Define friendship. It’s a relationship with someone who has a connection of familial feeling. The sensual feeling for someone you want to stay with, without getting much intimacy like a lover does.

Yeah, it’s how I define that word. Yet… whenever I recall the time I had with Hinako, the embarrassment succumbs me. I can’t even think of a way how to apologize to her!

It’s just a spur of the moment. I was just addled with my feelings because of someone who is there when I needed one the most. I’ve just hanged to the thought that the girl I like is already liked someone else.

And I just can’t blame Kira out of it. I already understand what’s he is trying to tell me all this time. Sakagami Kei, she’s in love with Kira and not the other way around. I feel repulsed, accusing a wrong person to stay away from her.

Now that I learned the truth, what now? I feel dejected to face Senior Sakagami, and the awkwardness between me and Hinako icks me.

How should I face them? Ah! I don’t know anymore!

But right now, I need to compromise with Kira. Right, since I’m the one accused him for being closed with Senior Sakagami. I want to be good terms with him since he’s kind of nice guy, I guess?

Entering the classroom, I saw him together with Haruki. They seemed talking about something, and Kira’s face show displeased while listening to him.

“Is that what you really think about?” I interjected, trying to join the conversation. This should be good, right? I want to take amends on accusing Kira for getting closer to Kei.

Not that I like him as a person, but keeping hating him for the thing I will never change isn’t good either. Senior Sakagami chose him, and I want to respect her for that.

I don’t want to pretend I’m not bothered by Kei liking someone as Kira, whose plain. Yet, I also don’t want to learn by her about my hatred for the person she likes.

I can’t change feelings, so there’s nothing I can do about it. I just need to move on and live the life I have right now.

“I can’t helped but to be curious about Senior falling in love with a guy like you.”

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Yeah, right. I am also curious about what Kei noticed to him. He doesn’t have any redeeming quality of a guy where a girl will fall in love. Even I, a girl can’t see something on him.

Let’s tease him for a bit.

“Uhm, Shirasawa—”

Ah, I forgot to tell him call me by my name. Well, in our first meeting, I became rude to him by calling his name. Now, to be fair with all the things I’ve done, I want him to call me by my name.

This is for us being casual. “It’s no fair only I call you by your name, Kira. Ayase. Call me by my name.” I tried to maintain the composed mood I have for him ‘till now. Since I can’t still let go of these annoying feelings for Senior Sakagami.

Until I get to move on, I’ll try to maintain this. “And so, what’s with you? Shirasawa—”

Ah, such stubborn kid you are, huh? “A-ya-se.” I grunt and glares at him. Kira, seemed got reluctant to my mood now, firmly nods.

“Well, I was curious as per you, a not-so-good looking guy, made Senior Sakagami looks your way?”

I said what I have in my mind. Right, Senior Sakagami is pretty, and Kira is a total opposite of her. They’re light and darkness (?) as per their combination together.

“Huh?”

“You’re not even my type of guy, though. You look plainer than Haruki here.”

Don’t get me wrong, Haruki. I’m not trying to hit on you or anything. I’m just using you as an example. Well, when it comes to looks, Haruki is way better to Kira.

As Haruki protested from what I’ve said. “What are you guys talking about?” a sudden familiar voice called. My body suddenly twitches, my head turns sideways to see the person talks out.

Standing beside me, the girl who I just talked yesterday, Hinako. “Ah, Hinako.” I called. I don’t know why, but my heart starts thumping fast the moment I see her. Why?

Also, the awkwardness between us yesterday lingers to me. I don’t even know how to approach her. “Good morning, Ayase.” Hinako greeted the moment she looks at me.

At that time, I feel something bloomed inside me as that smile lures on my view. I know Hinako for years now, but seeing her smile now caught me off. That smile is so pretty I want it for myself.

And from my side, I feel Kira’s glare. Get it together, Ayase! You can’t make embarrassing things here! ”We’re just talking about Kira.”

Haruki comes in, continuing the conversation we’re having. Ugh, I can’t get off of it. Hinako is too pretty my mind turns blank. “I see, and what about it?” she asked.

As if she wants to join, Hinako smiles at the two guys, while Kira trying to brush off the conversation we’re having. Now’s my time to turn the tide. Since I want to get along with you, and erase the awkward feeling within me, I should speak.

“It’s about Senior Sakagami liking him.” I joined, grinning at Kira. The boy’s face show flushed, anxious and surprise as I break off his escape. Way to go!

As if Hinako got curious out from what Kira shows on his looks, I feel relieved. Yeah, I relieved out that there’s nothing for me to get awkward with her.

We just continue our banters together, like we’re really close to each other. Hinako, whose standing by my side, takes a peek at me from time to time and smiles. I keep capturing that sweet smile of hers, and makes my chest thumps fast.

I still addled by my feelings right now. I don’t want to take this for granted. Right, since Hinako and I are friends, I want to stay what we have right now.

I love Hinako, but I don’t know if that love is something beyond further.