IF OUR LOVE'S INSANITY WHY ARE YOU MY CLARITY

Ritsuko breathed in as she typed in to the holographic panel she could see the pilots all on the balcony out of danger while herself Kaji, Misato, Maya and Sumire and Shigeru were all in the black lab bellow. She watched as the door opened as her husband appeared as he spoke calmly. “I’m sorry I’m late there was a hold up with the Russian ambassador.” He adjusted his glasses. “I assume we are ready to begin with the Orison Ark Light Camera?”

Ritsuko turned slightly. “Yes we are the double AT field is on both rooms it’s stabilized so their power cannot penetrate it, or affect us.” Gendo put his hands behind his back then. “Then please begin. I need to see what we are dealing with.”

Ritsuko turned on the sound so both Rei and Asuka could be heard but they could also hear each other. “Rei I need you to sit on the bed and stay calm. As what happens in Asuka’s room next might be frightening.”

Rei folded her arms in disgust. “What are you going to do to her?!”

Ritsuko breathed in deeply. “Shine a light on her soul’s true self, so to speak.”

She turned to Rei. “You’ve seen this camera or one like it, you told me and you’re father but you didn’t remember what it did.” She carried on typing. “In a moment that memory might come back to you.”

She watched as Asuka stood up as the camera followed her to the centre of the room. The red haired woman was mentality preparing her-self she could tell by her good eye and how serious it looked. “This will be very painful Asuka, but it is going to help you and I know you’ve seen this camera before.” Asuka took a deep breath eyeing the camera. “Yes I remember seeing one like it…what is it going to do to me?”

Ritsuko breathed in deeply. “Its purpose is to see your very soul in its true form and unlike Ankh we won’t stall and cause you any long intense pain.” Asuka breathed in pulling her patch off putting it in her pocket as she raised her hands outwards. “Get it over with…I’m ready I can take it!” Ritsuko breathed in. “As you wish if you are ready.”

She pressed the button watching as white light blasted out of the camera as the AT field rippled as it let the light through as Seele had said it would as the gold veins on the camera starting to glow intensely as the white light turned to silver shinning brighter. The camera lens started to turn adjusting to match Asuka’s soul as the arms came up slowly placing the lenses carefully in to the slots, the first being the red one.

It was followed by Asuka’s in-human roar hitting the room with enough force to hurt all their ears even Gendo’s as he looked up sharply as Asuka’s right eye blasted in to light as her teeth turned to razors and her right eye turned to green and a cat like slit appeared in it . He breathed in sharply “Insert the next one we are close, it’s just like Seele said it would be!” Ritsuko typed fast watching as the gold one and silver were placed in next as they did their job, which was to stabilize Asuka’s soul and stop the pain.

The light instantly changed in to an intense beam hitting her chest as her left eye blasted light outwards which covered her whole body for a moment. It dissipated instantly as a huge form appeared on its knees. It was what Dante had said it would be and yet it was still a huge shock as this was no illusion it was a living breathing tiger lycanthrope. The thick fur and muscle stood out along with the two thrashing tails. Its body was six foot from head to foot and the two huge tails were body length.

He clearly wasn’t the only one in awe at this, as all the others in the room and above looked shocked and awestruck as it raised its hand to its face as the camera stabilized and the AT field flexed for a moment clearly restraining the untapped souls power its beam vanishing. His daughter moved to the glass in between to look in as a very conflicted look crossed her face.

Ritsuko watched as the he huge jaws opened as the were-tiger shook its long mane its normal eye glowed blue while the other let out pure white light. The scar that had been on Asuka’s face remained and he could see the one on her stomach but that looked strange like it hadn’t healed like the other it also looked sore and recent.

She walked forward seeing that everyone else wasn’t going forward ether out of fear or uncertainty not that it was surprising a drawing was one thing. Seeing the thing as a living breathing being was quite another and even the footage did it no justice. Not to mention the huge clawed hands looked like they could rip you apart.

They had ripped Bardiel’s body and the teeth had torn up his shoulder she remembered reading in Maya’s files on that the other night. “Asuka I assume you can understand me.” The huge being turned its head as it spoke perfectly in Asuka’s voice though there was a slight growl behind the tone. “Yes I understand you.” Asuka raised her clawed hand looking at it. “Is this…real?”

Ritsuko watched as the others got closer now the pure fascination showing on their faces. “Yes it’s real this is what’s called a soul projection, a living breathing image of your true soul, which is not normally seen via human eyes.” She paused. “People can have different types they normally take the form they feel is closest to in their inner self. They can be monsters and animals or them-selves just different. They can also be much more extreme like creatures of myth like yourself, since you embody a lycanthropic version of Nekomata which is tiger like.”

She paused meeting Asuka’s intense gaze. “So let’s cut to the chase and not bullshit around. The reason you’ve been ill since you got back from capture by Ankh is because they were trying to awaken a part of your soul that’s been dormant, but in doing so it’s making your normal soul stronger and you’re starting to do godly feats you can’t remember or even explain.”

Asuka moved closer to the AT field. “Like Rei said in the meeting they said that I’m some forma destroyer of worlds, their out of their verfickte minds.” Ritsuko looked up slightly. “On any other given day they would be Asuka and you’d be right….but today they are correct.”

She looked up as Asuka’s good eye turned to pure conflict. “You’ve lived a whole other life you have no memory of and in that you brought about human instrumentality and you became a bringer of death. The form you’re in now is not that of the destroyer but she is somehow taking over you and myself and Gendo believe that is how you escaped Ankh but her coming out through your soul has caused you serious side effects.”

She turned pointing at Rei. “These are affecting her to because she’s close to you, the odd looking medication we gave you both in quarantine, was meant to suppress this but it failed.”

Ritsuko looked up slightly. “And we both know why this is, don’t we Asuka? It’s because you couldn’t follow the fucking rules and keep your trousers up like I asked you to!”

Misato moved forward seeing the clear discomfort on Asuka’s face the tiger form did nothing to hide it. “Do you have to be this direct, is it really necessary?!”

Ritsuko turned sharply. “Yes it is necessary! It’s because she thinks with her lowers we here now having to clean up her mess, along with her inability to follow the rules which has always been an issue.” Rei turned she couldn’t stand this anymore. This had not been Asuka’s fault, it was all hers. She spoke unable to keep the anger out of her voice. “It wasn’t her!”

Ritsuko turned sharply moving to Rei’s side seeing Asuka instantly snap out of her haze as she turned walking toward Rei’s side trying to place her clawed feet down carefully as she was now too big for the room’s furniture and could break things if she wasn’t careful. She raised a clawed hand. “Rei…”

Rei put her hand through her hair in frustration. “No Asuka, we both know what happened that night….” Ritsuko put on her glasses as she walked closer to Rei feeling suddenly deeply perplexed by this sudden turn events. “Go on Rei.” Rei breathed in deeply. “It was me I started it, I wanted it, I knew it was wrong I just didn’t care.”

Ritsuko moved a step closer. “Was Asuka human during this?” Rei looked up seeing Asuka’s frustration she clearly didn’t want this out there but this would be best for both of them in the long run. “No she wasn’t…” She watched as Asuka snarled in frustration as she walked away going to sit at the end of the room as she turned her back on everyone which was covered in tiger stripe markings much like her arms, legs and tails.

Ritsuko watched as Rei’s eyes met hers directly as it suddenly clicked in her head. “Wait, you fucked her like that?” Rei turned sharply the rage hitting her before she could stop it. “Yes and it was fucking amazing, it was the best sex I’ve ever had!”

Ritsuko watched as the silence hit the room as Asuka banged her head against the wall as she let out an inhuman growl which vibrated through the room. She could see a few people smirking and hear Toji and Mari laughing some distance away on the balcony clearly loving this.

Gendo on the other hand looked very uncomfortable about this whole thing. While Misato had a look of utter confusion on her face, which was so odd to see as she normally looked like nothing ever fazed her. She breathed in finally finding her voice. “Well clearly you’re full of surprises and so not like your mother…”

Misato breathed in deeply. “I’m confused…how did you have sex with her…it’s just she has no dick.”

Rei raised her hand as she spoke in an ice cold tone. “Use your imagination.”

Misato turned eyeing Asuka who put a huge clawed hand to her face. Maya breathed in hating that she had to enlighten Misato who still looked really confused. “She used one of her tails isn’t it obvious?”

Misato eyed the long tails which were massive in size and had a really wide end thick with fur. “Yeah but look at the size of them I mean the end would end up ripping her two.” Maya rolled her eyes in frustration clearly she had to spell this out to the other woman who normally bragged about knowing everything about sex and had claimed to have tried everything just once. “She used friction…”

Ritsuko adjusted her glasses not missing a beat as she spoke calmly in Rei’s direction seeing her deeply embarrassed blush. “Your mother Yui was never this adventurous and she’d never admit to it openly.” She slowly eased up her tablet as she started to write on it. “Clearly you like your sex on the dangerous side since you didn’t mind doing a godly divine being that’s three times your size and insanely powerful.”

Asuka turned sharply feeling her huge teeth grind together as she spoke coldly. “Can you please stop verfickte talking about this!?” Ritsuko turned looking at her somehow this had really taken a hard right turn to what she was expecting. She had fully expected Asuka to be the one who would have started it and for her to brag about it. Only to have Rei be the one bragging and Asuka crawling in to the corner not wanting to even be part of the conversation.

She prided herself on her ability to read people and had always assumed Rei and Asuka were easy to read. Because she’d know both their parents but from this it was so clear that the child didn’t match the parent in certain behaviours granted both were ill from godly sickness but it was still a surprise. Her thoughts were shattered by Misato’s voice suddenly hit the air. “Wait so you’re saying this is some godly disease and Asuka gave Rei some form of godly STI?”

Misato sniggered in as Ritsuko turned to her. “Because if that’s what you’re saying you know that is so out there?” Ritsuko slowly put her tablet down as she turned to her. “I don’t think you fully understand this yet but this is not some fucking juvenile laughing matter!”

She turned slightly pointing at Asuka. “She’s a living god in human form, she can’t control her power and I doubt she was the one who last night stole a car went and speeding in it. Just like I doubt Rei was the one walking around naked in a family’s home, where she didn’t live. That’s the other half coming out and pissing around and this is the tip of the iceberg and purely them flexing their godly powers, testing if you will, if they ever gain full power you can kiss the world good bye!”

Asuka’s ears shot up. “I stole a car? But I have no memory of that…the last thing I remember was going to bed as I felt really unwell.” Ritsuko looked at her. “You didn’t steal the car Asuka, I believe your other self-took it for a joy ride, it’s why you woke up not really remembering anything. It’s because unlike Bardiel she’s not a hitchhiker she is you, therefore she can take full control over you and she can just wipe your mind when she’s done, creating mental gaps.”

Ritsuko turned to Rei. “We read in the police report that you had a bruise on your shoulder. It’s still there and we know it wasn’t made by them…so tell me what you saw last night Rei…because I know you saw something. In the police report they pointed out that you were very tense and seemed dishonest in your interview like you were hiding something.”

Rei breathed in as she sat down on the bed. “I don’t know what I saw…” Ritsuko moved closer to the shield. “Yes you do, you can be honest with us.” Gendo moved forward slightly speaking calmly. “Please tell us Rei.” Rei put her hand through her hair in deep frustration. “There were noises in our house. I woke up because I heard a crash I though Asuka had dropped a motorbike in the garage but I came down and this was this horrible looking monster.

It was really tall with huge horns and a messed up face, it looked kind of like a screwed up looking Pan God and it had hooves. I don’t remember everything it said to me but it was horrible and it smelt like rotting flesh. All I remember was it said something rude about our Asuka and I stood up to it and it hit me with its clawed hand…after that I remember nothing it all goes black and I woke up the police station….”

Ritsuko breathed in sadly. “What you saw was the destroyer herself then.” Asuka stood up slowly feeling the sadness take over as she walked up to Rei’s side of the glass putting a clawed hand on it realizing that her worst nightmare had come true, she had hit the woman she loved. “I’m so sorry…I had no idea what I was doing.”

Ritsuko turned banging Asuka’s side panel with her hand, which was for giving her food and away from the AT shielding getting Asuka’s attention instantly. “Let me make this really clear to you Asuka before you start going down this self-loathing rabbit-hole…she is not you, she is a version of you. You are not the same person. Her actions have zero bearing on yours even her subconscious is different to yours the problem is your both stuck in the same body like Jekyll and Hyde.”

She paused watching as Asuka turned to look at her, her good eye filled with uncertainty. “So no, you didn’t hit Rei at all she did and she probably did it because she gets off on hurting others. Seele have told us she always enjoyed causing pain and she probably did it full well knowing it would get to you, as it’s the one thing you would never do.” Asuka looked up slightly. “Yet knowing this just makes it even worse…as she drew on my worst fears.”

Rei turned to her. “She is right though trust me she’s not you. I don’t remember everything but I know she wasn’t you. She was utterly horrible there was no kindness, no love no compassion it was all gone all that was left was hatred and unkindness and the enjoyment of bullying others. It’s clear she never learnt the important lessons you did that made me fall in love with you, for her everything is about vindictive power.”

Asuka let out the breath she’d been holding though it came out as a deep rumble. “Then she is who I could be….if things had been different.” Ritsuko looked up slightly. “Yes that would be a very correct observation and unlike you she never reached adult hood, Seele told us she died young.” She paused. “You once told Maya you had a dream as a child that happened a lot about crawling out of the red sea and believing the world was waiting on you, but you dismissed this dream.”

She typed in to the black lab panel opposite causing a large holographic screen to come up on Asuka’s side of the glass which revealed all the paintings she’d painted while almost ascending due to Bardiel. “Well that wasn’t just a dream…it was an old memory and these are your drawings, proving it.”

Asuka walked up to separating glass screen staring at the images it was her drawing she recognised the style. She turned seeing Rei coming up to look at them as they could see them through her side of the glass as well. “I have no memory of ever painting these.”

Ritsuko looked up slightly. “You painted them right before 02’s core sucked you in.” Rei eyed the images. “Why am I a floating weird giant in these?” Gendo breathed in before he spoke. “We don’t really know, we have been very perplexed over this but Seele will not really go in to it even though they remember everything that happened…in fact they always knew.”

Asuka turned to look at him as she snarled in anger. “Then you’ve known my whole verfickte life that I was going to become this and you verfickte said nothing!” She slammed her clawed hand against the AT field shield watching as it pulsed and rippled.

Gendo moved in front of Ritsuko who stepped back very unsure of what to say as did everyone else. Gendo adjusted his glasses calmly. “Yes we knew.” Asuka’s animalistic roar of pure anger suddenly hit the air causing the shield to pulse faster. “But to be a destroyer of worlds you need the two lances of Longinus without that you can never regain that full power and the only one that remains is dead.” Asuka’s good eye narrowed. “Accept its not I saw it in Ankh hands…it glowed Commander.”

Gendo met her gaze seeing the images in the central glass fade away as Ritsuko turned off the hologram screen. “But they still failed and the reason you’re in the position is they couldn’t do it right as they lacked the second lance and they’ve now created a Jekyll and Hyde scenario, which we can fix in time.” He breathed in deeply. “All we need is to find the crack in your soul and then this will all end and you’ll go back to normal.”

Asuka stood up slightly. “What if you’re wrong and the second lance still exists?” Gendo put a hand on his beard. “No one has ever found the second lance you hid it even from yourself…Seele said at the end the other you felt deep regret for how everything turned out and chances of love you lost….hence you just wanted a clean start and restarted the whole world a new and asked for rebirth.”

He paused. “Your soul now is that rebirth you do not remember the forma. You are different to your previous self, the clean slate she desired and she is only here now because the fools Ankh have tampered with things beyond their control but we can fix you, we just need more time.”

He put his hands behind his back. “Your cooperation would make this easier for us if you’re willing to give it to us. As we want the same thing as you, we want this all to return to normal.” He raised a gloved hand. “I’m sure you want this as much as we do, you want to go back to your normal life safe and sound where you sleep with my daughter.” He watched as she went down on all fours pacing back and forth for a long moment clearly thinking something though. “That is what you want is it not?”

Asuka stopped suddenly as she rose back on to her hind legs so she was towering over him as she leaned close enough to the shield that her nose could touch it and he could see all her teeth. “Yes I want that but you have yet to for fill that promise Rei asked of you.”

Gendo eyed the huge clawed hands. “That was done the other night, but we saw when we decontaminated your home you had not opened any of your mail. It will be there for you when you return and my son had a copy sent to him to but with all that’s been happening regarding his boyfriend he may have not have noticed it ether.” Asuka snorted causing his hair to be blown back despite the AT fields shield. “I do hope you’re not lying to me.”

Stolen novel; please report.

Gendo met her good eye directly. “Whatever you may think of me, I would not dishonour my word and I would not challenge you in this state it would be extremely foolish.” He paused. “A god is a god and gods must always be respected Seele always told me that, just never why it was but now it makes sense to me.” Asuka felt a sneer form. “Pity I have to be a verfickte god, for you to even respect me Commander.”

Gendo looked at her for a long moment before speaking though there was barely any emotion in his voice. “Your friends can see you both now.” Asuka watched as he walked away as Ritsuko came forward. “We all need to have a meeting going forward but you can now speak to your friends and family.”

Asuka watched as Rei sat on the bed in her confined area while she sat down on the floor looking at her clawed hands. Someday this was turning out to be maybe she should have just accepted the truth that she was some kind of god sooner but she had not wanted to admit it, how could she it seemed so ludicrous. She watched as they all left the room and everything went quite.

She breathed in suddenly feeling a tingling sensation down her spine it was like someone was stroking the back with their hand but no one was there. She turned sharply as Rei voice suddenly spoke in her head causing both her ears to go up. “You could never know you were destining to be god.”

Asuka turned to look at her as she spoke back openly. “You can read my thoughts?”

Rei’s voice came back though softly. “Yes but I guess in that form it means you hear my thoughts better since it gives you better hearing.”

Asuka looked down sadly as she spoke back. “I’m sorry Rei…for getting you in to this mess and affecting you with this.”

Rei felt a smile form as she spoke to her again mentality. “No please don’t be sorry like I said it was the best love making session I ever had.”

Asuka felt a smile form. “I really enjoyed it to.” She turned meeting the other woman’s gaze. “Again I’m sorry for what happened with my other self…I know it’s not me but I still hate that she used my body to hurt you...” Rei sat up slightly. “It wasn’t you Asuka she has a very different form to yours and it doesn’t change the way I feel about you, I love you.”

Asuka lowered her ears as she raised her clawed hand opening it causing a blast of reddish light which formed a heart shape though it faded away quickly as she spoke back mentality. “I know…but if I ever meet her she’ll verfickte pay for that, no one touches you that way not even if their me.” Rei raised an eyebrow. “Like I said before it wasn’t you…so don’t feel this way she’s just not worth it.”

Asuka moved slowly over to the glass watching on all fours then carefully sat down close the central glass between them. She watched as Rei moved closer taking some pillows to sit on as she sat opposite on the other side then spoke again mentality as the door on the other side closed as Ritsuko locked it down and the walk way rose up down on the other side locking in to the balcony. “So you are really are a living god in human, like Gabriella said.”

Asuka raised a clawed hand putting it against the glass watching as Rei raised hers putting it on the other side so it was on hers despite that they couldn’t touch teach other. “The whole idea is still insane to me more so that they knew this was coming and they’d known my whole life and said nothing to me.”

She looked at her clawed hand. “Weirder is finding out this manifestation had more to it than me just liking it.” Rei looked at her as she spoke again mentality enjoying the element of privacy this gave them. “I still love it and I enjoy seeing you this way the others may never understand it the way I do but for us it’s special.”

She paused. “They just think I’m playing dangerous when I had sex with you in that form…but the truth is I wanted it. The form never mattered to me it was about so much more than that.” Asuka felt her toothy grin widen. “I know…I’m just sorry for venting steam. I wasn’t mad at you, I just don’t like them knowing our sex life and it’s none of their business.”

Rei lowered her gaze. “I know I just wanted the truth out there because I’m really tired of people blaming you, when it was me who started it.” Asuka shook her long mane slightly. “They said they can cure me. Once I’m cured all this will be over and we can go back to our normal lives, because I don’t care for being god…the idea terrifies me because it’s a place mortals are not meant to go.”

8

Dante breathed in looking at the hologram screen which was in the meeting room which allowed him to see both of the people on screen in their separate areas. Though right now they were talking he could sense it, but it was mental telepathy no one else could hear them but he could and he had tuned his visor to hear their conversation. He had said he would over look this whole project until it was over as leader. While Seele’s others member took over his governing of the UN for a temporary amount of time.

He turned as the door opened and Gendo and Ritsuko entered followed by the others he raised his hands. “Welcome.” He paused looking at the holographic screens. “It would seem that everything is in order and the AT field generators are holding strong.” Misato blinked in confusion. “Who the fuck is he and why is he up here, this is a private meeting?” Kaji raised his hand sharply as he whispered fast. “He’s Seele….one.”

Dante moved forward looking at Misato. “Colonel it is a pleasure to final meet you in person…” Misato didn’t think as she bowed instantly realizing her mistake. “I’m sorry my deepest apologises.” Dante eyed her as he spoke calmly. “Safe to say we’ll overlook it this time Colonel. Since I don’t leave the monolith and take human form that often in side Nerv.”

Gendo breathed in deeply. “This is Dante leader of the Seele six he will be over seeing this since it falls more with in his understanding than ours.” Sumire breathed in deeply looking at the thick file Shigeru had given her which was about everything top level all she could think off right now was that everything she knew had been utterly jolted and it was terrifying. She was so confused and now she was meeting Seele normally no one ever saw Seele let alone their members which consisted of three women and three men as they were so secretive.

Dante breathed in as they seated themselves looking at him all uncertain including Gendo. “So I’m sure you are all now deeply aware of our situation. A living god affecting another though sex and the situation we are now in.”

Sumire raised her hand unable to hold this question. “I still don’t understand how Asuka is a god?” Ritsuko rolled her eyes. “We’ve been over this she was a god in her previous life...” Dante raised his hand stopping her from speaking as he walked over to the Mexican woman whose file he had read this morning.

He leaned forward. “Sumire is it?”

Sumire eyed him. “Yes sir.”

Dante stroked his thick beard. “Is it not part of your myth that the great lord Quetzalcoatl and Tezcatlipoca's will be reborn on earth and return to your people and fight over the destiny of humanity, in your history at least you first thought it was Spanish settling there. There was a rebellion among them and some took a small army against the wishes of his king and queen and tried to conquer you but your people killed him and you even learnt to use the guns and fought back winning.”

Sumire eyed him. “The leader was Hernán Cortés and yes we killed him. It finally ended in letting them settle so long as they didn’t try to conquer us again but over the centuries we merged as a culture and are now a mix of both and all the old Nahuatl and Inca temples still stand but as monuments and tourist attractions. As we have built new praying temples as we are still awaiting Quetzalcoatl’s and Tezcatlipoca's return.”

Dante breathed in deeply. “One of your gods has returned she’s in the other room as prophesized as she is the end of day’s god in every world’s culture.” Sumire looked at him for a long moment. “Asuka is a young woman she cannot be my god not to mention in that prophecy and to some he is a white man with a red beard and blue eyes.”

Dante turned slightly. “Yes a white man whom your people thought Cortés was when he came with the settlers to live in the new world. Once he proved to be untrue your people flayed him and offered his heart to the true Quetzalcoatl still awaiting his return. The Spanish settlers agreed to the punishment as they did not want to cause further issue and needed your peoples trade.” Sumire breathed in deeply. “And yet he is our saviour not a destroyer of worlds.”

Dante leaned over not caring that he was inside her, personal space. “Gods take many forms more than you can possibly imagine and I lived to see the forma Asuka bring her wrath up on me. We are trying to spare all of humanity from this terror. So whether she takes the form of your god or not she is a god of the end of the days and we are here now to save you all. Because we Seele have seen you all die once over and very brutality, so you all should have more faith in us.”

He stood up slowly. “But I respect it might take longer for you, because you still question your great gods actions after the temple of Quetzalcoatl was destroyed and your grandmother killed. So it’s not unexpected that you’d feel this way.”

He paused before speaking. “However Asuka bears red hair and blue eyes and white skin and that is not mere coincidence however you wish to deny it. She is the rebirth of the divine and you should be very respectful of that because to anger a god in human form is petty and foolish. Your partner the man you love so has been the presence of the divine and never realized it, just like the others who should be happy they witnessed this blessing.”

Ritsuko breathed in deeply. “As interesting as this is have you brought the item? You said you took it away to make changes you said it was not strong enough.” Dante moved over picking up the suit case he placed it on the table clicking it open then carefully opened it, so they could all see in side. “The one you saw was a mild prototype we have built others but this is the final model.”

He eased his hands inside pulling out a thin collar with silver locks and glowing orange Hebrew writing along the middle. “This is the true Ark of the Covenant not tablets or stones, the one the Christians, Catholics and Jewish talk of. This collar has the power to hold and restrain fully formed gods.”

He looked up. “A broken first rate prototype from another cycle sadly found its way in to the hands of fool’s eons ago. In the wrong hands it’s a powerful and dangerous weapon enough to knock down walls burn people alive and make them very sick to the point of killing them.”

Sumire looked at him. “You talk about eons ago how could you even be alive?”

Kaji turned slightly. “She was only given the Ziggurat book today…she doesn’t know everything as she has not read it all yet. Only the file on the Asuka and Bardiel and the child god Rei incident.”

Dante carefully placed the collar down as he walked towards Sumire leaning over. “Let me be clear then to you I’m what you’d call a demi god. Eternally long lived and able to live over and over and I’ve seen your world repeat twenty cycles and myself and the five other members are beings of light who can take a human form by choice when needed. Though we normally reside within our monoliths...”

Sumire eyed him in disgust. “You’re lying if you were a demi god you’d be like Heracles or Draupadi.”

Dante breathed in looking at the others. “I see this one really lacks faith.”

He breathed in deeply hating that he had to do this as he didn’t like having to enlighten mortals, it was boring. “What sets demi gods and gods apart from you is our light. Unlike you whose AT fields are inside you and keep your soul and ego as one and keeps you separate from others, we on the other hand can’t hide ours.”

He leaned forward slowly putting a hand on his glasses visor easing it free carefully watching as her whole body tensed in shock as he looked at her knowing she could see his blazing white eyes though to him the whole room was alight as he looked in to their very souls.

He closed his eyes locking the visor back on as he turned to her seeing the utter shock in her face as well as the others. “If Asuka’s left eye is not familiar to you, then it should be very clear to you all now. That it is there to show she is a sleeping god after it was blinded it was then fully awakened once the Evangelion took on its primal state.”

He turned back to the suitcase enjoying the dead silence now from everyone in the room, since he had just proved his point. “She must put on the Ark of the Covenant of her own free will. It cannot be forced on to her throat or it will not take. It is a pure stop gap for our other device which will stitch up her godly wound and end this once and for all. Though to see it the destroyer must enter through her for a second. We must see her as godly flesh no matter how terrifying. After which our Asuka must place the collar on willingly only then will this mark the beginning of the end.”

8

Misato eyed the Soul Arks doors some distance away seeing Kaji move behind her. The main doors special locks turned like some sort of huge cog device which was unlike all the others at Nerv and made the place much harder to break in to. As it had five huge bolting locks over the door so even if you somehow got the door open you’d still have to saw through them.

This place was really unlike any in the whole of Nerv and now she had a really bad head ache. She just wanted to go home with Kaji and lie on the bed and do nothing. As this day had been so fucking rough from the start and she wasn’t sure that Ritsuko was going to let it all settle till down Asuka had that collar on.

Dante had said only after its fitting he could use some special deceive to stitch up the wound to Asuka’s soul once he knew where it was. She turned to the others who were coming down the raised walkway in to the black lab “Okay you can all go through and visit Asuka and Rei…don’t touch the AT fields shields it’s very dangerous and Ritsuko will be monitoring you from the room on the balcony above.”

Mari looked up sharply. “About fucking time, we were up on the balcony for ages.” Kaji watched as they went through the light scanner which read negative. “It was a very complicated meeting in the balcony office room sorry we kept you all waiting.” Shinji looked up as he walked through the scanner watching as the others followed. He breathed in deeply watching as Rei came in to view along with Asuka though she still wasn’t human.

He watched as Rei came up to the AT field shield giving him a huge smile clearly really happy to see him. He stopped close to the shield seeing that Asuka had her back to everyone and was looking at one of her tails while the other was swishing gently. “I’m so glad you’re both okay.”

Rei breathed in deeply putting down her book. “I’m so happy you’re here, I thought they might not let you or the others see us.” She watched as Asuka turned in her cell then slowly stood up looking in Shinji’s direction. “Yeah it’s great that you’re here.” Misato breathed in moving over to Asuka’s area. “How are you both holding up in here, they told me the rooms are specially made for your needs?”

Asuka moved her tail taking hold of German translated manga raising it up. “Yeah I noticed that…even the games in here are what I like and I can still use the bathroom despite being this way as its extra wide.” Rei stood up slowly. “It beats the prison cell and quarantine.”

Mari walked up to her now standing younger sister eyeing the form. “You look so fucking awesome.” Toji moved closer. “Yeah what she said, I mean it looks so amazing you’re a real mythological creature.” He turned to Mari. “What are they called again?” Mari looked at him. “Their called lycanthropes….”

Kaworu walked up. “It’s different.” Asuka looked at them as she put the manga down carefully on the table. “Trust me its overrated and annoying when it’s not in my own imagination, I have to be careful not to break things hence the two tails are in fact useful since they can grip like hands since my claws ruins stuff.” Kaworu pulled his hoodie down looking at her. “Well it can’t be as bad as this.”

Asuka looked at him for a long moment. “At least you still get to look human and don’t get to shadow the furniture.” She paused. “And you still look handsome as ever, Shinji is lucky.” Rei turned slightly. “I disagree with the shadowing the furniture part, I love you whatever.”

Kaworu looked at Asuka for a long moment. “Did you do this to me? It’s just they say you have no control over what you’re doing.” Rei turned eyeing him. “They said it’s not her, it’s another person a totally different personality.” Asuka raised her clawed hand stopping her. “If the other me did this to you for whatever reason as soon as they stop this I’ll turn you back to how you were before.”

Shinji turned to him. “I agree with Asuka though there’s nothing wrong with you.” Kaworu breathed in annoyance as he pulled up his hood again. “Tell that to those out there who persecute people with this condition.” Asuka turned a sneer forming which showed off her long canine teeth on the upper and lower jaw even more. “Bullies are always cowards…I know I used to be one. So wouldn’t the best thing for you be to do show yourself for who you really are?”

Kaworu’s gaze narrowed as he spoke coldly. “No it wouldn’t.” Asuka eyed him. “You were a child solider once, why don’t you do what you did in the war and punch them in the face or break something that gets most cowards to learn?”

Shinji raised his hands. “You know I don’t think that would help Asuka.”

Asuka lowered her ears shaking her mane. “Always worked for me...”

Rei looked up slightly. “She has a point.”

Shinji eyed Rei who was listening quietly. “Tell me you’re not agreeing with that Rei?”

Rei turned to him. “I am since she’s right.”

Kaworu breathed in anger. “I am not going to solve my problems by hitting them…its utterly foolish.”

Asuka swished one of her tails around as she leaned forward her left eye burnt brighter as a sadistic grin formed on her jaws. “But I can sense your thoughts from here…I know you want to and that you’d love to break your ex’s face for treating you like scheisse.”

She ignored his expression as it turned to anger. “Because that’s the truth of why you don’t like how you look because it reminds you of what he put you through. Even though he was a coward and bully and you were a victim and hero who out grew him.” She paused ignoring the silence as it hit the room. “You should do it you’ll feel so much better.” Shinji turned sharply. “Stop reading his thoughts Asuka!”

Asuka pulled back snapping out of her haze as she raised a clawed hand. “It’s not my verfickte fault he thinks so loud!” Rei turned sharply. “She’s not lying, he’s louder than anyone’s here right now.” Misato watched as the shield pulsed as Ritsuko’s voice came over the speaker. “We’ve just increased the AT fields strength to stop that from happening again…they shouldn’t be able to pick up on your minds thoughts again.”

Misato breathed in putting a hand on her temples. “Thank you.”

Kaji turned slightly. “Yes thank you for that.”

Kaworu pulled away going to stand behind the others that was private she had no right to go there! Even if it was true they had no right to hear it openly.

Toji moved forward looking at Asuka. “So they told us you’re a god born in human form.”

Asuka looked at her clawed hand. “Apparently….”

Toji breathed in deeply. “So what that’s like?”

Asuka looked at him for a long moment. “Weirder than you can possibly imagine.”

Mari looked at Asuka. “Oh they gave me and Maya the keys to your home.”

Asuka felt a smile form. “Yes and you and Maya are going to be looking after Erika and our home…I read your thoughts, I’m fine with it. I want our cat back home not be here in Nerv being prodded because she grew another tail.”

Mari paused. “You know you listening in really solve a lot of problems, in that I don’t have to explain.”

Rei’s voice suddenly spoke in Asuka’s mind. “She has no idea…”

Asuka turned speaking back mentality. “Yeah and the double AT fields not strong enough I can still hear them but there more whispers.”

Rei felt a slight smile form as she spoke openly. “Same here...”

Mari turned feeling a sly smile form. “I didn’t know you had it in you Asuka you’re a kinky fucker.”

Asuka turned slightly only have Mari follow her steps. “Did you ever do anything on this level of kinky with Shinji when you were together?”

Shinji turned sharply trying to hide the embarrassment as Rei rolled her eyes putting a hand on her face in frustration. “No we never….did that…” Asuka turned sharply. “No I never turned fully were- tiger and gefickt tail him.” Misato blinked in shock trying to ignore Kaji’s smirk along with Toji’s. “Asuka do you have to be that blunt?”

Asuka turned eyeing her. “You know I was just going to the straight to the good bit you know since our whole verfickte sex life has how been picked at with a fine toothed comb. For everyone to hear about….” Rei looked up slightly. “We both found it annoying.”

Mari felt a wide grin form. “Oh gods you got to draw this Asuka then show it to me…I love erotic art.” Asuka raised a clawed finger pointing at her. “I’m not going to draw this for you Mari or anyone.” Toji suddenly moved closer. “But it would be so cool.”

Mari moved forward adjusting her glasses. “Or you could just beam it in to my head princess just change Rei to someone else and change how you look to be different somehow.” Asuka eyed her. “I’m not going to beam this in to your head four eyes.” Mari turned to Rei. “What about you?” Rei breathed in deeply. “No Mari.”

Shinji moved forward. “Let’s talk about something else as they told us we can be here for an hour then we have to go, as you have someone coming who needs to see you.” Rei turned slightly. “Who is coming?” Kaji moved forward. “Someone from Seele, it’s very important and none of us are allowed to be there when you chat.”

Asuka eyed him, accept that wasn’t quite true. She’d read it in his thoughts before they’d turned up the AT field shield. Only the top staff would be there but hidden in the room on the balcony but they’d hear and see over media feed while the others would leave the Soul Ark temporary but could come back after it was over. “I see…”

Misato moved closer. “But after that you can both eat and they told and you can have anything you want since it’s not quarantine and we can all visit you again after you eat.” Asuka looked up. “I want a hog roast then.” Misato put her hands in her pockets. “Yes we can get you that we’ll get some in burger buns.”

Asuka looked at her for a long moment. “You misunderstand I want the whole pig roasted without its head and legs gutted and dipped in German spices.” Ritsuko’s voices came over the speakers. “We can get you that.” Asuka looked up in confusion. “Really…I thought you off all people Ritsuko you would be against that?”

Ritsuko’s voice came again. “The price of being in that form is you metabolize currently like a real lion or tiger would therefore it has to be sustained. It’s the same with Rei which is why we now believe she was eating rampantly all week and went up a belt size.” Rei looked up as she spoke coldly. “Thanks that’s really helpful to know…”

She paused. “Now how’s about you stay out of my life, where it concerns eating, since its none of your business if I gained weight or not since I’m happy with it.” Ritsuko’s voice hit the air again though it was filled with uncertainty. “Fair enough, I was just mealy pointing it out.” Rei looked up slightly. “I’d rather you didn’t point it out again and go get a new hobby that doesn’t involve measuring my waist size.”

End of part 49

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