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As The Divine Light Breaks (Evangelion AU)
When The Body Won’t Focus Like The Mind

When The Body Won’t Focus Like The Mind

WHEN THE BODY WON’T FOCUS LIKE THE MIND

Asuka breathed in looking around the pilots planning room. They’d all been called here yet no one was even here yet it was just her and Rei and they couldn’t even pilot. Since they had to be under observation for a week, as that was protocol.

She turned to Rei who just looked bored and frustrated she had not been herself this morning. She had felt it on the train coming over the other woman was bored and agitated, as if something was getting to her.

Maybe it was everything they’d been through. She had already dealt with Bardiel so all she felt after coming back from capture was tired and needing to sleep. The emotional side wasn’t bothering her as much as it could be. Though she wouldn’t lie she still felt terrible about killing all those people in cold blood with her gun.

The images of their faces were still hunting her she had killed people before but she was used to doing it in her Evangelion. This though was the first time she’d ever done in close combat and face to face and a part of her really wished she hadn’t done it.

Her gun no longer felt the same when she held it, it felt dirty almost shameful and she still had no memory of how they’d gotten out, which was deeply frustrating. She turned to Rei she had never had to deal with being captured by evil people. Yet now she has experienced it, it was clearly having an effect on her.

She knew they’d have to see Maya soon maybe not today but this week as she’d want to talk to them both about what happened. Truth-be told she was really uncertain about it though not for herself but for Rei. She had also had a message that Kyo wanted to see her as soon as she had time.

Maybe it was for a weapon debriefing or about the people she’d killed ether way it made her nervous. She had no idea what to even say to him but that was very much how she felt now coming out of all this which was a deep sense of uncertainty and limbo.

She wasn’t even angry in fact she felt strangely calm and relaxed even more so than normal. Her temper wasn’t trying to burn its way out like it normal did in these situations and she felt no sense of tension, it felt more like she was at peace in a strange surreal way, which made no sense to her and yet she was going with it.

She leaned over putting her hand on Rei’s back running gently her hand over the other woman’s shoulders watching as she turned sharply. “They’ll be here soon.” Rei breathed in deeply trying to ignore the fact that her nerve endings were firing with every moment of Asuka’s fingers.

This was like pure torture and her day had not even started yet, she needed to get through this and try to pull through yet it felt like such an effort right now. She eyed the other woman feeling her shoe push in to the floor, she felt so irritated.

Ever since she’d woken up this morning she’d been feeling agitated along with having intense sexual cravings which just wouldn’t go away. Her brain was working overtime just to stop these full on sexual images getting in to her head. It was making her feel angry and frustrated, since she didn’t feel in full control.

She took in a slow deep breath before leaning forward on her desk. “I’m just bored and tired.” Yes it was a really pathetic lie to tell her girlfriend but it was all she could think off right now.

Her gaze shifted as Toji walked in through the door in full plug suit though he looked incredibly happy as he turned to them raising a hand. “You’re already here.” Asuka watched as he seated himself as she spoke calmly. “You look happy.”

Toji pulled up sharply in his chair. “I just asked Sumire out and she said yes!” He raised his hands. “We are going on a date this Friday!” Rei looked up slightly. “Congratulations Toji, I’m really happy for you.” Toji breathed in sharply. “You don’t think a Tokyo Three restaurant is a bad idea? I mean I just don’t want to look cheap.”

Asuka shook her head as she put her feet on the table. “I doubt she’ll see it as cheap all she’ll care about is having a good time with you.” She turned as Mari burst in, in full plug suit though she looked out of breath and her hair was loose as she sat down. “Did you have a late night?”

Mari looked up sharply. “Is it that obvious princess?” Asuka felt a sly smile form. “No it’s just weird seeing you rolling in here four eyes without your hair tied.”

Mari blinked in confusion only for her brain to suddenly click in to gear as her face turned to annoyance. “Ah fuck it! I left my hairs ties at Maya’s house.” Toji smirked as he eyed her. “Just so you know it looks really nice down.” Rei put her hands together. “I agree.”

Mari felt a wide grin form. “Oh okay then.” She eyed Asuka. “Are you going to give me a compliment on how great I look?” Asuka breathed in deeply. “Fine, you look great.” Mari blinked in surprise she eyed Rei who was fidgeting in her chair. “Is she feeling okay? It’s just she’s not her normal sharp tempered self.”

She paused lowering her voice. “Did you fuck her lights outs last night, is that why she’s so mellow?” Rei felt her fingers grip the table as she tried to ignore the sudden imagines going through her head which consisted of her taking Asuka’s clothes off. “No I didn’t, we aren’t allowed to have even have sex thanks to Ritsuko we have a twenty four hour ban!”

Asuka breathed in deeply again she wasn’t even angry this was coming out as she wasn’t in the mood to start arguing or fighting. She turned to Mari and Toji who now looked shocked but not at her but at what Rei had just said. “Yes that sums it up…we have been put on ice for twenty fours.”

“What’s been put on ice?”

Rei turned watching as Shinji and Kaworu walked in, in their plug suits she breathed in speaking in a dark sarcastic tone. “Our sex life...” Shinji stared at his sister for a long moment. Not quite believing what she had just said, as Rei never talked openly about sex.

He sat down watching as Kaworu followed looking just as confused as him. “Em…I don’t understand.” Mari leaned over. “Ritsuko put them on ice for twenty four hours.” Shinji breathed in deeply. “Oh right I get it, since when is that allowed? None of us have ever had that restriction put on us.” Kaworu put his hands together feeling smile form. “Well you could just masturbate.”

He paused. “You know buy toys and such and…” Shinji leaned over sharply trying to ignore the embarrassing feeling as he cut his boyfriend off before he could say anything else. “Yeah you should do what Kaworu said….” Rei leaned on her elbow as she spoke in a cold tone. “Yeah but it’s not the same is it?”

Shinji eyed his sister in utter shock his gaze drifting to Asuka who was saying nothing and being very relaxed about all of this. What on earth was going on here? It was so weird to see this Asuka being this mellow and his little sister being the opposite which was looking annoyed and deeply frustrated. “Rei, are you feeling okay?”

Rei shifted in her seat. “Yeah I’m fine…just wish they’d get on with this briefing…I’m bored and it’s not like we need to be here anyway since we’ll be under observation for a week as its Nerv protocol.” Mari adjusted her glasses. “What protocol, I never heard about that.”

Kaworu turned to look at her. “Protocol seven zero eight nine in the event of capture by an enemy faction the employee must reframe from all Nerv activity and be monitored for a week to check their mental health and well-being and if need be, be given medication and counselling long or short term.”

He put his hands together. “When I joined Nerv I had to go through it since I was a forma teenage solider under the control of a rebel faction.” He paused as Misato came with a tablet in hand followed by Maya. Misato looked up at every one as Maya shut the door. “Thank you for all coming here, sorry some of you had to rush breakfast.” Rei looked down slightly as she mumbled under her breath. “We haven’t even had breakfast yet…”

Misato turned sharply realizing it was Rei who had mumbled that comment and not Asuka which was so strange. She breathed in looking at the young woman. “After this meeting is done Rei you can eat.” She turned back to her tablet. “Okay so you’re here because we need to do a quick roaster for today and this week.” She turned to Asuka. “Asuka you’re grounded for a week under the rule of seven zero eight nine as you need to be checked over medically and psychologically”

Asuka folded her arms speaking calmly. “I’m fine with that.” Maya looked at Asuka for a long moment she was being very relaxed about this which was odd as she normally hated being grounded. She turned to Rei. “That applies to you as well Rei the Commander has even given the order himself.”

Rei eyed her speaking coldly. “Why would he care? He barely knows I exist.” Maya blinked in surprise watching as Misato gave her a confused look. “Well he wants you to speak to Ritsuko in his office this afternoon alone.”

Rei looked up slightly. “Why do I have to speak to her?” Maya breathed in deeply. “I don’t know but the Commander has made this an order and I know you don’t get on with Ritsuko but she has also ordered it.” Asuka turned slightly. “Maybe she just wants to debrief you in some way that only applies to you and Shinji since Gendo is your father.”

She turned to Shinji. “He would do that I assume?”

Shinji looked at Rei. “Yes maybe it’s just that Rei like Asuka says.”

Misato looked at Asuka. “Kyo also wants to see you this afternoon Asuka he’s taken time out of special training of the employees just to see you.” She raised her hand. “And you two need to buy new phones as Ritsuko needs to fit them with the new devices, you’ll be given company phones during the overlap.” She looked at them all. “Oh and I’d like you all to meet me after work because myself and Kaji are going to the ramien bar opposite Nerv as we want to have dinner with you all.”

Shinji felt a wide smile form though his sister’s face remained slightly annoyed. “Do you mean Tonkotsu the place we all used to go when we were kids which is next to the visitor centre?”

Misato looked at him. “Yes that’s the place and I already booked so it I’m hoping you can all come as it would mean a lot to us considering all that’s been going on.”

Toji raised his hand. “I’m there but can I bring Sakura?”

Misato nodded. “The more the merrier.”

Shinji looked up slightly watching as Kaworu gave him a smile. “We’d love to go.”

Mari raised her hand. “Can I bring Maya?” Maya breathed in deeply. “I have to do an all-night run Mari I can’t be with you tonight, plus you need to get some rest.”

Mari leaned forward lowering her tone to a lower more seductive one. “Is that an order? Because I like it when you order me around...”

Maya lowered her head trying very hard to hide the blush on her face as she spoke. “Yes it is, we’ll catch up tomorrow.”

Asuka breathed in deeply letting her breath out slowly. “I’m never going to get used to this.”

Misato turned trying to hide her smirk as she turned to Asuka and Rei. “I hope you’re both coming to.”

Asuka looked up slightly. “We will be there.” Misato turned back to her tablet as Maya recomposed herself. “Okay so the roaster is as follows. Shinji, Kaworu you need to go to Sicily in Italy they need an Evangelion to put some of their volcanic testing equipment on as Mount Etna. Strangely it became active last night even though it hasn’t been active in almost two hundred years and your skills with volcano diving are better than any other pilots.” She paused. “Unit 01 has been fitted with the special ice water tank surround to keep the LCL cool and you’ll leave in half an hour.”

She turned to Mari and Toji. “You are both needed in China in the Forbidden City of Ihasa in Tibet. There’s some big celebration for the Dalai Lama and you just need to stand around and look mean apparently.” Toji folded his arms in annoyance. “So it’s a chicken shit publicity stunt since the Dalai Lama’s at odds with the Chinese president as he wants control over Ihasa but the Dalai Lamas refuses as she says the city is holy to the gods and should not be part of the government control.”

Misato looked at her tablet. “You’re not wrong Toji and she asked to see you personally, in her words she wants to see the man who controls a living god dressed in armour.” Toji rolled his eyes. “This is why I hate my own counties political bullshit right now, they keep making me part of it.” Mari raised her hand. “I know I’m guarding him but why am I going wouldn’t it have been better for them to send Kaworu in my place, since China considered the Ukraine neutral?”

Misato eyed her tablet. “The problem is that Britain once occupied Ihasa as it was part of the British empire for a time but they gave it up three decades ago and made it part of the commonwealth so right now there having a pissing match with China and siding with the Dalai Lama on this one about China not owning it. As they view it as a scared city and still there’s by right of the commonwealth.” She breathed deeply. “Which sadly means your being roped in to the British prime minister’s bullshit as well since Britain demanded you be there as a presence, regardless of Toji.”

Toji sat up in his chair. “You know the chicken shit bastards do realize me and her are friends right, we are not enemies?” Shinji breathed in deeply. “Believe me when it’s about politics Toji anyone who wants to posture with an Evangelion can even if there not on the same side. It’s one of the annoying aspects of our line of work at Nerv.” He raised his hand. “You’ll get used to it after a while and you’ll learn to ignore it. The fact is they are not allowed to use the Evangelions in any form of battle against other countries.”

He looked up slightly. “The Evangelion’s can only be used to end disputes and stops terrorists attack as well as the kill angels, archangels and the hybrid Evangelion. They are never to be used to start wars and the world knows that but it doesn’t stop them using the Evangelions now and again for personal gain.”

Misato breathed in deeply. “We realize the problem here this is causing and have said nether of you will leave the Evangelions or be interviewed and we’ve put extra food in your entry plug to tide you over as we realize this situation means you can’t eat or be part of the celebrations.”

She lowered her tablet. “As we are worried both sides will try to bring in diplomats to sway you and get you on side, when this sticky issue is nothing to do you and about your countries who need to sort this out without your influences.” Mari breathed in annoyance. “Great I hate Nerv rations they don’t taste of anything.” Maya put her hands in her lab coat pockets. “No I made sure it’s not that Mari as we have been working on ways to store hot food in a special compartment without it effecting LCL temperature.”

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She looked up slightly. “Both your units have been fitted temporally with these hot boxes they’ve been lab tested and they work. They just need testing fully today by you and Toji but should they not work they can be turned off and you will still have rations.” Mari felt a sly smile form. “So what did you put in these hot boxes, just curious?” Maya looked up meeting her intense gaze. “That would spoil the surprise Mari but trust me you and Toji won’t be disappointed.” Mari smirked slightly. “Oh so did you put a naked picture in there for me, as an added extra?”

Asuka breathed in deeply putting a hand on her face as she spoke in a quite tone. “I so did not need to hear that.” Misato moved forward watching as Maya’s look turned to surprise and shock. “Okay it’s time for you all to go now.” She paused pointing at Mari followed by Maya. “And you two need to learn the concept of private chat and getting a room.”

Maya snapped out of her haze as she made her way towards the door. “Please you don’t get room with Kaji and she’s my girlfriend, she can say whatever she likes so back off!” Misato watched as she left closing the door behind her seeing the shocked looks from everyone apart from Mari who smiled smugly as she folded her arms. “Okay you should all get going now.”

Asuka turned to Mari looking at her. “So clearly she likes you then.” Rei turned slightly. “Yes it would seem that she does like you, a lot.” Shinji leaned over along with Kaworu. “Yeah I’ve never seen her behave that way before.”

Toji smirked as he looked at Mari. “So you must be giving her a good time in bed then?” Misato turned to them. “Did you all not hear me? Get moving you can chat tonight at the ramen restaurant!” She watched as they all got up knowing that, that was command tone and meant she was serious she watched as they all left going in different directions very quickly.

Some meeting this had turned out to be, not to mention outright weird. Since Asuka was behaving so calmly and Rei just seemed edgy and moody it was liked they’d swapped bodies. Maya had said that there was a real possibility both could suffer post-traumatic stress disorder and would need to a psychiatric evaluation in two days to be sure. So maybe it could be a starting symptom but it was still odd she had expected Asuka to be in a foul mood today. Since she couldn’t pilot so it was plain weird seeing the opposite along with Rei being this abrasive as she was normally only like this in quarantine.

8

Kyo breathed in leaning back looking at the office around him he’d been given this after Misato had put him in charge of the special ops. Yet he couldn’t help feel that he felt out of place in here as he was more used to idea of sharing with the other special ops in their sleeping quarter rooms. Mari’s father Marcus was now gone and after the drinking match they’d had he could suddenly see where she got a lot of her unique behaviour from, Marcus was very open with no filter when he spoke and clearly Mari took after him.

It had got him thinking though about his friendship with Asuka he had always been her mentor but people had stated that he was her father figure, though he had not wanted to admit it. The reality though was he was. He had just had difficulty embracing the issue because he felt it might cause problems as he was meant to her trainer and an authority figure. The reality was that after what had happened with her capture he had regretted not telling her the truth, in that he saw her as his daughter.

He picked up an old Guntō which had been his great grandmothers during world war two where she’d been a solider on the front lines trying to stop Russia’s world take over. The blade was carved with writing. “Life is like swordplay. Grip it, hold it tightly and then make your move.” His grandmother was long dead but he took great comfort in those words and their truth and he had not been gripping life hard enough as of late, when he should be.

Now Asuka was back he wanted to tell her openly how he felt regarding their friendship. Because she was going to need it there was a very real possibility she could have post-traumatic stress disorder and pier to this she had only just been getting over depression. Plus this had happened while Rei was with her which would only add to the stress. He’d suffered post-traumatic stress disorder as a younger man and it had been hard to work though hence he wanted to be there for her as much as possible.

Maybe she would take comfort in knowing that he viewed her as a daughter maybe it would strengthen their bond and make it a closer friendship, rather than a mentor and student. He breathed in as he watched her appear outside his office. He raised his hand watching as she walked in he slowly stood up as she came in. “Ah there you are did you get lost along the way?” Asuka closed the door behind her as she spoke calmly. “Yeah I did and I’m really not used to you having an office.”

Kyo moved closer to her. “Between us I really don’t give a damn about this office, it’s a perk I don’t care for.” He breathed in deeply not thinking as he grabbed her pulling her in to a hug. “I’m so happy to finally see you again Asuka, for a moment we all thought you might be lost to us.”

Asuka blinked in surprise as the big man held her tighter in all the time she’d known him he had never hugged her openly. She breathed in deeply feeling it was only right to be honest with him and not hide her feelings. “Believe me when I say I felt lost myself, for a while.”

She breathed in sadly. “I thought they were going to kill me Kyo but it wasn’t like that, they were all insane they think I’m some destroyer of worlds.” Kyo pulled away from her putting a hand on her shoulder. “Yes we found out what insane people they were, in the footage.” Asuka watched as he sat down she slowly sat down opposite as she spoke unable to keep the bitter tone out of her voice. “Yeah they are and that bastard Christopher beat the scheisse out of me.”

Kyo breathed in deeply. “You tried your best Asuka you were trying to protect Rei the footage really showed that.” Asuka looked up slightly as she pulled her gun out of its holder so he could see it. “And yet I feel like scheisse for killing four people with this, even though they had it coming and I’ve killed people all my life?” Kyo looked at her for a long moment instantly understanding what was going on. “I know you knee capped a stalker once who got in to your home but pulling the trigger that close is never a good feeling.”

He moved his hand putting it on her gun hand. “This is the first time you’ve ever killed at close quarters and I can understand why it’s difficult. In the Evangelion you probably feel differently when you kill terrorists.”

Asuka looked at him for a long moment. “I don’t enjoy killing in the Evangelion but it always feel like I’m doing it to save people….when I unloaded my gun on those four men and women I just felt awful afterwards and I can’t get their faces out of my mind.”

She breathed in painfully trying to ignore the sting of her own tears which came out all too suddenly. “I just keep on thinking that it was mistake. Since I thought they were after Rei but they weren’t they were after me and I killed them and they didn’t need to die. If I had known it was about me I would have surrendered and tried to negotiate Rei’s release.” She took in a painful breath. “I just let my emotions and anger rule me and four people felt the bullets of my verfickte gun in the process.”

She eased up her gun looking at it. “The pathetic thing is I always thought after all the training after all your teaching I’d be okay when I final fired the kill shot to protect myself…yet I just feel like utter scheisse and I just can’t get their faces out of my mind.”

Kyo eased up his hand putting it on her face. “Listen to me Asuka and listen good, those people killed hundreds off famous celebrities and staff that night they were pure killers with evil intentions and they meant to cause you harm and pain and create an act of terror in Tokyo Three.”

He looked up slightly. “You did what you were trained to do you protected yourself and you killed terrorists that’s what you do it’s what your good at. You should not blame yourself for unloading the gun in your position as in the past I’ve done the same.”

Asuka turned to unable to hold the sudden sharp edge of her anger back which came out very suddenly. “You saying this…doesn’t take away from the fact that I still feel like scheisse. I keep seeing their faces when I lay down to sleep!”

Kyo eased up his hand putting it on her shoulder as he raised his other hand. “Listen my little ball of red fire sometimes you have to take that shot and pull that trigger it’s a horrible choice but you have to do it and it never gets any easier. So you have to tell yourself you did it for the right reasons which you did Asuka as you were trying to protect someone you love.” Asuka lowered her gaze feeling the tears start to come before she could stop them. “And yet I still feel terrible, even it was for the right reasons.”

Kyo moved forward putting his arms around her this was the first time he’d ever seen her cry and it was in front of him and nothing was hidden. “You did the right thing Asuka, in your position I would have fired my gun to.” He held her tighter. “You did do the right thing you just have to keep telling yourself that.”

Asuka pulled back as she wiped some of her tears away sharply. “But that’s the problem it wasn’t right it could have been avoided. If I had asked the right questions but I didn’t I fired first and didn’t ask any questions.”

Kyo slowly lowered himself down since he’d always towered over her and he really wanted to be on her level. “Believe me Asuka those people meant to hurt you I could see it in the footage. What was the first lesson I ever taught you?” Asuka looked up meeting his gaze. “Do not hesitate to fire your weapon if you feel your life is truly in danger, because you won’t get a second chance in most cases if the person means to hurt or kill you.”

Kyo leaned over taking the gun from her hand watching as she sat down. He slowly kneeled in front of her. “You did just what I taught you with this and you did it exceptionally. If ever any one was to question your skill at close range they can’t anymore your shots were perfect kills, just like in your Evangelion.”

He breathed in deeply. “I am very proud of how you acted you tried to save all of those people at the auction house by taking on that troll faced bastard who was an Evangelion pilot like you and even though you lost thousands of people saw you. Did you know their talking about that in the media feeds? Those celebrities and staff that survived, said that you tried to save them and give them freedom. Once your battle was over they said that Rei blew out the lighting system and got the doors open. Yes hundreds died but had ether of you not acted more would be dead the bomb was intended to kill them all.”

He looked at her gun as he put it back in her hand. “Don’t see yourself as the villain here don’t view your gun or yourself as dirty because the reality is you are a hero, in all the best possibly ways.” He paused before speaking. “As I always tell you power and controls are nothing on their own they must be balanced through honour and justice which you did once again.”

He breathed in deeply feeling that now was the best time to say this. “I’m sure you’ve always heard rumours that people refer to me as you father figure at Nerv.” Asuka blinked in confusion. “No I never heard that I mean Mari mentioned that you really like me and have a huge soft spot for me but she’s seeing thing that are not there. Our relationship has always been that of mentor of student and we respect each other.”

Kyo shook his head as he put her hand on her shoulder very gently. “No Asuka she is not seeing things that are not there, I’ve always thought more of you than any other student and I do have a huge spot for you, I always have.”

He breathed in deeply realizing how strange his next words could sound. “You know I told you about my daughter who died.” Asuka stared at him for a long moment she now had no idea where this was going and just felt deeply confused. “Yes I remember you telling me she died in second impact along with your wife.” Kyo eased up his hand putting it on her face very gently. “Well you’ve always reminded me off her and the truth is I see you as the daughter I never had.”

He breathed in deeply. “I realize this might be hard for you to take in and I know you’re not very trusting of people after what happened in your childhood but believe me when I say I would like to be a truly positive figure in your life and be a father to you in any way I can.”

He lowered his head sadly. “I’m sorry if this is a shock to you and is hard to take in but I never knew how you would react and I was scared that you’d dislike this. So I never told you but after almost losing you to that terrorist group, I felt that you deserve to know the truth.”

Asuka looked down as an uncertain silence fell across the room she snapped out her haze meeting his gaze directly. “You really see me as a daughter?” Kyo nodded calmly. “Yes.” Asuka felt a smile form despite the painful emotions and anger she was feeling. This felt like a form of silver lining even if it was out of the blue and had caught her completely off guard. “I think it’s really nice that think that off me like this even though I’m not your family.” Kyo let out the breath he had been holding. “Family is about connection, it’s not always about blood but I think you know that already as both you and Mari are not directly related.”

He raised his hand. “Look the point is I know what you’re going to go through in the next few weeks and it’s going to be hard and I want to be there for you whenever I can. So don’t feel afraid to talk to me or Maya about it as I’ve had post-traumatic stress disorder as a young man and it’s very hard to go through and it helps to have someone to talk to.”

Asuka moved forward wrapping her arms around his neck. “Thank you Kyo this means a lot to me and I will talk to you and I think you were right to tell me this now as before Bardiel I might not have believed that you saw me this way.” Kyo felt a smile form. “Well my little ball of red fire that’s good to know and I am glad you’re happy with this.”

8

Vitor took a bite out of his food as he walked the long bridge that was part of the restricted zones walk way as some were just bridge levels and this was the oldest level in the complex from what he’d heard. It didn’t have the modern look which the newer complex buildings had and you sometimes had to use the bridge walkways to get to certain older areas as well as newer ones. They were both just here though so they could let their pets fly around as these bridges had plenty of wide open space. “Wait so you’re telling me the rumour is that Toji asked out Sumire?”

Chilam leaned on the bridges rails. “Yeah I heard it from someone higher up on in command, lots of people are talking about it.” Vitor opened his lab coat watching as his budgie opened her wings flying upwards soaring in the high sky of the empty old area which hardly anyone ever went near.

He watched as Chilam let her mass Eva’s out of her lab coat letting them fly sky high so like his budgie they could get some real exercise. “Well that sucks he beat me to it!”

Chilam turned raising an eyebrow. “Look I’m sure this place being as huge as it is, you’ll find another woman who likes to be speak her mind and has really course language.” She paused eyeing the huge lab complex opposite of them which people dubbed the ghost lab complex. Because it always had the shutters down and was off limits to all staff even those in the restricted area apart from Gendo and Ritsuko who were seen sometimes coming and going from it.

From reading the history book on Nerv it was going to be a cloning lab back when it had first been built but then the UN had banned human cloning worldwide. It had been turned in to something else but what it was no one knew and it was clearly nothing to do with Ritsuko’s Evangelion research as that was on another floor and everyone could see it, it wasn’t hidden in any way.

This was something else and clearly not for anyone’s eyes and something of Seele’s and since no one ever really came here, it was safe for them to be here.

Vitor looked up slightly. “Yeah you’re probably right and as they say you win some you lose some.” He looked at the enormous closed off lab only to freeze, as he realized that there was someone sitting on top of its flat metal roof. Though they weren’t paying attention to them and seemed completely oblivious to them even being here. “You got to be fucking kidding me?!”

Chilam turned in confusion unsure of what he looking at as only to catch sight of it and the person in question was unmistakable.

It was her clothing and short hair and pose though even from here she could see the eyes which were glowing red and not green in the dimly lit zone. “That’s Ayanami!” He paused seeing that the young woman clearly had no interest in them and was lost in own thoughts. “How is she even down here, I though she wasn’t allowed in the restricted zone much like her brother?”

Chilam eyed the short brown haired woman’s whose gaze shifted as she caught sight of their flying pets but remained still watching their in-flight acrobatics. “Maybe the commander upgraded their privileges…or something.”

Vitor eyed the young woman who was still ignoring them. “Yeah but still why be here? This place is not what I’d call the tourist distinct of the restricted zone why not be where the Evangelions parts are built or the Evangelion testing areas?”

He raised his hands. “I mean look at this area, it’s never really done it up to this day unlike the other zones.” Chilam eyed the younger woman for a long moment even from here it felt like she was giving of a strange vibe maybe it was her eyes they really stood out in darkness and the red glow was so intense. “Do you think she see us, I mean she must know we are here?”

Vitor turned to her. “Maybe she doesn’t give a damn I mean why would she care? The Commander is her father and it’s not like she’s hiding her presence in any way.” He watched as his budgie came back in landing on his shoulders followed by Chilam’s pets returning to her. “Let’s go, let’s leave her to it though I would love to know how she got down here without anyone seeing her.” Chilam breathed in deeply. “This sucks I really want to see these pilots up close and personal yet all I ever get to see them from a far.”

Vitor raised an eyebrow as they began to walk away in the opposite direction. “Why are so interested with the whole up close thing, I’m just curious?” Chilam breathed in, in annoyance. “I want to look in to their souls through their eyes and you just can’t do that though pictures or holograms, call it spiritual curiosity.” Vitor looked at her for a long moment before speaking. “If you like windows of the soul why don’t your little mass Evangelions have eyes?” Chilam turned feeling a sly smile form. “Because I wanted to give them a deeper view of the world…and the company demanded no eyes.”

End of part 38

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