Well, it seems that I calmed down quite a bit.  After I contemplated about the situation for a while, I decided I would follow Rose in how she wants to deal with it.  This is mostly because I can't think of a good option to confront it.  I guess due to my nature, I couldn't sustain a loose cannon attitude about it.  The underlying problem is that I assumed that maybe this world might have developed differently from my own.  Since this isn't the case, I guess that the philosophy of people is still around the same as my original world.

Thinking about it, the modern world has undergone an overhaul in recent years.  If I compared it to a thousand years ago, it would be inherently much more peaceful.  The world still wasn't at a point where it could be 'good', but it has gotten better.  The only problem is centuries had to pass before any type of improvements would progress society.

So you would need like-minded people to form together to make any significant change.  With elves you can't only hope for the adult generation to die and replaced with the children that will grow up.  Since this is usually how change happens in modern society, it is a change of the younger generation since the adult generation sticks in their own ways.

I guess that led me to feeling helpless.  The only way for a big change to occur would be to alter their minds with mind magic or suppress the people who disagree.  I can't say I am for that, but from history it is a common way to change things fast.  So I will just try to come to terms with it when we get there.  

The only other option is a forced occupation or just give up on the idea of trying to change views.  From how I view her guards, they are most likely asking for assistance from the Emperor to help in a rebellion.  So from how powerful the guards are, I can estimate that they most likely have a decent following.  They are trying to get help because government supported coups are much more successful.  Not that coups stay around for long.

I will leave it up to Rose on the direction if she ever focuses on revenge, and I'm fine being a villain to help a friend.  I guess this also illustrates a little of my moral ambiguity, walking the gray line on how to view the field since I sometimes place progress above others.  For some reason I also don't like trampling on other people.

I guess this will wait for the future, so I do have time to think about it more.  I took a while to finish contemplating everything, so I wore myself out again.  This time from over-thinking.  My mind wondered if I am putting more emphasis on this than Rose, or if she sees it as a helpless situation.

After I had Ellie transport me to my dorm, I was unconsciously smiling.  So I guess that my tiredness was overtaking me, I wonder if I should skip class tomorrow or not.  I guess I will leave it up to Ellie since she does what is best for me.

"Thank you Ellie, for everything today."

"Mistress, you're welcome, I hope you sorted out your thoughts."

"I ended up having more questions, but it is fine.  I came to a decision, so that is all that matters."

Flashing her with a big smile was how I ended it.  Then I headed to my room and flopped onto my bed.  Misty must've seen me so she jumped up and lay down next to me.  I should teach her some water magic soon.  I think she would find it much more interesting than lazing around all day.

With that comprehension, I fell asleep.

*Next day*

When I woke up, I realized that it was still dark out.  That reminds me, I wasn't paying attention to time when I went to bed.  It was much earlier than I usually go to bed.  Since this happened I decided to take a bath and Misty followed me.  Well, it isn't the first time I've had a bath with Misty.  I usually make her stay in her small form though considering that her large form is far too big to be in the bath.

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These last couple of days led me on a roller-coaster ride of emotions, and I think they were far worse than what it would have been if I didn't have they damn hormones ruining a decently calm outlook.  If I considered it truthfully, my previous puberty was fairly void of complications if compared to this life.  My god I hope that I can get through this in one piece.  I guess this will only get worse though considering I haven't had to deal with periods yet.

As I shrugged off that thought because it would only make me panic, I finished with my bath and Misty's bath.

After I left the bathroom to grab my clothes Rose was standing there, I subconsciously covered myself since I was naked.  I also quickly hurried to get dressed.  I blame Rose and Ellie's snickering for me blushing.  Since when has Ellie allowed anyone into my room when I wasn't here?

As I finished getting dressed with the clothes laid out for me Rose said, "Ally, about yesterday.  I wanted to ask you to keep my past a secret for now."

"That's fine, but you will have to tell them eventually won't you?"

"I don't think it is the right time for it."

"So why did you tell me?"

She sighed and said, "I got overly emotional, and you... You are odd."

"You don't need to insult me."

"It wasn't an insult.  I guess you being different led me to do it.  I can't quite explain it, I just hoped if it was you... Maybe you would accept it and not scorn me."

A thousand thoughts flashed through my mind leaving me puzzled, so I asked, "Am I different?"

She sighed and mumbled, "You are far more different from what you understand."

Ellie patted her back and shook her head while sighing as well.

As Rose left, my brain stayed confused, but I still said, "Bye Rose."

Ellie came up to me and said, "Mistress, I hope at some point you will understand."

"Why can't you tell me, I want to know why?  You guys always try to make me figure this out, but I can't figure it out.  Just tell me."

"If we told you, you wouldn't be able to understand yourself and only view it from everybody else's perspective.  We just want you to pay more attention to your surroundings, Mistress."

I hung me head and said in a small voice, "I will try."

Ellie then said, "Mistress, you remember that you have classes today.  If you don't go to them more often, I may have to punish you in place of your mother."

I felt horror come over me so I quickly said, "I will, I will."

In my heart I was thinking about creating an illusionary me or a clone of me to take my place in class.  I still want to learn telepathy, but it requires Intermediate Level Void Magic.  My want is to learn void magic, but trying to figure out how to do it is much harder when there are no books or practitioners available.

I hopped out of my dorm and ran to get breakfast.  I ignored the staring eyes and quickly found my usual place to eat.  To be honest, I wanted to skip class today, but I guess my teachers may have a little problem if I skip classes.  What she didn't know what that the teachers quite liked when she wasn't there.  It was mostly because she was a shining example of someone who was out of place.  She caused her classmates to consider themselves inferior even though it wasn't her intention.

The biggest change in personality recently came from Tristan and it was right after my mom scolded his father and him.  Sometimes when mom would visit the campus and talk me, he would visibly flinch from just seeing her.  Mom told me that she did nothing to him, but I think that he's terrified because of what she did to his father.

I have already made it my responsibility to not become full of myself and even if I do I told Ellie, Rose and Kylie to tell me if I did.  I do not want mom to punish me.

School carried on with no incidents, but I keep getting an urge to create a magical item.  It is somewhat hard to explain, but it is like a desire that has taken over my thoughts in class.  I hope that there is a class in how to make them in high school or I may just have to attempt to create one from scratch.