I finally admit what I truly feel for Kira. The one who saved me from that day… and the one I always has been yearning for. This time, I don’t want to let him go.

This time around, I want him to see me as me, and my sincere feelings for him. My only intention is to be with him… and learn more about him. There’s this feeling in me that I want to show him.

But right now, he halted my desire. He wants us to stay as friends for now. I don’t know how long will it lasts; should I just stay put? Or should I show how much my feelings overflowing for him?

The ring of the bell, indicating that the last class has been ended tolled within the area. Our teacher reminded us to pass our Career Path Survey soon, because next year, we’ll be Third Years.

Time sure flies. And now I’m not yet sure about my future plans. Next year, we will be focusing on Entrance Exams in University. I won’t be able to see much Kira than right now.

Kagome already left the room right after the class ended. Sakura did same thing. I’m the only one remaining here. Holding the piece of paper, I look at my name written on it.

On the paper printed: “Career Survey Form” and the details to put down. Each tables has numbers, where I can fill in the career I want to take. Now, what should I do…?

I at least, want to spend time with Kira with my remaining year in Second Year. He’ll be in Second Year next year…. and we won’t see much together.

A sudden ring from my phone cracked the thoughts I have. Fishing it on my pocket, I open the screen and sees the name of the person I’ve been yearning.

“I’m at the gate, waiting for you, Senior.” that message made my heart throbs fast. I quickly stand up from my chair and looks at the window of the classroom.

The flashing light coming from the afternoon sun blinds my eyes, but I didn’t mind it. Seeing the silhouette of the person I like is the most important. “Kira…”

I quickly left the classroom without saying goodbye to my classmate and dashed in the hallway. Some of the teachers saw me and yelled “Don’t run in the hallway!”

“Sorry, teach! I’m just in a hurry!” I greeted back with giggle. Each step I heard downstairs gives me thrill. I badly want to see him.

Changing my *Uwabaki (上履き) to my loafers, I left the building and run on the open field. There are still students walking along, but the only thing I want is to see Kira.

*(A/N: a type of Japanese slippers worn indoors at school or certain companies and public buildings where street shoes are prohibited.)

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“Hi, Kira!” with my chirpy voice, I called his name as he stands at the gate. But my happy vibe turn somewhat gloomy as I see an unfamiliar girl standing in front of him, talking.

A girl I haven’t seen before, gleefully talking to him while holding a letter.

“Huh…?”

What… what could that be? I stopped from walking and watches them from the distance. The girl then decides to leave right after as she waves at Kira. Kira did same thing.

What’s that…? I don’t know why, but a prick suddenly felt from my chest. Why? What’s this mushy feeling?

“Ah, Senior Sakagami.” the moment he turns, as his peripheral vision caught me, Kira waved.

He smiles at me, like the smile he showed to me last time. That adorable smile, his presence… yet why? On his left hand hangs the letter gave by the girl.

“Hi.” I greeted him as I proceed on walking. Reaching him, we both look together in a while. “Let’s go home?”

Oh yeah, since he suggested to be friends with me, he said we should at least go home together. This is his way to know more about me, and I do the same thing.

Leaving the campus, we walked side by side. “Uhm, Kira…?”

“Yes, Senior Sakagami—”

I pouted. Hearing my surname he’s using to address me. “Ah! I mean… Senior Kei.”

He became meek after my reaction. Getting cute on me, huh? “So,” I started. I ineptly want to know about the letter he received from the girl. He’s still holding it.

“Huh?” Kira then looks at me, and his eyes sees through my intention to ask the letter as he looked down on the thing he holds. “Ah, this…?”

His left hand holding the letter shows to me. “It’s a letter addressed for Haruki.” he answered. The thought keeps playing my mind suddenly drained out after hearing his answer.

“Huh.” I mumbled in relief. “That girl told me to give it to him, though. She doesn’t want anyone to see her giving it to him.”

So the girl awhile ago…. I stopped from walking, as Kira turns to see me ahead of few steps away from him. “What’s the matter?”

No, I don’t want to show how much embarrassing I am right now. Turning sideways, I sheepishly answered, “It’s nothing…” Oh, god! I’m so mortified right now.

“Senior Kei…?”

Kira called my name. That made me turn his way, and sees his sincere smile. “You thought this letter was for me, right?” those lines made me feel frantic. As if I feel that someone may take him away from me.

And that scares me. I don’t want him to take by anyone else, not even Kagome. “Yeah, I’m thinking that letter would be addressed to you.”

My voice leaked, implying meekness and frustration, sadness and fear enveloping in each word. My heart clenched tightly, having a thought that person may lead him away from me.

Why is that? We’re just only friends for now, but I don’t think I can endure if he goes away from me. Why is it—am I getting jealous?

“Senior Kei.” after hearing me out, Kira moves a step forward to me. “I don’t think I can’t see anyone other than you.”

Grabbing my hand, he hold me tightly. “After everything you’ve said that day… I kept thinking a lot of things about you.”

Huh? What the—Kira, he’s blushing? His face is soiled with redness like a ripened apple; so cute. He’s so cute that I want to hug him—but I can’t.

I need to restrain myself. I need to calm. We’re in the stage of knowing each other right now. “That’s why, don’t ever think about another girl approach me, okay?”

His grip firmed. I feel the warmth of his hand and rushes through me. “Yeah, okay.” I smile. With the radiance of the afternoon sun, we look eye to eye. And within that moment feels like a magical one.

That time I totally captured to myself, I really, really love this person named Kira Miyamoto.