A DEEPLY MOVING REVELATION

Asuka breathed in deeply looking straight in to Shinji's eyes. "The accident." Shinji raised a hand ignoring Mari's utter shock. "You told us your mother went crazy, you said she was still alive before she took her own life."

Asuka felt her teeth grind together as she spoke. "No that was verfickte soulless shadow! The unit took her soul the thing that committed suicide was not my Mama it was an empty vessel with her left over emotions and feelings."

Rei moved forward. "Why are you shouting at Asuka I knew about this as well I'm as much to blame as she is?" Shinji stood up slowly. "Why didn't you both say anything you could have said something?!" Asuka sat up slightly. "Because people no doubt die if they find this out it's probably Nerv's biggest secret! We could not say anything if the cameras had recorded it our lives might have been in real danger."

She raised her hand. "I would never risk Rei life the only time we ever spoke about this was when we connected tails in our units and we knew it was safe to speak about it because no one could hear or see us!" Shinji breathed in deeply. "But that means…"

He turned to Rei. "Our mother and our aunt Kiko are in…there." Rei looked down as she spoke quietly. "Yes they're alive and living inside the cores." She put her hands together. "It means the visions we both saw when we were younger were not just our imaginations or a desperate desire due to stress like they told us it means they were real."

Mari stood up. "Wait just one second are you all telling me that my mother is alive and that vision I saw when my unit changed that was fucking real!" Asuka looked up. "Yes your mother's soul is alive Mari and in 04's core." Mari stood up moving closer to her. "No this is utter bullshit I mean my mother was dead she was decapitated, she wasn't like Yui, Kiko or your mother she was already dead."

Asuka stood up watching as Shinji moved out of the way. "When I was in a core Mari my Mama said something to me that they put the soulless half into the core after her death, Nerv somehow knows how to channel souls how they do it I do not know but somehow they put your mother's soul in there."

She put a hand on her face in frustration. "I don't remember everything we talked about it in that core I can remember parts but other parts are coming back but it's taking time. I know this though the partial AI in the core is there to control the souls but my mother has destroyed it and so has Yui and Kiko and it appears your mother has recently destroyed the one in 04's core and taken control."

She watched as Mari blinked as if struggling to register her words before she spoke outwardly and almost like she wasn't there. "Can I please have some of your alcohol…I really need a fucking drink…."

Asuka put her hand on her arm. "Sure…just don't drink any cocktails or spirits okay? You've already been sick once and I don't want you to be sick again." Mari nodded moving over to her fridge opening it as she grabbed the nearest can of Kirin beer cracking it open drinking it, even through the taste was awful and she'd never cared for lagers or beers.

She slammed the half-finished can down suddenly feeling her emotions start to pull and the pain came through. "So my mommy telling me she didn't care that I was gay and that she was sorry for the way she treated me was real…oh gods I thought it was all in my fucking head. I thought it was from the drug they put in the LCL!"

Asuka moved over to her putting a hand on her shoulder. "Yes Mari it was real." She didn't get a chance to move as the taller woman wrapped her arms around crying desperately into her shoulder she breathed in hugging her tighter. "She came to your rescue in your time of need and desperation."

Shinji sat down looking at his hands as he wiped a tear away the tears which weren't sadness more happiness. "They didn't die, they're all alive." Rei moved closer to her brother. "Yes Shinji." She put her hand on his shoulder. "The test didn't take them from this world there happy alive and well inside the cores."

Shinji looked up feeling a smile form. "You don't know how happy knowing that makes me feel, I mean you know how I always said that the LCL smells like mum, now I know it's because she's there with me and aunt Kiko is with you." He stood up putting his arms around her. Mari freed herself from Asuka as she took off her classes wiping away her tears. "I don't understand we all saw a vision but why not you Asuka?"

Asuka looked down sadly. "I never saw one because when Shamshel got into my head she showed me a lot of awful things and it was all I saw I think she stopped my mother's vision coming through somehow but she was there waiting for me in the core she dragged me into it stop me causing an impact event because I'd lost control, it was the only way to save me and everyone else." Mari put her glasses back on. "Well I get why you couldn't say anything I mean people die for knowing this."

Shinji eased himself free of Rei who looked happier now. "Does this mean that Kaworu and Toji Evangelion's also have their mother's in the cores then?" Asuka took in a deep breath. "Possibly but I don't think there awakened yet in that they have not overrode the partial AI and you cannot tell them Shinji, not until they get those visions." Shinji raised his hand. "I won't."

He looked down sadly. "But I confess that I wish I could tell Kaworu, because he really misses his mother he talks about her at lot." Asuka moved towards him putting a hand on his shoulder. "I'm sorry Shinji but this has to be this way Rei knew but she couldn't tell me and I think my grandmother knows as well as she was hinting about it in one of our video calls but I just didn't catch on."

Shinji watched as Mari got closer leaning over Asuka now deeply curious. "What's it like in there I mean you got sucked in I mean how do they live?" Asuka took in a deep breath. "Have you ever heard of human instrumentality Shinji?"

Shinji looked up sharply. "Yes I saw some of my father's videos in the Nerv achieves...it's the merging of all human souls in one plain of existence." Asuka shook her head. "Yes his ideal of it was that all souls would be interlinked but Yui had a very different idea of it that someone's soul could inhabit a core."

She slowly knelt down in front of him taking hold of his hand. "My mother spoke about in her videos along with your aunt Kiko it's the ideal that you can inhabit a core and make your own version of human instrumentality within the core you become a god and you create all you desire."

She rose her hand watching as Mari got closer hanging on her every word. "You see once the partial AI has no control over your soul you're free to do as you wish and let's just say that my mother sent me to a few other places first but when I got you there it was like a vast landscape and it all felt real. She was painting and enjoying herself and she could also feel what was going on outside and see it somehow it was like she had double vision.

So where ever your mother is whatever she's doing she's really happy and if you're wondering about the lock in tails it was done on purpose as a way for us as pilots to speak to others without the outside looking in but also so our mothers could see one another, they can hear each other in whispers but they can't see one another this allows them a chance to see each other again for the first time ever."

She eased up her hand putting it on the side of his face. "So wherever Yui and your aunt Kiko are they are very happy." She stood up stepping back looking at Mari. "And your mum is probably just starting to get the hang of the whole thing and creating her own world."

Mari grabbed her ruffling her long red hair. "This is so awesome my mum is in there!" Asuka eyed her. "Yeah just don't go telling anyone four eyes or we'll all be up scheisse creak without a paddle." Mari eyed her. "I have no intention of doing so princess…you know my mother must have made my Evangelion take on the new look then?"

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Asuka eyed her. "No trust me they play no part in the piloting side the transformations are all us Bardiel just lied to me about my unit changing to win my trust when he didn't do anything it was all me and the same goes for you, Rei and Shinji." Mari blinked eyeing her. "Yeah but how come we didn't get super pissed off strength like you?"

Asuka felt a sly smile form. "Oh I can tell you now you got something, believe me so did Rei my mother told me, the glowing eye and strength was my subconscious choice and they are all necessary without them we can't pilot these Evangelion's they come with the transition." She turned to Shinji. "You may have something to but you just never realized it."

8

Misato took a sip of her coffee watching as the neon light flicked at the Arcades restaurants where she was seated with Kaji and Maya who looked outright annoyed and was trying to bury her head in her arts and crafts magazines and wasn't talking much. "So I heard you had a fun day with Mari today."

She felt her smile widen. "I heard she left your office in a huge storm of anger and sent a bin flying down the hall in a fit of rage, did therapy not go well?" Maya looked up. "It wasn't therapy she was trying yet again to chat me up…." Kaji looked up. "You know I think she really likes you." Misato took another sip of her drink watching as there breakfasts were laid down. "Yeah maybe you should date her." Maya looked up. "I don't want to date her she's a woman child!"

Kaji blinked in confusion. "What's wrong with that?" Misato eyed her food turning around eyeing the waiter opposite. "Hey, you forgot my extra! I'm collecting those little angel and Evangelion food toys remember?" Maya shook her head watching as the waiter passed her one which she opened pulling it out to look at it she eyed Kaji. "Do I really have to explain?"

Misato eyed the small toy which was of Bardiel's true form and had little shifting upper arms. "I think she'd be fun to be around." Maya rolled her eyes. "Please tell me I'm not getting dating advice from you?"

She raised her hand. "Plus I'm meant to be her superior!" Misato eyed her. "I got that you never dated Asuka because you weren't right for each other and remained friends for years but you have a very different relationship with Mari and she loves being around you plus she's twenty six so it's not like she's out of your age range." She felt a sly smile form. "Also didn't you tell me once that sitting on your inner emotions when it comes to your feelings for someone is a terrible waste?"

Maya looked up sharply. "I don't have feelings for her and what she has is childish infatuation and lust it'll pass." Misato took another drink of her coffee as she put her toy down. "You know you shouldn't lie you're really not that good at it…you're like Asuka you don't have a very good poker face and it really gives you away."

Kaji began to eat. "Asuka must have a pretty good poker face since she can cheat at cards…its more that her lying face is terrible. She just can't lie to save her life and neither can Shinji and Rei never lies." Misato looked up sharply. "Yes Rei does lie...she lied about the camera in the spa to protect Asuka."

She eyed her food. "Plus she's getting really dry and sassy and I've heard like Shinji she starting to really stand up to her father and is really throwing it back in his face." Maya took a bite out of her food. "Yeah I heard about that because both of the door guards heard her shouting inside, it was a surprise to them because Asuka was really quite and it was only Rei's voice throughout."

Misato turned sharply. "Seriously? I mean when Asuka's been brought up there in the past and she’s had no trouble telling Gendo and Ritsuko where to shove it in German." Maya looked up. "Apparently she was on her best behaviour just like at the dinner table."

Misato rolled her eyes. "Yes let's not bring that up again I still can't believe Rei did what she did." Maya leaned on her elbow seeing the perfect opportunity to get her own back. "You know it almost sounds like you're jealous in some way you know that they're being sexually adventurous and you're not."

Misato slammed her fist down hard. "That's utterly ludicrous we have a better sex life than Rei or Asuka!" Maya looked up slightly. "Well clearly something's amiss since you feel the need to spy on them making out at your home." Misato raised her hand. "I was just curious I wanted to see who's in control that's all."

Maya raised an eyebrow. "Have you considered that it's in fact that no one is and it's very balanced?" She eyed Kaji who had suddenly stopped eating. "Maybe you should stop paying attention to them and leave them alone because they have enough problems with attention as it is and start by trying to spice up your new sex life up somehow."

She felt her sly smile widen. "Maybe you could have some fun up the sky train like Shinji and Kaworu did the other day." She felt a smile form. "Or try out the couple's unisex sauna and since you're a corporal now they could probably cut out the sound and video feed just for you."

Kaji looked up feeling a sly smile form. "You know that's a really good idea, I really like the sound of that we should both do it." He turned to Misato who looked nervous. "Like she said you're the corporal you can make anything happen and I can get deal with the buffer feed." Misato eyed Maya who gave her a sly smile. "Stop giving us dating advice!"

Kaji put his hands together. "No please do you have any more ideas because I'd love to hear them?" Misato felt a sneer form. "You know you're meant to take my side not hers!" Kaji turned slightly. "But she's right we should be spicing it up and having fun, so what if we both aren't twenty doesn't mean we can't rock the boat." Misato put a hand on her face. "This isn't happening!"

8

Julia raised the bloody kitchen knife eyeing the body opposite whose insides were hanging out as she spoke coldly "I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of the destroyer's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice."

She eyed the remaining man and woman who were all looking at her with the others through bloody doors glass. "Holy and pleasing to the destroyer of worlds this is true worship!" Ode turned to Jade who was breathing heavily they had only just managed to close the bay door to stop Julia getting through and locked it. "She's fucking possessed!"

Jade breathed in eyeing her African friend as she looked at her uniform which was covered in blood. "She was fine two days ago I checked everyone it's like something snapped in her head! She fucking killed Romulus and three of the others she's out of her mind."

Ode knelt down behind the locked door. "It was that fucking spear I told you that it was possessed and evil but did you all listen? No you didn't you were all let's just dig up the crazy alien shit and Ode is doing his everything is cursed routine!" Jade breathed in deeply. "For the record I was on your side remember?!"

She raised a ringed finger. "I said they shouldn't touch it but you know Julia she was desperate to win that fucking noble prize!" Ode breathed in deeply. "Okay point taken." Jade looked through the bloody window watching as Julia went back to cutting up one of the bodies. "That spear gave us all nightmares from the moment it was placed in the bay." She breathed in deeply. "Can we help her, you're the therapist I mean is there any way we can talk her down?"

Ode shook her head. "This is not normal behaviour is like some physiologic break I mean they test for that stuff back on earth she was clean…only way to help her is to kill her or space her." Jade turned. "Space her that's awful!" Ode eyed her. "If you haven't noticed she started skinning that body! She has turned into a fucking animal, she killing us off one by one she wants control of this ship!" Jade breathed in painfully sliding down the wall as she eyed her bloody Canadian logo as she breathed in sadly. "Why is she referring to Oppenheimer?"

Ode breathed in deeply. "It's not Oppenheimer's words it's from the Hindu scripture of Bhagavad Gita where Vishnu is trying to persuade the Prince that he should do his duty and, to impress him he took on his multi-armed form and says, 'Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds."

He paused shaking his head sadly. "It referees to a death god…but Julia is Christian she's one of those few who still believes in the one god…" He breathed in deeply. "I mean she's speaking Latin bible verses but changing the word god to destroyer." He breathed in sharply. "She's already reset the ships course she clearly wants to get home at least two days ahead of schedule and she pushed the engines to its max."

Jade looked up slightly. "Can we wait her out?" Ode looked up. "Yes but it'll be a long while before we dock with Eos and we stuck on the shitty side of the ship there's no water or food here." Jade looked up. "Please we have the experiment bay for growing plants there are fruits and vegetables in there." Ode blinked. "But those were for research they were our test batch from Mars."

Jade looked up sharply. "I don't care I'm eating them and you better join me unless you want to starve!" She looked down slightly. "I mean once we doc with Eos they can subdue her they have a protocol for that all we have to do is warn them and we can do that we can just re-route the signal out and keep her from overriding this door."

End of part 13

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