As I walk out of the room and head to the girls dormitory, I try to think about what to say and how I should say it.
I mean really what could I say? I could point out how I want to focus on my relationship with Lilith and bringing another girl into the mix could make things awkward and horrible.
No that's too shitty to say, it would make it seem like I think of Thia like an object or obstacle.
Maybe I could point out how I just want to be friends.
Shit that'd mean I'd have friendzoned her and she may resent me. Making our relationship worse with each other.
Maybe I should just ask her if she truly feels the way she feels or if it's just a phase due to my rescuing her.
Thatd be a bit callous though....
Oh shit I'm already here.
Thia:*Muffled*"Come on in Dorian."
Welp, it's time to bite the bullet. I walk in and see her sitting at the table in the room. She's holding a cup of tea.
Dorian:"Hey Thia, just coming to check up on you. Makes sure everything is all right."
Thia:"Really?"-_-...
Dorian:*sighs*"All right fine. What's the problem Thia? I'm pretty sure I know what it is but I wanna here it from you so we don't get anything mixed up."
Thia:"I doubt you know what it is."
Dorian:"Its mine and Liliths relationship and how I act towards you."
Thia:"Well would you look at that, a man who isn't dense." She says venomously.
Dorian:"Well? What exactly is the issue you have with how we interact?"
Thia:"You have a callous disregard for my feelings towards you."
Dorian:"Well would you look at that, a woman who doesn't hide her feelings just to make a man seem stupid. Its about damn time." I say with a stoic face and a even voice.
Thia:"FUCK YOU!" She yells while jumping out of her chair and throwing her cup at my head.
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Dorian:"Sorry but I'm in a relationship at the moment. Any other time I would take you up on that offer."
Thia:*Sobs*"How can you be such a smartass at this time?*Sobs* I need you."
Here we go.
Dorian:"But do you really? Are you sure it's me you need? Or is it just the idea behind me always coming to save you? Is it the idea that im the Hero? Is it the idea that ill make everything better? Is it the idea that I can or would sacrifice myself? What is it that is going not only through your head, but your heart? Do. You. Really. Love. Me." I say while stepping closer to her until she is writhing arms length, the entire time she's sobbing.
Thia:*Sob*"I.. *Sob* I.."
Dorian:"You don't know..." I say finishing her sentence for her.
Dorian:"Contrary to my titles, I'm no Hero Thia. I'm just a guy who got caught up in a fight that isn't even mine."
Thia:"Then why'd you have to save me from the rapist? If it wasn't your fight then why did you help?" She says while wiping her eyes.
Dorian:"Because I was saving someone who i cared about. A friend. I hate to say it but youre my friend. Until I'm no longer in a relationship, I can't change that."
Thia:"BUT WHY? Lilith wouldn't mind me being with you as well as her."
Dorian:"Because I can't. I'm unable to show equal amounts of love to multiple people. Because I was raised to stay I a monogamous relationship with another person. I wouldn't be able to treat you how I'd want to." I say while bringing my hand up to her cheek and wiping away a tear.
Thia:"I don't care about that stuff. I just want to be with you."
Dorian:"I'm an emotional wreck Thia. I'm hurting people, I'm disregarding everything I was raised to be. I'm having a never ending anxiety attack and not thinking like a human being. I've lost who I was and don't even know who I am. What happens from here on out? We keep Julian safe, we stop the war, I get my revenge. Where do I go from there? I've lost EVERYTHING I'VE KNOWN! I used to think life was hard enough just finding a job and making money, hoping to the gods that I'd find purpose. I've found it but at the cost of everything I've loved before all this. I know I'm being selfish Thia but so are you. You're asking for me to change and get rid of the few things that make me, me. I have nothing else but my ideals. The ideals i still have after all thats happened to me. You cant ask me to do something that would make me a different person."
Thia:"But you aren't human anymore. That's not what you are!"
Dorian:"BUT IT'S WHAT I WAS! WHO AM I BUT WHAT I USED TO BE?! What makes me me if not my past? *sighs*I do care for you Thia but that's all I can do. I'll be there for you when I can, but don't expect me to save the day. I can't be more than what I already am."
As I finish the door opens and Lilith steps in.
Lilith:"We don't expect you to be a hero Dorian. We dont want to change you."
Dorian:"So you heard everything." I say as a statement.
Lilith:"Yes."
Thia:"Please Dorian."
Dorian:"Even after all that."
Thia:"Do I really need a reason to love you Dorian?"
Dorian:"Yes."
Lilith:"Do I need to?"