>> The next day:

“Agh! Damn! What I have done!?”

Lying down on the bed, I cussed out while remembering what truly happened that night. “Why!? Why?! Argh!”

That’s my first time. My first night with someone to sleep with, but... but now it’s all over.

What now...? My virginity was gone. And it happened that transgender took it from me. Ugh... “What am I supposed to do now...?”

Sighing languidly, I mumbled out. What happened that night was half of my fault. But all the blame happens to taken got through that person.

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* At Ella’s Condo Unit | Around 11:00 p.m.

“I’m sorry, but I’m a guy all along.”

That word echoes in my ears. His face shows the sheer willful to admit the truth on me. What kind of face I’m showing right now? And my body completely exposed to a guy...

Heeding that, the bewilderment I succumbs over and act to cover my body completely with my arms crossed.

“What...? Wha—What’s this supposed to mean?” my voice stubble out as that question conveyed.

“I... I just got hooked up to your beauty and—and I don’t know, this just happened.”

Ella replied to me. Huh? What’s that supposed to mean? He deceived me all along this time just because I’m weak and fragile?

I scoffed in deprecation from hearing it. Then, I fixed myself and face him. “You’re the worst; I did believe in you, but you lied to me.”

My voice fills with hatred. Its loathness straights up through his face and his expression turn grim after. “I’m sorry...”

“Sorry? For what, you did taint my body with something unforgivable!”

It’s my anger that drives those words to come out. Ella didn’t rebut back but his face show anguish from fooling me around.

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“I don’t want to see your face anymore. You’re the worst.”

I left the condominium unit after fixing myself. Stomping on the hallway, I get to the elevator and push to go on the lobby. This is heck of a night.

I was sure she’s a girl. I was sure enough that these feelings I have are good enough to stay here. Even if it’s just a night, I found that someone will accept me behind of discrepancy of my moral.

I was sure about it, the way how we kissed, the way how she touches me... the way how she looks at me in the eyes and whisper my name.

And then, that shattered like a glass, slowly consuming me through the core of the hope I build up. I look at the mirror inside the elevator.

My face is somewhat messed up. In my groin that still stings and the shape of his thing remains intact. The phantom feeling of his thing, rushing in between my legs stays still.

“Damn, what just really happened?” I sigh in languid way. Now that it happened, I felt like something taints me from the inside. My body starts trembling; remembering what happens just now shivers me out.

I did just make out with a transgender... and it’s awful.

Sobs left out to me. My arms wrapped over to cover my tainted body, as tears fill my eyes and dropped thoroughly on my face. “What the fuck...? What the fuck did I just commit to? It’s awful...”

Yeah, that’s how I felt... the first night I feel like it would be good enough to cover the loneliness succumbing turns into a mistake.

It really is the worst thing of all.

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>> “I don’t know what to do; I feel lethargic after what happened last night.”

Sighing exasperatedly, I sit on the bed. There’s no particularly anything to tell a tale to Chesca, especially to the thought of asking someone to hook up on me.

My groin still stings a little. The unusual sensual feeling of something thick and hard rushes through my memory. It’s weird, having that sensation taints in my memory.

“What now...?” I mumbled. Did I really feel good about it? I hate the idea that person lied to me, but the way he kissed me... the way his fingers swirl inside me, the way how he thrusts... and that big, hot thing entered inside me.

What...? That phantom sensation once again taunts me up to know fully. Remembering it all up, my fingers start to shake.

“Why...? I want to have that feeling once more.” I utter out. Slowly, I crawl down on my groin. Spreading my legs wide, I reach to the center.

My fingers touch the tip and slips inside. Ah, I twitch out of surprise from the sudden feeling of entering. The slosh sound it gives makes me anxious.

I started moving; the sensual desire engulfed me through. I can’t stop. My fingers keep wandering as flesh from the inside entangled around.

Soft moans left to me, and dripping of fluids to my pussy starts to give off. It’s like a lubricant coating around my fingers. “Nnggh~”

Through my mind is that thing entered and thrust vigorously inside. It’s kind of violating my innards, but in a sensual and pleasurable way.

I want to reach deeper. I want to take it deeper... thoroughly, scraping my innards to its shape.

I keep moaning; my mind’s completely blank. On my memory is the face of that person looking passionately at me while keeping on thrusting.

It dilutes my reason and succumbed onto the pleasure.

“Ah~Nnggh~ More~ I want more... I want~~! More!”

My voice couldn’t conceal anymore. All I wanted is to totally give in to the pleasure itself. Sweat drips on my skin as my body keep twitching. The itchiness lurking on my groin keeps on.

My fingers couldn’t reach deeper, but I want it to do so. I want something... I want that thing to reach and scrape me deeply.

My mind’s completely blank; all I know is that my fingers keep hurling off to seek the feeling I had once last night. “Ahhnnn~”

I grunted out of pleasure. Ah, I feel like flying! I’m flying! Something’s coming from my groin! I can’t stand it...! It’s coming out!

“Jessie!” from the door of my room, a sudden voice calls out to me. It’s that time something squirts out of my pussy as I trembled out.

“Hu—huh?!” I grunted, concealing my moan. “I will just go to the supermarket to do some groceries. Your breakfast is on the table.”

It’s mom who called me. “All right!” I answered. Damn, it’s a close call! Letting myself indulging to that, ah... what am I even doing!?

But my fingers felt the wetness as my pussy pulses out. I got an orgasm from masturbating, and now... I’m longing to that feeling again.

I felt that it wasn’t good enough. My body keeps longing further to something pleasurable.

“I don’t know... will I ever see Ella again?” ah, that’s right... after everything happens, even if I got deceived by someone, my body reacts on its own.

Might be, I will never see that person ever again.