Hello again.

I spent all day in this box. The bathroom situation is becoming dire and I have been doing my best to distract myself from that issue.

Pretty much all I can do is play with Julius and think. I refuse to eat. That will only make things worse.

Now that I have some time to think I have been noticing how stupid I have been acting. From the moment I crossed Francis' path I have barely been thinking at all. Why would I help a loud weakling like that in the first place?

Looking at my journals I said it was because I had nothing better to do. What? Maybe I could believe that if he had been charismatic or interesting. But he was just loud and annoying!

If I had decided to use him to get past the barrier and then headed off on my own to investigate my past. Then maybe I could understand the first couple of days, but what about after that? I didn't ask anyone anything! I just followed Francis around like a bad case of gas!

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I let him lead me around and even fought someone I had no grudge against for no reason I am aware of besides Francis' prompting.

All this is very suspicious. Good thing I wandered off while he was gloating. I guess my lightfooted nature probably saved me from becoming his thug.

I feel kind of bad for beating up the Oddity and his friends now. I even took two of the Oddities shiny sticks. Shame on me.

This whole thing is kind of a wake up call. I have no idea how Francis was controlling me, but it seems outside of the fallen lands I can't judge a danger from its size or fangs. I must be more careful.

Next chance I get I am finding a way to ask who I am. How though? The poleese maybe? They seemed pretty knowledgable.

If I ever see the Oddity again I will apologize, and if I ever see Francis again I am not sure if I will run or finish what Julius started.

Another regret. The nice clothing man. I should have asked him for what I wanted rather than burning his stuff. And I wish I still had those shiny discs. They would make a fine distraction right now. 

I hope Sister wasn't in on Francis' scheme. I don't like to think negatively of someone who can make something as pretty as the water garden. Julius liked him too.

Then there was the huge boom after I got into this box. I have a feeling I may be somehow to blame for that. I hope no one was hurt by it, but judging from the sheer size of the boom I kinda doubt that.

Now if you'll excuse me I need to focus on not crapping my new pants.

Goodnight.