After the guards fled I got attacked by Charlotte and eventually forced to agree to an extremely annoying condition

I wasn't allowed outside of the base unless I had her accompanying me

She was too afraid to let me go out alone especially because I didn't have a handle on my powers

I could understand her feelings but it didn't make it any less annoying of a condition for me to have to listen to

Sadly not even John could help me, she was just too frightening

...

I sat in my messy room in a simple sand coloured loose fitting shirt and long grey shorts that reached my knees

In my left hand was a piece of crumpled up paper that I had been sleeping on

I was trying to adjust my strength as best as I could using the only thing I was fine with risking, everything else I owned was too precious to even attempt with

I made sure to slowly spread my fingers outward letting the piece of paper balance in my palm before I slowly brought them back coiling around the paper ball

I squeezed my hand with as much strength as I could muster before letting go

What laid in my palm wasn't a big paper ball that balanced due to the large areas between the folds anymore, I had turned it into an extremely small sphere that resembled a sphere

Although its sides and edges were still messy and resembled scrunched paper it was much neater and more refined in shape

"Phew"

Relaxing I wrapped my fingers around some cardboard that was laying on the floor

I slowly relaxed before I strengthened my fingers and lifted it upwards

The cardboard ripped around my fingers causing a number of holes to appear around the area I had chosen to grip

"Fuck!"

What I had been training so hard was the simple steps involved in grabbing, lifting and holding an item in ones hands

'It isn't supposed to be this hard! I'm just grabbing something!'

Before my anger could explode further I let out a shaky breath of air cooling both my nerves and my brain simultaneously

'If only grabbing something was this hard then how would I do my usual activities like scavenging for parts and simply walking!?'

Determined I gripped my left forearm as an insane smile emerged on my lips

'L-let's do this the fast way'

My right hand was shaking and I could feel my hand resisting my commands

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Relaxing I only squeezed it a little bit and relaxed trying to find the point when I started feeling even the slightest pain

"Crrk."

A sharp but muddy pain shot through my nerves causing me to halt when I tried to move my arm up with my hand before I slowly increase my grip from nothing yet another time before attempting to puppeteer my limb

It took over half an hour for me to finish finding a 'sweet spot' that let me move my arm without crushing it in any way

As soon as I found it I could feel an inexplicable joy wash over me as all my fatigue and pain disappeared in a moment

Reaching down I grabbed the piece of cardboard I had already ruined

I wrapped my hand around the other side of the cardboard that wasn't damaged and gently grasped it before lifting it up

I lifted using the right amount of strength I had figured out after my tests

Even though the cardboard didn't rip there were deep indents in the carboard making it obvious where I had gripped it

"I, I fucking did it?"

Even I couldn't believe what I had just done, I had finally accomplished what I had spent so much time on

"That's one down!"

I was so happy that I finally thought of the other thing I had been told

Other than getting told to understand my new strength I was also told about MR energy

I already knew the basics but the beautiful green haired girl taught me about 'tapping' into it

Just as she crossed my mind I immediately thought of her extraordinary body, her curves and the way the body suit stuck to them

Before I fell into even worse thoughts I violently shook my head and focused back on what she told me and how I could control MR

I put my hand beneath me and slowly shifted into a lotus position

'So I cross my legs like this? rest my hands and focus on my inner thoughts'

I let my hands fall and balance on top of my knees without needing to hold them or use any of the muscles in them

I slowly breathed in and out trying to calm my racing heart before I shut my eyes and settled in the darkness that welcomed me

My body relaxed and I sat there

...

I sat there forever until I slumped over forwards over my sore legs

"Fucking hell"

No matter how long I waited I wasn't 'feeling' anything, nor could I sense anything like that bea- lady described

'Am I supposed to do something else?'

I uncrossed my legs and let them lay out in front of me waiting for the pain to fade

I gently reached out and gripped a small bundle of clothes, I gently brought it behind my head and laid down thinking what her words could have meant

'What even is an inner thought? Aren't they all inner, like inside?'

I continued to lay there thinking before my thoughts seemed to diverge into two distinct directions

'Is thinking that important in this step? Why must my thoughts be differentiated between?'

These thoughts seemed to blend together until a single question entered my mind, a question that seemed like it shouldn't have been mine to begin with

'What if there's no difference, what if all thoughts are both inner and outer?'

I warped the meanings of the very subjects themselves to create a contradictory thought

...

A gentle wave rolled over my skin as soft fire flies flew through the abyss

I 'looked' around to find lights of all different shapes and sizes, even the biggest was only a little bigger than my thumb though

I quietly watched these lights floated through the nothingness without making any 'movement'

I wasn't even lucid enough to put an entire thought together to begin with

It felt as if I was stuck between a dream and reality. A place where they both met and mixed together to create something completely new

Unable to think I didn't even realize the soft red and green like orbs began to move towards me replacing the variety of different colours that were there previously

Before long the hundreds of thousands of different colours had floated away and left tones of red and green colours behind as if the other colours were repelled by my existence

...

My eyes fluttered awake as they remembered the dreamy sight I had witnessed

The sight of thousands of impossible colours remained etched in my mind and memory unable to leave it

'I want to see it again'

A greed over took me as my brain rapidly thought of ways to get back to that 'place'

It only took a few moments for me to come up with an idea

'Why don't I ask an expert to help me figure this out?'

Impressed with my own genius I carefully moved to my feet and begun making my way to the perfect person to teach me