Ki'el, in the days that followed, practiced speaking with intent to try to convey subtleties to Mian and Xam about her cultivation method, and theirs. Although she felt it was a useful skill... neither of them seemed particularly keen to try to learn the method themselves. It was, she supposed, a method neither truly needed right now, and it would only be a distraction for either of them--and yet, Ki'el did not feel it was a distraction for her.
Part of that was that she could do it when she was doing other things, even at times when she didn't feel comfortable speaking aloud. When she had time to herself, she mostly spent it on her qi turning cycle, and she was beginning to truly refine the method--and improving her yield in the process. By the end of the third day, after she had last met Chian, Ki'el actually felt comfortable starting a large qi turning circle, then concealing the ring within her spirit, as she did the aether rings. This might--no, definitely would--have betrayed the point of the purificaiton ring, but Kuli promised that she could isolate the impurities and contain them for her, allowing her to dump them all out later.
Ki'el wasn't exactly sure why Kuli drew the line there, when it came to helping, but appreciated it. She did truly feel a sense of empowerment and accomplishment to be cultivating power even as she worked at other things, although unlike the aether rings, her qi turning ring did take some of her concentration. She was pleased when all three of her requesters for the day seemed entirely unconcerned when she found a need to stop and adjust something in her spirit, and one even encouraged her when she explained it briefly as working on 'a technique'.
"Good for you," he said, sounding like he meant it, as Ki'el worked at repairing a weather-damaged seal around a window. The concentration she had needed in making sure every small crack and crevice was filled with sealing compound had momentarily destabilized the ring, but it was not difficult to restore. "Few of my peers, even my 'betters' at the time, really found the motivation to continue improving themselves as they worked. I suppose it's a matter of stamina--before they got into the Sect proper, and had to go through the exercises, many of them seemed to think they already had all the discipline and stamina they needed." He snorted. "Watching them suffer through exercises for years afterwards might have been more amusing, if I had been much better. I still felt a warm glow from seeing them sweat, though."
Ki'el, wisely, didn't comment any more on that.
Once Ki'el was confident she was able to keep the qi turning cycle turning all throughout the day, she began to feed it without claiming her bounty of purified qi. It was not realy necessary, but it did feel much better to not worry about revealing her technique in public or leaving it idle when it could be working. Her benefits, of course, were substantial--in only a few days time, she found herself at six Gold Stars, up from three, and her core felt substantially different.
Mian, in the same time, was also advancing, and Ki'el found him to be at Silver 8 when she returned. The man, though, seemed strangely discontent.
Although the look he gave her when she asked struck Ki'el as though he wanted to avoid the topic, he relented quickly. "It's the qi turning cycle," he said. "It's not that it's not working. It is. But I feel like it's spending more energy and time trying to pull bad qi out of me, rather than gathering qi from the environment."
"Isn't that good?" Ki'el itched at the very concept of having bad qi within herself, though in truth, she hadn't tried to turn her own internal qi. She only hoped it would be pure.
"If it were a technique Sobon gave you directly, I would be certain of it," Mian admitted, his voice sounding a bit stressed. "And... I can recognize that Kuli contains some of his wisdom. I just... have doubts. And I'm not sure that I see, or feel, a difference. I'm sure that whatever 'bad' qi means, it's better that I don't have it. But... what if it's simply wrong? What if I'm simply grinding away at some part of my own spirit that really should be there?"
{ From my understanding of his history, } Kuli whispered into Ki'el's mind, { that is unlikely. He has spent many years with little advancement and much mental and spiritual conflict. The qi that he gathered in those years would be far too impure for the transition to Silver Qi to fully purge. }
Ki'el would not have made any such judgement, but it did match her understanding of Mian, Lui, and Alassi's history together. Mian, chasing a younger Alassi--the woman whose body Sobon had taken--had fallen into despair when he found her betrayed, broken, and despairing. Although his spirits picked up again when Sobon took over... the fact that Alassi was truly gone, and Sobon was not her, was certainly also a shock.
What could all of that do to a man's qi? Was a simple purification technique really enough to shake it off?
"I think you should continue," was all Ki'el could say. "Whatever was in your qi before, you did not have any techniques or way to use it. You were not taught intent or qi natures, so what would you be losing?"
Mian stopped in his gathering of wood for their campfire and stood there, thinking to himself, or perhaps just feeling. "I don't know," he said after a moment, continuing. "But I do feel like I'm losing something."
Ki'el gave him a look, but the more she saw and sensed of him, the more she was convinced that the man had something buried within him, perhaps something ugly. "Something?"
"I don't know," he said. "But I also don't disagree, Ki'el. Don't get me wrong." He picked up one more chunk of wood and turned back towards the fire pit. "What's in my past isn't wisdom or qi techniques, heroism or grand adventures. In some ways, I could wish it would all disappear. But it also scares me to think that something is changing, especially because of a technique I don't even understand."
That, Ki'el could accept, though when she met him by the fire, the man proved unwilling to speak more on the topic. So Ki'el unveiled her qi cycle, which only had a thin line of qi still turning, and a rather large thorn. She summoned the thorn itself to her hand, feeling the contained qi, and considered it for a long time, silently. She... understood that the qi thorn itself was nearly a technique, though what she could do with it was a mystery. Or rather, she knew that she had to take qi from the thorn and apply intent. But what?
Or rather... it couldn't be that simple, could it?
Ki'el looked at the fire that Xam had begun, and pulled lightly from the qi thorn, focusing on one particular stick in the fire, and focusing on the intent of [natural fire]. Although it was a different process to "speak" her intent to the qi, she could feel something shift in the qi in her hand. As long as she held it there... nothing seemed to change. So she projected the qi at the stick.
Again, nothing changed.
Ki'el frowned, but not because she was surprised. She had only intended for the qi to carry an understanding of fire; she had not given it any intent to accelerate or cause fire. If anything, her qi seemed to dissipate harmlessly, which... is what she would expect, if her qi really had no stray intent to it. She pulled another mote of qi, charging it with the intent-speech of natural fire.
"Be careful," she heard Xam say, and glanced at the woman. Xam was not a talkative woman, and Ki'el trusted her, but...
No, no buts. Ki'el took a deep breath, and stood up, backing away from the fire. Instead of selecting a larger stick, she picked out a single coal within the fire, and chose that with her intent. That, that will burn. She flicked the qi towards the fire--
The tiny explosion caught her off-guard, despite the warning, and she jerked back reflexively. It wasn't enough to scatter the whole campfire, but small bits of flaming twig and charcoal danced away, and it had seemed to blow straight in her face, despite her standing several feet away. But when she blinked away the spots, there was a clear spot where the coal had been, and... not a lot else.
"That was too much qi," groused Xam, leaning over to put out a bit of flaming twig that had escaped the fire pit. "If you're going to experiment, you should use a lot less."
"Sorry," Ki'el said, glancing around for other burning bits. "I... have never used a qi technique before."
Xam paused and looked at her. "Did Kuli teach you that?"
"No," Ki'el said, then thought better of it. "Not exactly. I used the understanding of natural fire she gave me. But all I did--"
"All you did was apply insight, intent, and qi, and create a technique." Xam's tone was... difficult to understand, or perhaps Ki'el was simply still wired from the flash. "That is how techniques work, Ki'el."
"But it's not natured qi," she protested, unsure of exactly why she felt the need to argue any point here. "It's simply--"
"It's simply a technique," Xam repeated. "Ki'el--people develop natured qi in order to specialize. But techniques don't require natured qi. They require what the qi contains. Natured qi is qi that stores insight into an element, a phenomenon, a type, a creature, a thing. It exists so that we do not need to memorize the nature of things, in intent form, in order to perform techniques."
Ki'el looked over at Mian, but he wasn't paying attention to her or to Xam, instead staring into the fire, seemingly a world away.
I didn't memorize it, Ki'el wanted to protest, but she sat down instead. It felt... wrong, to admit that she was using Kuli, and the space within Sobon's gift, to perform such a technique. It felt more wrong to admit it than it felt to conceal it, and she wasn't sure why. Was she scared that someone might overhear? That they would look at her differently?
"If you want to spend your time learning about fire, that is up to you," Xam continued after a few moments of silence, "but I don't think it fits you, Ki'el. You have always been straight, like a sword. Perhaps some form of Sword Qi would be better for you."
"Why would qi--" Ki'el stopped, and shook her head. "As long as I have my sword, I don't need to use qi to do the same thing."
"Are you really sure you want to bring out your sword whenever there is danger?" Xam's voice sounded a little sharp, and Ki'el looked at her, surprised that the woman was making such an argument right now. Shouldn't you be telling me to focus on my cultivation first? Or are you that confident-- Well, really, Ki'el was also confident that she could pass the Golden Wall, and probably well before the month was finished. "Your barrier stones are a different version of the same technique, are they not?" she continued. "You should more fully learn the technique. And..." her voice dropped. "We... really need to take the time to replace that floor."
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Ki'el, in truth, had grown used to sleeping on her aether barrier, while Xam and Mian slept together on the wood of their room. It was... it had long since stopped feeling like a room, that space that they were occupying. It was a place they were forced to sleep, a campsite. She did her best not to think about it, and since none of them were interested in staying there except to sleep...
Is it possible to simply create barriers like that with qi? She directed the thought to Kuli.
{ Of course, } her augment replied. { You could perform a crude version right now, with the understanding you have. But the floor and sword are built from pure concepts, raw geometry. If you wish to specify the barrier's location with intent, it needs to either be very specific--or the result will be very crude. }
Ki'el understood that, and considered, holding out her hand before her. She... no, she refused to experiment so crudely, not with the same technique that could create her sword. Instead, she closed her eyes and tried to summon up the intent of the barrier. She... didn't have it all in mind, but she didn't ask Kuli to help. She simply thought about what she knew, and about the symbol and its intent, the one that even Lai Shi Po had acknowledged. She tried to gather and arrange her thoughts, but she ended the night unsatisfied.
The next day might easily have been more of the same, but Ki'el was surprised to receive a late-morning job from the Inner Sect. Perhaps she should not have been quite so surprised--although Sister Futi gave her no details at all, Ki'el, as she walked her way up the islands of the Moonstone Island Sect, very quickly was able to pin the blame for the assignment on Brother Du, and when she arrived, she was not disappointed. He, and three other Inner Sect disciples, were all sitting on a set of stone benches beneath a very beautiful tree, speaking in a tongue that Ki'el did not know or could not understand at all.
When she came close, though, a bubble seemed to burst, and Brother Du waved her over. "Brothers and sister, this is Junior Sister Ki'el." Du nodded to her, then waved around the circle. "This is Brother Kam, Brother Bon, Brother Juno, and Sister Xari."
Ki'el bowed to them all politely. "Good morning, Sect Brothers and Sect Sister."
"I heard from Sister Futi that you seem to have stabilized your qi technique some," Brother Du said, and Ki'el thought that admission was quite shameless, since Sister Futi had never born witness to the technique herself. Although Ki'el had known that Sister Futi observed much, and had implied she knew that... she wasn't sure it was something that even Brother Du should be speaking of so flippantly. But then, perhaps everyone here had already known?
"I have been working on it," Ki'el agreed, drawing her qi ring from within her spirit. "It is... still incomplete, and will be for a long time. But I believe it is stable enough, until I can achieve the..." she paused, unsure how to complete the sentence. "...the next level of purification that is required."
All four of the others leaned in to look at her qi ring, with Brother Du satisfied to look smug and proud of his junior sister. "Next level of purificaiton?" The one Du had introduced as Brother Juno was the one that asked the question, though she was sure they were all curious. Juno was the most relaxed-looking of all of them, even given that they were all relaxing under a tree, and his face had a softness to it that was difficult to put words to.
"I am unsure just how much I should reveal about what my master taught me," Ki'el admitted, "but there are forces more fundamental than qi, and they are layered. This... can only account for the lowest two layers, at most, and I'm not very good at the second."
"Yes, there are definitely layers of intent that you don't seem to interact with at all," said Brother Bon. Although he sounded quite good-natured, his high forehead and angled eyebrows gave him a strange look, one that made Ki'el a bit anxious. "Still--for a young girl at Gold Qi, it is truly remarkable. Can you describe the first layer? Would that be too much?"
Ki'el hesitated. She looked at Brother Du, but the man didn't seem to be judging her, just watching. Was he giving her an opportunity to show off? Or hoping that she would reveal more? She focused her mind on Kuli, but the augment gave her no feedback, no condemnation of the idea of saying more. Ki'el swallowed, and tried to organize her thoughts.
"I don't understand what it is, or where it comes from," Ki'el said. "I only know that each layer has two opposing natures, and the first layer--it simply seems to either work with other sources of energy--of aether, or against them. If they are of the same nature, they build on one another, and if they are of opposed natures, they conflict. My master called them Righteous Aether and Sinister Aether."
"Righteous? That's quite a word for such a simple force," Juno, still sounding quite relaxed, suddenly leaned back, away from her qi cycle. "But I suppose it's righteous because it supports, right? And sinister is sinister because it hinders. Simple words to convey the obvious are often best, even if it does end up sounding just as silly as Seven-colored rainbow sword and the like."
Brother Kam, whose face was just a little plump, gave a sharp laugh at that, but Sister Xari gave Juno a judgmental look, the woman's almost-excessive eye shadow making the expression even more severe. "Be careful who you say things like that around," she said. "There are many who would happily repeat what you said in the wrong company."
Juno just waved it off, but Ki'el looked at Sister Xari. "Is that a famous qi nature?"
"One of the Imperial Family's," Xari said, sounding quite serious. "The Prince uses it, and is quite proud of it. Many people who support the Royal Family all but worship the Imperial Family's qi styles, and attempt to replicate them."
"Ki'el," Brother Du interrupted, and Ki'el looked to him along with the others. "You said you could simply absorb the purified qi. May I see you do so?"
Ki'el nodded, and held the cycle out in front of her. Without summoning the thorn or its energy to her hand, she simply pulled at it, feeding the energy back into herself as though she had summoned it from her dantian and then thought better of using it.
"Simple," Brother Kam said, "but effective. I think the hidden trick here is the barrier around the qi storage, which keeps it pure once it has been generated. It's not robust enough to stand up to an attack, but as long as nothing interferes with the qi... it's no less hers than if it had been to her dantian already."
"It should be reinforced," agreed Bon, "if it will be used in combat. I can just imagine someone injecting a spiritual poison into it, and that going straight into her dantian." He leaned back, looking satisfied. "Do you have any sort of technique to use it?"
"Sister Ki'el is quite junior," Brother Du hedged, glancing at her.
"I am still learning," Ki'el agreed. "But I have successfully applied fire intent to it. It's not quite a technique..."
"Applied intent?" Xari cocked her head and looked... almost looked down at Ki'el. "What, you just have 'fire intent' around? A spirit gem, perhaps?"
But Ki'el shook her head. "I... was taught something about the nature of natural fire. A gift from my master, that I memorized. I have been practicing speaking with intent, and I used the same process to add intent to the pure qi, then another layer of intent to control it."
"Ah, so you enhanced an existing fire a bit? Or put it out, maybe?" When Ki'el nodded, Xari seemed contemplative. "Interesting. Inefficient, though. How many different words of intent can one person memorize?"
"I could memorize dozens," Brother Juno said, leaning back and flexing his spine so that his face was pointed up. He sounded quite pleased with himself. "Hundreds, maybe. Probably not thousands. I feel like it would just get boring at that point."
Brother Du, though, had a look on his face, one that Ki'el thought was very stern and serious. She couldn't help remembering how he had been upset at her idea of keeping purified qi, and manipulating it without intent. "I suppose that's one Way," he said, seeming to completely ignore Brother Juno. "A very... academic Way. Studying intent, memorizing it, but keeping it separate from your qi until you choose what you wish to use. But how well can you memorize intent? Are you sure that you have a pure understanding of [Natural Fire]?"
Ki'el blinked, not having expected Brother Du to speak with intent, but closed her eyes. He... was very close to her understanding, but there was a mistake. She concentrated, and Kuli helped her pick out exactly the part of the thought that she disagreed with. "Not all [heat] is qi, Brother Du. The natural energy that creates fire does not need qi, or even aether."
"Oh-HO!" Juno snapped upright. "The girl has a spine, challenging Brother Du!"
"You are certain?" Brother Du's voice was not even dubious, only curious.
Ki'el opened her eyes and looked at him. "It is what I was told. It is what I understand. And it feels right."
"But qi is present throughout the world. And the qi of heat and fire, even natural fire, can be absorbed." Brother Du's voice remained level, but Ki'el could feel something like intent slicing at the air between them.
"I am no expert, Brother Du," was all she could say in response. "But I know that qi is complicated... and powerful. I can believe that a person with qi can turn natural fire into qi, and absorb its strength. But is that because the fire already is qi, or is it because qi can make it so?"
Ki'el was aware that the others were looking back and forth between them, but did her best to keep it out of her mind. She was already pushing a little bit of righteous aether into her spirit, to keep her anxiety in check, though she hoped it was little enough that she would not be called out for it. For now... a quiet reigned in the moment.
"I would not have expected to hear that argument in one so young," Du said at last. "But then, perhaps it is exactly because you are young. Yes, qi can make a great many things happen that would not happen without qi. Scholars argue about whether that means the world is, fundamentally, made of qi--or whether qi is simply powerful enough to break all other rules." He held up a hand. "I shouldn't have asked you to have an answer to a question that those with Flame Qi still debate. You still look up at the whole world of possibilities from below, including many things that we now see from above. I will meditate on your insight into natural fire, but I feel like it would be premature for you to say that you know that heat is not a form of qi."
It isn't, Ki'el knew. I know, because I know what Primordial Qi is. But she did not think it wise to say so, especially since she couldn't speak her understanding of it. Lai Shi Po had spoken it to Brother Du before, but the man may not have memorized the intent after hearing it once.
"Still," Brother Kam said, "It's impressive that you can speak with intent at all. Can we hear you speak intent? Again, I mean? I did catch that bit about heat."
Ki'el nodded, and took several steadying breaths, recalling the intent of Natural Fire, and spoke as clearly as she could. "[Natural fire] is the [reaction] of [fuel] and [oxygen] with [heat]." Suddenly, she felt dizzy. Had she had that much difficulty making her words reach the others? Was she doing something wrong?
"Ooh," Brother Bon rubbed his head. "Now that's not nice, girl."
Ki'el blinked, her head still swimming, and began to stammer an apology, without knowing what she might have done wrong.
"No, this is my fault," said Kam. "Ki'el--don't, stop apologizing. You didn't do anything wrong."
"Yes, she did," grumped Juno, slouching on the bench. "She did the worst thing."
Ki'el glanced at him, mortified, even though Sister Xari put a comforting hand on her shoulder. "Don't tease the girl--"
"I'm serious," Juno said, pointing a finger at Ki'el. "Girl--if you learn just one thing today, learn this. Are you listening? Good." He leaned in, and his voice was unbelievably stern. "Never give away insights without demanding payment. In. ADVANCE."
The others sighed, but Ki'el just sat there, blinking and confused. Even the righteous aether in her spirit wasn't enough for her mind to fully catch up to what had just happened. Was he saying--?
"It's a good definition for fire," Du said, sounding as unflappable as ever. "Better, apparently, than my dear Brothers and Sister were prepared for, Ki'el. I will ensure that an appropriate bonus is paid--"
"Don't do that," hissed Juno. "If you reward her for giving things away for free, she'll never learn!"
"Juno," Bon reached over and moved as if to bop the formerly relaxed man on the head, but Juno sprung away in a motion that Ki'el couldn't begin to catch.
"Don't touch my hair!"
"I think the girl needs some rest, Du," Xari said, pulling Ki'el to her feet. "Come on, girl. Let's get some food in you--proper food. My treat."
Ki'el let herself be pulled away, but looked back over her shoulder. Strangely, it was Brother Bon who still looked put out, and he was muttering something to Du.
"That can't be how it works," he was saying, sounding bitter. "I've been studying the alchemy tables for years--"
When Ki'el got a certain distance away, though, the man's voice faded into unrecognizability, again, and Ki'el blinked, then turned to look at Sister Xari, who did not look down at her, but continued focusing ahead.
So Ki'el steadied her walking until Sister Xari seemed comfortable letting her go, and followed the woman on towards what she assumed would be a meal hall for the Inner Sect.