There’s a saying that no man is an island. We always depend on someone when time comes. Yet, who can I depend on these feelings when the person doesn’t show any interest to me?

He doesn’t want to take seriously what I’ve said. Does he swing that way? No, that can’t be. Kira Miyamoto, you’re a strange guy, but I can’t helped it; I want to know you more.

Today surely is a tiring day. I want to go home and take a rest. There are upcoming quizzes as well; I need to study and maintain my grades. Right now, my priority is to study and pass the quizzes.

“Kagome, let’s go home…” I called after class.

“Sorry, Kei… I have a club practice today.” Kagome answered as she picks up the bag hanging from her chair. I almost forgot that Kagome is in the basketball club. She is diligent to practice after school since freshman year.

I saw all of her accomplishments in the matches she and the team had been through, and as her friend, I’m totally proud.

“Okay, take care on your way home…” I answered. Kagome nods and left the classroom rigth then. Preparing my things to go home, I thought of Kira. Does he have a plan or something?

If there’s none, should I ask him to go home together? It’s kind of bothering me about what happened to him last time. He doesn’t answer my question.

Well, I should just take my time then. His answer isn’t much important right now; I want to know his answer when he’s ready and all. And no matter what answer he gives, I’m willing to take it all.

I went down on the first floor to see the freshmen. Everyone lurking in the hallways got baffled and bustles about me. “Hello, senior Sakagami!” one of the freshmen girls greeted.

I greeted them back and waves with a smile. Like the typical me, but right now… all I want is to see Kira.

“Who you are looking for, senior?” one from the male freshmen asked.

“Ah, I was looking for Miyamoto Kira. Do you know what class he’s in?”

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The moment he heard the name of the person I’m looking, his face show a little hesitation to answer. Why is that? “Ah, he went with someone. I believe it’s one of the girls in his class….?”

That made me shudder. Huh? What the…? My Kira. No, this can’t be….?

I quickly leave the building after the answer I’ve got. That can’t be. I can’t live without Kiira if she starts dating someone. I only want him. I only need him in my life.

Kira, Kira! Kira!

I start to wander around the campus. He doesn’t even respond to my text, and seems his phone is currently off. No, calm down, Kei. Let’s not think of rational things right now.

Let’s focus only on finding him.

I keep walking, trying to find where he is. Then, I stumbled at the Gymnasium. From there, a familiar figure lurks to my view. “Kira…” I smiled. I was about to call him when I saw another person standing in front of him.

I got froze. “Kagome…?” I utter. She’s holding his hand. Although, their fingers aren’t entwined together, I sense that there’s something on it. The way how she looks to him gives something off.

Kira, he’s also locked his eyes on her.

No, no… this can’t be.

Watching these two made my heart clumped. Why…? Does Kira… like Kagome? I…

I move a step back. Each step, going away from both of them. I started running, without looking back. Tears starts to welled in my eyes but I hold it back. I need to hold it back.

I need to make sure it won’t flow, or else I will break down. I stopped at the facade of the building, leaning my back while gasping out of breath. I need to calm down. I need to think clear.

It can’t be, right…? It can’t be that Kira is in love with Kagome, but she’s also pretty and….

The sudden image of them started kissing popped in my mind. No, no! I mustn't overthink. There’s no way for them to be together. I clenched my hands while my body trembles out.

“I only want to see him, but why….”

***

I know he will take the bus, so I hide somewhere to watch him. The soon he arrived at the bus station, I quickly followed him. Walking along the aisle, I saw his dreamy looks while looking elsewhere.

Is it about the relationship he had with Kagome? Thinking about it made my chest clump. Why…? I don’t know. I just want to be with Kira. Even for this moment. So I fixed myself and acts normal.

But I heard him mumbling. “Sure thing, girls’ love really is something….”

What’s that about…? “What about the girls’ love?” I approached, as he suddenly almost jumped off from the chair. His expression really is cute. I really like him. He asked me why I am here…. of course, I’m waiting for you.

This is the only time I can spend with him. The time where the flow of time stops, and just involved everything between us. How I wish this continue, but…. the reality we have can’t be controlled.

If only there’s a way to reach these feelings of me for him, I want to reach it out. I want to tell him how much I cared, and how much these feelings I want him to accept.

If only…. he looks my way, I want him to know what the words I said that day really means.

But right now, just having him here by my side is enough. Having his presence with me is enough for me, that even if those words I said won’t reach him out, at least, I am here.

I am here for him.