WHEN YOU ARE YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY

I am god what a verfickte messed up thing to be told…yet it was always true. I was always destining to become god and yet I want none of this power, it feels so unnatural. I just want to go back to being me. It’s quite now as everyone has left only Ritsuko remains watching from the walk way above along with the others monitoring us.

I feel so bad I was right I gave Rei what I had now she’s suffering because I’m so verfickte stupid. Now I just fear my own power and the other me and what she is capable off and that I have no control over her. A voice suddenly shattered her thoughts as Rei spoke mentality in her mind again. “Stop beating yourself up over this Asuka…I wanted to sleep with you. I’m as much to blame we both bear equal fault in why we are here now together.”

Asuka turned watching as she put the book down she was reading as she spoke back mentality. “How do you feel about all this, I mean really?” Rei looked down slightly not hiding her thoughts as she thought them from Asuka the truth was she wasn’t afraid of what was happening her.

In fact in a strange way she was feeling oddly calm about it all. Like she’d somehow she’d gone through this before somehow she wasn’t even really afraid when she thought about it in fact she felt stronger now than ever in her life as she could voice what she wanted finally and without fear. Asuka’s voice spoke in her mind calmly as she moved her huge form walked towards the central glass. “I’m glad then at least you feel more positive about this than I do.”

Asuka breathed in deeply putting her clawed hand on the glass between them as she spoke mentality. “I still don’t know why it is you can hear my thoughts this glass and you can hear mine.” Rei looked down speaking mentality. “I think the AT field here is weak.”

A red gloved hand suddenly tapped the AT field shield causing her to turn sharply as a figure came in to view who had not been there before. It was some strange looking man of Arabic descent who had jet black hair and thick beard both were whiting.

He also wore a long black coat and suit and a strange visor like glasses across his eyes as he spoke calmly in to both their minds. “No the AT field is not weak you both just have a very strong soul connection that reaches through it, its most fascinating.”

Asuka turned looking at him still not speaking openly instead making it from her mind. “Get out of my verfickte head and hers right now!”

The older odd looking man adjusted his visor as a slight smile formed before raising his red gloved hand. “No offence intended to you reborn god, I simple wanted to marvel in your wonder.”

Asuka didn’t think as she slammed her tail out violently smashing it right near the AT field shield near his face, causing him to pull back sharply as she spoke openly. “Go verfickte marvel somewhere else….”

Rei eyed the man also speaking openly. “Who are you?”

The man breathed in deeply as he turned to her adjusting glasses like visor with his gloved hand. “My name is Dante I am the voice of Seele so to speak and the leader.” Asuka got up her mane suddenly rising and standing on end. As the anger started to burn as she stepped close to the AT field her right eye burned brighter as she snarled at him. “We were told you were coming, your one of those verfickte assholes who kept the truth from me my whole life that I was destine to become this.”

Dante breathed in steading himself feeling the intense pulsing of the AT field shield. “Yes I am but understand would we have told you. You would never have believed us as from a young age you’ve never believed in gods due to your mother’s suicide though you and I both know she is not dead just like Rei’s aunt.”

He looked up slightly. “We believe that was part of your rebirth your old self never wanted that temptation again. It’s clearly why you also pulled away from the light when Bardiel offered it to you not so long back you were clearly created to reject power and human instrumentality.”

He paused. “It why even now even with all this power, you’d rather be a human, it’s probably why in your later teens you rejected bullying and wanted to better yourself. It’s why we did not interfere as Bardiel was your test and you succeeded where your forma self-failed. Its why we went out of our way to get you out of 02’s core, because we believed after your creation of the two spears of destiny that you were truly reformed and that this side of you we can trust…as we can’t trust your other self… the one who is coming through.”

He looked over at Rei. “We also know you want to stay with her, because you love her.” Asuka narrowed her gaze. “Funny, how you seem to understand me better than Gendo. He just thinks I’m an animal that’s get controlled by sexual favours.”

Dante put his gloved hands together. “Let me be clear with you…godly sex is very dangerous, it can suck out the lover’s soul killing them instantly if done incorrectly. She’s alive and perfectly fine instead and she’s started to have similar issues to you. The fact that she remains alive and well means you had full control and you cared enough that you wanted it to be pleasing and not take anything from her and that you do not feel the need to own her or feel the need to possess her.”

Rei stood up looked at him. “They told us you and the five are demi gods that you lived one life and you remember the forma.” Dante turned to her. “Yes we are demi gods and that is true we remember you past selves.” He breathed in deeply putting his hand up easing up his glasses visor for a moment revealing his eyes. “Plus myself and Asuka are not that dissimilar as it would stand in the now.”

He lowered the glasses clicking them in to place seeing the shock in both their faces. “The difference is I have lived through human instrumentality where as you forgot everything and were reborn as a sleeping god in human form.”

Asuka leaned closer to him quickly locking down her inner thoughts from both him and Rei for a moment so nether would hear this. Clearly it wasn’t just the god Rei that existed was not the only god she opened her thoughts again as she spoke calmly hoping nether of them would notice. “I find it sad that in the religious text I had to be the destroyer and not a good or kind savour.”

Dante put his hands together. “Destroyer and savour can have a very fine line, though my-self and Seele saw you, the other you as a brutal teacher of our wrongs doings. As you punished us the worst of all in human instrumentality, yet you gave us the strength to turn our back on Keel, who used to be one of us and recreate a Nerv where you and the other pilots would flourish and be happy.”

Rei looked at him. “So I guess the saying, there are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy, is true.” Dante turned to look at her as he leaned against the AT field shield a smile forming. “Yes Shakespeare’s saying has merit in this situation Rei and I should ask how are you taking all this?”

Rei looked up slightly. “I don’t know what to even make of it, but everyone says it’s true so it has to be.” Dante looked at her as he stood up fully. “Understand that we will fix all this, as we have prepared for this for a very long time.”

Asuka shook her mane scowling slightly. “I once had a recurring dream when I was a child of being a new creator and pulling myself out of red waters on a sandy beach to look up at a moon situated in red.” She turned to him. “Tell me why I had that dream, was it a warning? Because that was clearly from my other self’s memories and not mine...”

Dante turned to her. “Sometimes a small piece is left even in rebirth as it’s like creating a new layer but sometimes you need the spark of the has been to create the new. It’s why you can have déjà vu and sometimes dreams from your forma life. I have always envied mortal lives for the fact you can forget where as we have to live forever with our foolish misdeeds it is part of the curse of being immortal.”

Asuka moved closer to the shield feeling her right eye get even warmer as eyed him looking for some form of lie not caring that she was looking directly at his thoughts…yes there was some form of lie but it wasn’t about this. It was about something else but she couldn’t see what he was. He was masking it well it was also clear he was letting her look in and not stopping her. “I see.”

Rei turned to her as there eyes met though nothing was spoken between them but they both sensed it that something was out of their reach she could feel it from her. “I see and would another curse be that my other self was destine to be reborn though me.”

Dante looked up slightly not quite sure what was going on between them because they’d both looked at each other but nothing had been transferred it was like a harsh form of radio silence. which he didn’t understand. Clearly that bond was way more powerful than any of them had realized. Unlike her counterpart this Asuka had a really strong spiritual connection to this Rei in a way her predecessors had never had. “Yes and no but it depends on you but at this point it’s clear to me you want this over as much as we do.”

He paused feeling that he had to be honest about something and say something which he had never said before to a pilot in all twenty cycles. “Seele is sorry for the suffering we caused you in your later teens and that we were almost ready to see you go after the Alpha Unit incident. You see we feared you and we kept your leash far too short, we always thought that you were destine to grow up in to a monster like your forma self and at one point you were so close but the battle of Shamshel changed you forever and now we know everything.”

Asuka eyed him for a long moment before speaking. “If you have not noticed I am a monster.” Rei turned sharply. “No you’re not and if you are a monster then you’re my monster, no one else’s.” Asuka turned to look at her remembering those words she’s said that people could call her a monster all the wanted but she’d always belong to her. “Yes I did say that.” Rei nodded. “Yes you did.”

Dante stepped away from the AT field shield. “No you see that’s where you’re wrong Asuka. Monsters don’t have compassion and they can’t love. You have that your forma self never did along with foresight. So no I’m not in the presence of a monster only a benevolent god right now. So all I ask of you now is to trust us, so we can save you. Because what I will ask off you next must be off your own free will, you must help us bind your dark half and suppress it.”

Asuka looked at him for a long moment. “I want this to end as much as you.” Dante felt a smile form. “Good then we understand each other and after your meal I’ll brings what’s necessary. Though it will only be a stop gap.”

8

I’m so verfickte hungry can they hurry up already with my food its driving me nuts. They told me it’s this form but it’s still deeply annoying Rei got hers some time ago she’s eating a dinner a large tofu rice bowl along with some savoury egg pancakes, it’s really weird here, a slot opens close to the side of the AT field shield and all your meals are put through it you have pull it towards you to get your food.

It also seems that unlike any another building here there are moving sections. I know there’s another room behind this one it’s a big room I can sense it and the AT shield is also covering it, but it’s a guest room of some kind and I think both our rooms can open in to it, I just don’t know how yet. It’s like it’s built to be first floor of a house because I think there is a kitchen in there as well as eating area and sofas.

Ritsuko’s voice suddenly hit her ears. “Your food is coming through Asuka, just a moment.” Asuka stood up watching a huge slot opened and the smell of roasted pork hit her nose. She moved over grabbing the slot with her clawed forcing it her way as she dug her head in grabbing her food with her teeth before moving over to the corner, as she started to eat it.

Misato breathed in deeply it was like watching a real lion or tiger eat the only difference was it was cooked. Asuka was clearly very hungry and chewing away section by section leaving bite mark in the bone as the ultra-long canines on the top and bottom jaw did their job pulling meat free. Misato watched Asuka from the walkway as the slot was closed and a large metal container filled with caramel milkshake was put through the slot. “How much food are you giving her?”

Ritsuko monitored her holographic screen as she spoke calmly. “The whole cooked pig carcass without the arms, legs heads guts is about a hundred pounds worth of meat and a hundred and fifty ounces of caramel milkshake. She didn’t want desert Rei does thought and her honey toast is coming soon.” Misato shook her head watching as Maya looked over from her screen opposite while Kaji leaned against the walk way and Gendo stood away from them watching with interest. “It’s like watching some fucking crazy eating challenge.”

Ritsuko watched as Asuka pulled out the tall metal mixer out with her milkshake out of the slot then dropped half of the pig bones in it with a clatter. She took her drink over sitting down as she started to eat the other half of the roasted pig. “The price of not being a god but becoming one…if they go fully that way they’ll no longer need to eat at all…but right now they’re both stuck in the middle.”

She looked over. “The reason they can’t have people in there is once their finished they’ll flex the shield since the food will boost their powers for a moment.” Maya breathed in. “Do you think Dante’s collar will work?”

Ritsuko looked at her as she watched Asuka started to drink which was like hearing a pipe guzzle water it was that loud. She waited for it to stop before speaking. “Dante is an asshole.” She breathed in deeply. “But he is never wrong and he has never led me or Gendo astray and he’s honest to a fault, even if it hurts you.” Kaji looked at her. “Is this the first time you’re seeing him as a person not when he’s with in the monolith?”

Ritsuko turned slightly. “No this is the second time, he spoke to me when I first came to Nerv though what he said to me really isn’t any of your business and was between us…first time I’ve seen under his glasses visor though.”

She turned hearing the sudden crash as Asuka threw the rest of the bones from the carcass in to the metal slot then carried on drinking her milkshake despite that her long canine teeth were starting to buckle and bend the rim. “I still don’t know if I should fear or worship Seele as before I met Dante I never believed in gods. I was happier believing in science because to me it made sense of everything.”

She turned pointing in Asuka’s direction. “In science that form should not exist yet here it does and it’s real and if I was put my hand through the fur I know it would be as real as any living animals and I still wouldn’t be able to explain it, because Seele’s version of science, the same science that built the Evangelions is beyond our comprehension or understanding.”

She narrowed her gaze. “I quit science for business because I was never happy as a scientist and it was my mother’s wish and also because Dante made me realize that Seele science was always beyond me it’s created by demi gods and only for demi gods to understand.”

She looked around. “I know how every science room in Nerv works accept the Soul Ark where we stand now. I still don’t understand what it’s doing in full as its Seele’s design all we know is how to operate it via manual.” Misato turned slightly. “Wow, that’s a big admission from you.”

Ritsuko eased on her glasses typing in to the hologram screen. “It’s the truth.” She watched as Asuka put down her empty drinking item as she yawned stretching and like a cat which caused the shield to waver and a huge power spike to show on screen which was closely followed Rei’s doing the same but more by her stretching and yawning before both shields returned to normal. “Okay you can let the others in again to visit them.”

8

It weird that people don’t need to speak when you can read their thoughts like as if you were watching the wide screen TV or speaking directly to them. Yet as I listen in and I know I shouldn’t even though its pure whispers now it still feels alien and odd yet when I did in to Asuka’s mind it feels more like a comfort blanket.

Maybe because we both understand on a deeper level than any of the others what is happening to us? Maybe this is why the gods in our myths always got bored of humanity and acted out negatively because your level of thought is so beyond their thinking. Though, I have to question if the Seele six has posed as some of those gods in the past.

I watch as Mari raises the card in her hand she’s been playing this game with Asuka for a while now seeing if she knows what card she’s holding up. I think Asuka is getting bored she’s starting to read her manga out of the corner of her eye, while pretending to be engaged just for her older sisters benefit.

The others are here to while I think Ritsuko is monitoring from the room above. It’s like there waiting for something to happen but it’s not happened yet. Dante said he knew when the time would come and so would we but the waiting is annoying and we have been told by Ritsuko once it’s over the other parts of this building can be opened to us and people can visit us.

Mari eased up a playing card they had now been given chairs but had to stay away from the AT fields shield. “What’s this one?” Asuka breathed in deeply. “It’s the five of clubs.” Mari reshuffled the playing cards raising another. “What’s this one?” Asuka breathed in deeply. “It’s the King of clubs.”

Mari reshuffled again pulling up a new card. “Okay now this one.” Asuka turned slightly. “Eight of spades….” Mari looked at her seeing she was now getting bored. “Okay last one.” Asuka spoke before she even raised the card. “It’s the five of Diamonds” Mari lowered the card as she put them to one side on one of the monitoring desks. “Yeah there all right only I don’t get why you never got any hearts no matter how much I shuffle the deck.”

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Asuka lay back flicking through the manga using as single claw to turn the pages. “Why does that even matter?” Mari eyed the cards which Shinji had taken and was looking through. “I don’t know it’s just weird as normal when I shuffle I normally get a heart.” Asuka eyed the AT field shield. “Must be me affecting them then in that’s the case.” She turned lowering her tail putting down the manga as she felt a feeling take over that could only be described as awful like wanting to be sick. “Maybe I should lie down, I don’t feel so good.”

Ritsuko’s voice suddenly hit her ears. “Asuka did you just say you don’t feel so good?”

Asuka looked up slightly. “Yes I don’t feel good.”

Ritsuko’s voice hit the air again. “Tell me everything that you’re feeling?”

Asuka was about to reply only to feel a sudden stabbing pain hit her, which caused her to stand up as she roared in pain it was like being shot by a bullet and it was pure agony only to feel a second bullet like pain follow. She turned as the danger alarms suddenly went off which sounded nothing like the angel alarms they sounded instead like world war two sirens.

She looked down at the wound on her stomach only to watch as Rei was suddenly on her knees in pure agony holding her head as everything from the other room ran in and pushed Shinji and the others to safety. “What the…” Her next words were cut of as the stomach wound opened violently as black liquid, which wasn’t blood leaked out it was more like black tar.

Rei turned it had been fine but once Asuka’s pain had started she had felt it like it was her own and it felt like she’d just been shot not once but twice. She looked up in horror as her girlfriends roars of pain came again only for smoke and blackness to fly out of the liquid filling the room. The smell of rotting flesh hit her even though the glass as the whole place plunged in to darkness, so much so that she couldn’t see any one.

Only for all the lights to come back on accept in the now darkened room which was still swirling in smoke. She could see everyone in the room now including her father. Shinji and the others had been moved out of the lab and through the decontamination doorway. She looked up realizing she could no longer hear Asuka’s thoughts all she could feel was that chilling sensation down her spine that felt like someone was walking on her grave.

Ritsuko walked forward hearing the sudden bang of something inside as heavy sounding hooves hit the floor. Maya moved to black lab panel opposite bringing up the holographic screen as Shinji and others were put on the walkway which instantly rose up so they could get to the balcony and to safety and at a very safe distance. “We know you’re in there now show yourself.”

The next moments caught her by surprise as the table in the room was launched at the AT field shield only to smash in half on hitting it. A dark voice spoke it was like Asuka’s but much younger sounding. “Shut the fuck up! No one makes demands of me!”

She watched in surprise as Dante stepped back clearly showing fear as he recognised this voice. The smog slowly cleared and the light came back on fully in Asuka’s room as a huge eight foot tall being came in to view.

Its huge horns towered over its head and matched those of a Nubian Ibex. The face was strange as it looked almost wolf as it had wolf like ears but the nostrils were goat like. The long wolf like jaws were filled with crooked teeth and the face was covered in black fur.

Huge arms hung down with long fingers which were over extended with ultra-long claws. Its huge feet had massive goat like hooves which were bloody and it had the same black fur all over its body along with a long wolf like tail.

She could see human like breasts as well as huge bat like wings on either side which were stretched and opened out fully. The strangest thing though was the huge thick mane of fur on its head in between the horns, it was a much lighter and orange in colour than Asuka’s own red hair and it went all the way down the beings whole back right down to its tail end.

The creature’s single eye was glowing black with red circles of colour while the other side was a skull like feature with an empty socket. She turned seeing Rei show real fear as the creature looked at her as she backed right up in to the corner of the other room, wanting to get as far away from this thing as possible.

She turned back to the creature as it started to drool finally feeling the need to speak ignoring everyone’s utter shock in the room. “Destroyer of worlds I presume.” The creature eyed her. “Wow things really never change do they? You somehow still exist let me guess in this world your still sucking the Commanders cock hoping to crawl up some power ladder you can never reach.”

Misato watched as Ritsuko blinked in surprise Asuka had said those same words once before but her context had been very different and she didn’t even know if this being meant them or if she was purely imitating. “What are you?” The creature looked at her moving closer knowing it was towered over everyone. “I have nothing to say to you…your Kaji’s whore!”

Misato raised her hand only for Ritsuko to stop her giving her an annoyed look as she spoke eyeing Kaji. “Don’t react she’s baiting you, Dante told me personally that she would do this.” The creature moved eyeing the leaders and bridge crew. “Let’s see the false demi god, the traitor to Yui. The spy who loves being shot, the lesbian dyke and the other useless asexual loner and the woman who isn’t one, just looks like one.”

Its gaze drifted upwards to the high balcony above. “Shinji’s faggot Kaworu Toji the idiot jock strap, who can’t tell his dick from his face, Shinji the worthless fucking coward. The other I don’t recognise. Oh no wait yes I do though in my time line you wanted Yui badly your that pathetic bitch Mari, wow you really got aged down.”

Maya turned sharply looking at everyone as her holographic screen brought up data. “These are really outdated insults, in our culture they went out of fashion around the sixties and there no longer used in polite sociality anymore.” Ritsuko looked at the monster. “Can you tell what that fucking thing is right now?!”

Maya carried on typing as the others took to the desks accept Misato, Kaji and Gendo. “It’s not coming up in our data bases.” Kaworu’s angry voice suddenly hit the air. “The night before this happened to me. I saw that thing in my dream, I thought it was a dream it said it wasn’t Pan or Kallikantzaros!”

The monster looked at him its long forked snake like tongue coming out as it laughed clearly enjoying his anger. “How does it feel to be what you really are angel queer boy…enjoying it?” It raised its clawed hand pointing with a long finger. “That’s what you get for taking Shinji from me yet again in this world. Because my weak pathetic other self-let him go yet again…because she’s fucking stupid.”

Misato breathed in instantly noticing that this thing was swearing in Japanese and not in German. “Are you always this pleasant?” The monster turned eyeing her in disgust. “You should watch your tongue because if I get out of here I might rip out your guts and eat them in front you, you narrow minded fucking bitch.”

It paused. “It would be justice for what you did to me in the past.” Kaji spoke coldly. “What did she do to you?” The monster eyed him for a long moment. “She had a choice Shinji’s operation or mine after Bardiel. She chose his….meaning I was crippled for the rest of my fucking life and had to use a cane to walk around because they didn’t fix my spines nerve endings right, causing me constant and never ending pain as if losing my left eye and having a crippled leg wasn’t enough.”

Kaji blinked in shock remember the brain read out which was not their Asuka’s. “That’s very unfair that your world did that to you.” The creature’s good eye narrowed as it sneered. “I don’t want your fucking pity…it means nothing to me…all that matters to me is I exist again and your feeble attempts to put me back in the bottle have come to nothing.”

It raised a clawed finger. “Though maybe I should thank my bisexual idiot counterpart for that since she just had to get that tail fuck going with her loser human Rei.” She breathed in deeply. “Which was disgusting by the way but I guess I should be grateful.” Misato folded her arms eyeing the monster in disgust. “We know who she is and she’s good what are you I don’t even know…you’re like nothing we’ve ever seen.”

Sumire turned sharply. “I know what she is she’s Baphomet! It’s this lesser known demonic god in Christianity she represents the union of opposing forces and can appear as ether male or female or a mix of both and be intersex.”

She watched as an image came up on screen with more information. “King Philip IV of France tried to use this demon by saying that the male and female knights Templar were using it commit acts of homosexuality and lesbianism but this fell through because no one cared for his homophobia at the time. The Pope of Rome stepped in to protect them as they have always served in the Vatican and still do even to this day as guards to the Pope whether they are male or female.”

Ritsuko looked up slightly. “I see so she’s basically the embodiment of all that’s evil.” The demon raised its clawed hands. “Well at least I’m not a Nazi, you do have those in your world right?” Maya blinked in confusion. “I don’t know what she means by Nazi that word is not even in our data base it’s not coming up in any of our searches.”

Dante breathed in deeply. “She’s is speaking of a villainous group not from your cycle but another one the Seele six ensured wouldn’t come around again.” The demon turned to him as it spoke coldly. “Let me guess you didn’t stop the First or Second World War though did you?” Dante moved a step closer. “No…we didn’t, another two new wars just rose in their place.”

The demon looked at him for a long moment. “Why does it not surprise me that you’re meddling with time? That’s so like you Dante you always did like moving golf posts, clearly you just forgot the golden rule.” She paused. “Humanity is fucking vile, it fights kills murders, rapes and nothing you ever do changes anything."

The hooves tapped as she turned slightly. “You can change a world’s face but the reality is it’s still the same shitty humanity underneath….same wrapper wrapping the same vile shit…what a way to waste your life Dante…clearly growing a conscience has made you soft.” Dante put his gloved hands behind his back as he spoke. “Much has changed since your time Shikinami you and Rei Rokubungi, are both out of space and time.”

Asuka raised a clawed finger. “Don’t make me laugh with your bullshit…you think my coming back was an accident or something? It wasn’t I wanted this all along you were just too stupid to realize the bigger picture.” Dante eyed the pulsing AT field shield. “And that’s why we are keeping you in this place to protect others. Because unlike your newer self who can be reasoned with you can’t which brings me to my next question…and I think you know what that is.”

Asuka’s good eyed narrowed. “Oh you want to know what I did to the people on the air-ship….oh how cute…well here’s the thing. I eat their souls there still screaming in my stomach right now…yes I could have turned them back to LCL but what’s the fun in that? They’ll be a time when I will need them and you won’t be able to stop me. You see the soft loser you call your Asuka wanted out she didn’t care how...and I did the job for her she just wanted to use her form to bust the deck and swim away with her pathetic human Rei”

She looked in to the other cell pointing a clawed finger to the human looking Rei. “That’s her biggest weakness she keeps swinging herself to that woman’s deference it’s beyond pathetic.” Dante breathed in deeply shaking his head. “You should humour me then as to why you did the same…she was your godly vice the thing you used to become a death god. You let the merge happen with Lilith thus bringing about all our ends….”

He breathed in sharply. “But that’s very typical of you isn’t it Shikinami? You hate people but you would openly suck up to them if they for filled a certain desire you liked. You gave her sex at the end of it all while berating and saying you hated her in human instrumentality, being her lover and abuser when all she ever did was love you and desire you.”

He paused seeing the anger in her good eye. “Mock your other self all you wish but in this world we will always think better of her than you, since she wouldn’t stoop that low.” Asuka eyed him in utter disgust. “So is this why you created this equal gender world this time around, did you want it to fairer?”

Dante breathed in sadly he had memories of their last world and how unfair it could be on women and minorities because Keel just loved his ethics that men were rulers and women were baby makers. A rhetoric he had long abounded as had the other five as for the first time they could pick their genders and not be forced down Keel’s narrow minded path. “No we just nudged here and there but this world wanted to be this way ultimately.”

The black eye with its glowing red circles narrowed. “How nice it is then that my pathetic other half gets to share in those glorious rewards but they were denied to me. Shinji was always considered vastly superior to me just for the fact he had a dick. Men cooed over his exploits despite his lack of training, while myself and Rei got shelved always playing his defence.”

She felt a sneer form. “But in the end he failed and I had to pick up the pieces and trust me I enjoyed betraying you all and I’ll enjoy it this time your fairer world won’t change my desire to destroy it.” Dante looked at her for a long moment. “Don’t you ever get tired of just hating everyone and being angry while riding this avenging warhorse of yours in to the ground?”

Asuka laughed but it was an ice cold laugh. “Don’t you ever get tired of realizing that everything you thought was one thing might be another and like Keel you’re just not smart enough to see it?” She raised a clawed hand. “Because trust me I moved a piece in the puzzle just for kicks and you still have not figured it out. You still believe the thirteenth member is dead…what a fucking idiot you and Keel are.”

Dante looked up sharply. “They are dead you killed him them, we all watched you do it!” Asuka gave him a cold smile. “It’s funny how you can’t seem to distinguish what you see and hear to reality clearly being a demi god is so limiting.” Dante breathed in deeply realizing that she was clearly trying to bait him because she loved conflict. “You just love conflict nothing’s changed we all know you get off on it, it’s your biggest weakness.”

Asuka out stretched her huge wings before folding them slightly. “And clearly learning card tricks and illusions was never one of yours Dante.” Dante turned holding none of his anger back. “Turn up the AT field shield to the max, I want this bitch back in her bottle!”

Asuka sniggered. “Oh please you think your room can make me go away Dante…I dare you to try it…let me see if you’re a real man in this cycle or if you’re the same asshole with a tiny dick that you were last time we met!”

She let out a roar which was awful it was like an ear splitting screech and it was enough to make everyone but Dante clutch their ears in agony. She stopped turning to spit at the shield before speaking again. “You and the five are gutless and spineless and at the end of it all I’m gonna enjoy eating every one of you whole and alive the way I did Keel. Let’s see how you like swimming around in battery acid for a fucking eternity you piece of shit demi god!”

Dante turned not thinking as he pulled up his hand to Ritsuko’s holographic console causing all the power buttons to instantly max out. “Go back to hell Asuka you’re not even a good looking Baphomet, your form lacks merit!” The demon looked at him her good eye narrowing only for the pain to suddenly start showing as the huge wings started to shake.

The monstrous long fingers suddenly went to its ear on one side as her other clawed hand came up in a lightning fast motion in his direction as white hot fire came out from it hitting the AT field shield causing it to flex and bend but not buckle. Its many layers holding refusing to break as her screeching roar came again which was worse than anything unit 04 could put out.

He eyed her watching as the effects hit in and the fire stopped as her clawed hand went to her other ear. Ritsuko’s voice hit the air filled with panic. “We can’t maintain this!” Dante eyed her. “Yes we can, the four S2 engines just need a moment to adjust!” He watched as the demon bent down it form was starting to shake and shudder as parts of it turned to black liquid like it was melting. “It just needs to hold for a few more seconds!”

He watched as black tar like liquid suddenly blasted everywhere like a bomb going off only for it to start moving drawing back leaving black bloody stains everywhere. He turned seeing Rei suddenly clutch her stomach in pain which meant it was working. The Asuka they knew was about to return. He watched as the were-tiger body started to appear as the black tar funnelled back in to the stomach wound. He could now see a bullet wound at the stomach wounds centre which all the tar was leaking back in to.

He raised his hand seeing the last of slide inside as the bullet wound which closed up leaving unhealthy unhealed flesh. “Lower the power and the shield completely on Asuka’s side.” Ritsuko looked at him with uncertainty but did as she was told.

He walked up watching as the pain ended and Rei sat on the floor looking utterly confused. He moved seeing the huge were-tiger’s body lying on the floor laying still its huge clawed hands spread out the eyes were closed though. He walked in side easing the collar out of his suit as he kneeled down adjusting his glasses visor as he moved a hand through the thick mane. “Asuka Langley Soryu.”

He moved his hand tapping it against the jaws not caring that the huge canines were close. “It time to wake up.” Asuka suddenly groaned as her huge body started to move as she opened both eyes the left igniting while the blue also lit up with light. “Would I be right to say that the thing you felt before the ugly side came through was the sensation of being shot with a gun?” Asuka painfully got in a cat like position as she sat up looking at him. “Yes…twice.”

Dante eased up the collar. “She was reliving the shots that led to her death through you.” He eyed the collar. “This is called the Ark of the Covenant it will liberate you from her influence and suppress it.” He paused. “I ask that you put this on of your own free will, though I confess it will take this form away from you and your current connection to Rei but in doing so it will also heal you until we can heal you for good. It’s clear those who did this to you, did not do it correctly for if they had the demon would be out now completely.”

Rei turned looking at them as spoke. “It’s not fair that she has to wear that it should be me since we are connected.” Dante watched as Asuka took the collar as he walked out calmly moving his hand once more causing the shield to come back up as he turned to Rei. “Sadly it would have no effect on you Rei you’re a symptom not the cause.”

Asuka stood up fully up staring at the strange collar. “So I just put this on?”

Dante nodded. “By your own free will...”

Asuka looked at the collar this was best for everyone it was to keep them all safe including Rei and yet it made her sad that once again and for the second time in her life she was causing trouble not due to herself but for something with in her. First Bardiel now this monsters self which had come back and unlike the last time this had happened her memories had not been blacked out it was like her alter ego had shown it all to her for dark kicks and to show her power over her and it had been awful.

Kaworu’s voice suddenly hit the air speaking calmly and gently. “Asuka no sin is beyond redemption. There is always hope.” She turned looking in his direction knowing he was right though his sin reference was not to her directly but her other self as she was clearly the redemption half. Rei’s voice hit the air though filled with pain. “But this just isn’t fair why should she suffer because her other half is an utterly vile when all she’s ever done in her later life is try to right her wrongs.”

Asuka looked at the collar feeling it ease open as she pulled it open fully seeing that it could change size to fit. She turned to Rei feeling a sad smile form. “It’s okay Rei I want to do this it’s what’s best for everyone and it separates me from her.”

She raised the collar watching as glowing red writing appeared on it which was clearly ancient paleo-Hebrew her gut told her that even though she couldn’t read it. “I know how to sacrifice.”

She eased the collar up only to watch as it writing glowed even brighter as it started to change. She swept her other clawed hand across the room burning away the bloody marks and repairing the broken table as well as swinging everything in the room that had been knocked back in to place so it was all perfect, untouched and undamaged. “I never wanted to be god anyway….godly power is meant for the gods in there heavens.”

The collars let out white light as it snapped on attaching to her furry neck its writing still changing over and over she ignored the intense pain as she leaned down only for everything to blast in to white light as she hit the floor on her knees in human form. The camera that had been following her all this time stopped as lens slowly shut down as it powered down. There was a slight pain as the collar fully tightened around her normal neck.

Dante watched as she got up straightened her leather jacket as the glowing red words turned to white as they faded away as she sat down on the rooms chair the clear exhaustion showing on her face as her left eye went back to its normal neon blue glowing state. “Your very brave Langley Soryu and very noble.”

Asuka looked at him. “I’m just doing what is needed because its right and I always clean up my own mess.” She paused. “Plus you didn’t trick me or betray me, that is the reason why we are still talking.” Misato breathed out heavily as she turned to Ritsuko. “Please tell me again how our Asuka is so bad?!”

She could see the conflicted and uncertainty in the other woman’s eye as she seemed unsure on how to even reply to this comment. “Destroyer of worlds or not our version is a saint compared to that fucking vile disgusting monster!”

End of part 50

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