I never really noticed how the others have been eying me. I usually don't bother with that kind of things, I was always busy.

With what? Aren't you the one with the most freedom? Aren't you the one that is meant to be leading them? Weren't you a self chosen leader? They chose to follow you because of your strength and bravery, where is that bravery now?

Ernyök is a far greater warrior and even in the short time of despair stayed strong, strong whilst you cowared.

Mallia is undoubtedly the one that contributes the most. Her hunts are always fruitful and not one can bring back what she does.

Ge'trak is far wiser than you, not only can he predict the next moves of individuals but can also convince arachnids. Never has an arachnid ever done anything you say except for shared interests.

Dimitriv holds knowledge that you doubt even sages have easy access to and unlike you knows how to use it. And he's most definitely a reborn.

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Freya surpasses you in every physical aspect possible and could by force take over.

What is it? What is that gives you that right to lead? Not even unarmed ones would lose against you.

So tell me. What gives you the right to lead?

I didn't like those words but they're my own so I can't argue. Until now I have been rellieing on my anima but that doesn't mean anything.

I haven't achieved anything.

I leaned into the hug and started crying.

I needed this.

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I held the flower in between two of my fingers and then a thought jumped into my mind.

Why do I still have it?

I collected it because its a key ingredient in making my favourite poison, the one that makes you bleed tears.

But why didn't I.

Unprocessed it might aswell be good smelling tra8sh. Yet I didn't do anything with it.

But why- shut up.

I know why.

I closed my eyes and let my mind wander into my soul.

I opened my eyes and was greeted with my old self. Plague doctor clothes with a black mask. It feels good being familiar clothes again but I can't get rid of the dread in my throat.

I didn't feel like being in my 'work' clothes so with just a thought they were switched with green and black robes.

Why this of everything.

I agreed with that and switched to a nobles attire.

I wandered around looking for what stopped me.

Found you.