My unrequited love has been ended. The feelings I’ve been holding since that day died today. There’s no need for me to hold on it. It’s clear that Kei chose Kira.

Even after she learned my feelings, she didn’t turn disgust; she even offer to be by my side. What girl would do that, right? I mean, I need to move on from her, and let go of these feelings for good.

Yet, how… for what way I can move on from her if she wants still me, to be by her side? It’s mortifying; it’s frustrating. I want to end our relationship, yet I couldn’t find a way to say it.

Am I scared of losing her? Maybe, maybe not. But Kei is the one I truly love. I want to be with her even if she’s loves someone else, and that someone—

“Senior Kagome…” the person who is our junior, and my supposed-to-be rival.

“Yo, Kira.” even if I loathe to see him, but there’s nothing I can do. My chest clench tightly as his name left from my mouth. A bitter feeling clung onto me; my eyes starts getting moist, but I can’t show him.

“You’re here to see Kei again, right?” I asked. I know the purpose why he’s here. On this same place where I declared such an absurd thing towards Kei last time.

“Uhm, yeah?”

“Then, can you promise not to make her feel sad, or make her cry?”

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Like a father letting his daughter have the permission of the guy she chose, I reluctantly rendered those lines. I still can’t accept the fact that Kei rejected me.

However, I also don’t want her to hate me because I ridicule the person she chose. That’s why… “I’m leaving her to you. I said what I’ve need to said to her. She rejected me, though.”

Right… I longer need to stay where she is. We’re still friends, but I don’t want to get involved with her anymore. “I loved her the way how I love myself. But now, she only sees you and you alone. So, Kira… I want her to leave to you. You’re the one she wants.”

Tears are about to burst in my eyes but I remained composed. I want to stay strong, even for this moment. Just a little bit, I need to hold back.

“Senior Kagome, I—”

“Shush. I don’t want to hear anything from you. All I want is to hear your answer to my question, junior. Can I leave Kei to your care?”

Ah, my tear’s about to flow. Keep holding, me. There’s no need for him to console me. I don’t need him to say sorry about everything. I will feel bad if he sees me cry right now.

Kira’s eyes show determination and assurance towards the question I asked. “Yeah, I’ll be taking good care of Senior Kei, Senior Kagome.”

The words that I want, and I don’t want to hear echoed clearly. This is it. There’s no reason to stay longer. I made a step forward to him. There are things I want to say, but I hold back.

“Okay, just make sure you won’t make her cry. If you do, I’ll kill you.” I mumbled and passed over him. Walking downstairs, my vision starts distorting. Soft sobs left my lips.

As the last step from the stairs, I ran from the empty hallway. Luring the pain I’m having, and the wail of my cry towards the end of my unrequited love.

I can’t accept that fact, but this is what life is. We can’t just push through the things that can’t be happen in the first place.

Running down the staircase, I hid at the dark corner of the stairs. There I sit and bawled out. All the things I’ve been thinking and wishing for has been ended.

On this silent, dark and cramped place are the unkempt self, and painful emotions swirled through me. The day everything ended, and the day I will live without her in my life.