Inside of a dark and unclear dream like state Ryan and Alex fall asleep. Inside the dream they hear the words: “Understanding your Empathy of fear is the key. For that: If you want to find out who your real friends are, sink the ship. The first ones to jump aren't your friends” Marilyn Manson calls out from the sky of this unset and unclear dream.
Suddenly Ryan and Alex find themselves fading apart from each other on this grey grass field they spawned into.
Alex finds herself all alone and waking up in Ryan’s bed at his house. She looks down and notices she wasn’t in her own body. She was trapped in Ryan’s body. Not only that she was in his room and Vicky was sleeping next to her. Vicky was just waking up from her slumber and reaches over and places her arms around Alex. “Hi baby, I’m horny. Let’s do it before school” Vicky says to Alex. Alex who was alarmed, looks at the mirror in Ryan’s Room and realizes she really is in his body somehow. Confused at what was going on, she looks at the phone by the bed and looks at the date. It was November 13th, 2019. A year that she never got to experience because she has been long dead from that fateful day at school.
Vicky who resembled someone who almost resembled a young Taylor Momsen, was now grabbing Alex by the crotch and giving her a kiss on the neck. Alex who felt aroused from this, was a little confused. Normally when someone would kiss on her the neck the sensation was 500% more stronger than this. She noticed in Ryan’s body she started getting an Erection. The feeling of this felt so weird, but when Vicky hoped on top, Alex went to town and had sex from a man’s perspective.
After It was over Vicky points to the time and says: “Time for school! Let’s ride there honey” she says. While getting dressed.
Alex who was on the bed gasping in excitement after the sensation she felt from that male orgasm gets up and looks in the mirror. She Opens up one of Ryan’s closets and pulls out a nice pair of emo styled clothes.
She then is lead downstairs to Ryan’s Motorcycle. Alex who was confused as to what Vicky originally wanted; got the hint she was driving them to school. When Alex got on the bike she was confused as to what to do. She never drove a motorcycle before. But suddenly like clockwork she all of a sudden did know. It felt like a bunch of knowledge was beamed down to her head. She felt comfortable in Ryan’s body and almost knew everything he did. She squeezes the clutch and Vicky hops on. She then skillfully drives them to school.
When they arrive, Vicky gives her a kiss and walks away. Alex for some reason has an issue clipping her helmet to the helmet holder of the bike and suddenly Amanda comes walking behind her.
“Ryan, you need listen to me. Leave Vicky now. She is faking her feelings that she has for you. I wish you would listen to me and break up with her.” Amanda says.
Alex looks at Amanda and how she held her hands in jealousy on her hips reminds her of someone she knows personally somehow. Alex who knows Ryan’s life story wants to say, “I know your Right, I think I will do it today.” But can’t. Like a prewritten script she must follow she says: “Please just stop. What I and Vicky have is bulletproof. That cosplay stunt we pulled was fun and all, but you need to stop trying to get in between us” Alex then puts his headphones into her ears and starts playing the song: “If You Can't Live Without Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet” From Mayday Parade and walks away from her.
Alex who may have been following a robotic script, could actually see this was rude as hell coming from Ryan. Her feminine charm and understanding were still there even though she was somehow seeing Ryan’s past through his eyes. She somehow thought this girl deserved to be listened to more and less treated like shit even though the person he was dating appeared to be controlling and manipulative.
Having to pee, Alex decides into the school and admires Ryan’s High School. She then jogs down to the nearest bathrooms and walks right into the women’s bathroom. Upon walking into the bathroom, she hears screams from other female students. When she looks into the mirror and realizes she is a guy, she puts up her hand and apologizes to them. “Sorry I wasn’t paying attention!” Alex screams as she darts out.
She walks into the men’s bathroom and reliefs herself from Ryan’s body. This being her first time ever using a penis, she pisses all over the floor and toilet.
When she walks out of the bathroom suddenly a timelapse occurs. Time speeds up quickly and she finds herself in a classroom at the last bell of the day on the last school day of the month of December. Amanda was in this class with him and staring at him while the “mean girls” in the back were talking shit about her within earshot.
When the bell went off, Alex saw Ryan ignore her and headed straight to the student parking lot to get to his bike. Vicky was there waiting for her and hops on and puts on her helmet. They then drive off. Alex takes her home and she hops off and gives her a kiss. Alex then drives off and heads home. Suddenly at home time speeds up. Ryan is now getting the dreadful call from Vicky about them breaking up. Alex feels uncontrollable sadness coming from this conversation and like lives out this dreaded moment from Ryan’s perspective. She falls onto the bed and starts crying.
Time leaps forward again and she is waking up sad and is reliving Ryan’s last day alive. She takes a shower listening to “Somethings Gotta Give” by All Time Low and puts on that Halo suit of his and rides to the bus stop to acquire that neckless from one of his friends. She then pops a wheelie and takes off going to school. Alex relives the whole day and incident from Ryan’s Eyes and notices a side of Ryan she hasn’t seen before ever since she met him. Ryan was quirky under all this sadness and had a mindset of doing everything he could to brighten everyone’s day. He had dedication to this “mission” was unbelievable. This 25-pound suit she was forced to wear was extremely heavy and trapped heat. Not moving was unbearable. When she was forced to run around the track with it on, she wanted to scream but the “Auto-pilot” Mode didn’t allow her to deviate from the events of that day. She had to live out the events of that day from his eyes. When She was forced to go see the dean about Kyle losing his tooth, she was a little bit shocked to see how Ryan handled it.
When the event unfolded, she could feel Ryan’s train of thought. One side of him wanted to remain calm, and the other side of him was angry that Vicky just broke up with him. The angry side of him made him show his ass. Alex who sat in that little “shell” wanted to stay calm. But the events took a turn for the worst. When She got outside to remove the parking sticker from his motorcycle as ordered by the dean, she could feel something that Ryan didn’t mention when he told her this story. He wanted his mother right now more than anything else. He had a deep inner breakdown for his mothing missing out on him all his life and didn’t feel loved by her. She feels flash backs of Ryan trying to connect to her but those uncontrollable arguments that always took place out of habit that he has gotten used to doing as a protective measure, a measure that always assured that he got the last word in the argument so he could only hear what HE wanted.
Right now, Alex felt the explosive nature of his inner anger and was deeply cutting his arm on a sharp edge of his motorcycle. The pain from the deep cut was followed images of deep anger and jealousy from his sister and his mother. Then suddenly he breaks down uncontrollably. He feels like a failure right now and the switch in his head flips. His suicide mode was turned on. She was now listening to “What My Heart Held” by We Came As Romans and hauling ass down the road.
Alex who was now not in control of this body, was forced to experience this last Ride.
Alex who sat passive as she felt Ryan’s thoughts of self-pity and anger run through her head starts screaming inside her own mind
“RYAN WHAT THE FUCK! YOU’RE KILLING YOURSELF OVER BEING KICKED OUT OF YOUR HOUSE? THIS IS SO STUPID. THIS IS TOO EXTREAME YOU LITTLE AROGANT SELF PITTYING ASSHOLE! WHAT THE FUCK DUDE!” She screams in anger as the motorcycle chain snaps.
“Holy shit No!” Alex screams as she heads straight toward a No U-turn sign at 160 miles an hour. Suddenly everything goes dark, and Alex finds herself in a Car driving down the road in some desert at night all alone and confused.
While this was happening, Ryan was meanwhile living the last days of Alex’s life out.
Right now, it was Five in the morning and Ryan was waking up to some gunshots outside the window.
He wakes up and stretches and thinks to himself as he hears gunshots.
“My Redneck neighbors must be enjoying themselves” he says to himself as he looks at the clock on the wall.
He pulls back the blinds on the window and sees an apartment complex outside with around 14 people screaming, running and cursing at each other. He then sees someone pop off rounds at 2 people in the group indiscriminately. The other group then rapidly fires back at them and for some reason, Ryan dives onto the floor. While ducking for cover on the floor, Ryan then notices his arms are not white and his chest feels weird with all the pressure he was applying on it. Confused at what was going on he carefully stands up and turns the light on to the room. He then looks at himself and the mirror.
Like Alex, he was confused to find out he was trapped in someone else’s body and as another Sex. He sees Alex’s reflection in the mirror and feels slightly top heavy in his chest section. Moments later outside an all-out gang war erupts and the volume of gun fire increases tenfold, Ryan gets back down to the ground.
He feels fear overcome him, and for some reason starts to cry. For the longest 10 minutes of his life this situation was pure hell for him until police arrive. He can hear police yelling and issuing orders outside and then more gunfire erupts from the police’s high-powered rifles.
Ryan can hear Alex’s mother calling out to her sister “Shanita” and can begging her to stay on the ground until this was over. Ryan expects to hear her mother ask if “Acura” is okay, but doesn’t even here this come out of her mouth.
30 minutes of laying on the ground they can hear officers knocking on everyone’s doors telling them this incident is clear and is asking people for information on people who got away. Ryan when he gets up can hear a loud neighbor from 2 doors down refusing to tell the police what they saw.
Ryan then decides to close the blinds and get a better look at himself in the mirror. He looks at Alex’s hairstyle and can see she just recently changed up her hair not that long ago. He looks at Alex’s budget smartphone and reads her messages. He finds a message that shows her getting this “Emo” make-over at a salon and sending it to some girl named Katie along with 5 others of her friends. He then tries to piece together what was going on.
“Okay, we were attacked by Marilyn Manson, got trapped in a bubble and now I am in Alex’s body” He thinks to himself. Suddenly the alarm on Alex’s phone goes off.
Already up he looks at himself in Alex’s night gown and decides to squeeze his boobs playfully. He then has an uncontrollable urge to take a selfie making a “Duck Face” and post it on Snapchat.
Seeing a red flag here Ryan right off the bat spots the fact he’s acting out a scripted action. He knows he hates Snapchat and people who are addicted to Instagram. If he’s doing this out of habit or uncontrollably this must be a scripted dream somehow.
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However, as he thinks about this, he looks at Alex’s clothes and doesn’t know what to wear today.
He looks at Alex’s last message she sent to her friend Katie, and he takes a bunch of pictures of the clothes she had in her closet.
“Can’t decide what to wear!” He texts out to Katie.
Katie then replies back within a minute of what she gave her two days ago to wear.
Ryan pulls out a smooth plaid black and white dress and a C cup bra and places it onto the bed. He then takes off the night gown and looks at himself in the mirror. Having a Vagina, and NOT a penis between his legs terrified him, and had him have a flash back of neutering that fox person. He takes a calm deep breath and puts on some underwear and tries to “Go with the Flow” with this whole-body switching ordeal. He then reaches for the bra on the bed and attempts to put it on.
Unaware how to put on the bra, Ryan tries to put it on behind him and fails horribly at it. Suddenly he is hit with that weird automatic wisdom on how to do it. He suddenly gets it on. He pokes his boobs out of curiosity and takes in the weird sensation of having a real set of boobs. He then puts on the dress onto Alex’s body and looks in the mirror. He finds himself hot, and then smiles and goes and grabs the eyeliner that matches Alex’s light black skin tone. Naturally he knows how to apply eyeliner but laughs at himself for not knowing how to put on a bra. He then puts on his socks and tennis shoes that had cute little custom handmade black hearts and skulls sewed onto them. Then he pulls out a chocker from her top dresser drawer and some arm socks.
He then is grabs her backpack and this whole “Autopilot” life mode thing activates. Ryan walks to the bus stop and puts in Alex’s headphones and listens to the song “The Image Of The Invisible” From Thrice. He stands at the bus stop while 12 other black girls stare at him with Alex’s fresh new Emo girl appearance. The young unguided girls talk shit behind him, but he turns up the music and ignores them. When the bus arrives, Ryan steps onto the bus and naturally finds Alex’s friend Katie. He sits down next to her and talks to her. Suddenly time starts to flash forward quickly. As fast as he boarded the bus, he was getting off the bus and walking home. Upon arriving at the house, Alex’s mother instructs him to fix a power outlet in the living room.
When her mother asked, it wasn’t a really nice request, it was more of a rude demand. Ryan then walks over to the power outlet and attempts to fix it. He gets his ass shocked by forgetting power off to this section of the house and hyperventilates in fear. When the fear wears off, he turns off the power at the circuit breaker and automatically spots wires that were loosely connected to the outlet. He takes out her phone and researches how the wires should look like and where they go. He watches a full video on how to install a new outlet and takes the existing one that was there and fixes it.
After the TV turns on in the living room Alex’s mother glares at him and says: “Good its fixed. Now get your ugly white trash ass out of my sight. Come talk to me when you want to respect your heritage again Acura”
Ryan felt a little bit of pre-scripted sadness after hearing that from Alex’s mother, and uncontrollably stomps back into her room. Ryan then notices a broken stereo-project Alex was working on. She had previously taped up some stereo speaker wire that was in bad condition and all she had to do now was connect the wires to the right ports. Ryan automatically does this and tests the speakers on a random FM station. With them working, Ryan goes along with the pre-scripted plan of the day and starts to play “Sonne” By Rammstein on a loud volume while he does her homework. He soon has a loud demanding noise from her mother to quote “Turn that demonic tongue shit off”. Ryan then screams: Fuck off mom! I am learning how to count in German” Ryan says uncontrollably. He then turns down the song and starts Screaming the song in German.
Her mother who was on the other side of the door was breathless and saying a prayer for her daughter thinking she is possessed. Ryan then hops back on Alex’s bed and Katie texts him. Suddenly time jumps forward 5 months, and he is about to relive a lesbian romantic moment with her friend Katie through her eyes. Just as Alex’s clothes slip off, time jumps forward Frustrating Ryan who was so teased by this.
When time stops warping forward, it was 3 months later, and Ryan notices Katie was no longer on Alex’s contact list. This automatically fills in some questionable gaps.
Now sitting at the dinner table Ryan relives through a moment of Alex purposefully talking in German that she learned from translating the lyrics to some of Rammstein songs she’s been actively listening too. Speaking this language at the dinner table pissed off Alex’s mother, and turns some heads of some of the neighbors that were over that night. Embarrassed, Alex’s stepfather throws his hands up and leaves the house and goes outside while glaring at Alex’s mother. Her sister was secretly laughing at this little stunt of hers secretly. Alex’s mother who was infuriated over this, takes away her full dinner plate and sends her to her room cursing and screaming at her.
Time then flips forward again by a few hours. Later that night Ryan relives the night Alex sneaks outside her window to grab something from the nearby convenience store.
Ryan notices Alex’s sister waiting outside for her. Ryan who was on top of everything Alex told him about her life tries to freeze in place. He knew this has to be “The Night” and doesn’t want to witness what’s about to happen. He tries his best to walk back into the house, but this fateful night had to be played out in his eyes.
A terrifying red demonic hand comes out from the ground beneath him and scares the living shit out of him. It then grabs a hold of his leg and forces him away from guard rail that he was holding on to. This little hand of Fate whisks him away from the window and to the store to get some candy and some chips.
Then the infamous story that Alex told about her sister unfolds right in front of him.
On the way back home the two of them walk behind the building to sneak in through Alex’s open window. On the way around the side of the building they spot trouble. A gang who was waiting for something, was staging near the alley they had to pass through. Shanita who was a little bit worried because she saw a whole other gang with different colors on, packed inside a car that was parked across the street from store they just left. This being an obvious red flag that a gang war was about to take place they decide to pick up the pace and get inside fast. Suddenly they hear tires from a car squeal to a stop. Gang A and Gang B instantly see each other the guns come out along with the people inside the car. Suddenly they start firing at each other.
Ryan then Follows Alex’s actions that night and ducks down but doesn’t run. Gang B can see Alex clearly, but how she appeared to them at a glance, they didn’t even consider her a threat. This was because her emo white girl appearance stuck out like a sore thumb. Sure, they could have shot her without remorse, but with the threat clear and right in front of them, they choose to ignore her and fire all the limited ammo that they had at what was a critical threat to them right now.
That critical threat right now that the gang members were keen on looking for was a particular stereotype of Black Male or Female that Alex did not at all fit the bill for. Shanita on the other hand, who had an instantly recognizable inner city black girl appearance and flashy attire on was instantly mistaken for a Gang A Female member by running away toward a dumpster.
Two men from Gang B thought she was going to hide in some cover and fire at them. So, they all focused their gunfire on her since a woman from Gang A already just shot one of their own. Ryan who was trapped in Alex’s hellish memory then started screaming from Alex’s point of view. When all the members of Gang B knocked out all of Gang A they saw Alex still ducking down and screaming. Ryan then can hear someone shout: “Leave the bitch lets get the fuck out of here!” Suddenly everyone gets back in the car and speeds off.
Less than 3 minutes later brave neighbors peek out to examine the chaos that rocked this this apartment complex yet again. They see the settling smoke of the burnt gunpowder fading away and bodies lying all over the place. Alex’s mother who was among the curious few to peek out sees Her dead daughter laying outside near Alex who was crying.
Police arrive on scene in less than 9 minutes, but the traumatizing aftermath is then fast forwarded a few days. Ryan finds himself still trapped as Alex reliving her past.
At this moment in time Alex’s mother was extremely hostile toward her in all the ways she could be. Ryan was living through a moment where her mother said, “she wishes You took those bullets, instead of your sister”. Alex’s mother then says, “You wouldn’t be missed”. Hurt by this Ryan starts crying from Alex’s perspective. Suddenly time warps forward to before the funeral.
Ryan still following Alex’s painful past felt overwhelmed by the sheer amount of regret and all the hurt caused by Alex’s mother words.
Ryan finds himself inside Alex’s room with all her stuff broken and shattered. A day prior while she was out for walk to clear her head her mother charged in with a baseball bat and started destroying everything. The debris all over the floor Ryan was laying in represented how Alex pictured her life right now.
Everything was in shambles. Ryan felt a oh too familiar feeling and saw that dark and heavy thought cloud of suicide looming inside her head. He could see Alex staring at long piece of rope she once used as a Clothesline in her room during the summer when money was tight. She was thinking about tying it ceiling fan and hanging herself. Ryan who suddenly saw Alex resist this urge quickly and calm herself down by switching the subject in her head and start playing music. Something they both had common ground on when shit hit the fan.
Alex pulls out her cracked budget smartphone and opens up YouTube. The first song that popped into her head was the thing she was going to listen to. She heard her mother crying in the room next door and her aunts repeating the word Jesus over and over again.
An autosuggestion of “Jesus of Suburbia” comes on the search bar and she hits it. She plugs in her headphones and depressively plays the song on Auto repeat until she falls asleep.
In the morning Alex is happy to be alive, and Ryan is amazed she could keep her composure. The next day she heads out to the funeral for her sister, and dresses fully emo. Her mother who upon sight of seeing her outfit, refused to take her to the funeral for how she presented herself. Keeping her composure Alex calls in a favor from an ex-boyfriend. His mother picks her up and takes her to the cemetery and drops her off.
Surprised to see her daughter here before the funeral, Alex’s mother had a surprise in store for her daughter. Her cousins who were here for the funeral bought into the whole B.S. of this being all Alex’s fault by her mother. All these cousins had a timer ticking down inside their heads for after when the funeral was over.
Alex kept her distance from the rest of the family and stayed in the back of everyone. She said her farewells silently and when it was time to carry her sister out and put her sister in the ground, Alex turns to music yet again.
She puts both headphones in and opts in to listen to a different and experimental genre of music. A song one of her Goth friends randomly texted her late last night while she was sleeping through all the torment.
When the song “The Other Side” By SIRENIA starts playing in her ears, she starts crying as the casket was lowered. Overwhelmed by her emotions, Alex then turns around and walks away from everyone. She then starts walking home which was around 6 miles away. Ryan who was listened to the Alex’s thoughts and watched flashbacks of all the fun times She and her sister had with each other. When she arrives at home a few hours a later she is greeted with a very dark surprised. Her cousins immediately jump her and beat her ass.
During the uncalled-for attack, Ryan could feel Alex give up the remaining hope she had on living. After everyone got done pummeling her with her fists, Alex falls face down onto her bed and silently cries.
When everyone leaves Alex gets up and walks over to the broken mirror in her room. She picks up a shard of Glass and when Ryan gets the hint she’s about to do something bad he tries to fight it. But not wanting to see this evil demonic hand of fate show up, he lets her do what was floating around in her mind. Alex starts cutting her arms deeply with this shard of glass, and also underneath her breasts violently.
The shear empathic connection of her cutting such a sensitive area made him scream. Not knowing why Alex didn’t want to stop and keep going with this excruciating pain she was causing herself made him pray for a time warp.
In that moment the time warp was granted. He was able to skip Alex’s Self- destruct sequence and wake up the next day. Where all they do is skip school and stay home. The next day Alex musters up the strength to get up and head to school. She skips taking the bus and decides to walk to school which was about 7 miles away. The world fast forwards one more time to where she was a Half mile away from school.
Ryan was now being forced to relive the last and cruelest part of Alex’s life. Ryan knowing this was coming decides to get strong the song “Coma White” from Marilyn Manson was playing in her headphones as she was walking up the stairs to get into the front of the school. Upon getting inside the school Alex didn’t care anymore about anything. She grabs her books from her locker and heads to class.
Suddenly a commotion is spotted inside her class. She hears gunfire and sees everyone charges out of the room in a hurry, while everyone was evacuating, Alex was pushing herself inward and sees an angry boy who just shot a few kids that bullied him. He was now threating a bunch of girls that ruined a relationship for him. Alex who clearly didn’t give a fuck, got right in front of this kid’s gun and looked him in the eyes.
She didn’t care that the girls taking refuge behind her were racist bullies to her, she at this point didn’t care about anything right now.
The psychotic kid then decides shoots her multiple times. Ryan who was connected to Alex could feels these deadly blows in his chest and wanted to scream. Alex from her point of view did not scream. When she collapsed on the ground, she smiled at the fact the end of her torment was here. As she felt the blood escaping from inside her, she sees the resource officer charge in and drop the kid while he reloads. Then both his and Alex’s eyes slowly start to close. Ryan then mysteriously gets teleported into the very same car Alex was driving.
They both then look at each other speechless.
Simultaneously they both say: “I Saw how you died!” Then out of nowhere Alex punches Ryan right in the face as hard as she could and stops the car.