Cassy pov

I was fighting against my tears the entire time I followed mom out of the meeting room. I didn’t want to cry in front of anyone. But I simply couldn’t prevent my face from wilting. How could I? All the happiness and excitement we enjoyed together vanished into the thin air in a matter of seconds. And all it took was a few sentences that felt like being hit by a bolt of lightning.NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.

“Carina?” Mom addressed me by the name that they had given me when she was certain that we were alone. I looked at her and tried to smile. However, the heaviness in my chest allowed only a little curve of my lips.

“What….. you look sick!” she stated, frowning in concern. I took deep breaths, hoping to stay as calm as possible, despite the storm that was going on in my heart.

I felt nauseous and my head was pounding with a terrible headache. I tried to hold back my gag reflex until I was able to enter my room. As soon as we reached the floor where my room was, I rushed past mom who was walking ahead of me and ran into my room to quickly empty the contents that were forcing their way up my throat into the toilet bowl of the attached bathroom.

“Good gracious!” mom exclaimed when she saw that I was throwing up non stop.

“Lola! Mina!” I heard my mom scream hysterically for the healers to come.

“Your highness!” I heard their voices. However, by the time they arrived, I was slowly recovering. I washed my mouth and face and checked my reflection in the mirror. There was indeed no life in it. I looked like a dead person.

“Princess!” I heard Lola gasp as she rushed to my assistance with Mina right behind her.

“What happened? Is something wrong!” I heard my dad’s deep voice, filled with worry and perturbation.

When I walked out of the bathroom, I saw how frantic both of my parents were. Their eyebrows were wrinkled in deep frowns. And they kept looking at me anxiously.

“I am fine. I just don’t feel too good,” I told them.

“Why? Is it something you had today?” mom was quick to ask.

“What did you eat tonight?” dad asked.

“A sandwich,” I shrugged. “At the Armis café,” I told them. That was the last meal I had with Elliot and I literally had thrown all of it up.

Could it be the last meal I would ever have with him? Once again, I started to feel nauseous. Perhaps the healers realised that I was not feeling fine and they quickly responded. They took a pill that they dropped in a glass of water and it completely dissolved in it.

“Quick princess. Drink this. It will help,” they said urgently.

Without resisting, I gulped it down. They were right, it did make me feel a little better.

“It is best that you don’t eat food outside, Carina. I know weekends are when you get to go out and perhaps drive around and have fun, but come home to have food.” Mom told me as she walked over to me.

“Yes mom.” I murmured monotonously. It wasn’t like that I could go out with him now. Not under these circumstances.

“Yes, better do that. Now rest. You don’t need to attend training or classes until you feel better. So tomorrow you are going to do nothing except rest.” Dad stated sternly.

“Yes dad.” I replied, sighing as mom led me to bed.

Cassy pov

I was fighting against my tears the entire time I followed mom out of the meeting room. I didn’t want to cry in front of anyone. But I simply couldn’t prevent my face from wilting. How could I? All the happiness and excitement we enjoyed together vanished into the thin air in a matter of seconds. And all it took was a few sentences that felt like being hit by a bolt of lightning.

“Now be a good girl and sleep. Okay? I need you to be strong and healthy. Mom and dad love you so much baby girl,” she stated, kissing my forehead.

I sighed. Being close to her always made me feel like I was home. Still, there was an irremovable pain embedded deep in my chest.

“Prepare a good medicine for her and make sure that she rests.” My mom instructed the royal healers, who bowed down to them as they walked out of the room.

“Princess…..”

I raised my hand.

“You can go right now. I just want to sleep.” I told them.

“Yes. Your majesty.” Both of them bowed before leaving.

I lay on the bed, adamant not to shed a tear in front of them. I asked them to leave so that I could be alone and let out the water work to my heart’s content. As soon as I heard the door close, I let my tears out. Trying my best to muffle the sound of my sobs, I cried to my heart’s content.

Why does life have to be so cruel to me? Why does my love life have to be a mess? At first, I thought finding a mate would give me all the happiness in the whole world. Yet my mate simply crushed my heart under his feet, leaving me with nothing except depression and trust issues. And this time, when I thought that finally I had got what I wanted- a loving and caring partner, I had to face this. The fear of him being ripped away from me.

I don’t know for how long I had been crying when my phone started to ring. When I saw that it was him, my sobs got worse. I couldn’t control them so I placed my pillow on my face so that no one would hear me. I couldn’t talk to him like that. I wanted to be strong. Not weak. And I wanted to prove it.

The phone disconnected and after much time passed, I took my phone, put it on silent mode and placed it under my pillow. I knew it was very late already and right now, all I wanted to do was sleep..

***

I woke up extremely late the next day. I guess they decided to let me rest. It was past noon when I woke up. I had missed breakfast, so mom made sure she excused herself from the royal duties just so she could make sure that I had a good lunch.

I tried to eat it, but I simply couldn’t swallow more than a few bites. I had lost my appetite. It was a good thing that mom and dad blamed the sandwich I had eaten yesterday. It saved me from a lot of explaining. However, the bad thing was that I had to take juices and medicines made from weird herbs that they promised would replenish my energy and appetite.

During supper, the duke of the north joined us. His mere existence ruined the whole atmosphere for me. Once again, I found it hard to swallow food and, thankfully, mom excused me, saying that I wasn’t feeling well. It was a good thing that Elliot had to heed to his duties at this time today. If he were there, he would understand why I was so sour. Besides, I feared that I wouldn’t be able to control myself in his presence.

“Mom. I’d like to go to my room. I think I need to sleep.” I told her, wanting to leave as soon as possible.

“Sure honey. But have this before you go.” She replied, pushing the glass of green goo, as I call it, towards me.

I held my breath and downed it one go, because it tasted strange. I didn’t like it. If I had the energy to resist I would have thrown a whole tantrum just because I didn’t want to take it. However, I was just too tired to do anything besides lock myself in my room and spend the entire time alone.

Time passed. All I did was lie on my bed, staring silently at the ceiling. After some time, there was a set of knocks. The scent that I loved hit my nose, telling me that it was him. Once again, my eyes welled with tears. I knew my sobs would gain his attention, so I covered my mouth with my hand and squeezed my eyes shut. Tears continued to stream out of the corners of my eyes and onto my mattress.

“Cass?” I heard his voice and my heart skipped a beat. I love him so much. I yearn for him. And I wish I could be with him. Yet, I didn’t reply. I was not ready to face him.

A few minutes passed and it seemed like he had left. His scent slowly faded away.

“Oh God. Please help,” I whispered with my eyes still squeezed shut. And tears are soaking my mattress.

“Hey girl.”

My eyes flung open. Huh? Who said that? I lay on the bed, looking around. I shook my head. Perhaps it was my mind playing tricks on me.

“Girl, I thought you were eager to finally meet me!”

There! Again! This time I sprung up on my bed, frantically looking out for an intruder.

“Who is there!” I demanded, going into full defence mode.

“Ugh! I never thought my human would be completely clueless!”

The voice whined. Huh? Human? Does that mean…….

“Bingo slowpoke. Meet your Lycan!”

“What?” I exclaimed. Oh, that voice was in my head. But wait…..did my lycan just call me a slow poke?

“You don’t need to shout out loud. Sheesh! I can hear you woman!”

My tears now dried up , I rolled my eyes and slumped on to the mattress. Sounds like my lycan has a lot of sass in her.

“Yeah, sassy like you girl. Remember, I’m you, just your lycan form.”

She replied, making my eyes go wide. She can hear my thoughts!

“Oh good lord help me! My human is clueless!”

“Where have you been? I am going through a tough time.” I complained through our mind link.

“I am here now honey. Whatever happens is the best for us. Now sleep. I need my beauty sleep to look fresh tomorrow. I don’t want to look like a raccoon like you did today.” Her response made me scoff.

“I did not look like a raccoon!” I retorted.

“Oh you did too! Raccoon!”

“Ugh. Girl! Are you with me or against me?” I asked, frowning.

“Of course I’m with you honey. Now you’re not crying are you?”

She asked, making me realise that she was right. Smiling, I lay on my pillow and took the bolster on the bed, holding it close. After covering myself with the sheets, I closed my eyes. I still wished for him to be mine. Yet, the awakening of my lycan actually made me feel a lot better. As I lay with my eyes closed, I realised that I hadn’t taken my phone today. I was too preoccupied by my worries to bother. Well, that can wait. I’ll take a look at it tomorrow. At least now I have my lycan with me. And I want to believe her. Whatever happens, is for the best.

“Oh wait. What’s your name?” I asked.

“Izzy. Now go to sleep, Carina.”