After waking up Urvashi just stared at his ceilling with a vacant expressiom for a long time, at some point his knuckles had turned white from the amount of pressure he was putting on them. His nails dug into his palm eventually drawing blood, the crimson drops fell silently onto the bed but still Urvashi's expression didn't change.

As he had gone to sleep quite late--or to be more precise early in the day he woke up just as the sun was going down and the moon was coming up. The world outside was as noisy as ever, ranging from animals, such as dogs barking or cats meowing, to humans speaking, laughing or yelling or even just the sound of people walking on the street Urvashi didn't react at all.

He had almost forgotten, forgotten just how scary of a threat Termian was. He was feeling quite proud of himself after awakening even thought he still didn't have any 5th Rank abilities or such.

He hadn't gotten a dream about Termian's memories ever since that dream with Annika so after seeing him being able to re-construct a body from a scratch and other things Termian had done such as effortlesly killing that spirit, he had fallen into despair.

He never really had an ambition, he was quite an empty person after all. He never really desired anything or anyone, at most he was content with life. The reason he lived his life was because he woke up that day, there wasn't a goal or a dream to drive him forward.

He hadn't really desired anything apart from when he found out the truth from Mr. Alodia, there he had his first ever life goal, an ambition to drive him forward, he wanted to live. Although he had not acomplished much with his life he still wanted to live and badly so. Although he didn't desire greatness he feared a meaningless existence, to live and to die for other's benefit, to never experience love or being loved.

To not be proud of his existence on his deathbed, but instead to become someone else entirely, because he was weak, a person from ancient times who died who knows how long ago.

He had no other reason to live but opposing Termian and proving he's worthy to exist, to have lived. And yet it all seemed for nothing. He could even become a 1st Rank now and it probably wouldn't matter one bit, he would still be a vessel for that schemer.

His parents had died when he was quite young, when he was about to reach adulthood. They had lived a live that he wasn't sure they were proud of, they hadn't left behind much on this earth.

His father worked in a military and had gone into a war and never returned. He volunteered to fight in the Arcan Bruta war on the side of Arcan.

His mother worked in a hospital and died from a virus she had gotten from a patient, she hadn't even seen her son in her last moments, she weren't allowed as not to spread the plague.

Even so they managed to live and die as themselves, not die as someone other than yourself. He wasn't even sure if that guy would even die.

After an unknown amout of time Sharron spoke up.

"Are you just going to keep staring at the ceiling or are you gonna come and eat?"

'Right, she's here'

And so Urvashi expression had finally changed, the moon was fully up. He stopped gripping his knuckles, but even so his palm was all bloody and messed up.

"Sure."

She had used the ingredients at his home to make quite a delicious looking meal.

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After eating what Sharron had prepared for him he was quite satisfied, she had made delicious meal but he was not in a good mood.

"Alright are you going to keep sulking all day or are you going to tell me what's up?"

She said before continuing.

"I-It isn't about me right?"

'Should i tell her?'

No, there's no point to it. Not like she can do anything.

And besides i don't want to make her worry all that much.

"No it's not you. I just... remembered something."

He techincally didn't lie.

"Remembered something, huh? Well if you need someone to talk about it I'm here."

"Thanks for offer, i'll keep it in mind."

"So what are you going to do now?"

'What am I going to do?'

She continued

"Are you going to train your output again?"

'Am I?'

He was because after all there was nothing better to do. Merely boosting his output might be insignificant when compared to Termian's power, but who says it won't help.

To which Urvashi didn't respond but instead he took out a notebook and started pulling a small card depicting a golden spear with a shining tip over and over again.

After a while and after he had exhausted his spirituality he saw Sharron still looking at him with her beatiful golden eyes.

"Is something the matter?"

"No, just want to make sure you're not slacking off is all."

To which he just scoffed.

"I want to ask you a question. If it's something you don't want to talk about just pretend i didn't ask." He said after a moment's hesitation.

"Sure." She replied

"How did you awaken?"

She suddenly turned her head and looked into the mirror covered by a curtain. After a while she said with a hint of embarrment in her tone.

"You remember how Viano's pissed at me?"

"Yes?"

"Well i drank a potion rich in spirituality that was meant for one of his people, and it was quite expensive."

"Really? And how did you gain so much information about powers afterwards?"

"Do you think there are so little Rankbearers that aren't under goverment's thumb? There are some meetings for unoffical Rankbearers where they exchange information and relics, mostly information for money."

"And you managed to find this meeting?"

"If you know where to look it isn't hard to find."

"And you know?"

"Obviously."

"Alright, how much are relics being sold for?"

"Depends really, but if you're looking for one to boost output it might be around 60-70 gols coins." She paused before continuing.

"And those are only the ones for low level output training."

"Alright, i need to save up a little to buy one."

"If you want i'll help you buy it."

"Sure, that would be nice. Altough i still want to attend some meetings myself."

"It's no problem."

After talking for a while more and sharing some of our experiences Sharron went to sleep and I kept watch should anything unexpected happen. And in the meantime i trained my output sone more.