribulation."
Xam frowned and considered that, seemingly serious, as the woman turned to Mian, who frowned, and considered.
"I'm afraid I don't know my path," he said, "except that I hope to support my wife," he looked pointedly at Xam, "and Ki'el. And I know that my spirit is focused around my heart."
"Your heart?" Benai sounded perhaps a little curious, but more like she simply found his words unclear.
Chian spoke up to answer that. "You recall what I said about being attuned to my tail? How Ki'el said it was like a voice for spirit energy?" Benai turned, and gave the girl a look that said in no uncertain terms that her memory was quite good. So, after only half a moment, Chian continued. "My tail, Mian's heart, Xam's feet, and Ki'el's skin--these are all the same sort of 'focus'."
"I see," Benai said, and after a moment, looked back at Mian. "Then--you control yourself with your emotions? You strive to become the person you must be from within?"
Mian had a surprised look on his face, but tapped his chin, and nodded. "I suppose. That's not a bad description, really."
"Then I suppose I must recommend the most--and least--useful medicine I can imagine." Benai's lips curled away from her teeth in a strangely ugly smile, or perhaps a grimace that looked too cheerful. "The Hundred Hearts Tonic is a combination of several herbs that allows one to experience every emotion the human heart can possibly know--and a few more. For some, the drug is an unpleasant journey through all the worst feelings--pain, shame, misery, angst--but they are equally dragged through all the best feelings--the many flavors of love, joy, and ecstasy, along with contentment and acceptance. Some have called the experience enlightment, others torture. But for a person who must speak with their heart in order to progress, it helps to speak its language. Fluently. I would recommend you not accept a tonic at less than Uncommon quality, or the side effects will be... severe."
Mian made a noise, and Ki'el thought the man went pale at the idea, but he also seemed to be seriously considering it.
"Each of these medicines, if taken while meditating, will also vastly increase your intake of qi--if you can keep your mind on the task." Benai's voice echoed slightly in the chamber--more than it had before, Ki'el thought, now that the woman wished it to. "If you are serious about pushing forward quickly, combining the qi gain and insight is the only option. The correct way forward is to gain that same insight with hard work and effort--but then, prodigies have been raised to become the greatest powers among mankind by using the correct mixture of training and medicine."
For Ki'el, the whole topic sounded odd. She had been more expecting to hear of pills that did nothing but increase one's qi, somehow--but hallucinating waterfalls and experiencing every emotion known to man?
And from Benai's face, when the woman turned her attention back to Ki'el, her thoughts must have been showing. "You may doubt this method, young Ki'el," she said, and Ki'el thought the woman's voice was hard, unyielding. "But people were never meant to use these powers. Discovering the truth of the universe in order to unlock its secrets takes either meditation and insight... or unusual methods."
Ki'el stiffened, but in a way, she did understand. If she didn't have Kuli or Sobon to tell her the answers... what could she do? If it hadn't been for Sobon, she wouldn't even be trying to gain these sorts of spiritual powers, but... if she had chosen to go down this path, where would she even begin searching for insight into how to control fire, or water, or school one's heart?
So she only took a breath, and spoke quietly. "I understand, Sister Benai. I... am very fortunate to have access to insights by other means, and without them..."
There was a pause, and then Chian spoke. "We're all fortunate," she said, her cheer sounding a little forced. "I would be nowhere without Benai, and without you. And we are all here because of uncountable other successes, other blessings." She moved closer and took the sheet that Ki'el held, which contained the formulation for her Wheel of Light and Sky Tonic. She glanced over the list, worrying her lip. "But... what should we expect all this to cost?"
"Your tonic alone will cost at least five hundred Sect Points--if you can find an alchemist willing to work cheaply," said Bai Benai, quite seriously.
Ki'el swallowed, the amount seeming crazy--at first. But she had also been given that many sect points simply for having a single 'insightful' conversation with Inner Sect disciples. And... she had no idea what she would have in her possession because of the forfeiture of the man who had tried to kill her. "And the rest?" she said, wondering whether whatever she might end up sinking the whole forfeiture into it.
"If the herbs are already in supply, I would imagine between three and five hundred for both, plus alchemist costs," Benai said. "If they must be gathered, an additional one to two hundred points per herb that must be gathered--if you are willing to wait up to two days for the mission. A request put in as urgent will double the costs."
Ki'el kept her calm in the face of that. It... did not entirely escape her, that if she had not chosen to include Chian, or if she blindly assumed that Chian would be fine without the medicine, then it would halve her costs... but there was no reason to take that thought seriously. It would be strange if she had arrived just at the moment that Chian was ready, on her own, to challenge the tribulation. And... if she was honest, she would prefer to bring up others, as well. Not because she was as close to them as she was her friends and Chian, but...
But... because she kept seeing them, and the echoes of her own loneliness in them.
But she shook the thought off, and not knowing what else to do, gave Benai a grateful gesture, one she realized a moment later was in the Illan style rather than the Djang, but she didn't think the woman cared. "I will see what we can do. Thank you, Sister Benai."
"Thank me by taking care of Da Chian," she said, still sounding very serious. "While she is here, she is my charge. If anything should happen to her..." Benai left the rest unsaid, but the look she gave Ki'el was stern.
"I will," Ki'el said, though as she turned away, her mind got caught in a silly question: should I have said I would try, instead of saying that I would? Am I strong enough to take responsibility for such a thing?
When they reached the door and walked out, Ki'el was momentarily stunned to return to the hallway of the Lesser House, and more surprised when she looked back into Benai's closet and saw it as one more simply a cramped space with a woman meditating at its center. But once she and the others were out, the door closed itself, and Ki'el was left thinking that what she had experienced--the wide room with its water floor--was somehow more true than the closet, no matter how obvious it seemed to be that the closet was real.
I have seen spatial expansion from Sobon's techniques, Ki'el reasoned as she followed the others back to the spiral staircase with the loose steps. Even as the staircase required her attention again as she moved down it, though, there was doubt in her mind. But the room looked different from within than from outside. And... I didn't think, when I looked back from outside, that I was seeing illusion. Both felt true.
"Trouble," grumbled Chian, before they had even gotten to the bottom, and Ki'el felt it as soon as her thoughts were drawn back to the present. When they got to the front door, Ki'el could tell that things were only getting worse.
Outside, a woman dressed in what was clearly Inner Sect robes was... seated on a palanquin, that had been set down by the four Outer Sect disciples who had been carrying it. Unlike most, who wore the robes long or had pants, this woman--or girl--had cut her robe short, not far below her waist, and had her legs bare--and shaved, with only thin sandals on her feet, which were tucked beneath her in a side-leaning sit that looked like it was supposed to appear comfortable, but which Ki'el thought could not have been. She was also, Ki'el thought, not Djang, and neither were her four retainers; their faces were somewhat sharper
For her part, Ki'el didn't understand at all; it felt like a ridiculously uncomfortable cut for her robe, and Ki'el felt mortified at the thought of ordering other people to carry her around like that; it made no sense, and she couldn't imagine it was even remotely comfortable, especially for a cultivator who was supposed to be getting ever more comfortable with their own body. The ride in that abominable flying box that had brought her here had been quite uncomfortable, and it had also not been at all cheap.
"There you are," the woman called, long before Ki'el had stepped out of the House itself. There was something to her voice that Ki'el distrusted, and also didn't understand; she was clearly going through some effort to add a strange tone to her voice, though it was not a carrier of qi the way Lan Wu's was. "I'll make this easy for you, girl. I want all the forfeiture of Kem Jee Sai, minus whatever Sect Points he had. I'll even through a hundred Sect Points in it for you, which should be more than enough, given how much trouble I'll be saving you. And if I were you..." she raised a hand, and the four who had carried her stupid sled stepped forward, looking menacing, "I wouldn't refuse."
Ki'el looked around at the others, but their worried looks only mirrored what she felt--except Mian, whose worry was mixed with some distraction. Either way, she saw no advice in them, and she turned back to look at the woman outside, projecting her voice slightly to make herself heard through the open front door. "I apologize, Sister, but I don't know who you are."
One of the four carriers stepped forward, his voice loud and brash. "Of course some gutter-trash islander wouldn't know Lady Pha. Just shut up and do what you're told, before things get rough.
From where Ki'el stood, she could still see Sister Futi in her office--and the moment she locked eyes, she felt a narrow pulse of intent directed at her. [ That woman is Vaja Pha Laila. She is a distant relation of the Vajan Royal Family, and more spoiled than many of the Djang noble houses. She has already sacrificed several of her servants in feuds, but has done no wrong in the eyes of the Sect. She is also not the master of Kem Jee Sai. Be very careful how you treat this one. ]
Ki'el absorbed that knowledge, and looked out ahead. "I have not received any forfeiture yet. If Brother Sai was holding into some items for you, I am sure--"
"All the contents," Laila said, and Ki'el felt a threatening twist to the qi outside, but... she was also sure that it was not from the woman.
Ki'el understood that she was being threatened, and could recognize--even without what Sister Futi had said--that the woman was willing to cause substantial trouble, here, but Ki'el couldn't help her nature, and her nature told her that this woman was trying to control her--to taint her, to get inside of her and corrupt her. She set her jaw, stubbornly, and spoke again. "I will speak to the Elder and ensure that those who have a legitimate claim to the contents may request their return."
"You bitch--" One of the four guards--not the one who had stepped forward--started forward as though at a run, though he only took two or three steps before lowering one hand towards the ground, and his qi flared. Ki'el blinked, taking a step back. Surely he wouldn't--?
Ki'el might have been happy never to have seen what happened in the blink of an eye--but in a way, this time, Kuli was a curse to her. Because the man's qi shot into the ground, and four pillars of stone leaped forward like spears, but spears larger than Ki'el's torso, and they tore completely through the front of the building, throwing splinters and shrapnel--
But then, with a mental sound like a snapping tree branch, the damage was undone, and Ki'el only caught a glimpse of the small Elder's arrival, even as the small man casually backhanded the offending Outer Sect member, knocking him entirely out of the area. In the blinking moments afterwards, as the Elder began to speak, Ki'el could imagine being unsure whether what she had seen was illusion, or not.
It wasn't. That fact was made perfectly clear from her augment, as Kuli regarded those memories, those sensations, with a cool detachment that Ki'el might never have without her. By whatever means, from what she had seen... violence had been done, and then undone. But it had happened.
"Lady Vaja," the Elder said, with an intense intent behind his voice that Ki'el was extremely glad was not directed at her, as she could see plant life behind the other woman withering with its intensity. "You will keep your retainers on a short leash, or you will be punished alongside them."
"I don't--what?" The other woman, Vaja royal family or not, seemed caught entirely off-guard by the Elder's phrasing. "Punished? For doing what?"
"Perhaps it was unclear to you when young Ki'el was brought before a council of all the Sect's Elders," the short Elder said, and Ki'el could only imagine the look on his face as he said it, "But we are paying attention to what is happening, here, now. Are you expecting that playing the fool will be tolerated while we are watching everything you do? No matter how subtle your plans or insinuations, if you think they will suffice to disguise your intent from the three Elders currently monitoring the situation, then you clearly misunderstand the Sect in its entirety." He stepped forward, and although it was only a step, Ki'el felt like the man had moved leagues and leagues of land away from her--and, she imagined, to the woman, it must feel like he was coming that much closer with each step.
He stepped forward again, and again, and again, at what could be described as a normal walking pace, and Ki'el watched her and her three remaining companions buckling under the intensity of the Elder's qi.
"Whatever your rivalry, whatever your personal conflicts, tearing apart Sect property and assaulting uninvolved students will never be acceptable." His words were measured, even, but Ki'el could hear the muted echoes of his intent bouncing off the woman, her palanquin, and the trees beyond. "We very frequently allow people to create conflict, when we believe it will allow people to learn valuable lessons. But it seems the only lesson to be learned here today is," his last words fell with the impact of boulders from the sky, "this is not your country."
Two of the remaining Outer Sect disciples failed to hold up under that much stress, and the Elder stepped back, this time without any strange qi effects. "We are not simply going to allow you, or anyone else, to do what you wish," he continued, his voice suddenly as placid as though he were simply making conversation over lunch. "It was unwise of you to push at all, moreso when you should know you'd be caught." Although Ki'el felt breathless just from the echoes of what the woman had faced, the elder maintained an almost frivolously calm air. "Perhaps you should go rest? Perhaps it is only the stress of your day that is making you behave so foolishly."
"I..."
"Now, miss Vaja."
The woman swallowed hard, and with a flick of her qi, simply shot her palanquin up into the skymaking Ki'el wonder why the woman had ever made four men carry it. Or had she? By the time they'd gotten here, it had been set on the ground. And yet... somehow, she was sure.
Ki'el's attention was drawn to the elder as he turned his head to look at her, his face serious. "Go on," he said, no concern apparent in his voice. "Things will be fine, here."
Ki'el glanced over to where Sister Futi remained in her office, but that woman was simply standing still with her eyes closed, and Ki'el saw no reason to wait for any kind of sign from her.
"Thank you, Elder," she said, politely, and gave a deferential half-bow, but when she started forwards, she couldn't stop herself from moving at almost a run.
To get away from this place, and hopefully, to get to another safe place, as soon as possible.