Chapter 97: PTSD

We got out of Reimi's previous school and now we were in the arena, Shera was jealous silently when I went out with Reimi, I think! She kept hugging me without getting out, I was wondering how would the training go with this situation.

And for some reason, Zofe didn't follow us today, she was always following us to the arena, maybe Reimi was here to replace her so she didn't appear. The Knight's basic training has been stopped in the middle of the training, Reimi was about to show me more things about the Knight's training but Shera has disturbed us.

Sigh! I was wondering how long until Shera would accept to get out of me, she was still hugging me very tightly. Reimi didn't do anything to help me, not even telling Shera to stop but she let her master hug me all the time when we got here, maybe I should work my mouth a bit.

"Princess, hear me a bit." - I called Shera when she was hugging me, she also...sniffed my armpit, are you kidding me? Shera's mind was very morbid when she was in love, I have to say!

"Yes, Sir Rigen! What's...wrong...let me hug you a bit more..." - Shera stopped sniffing my armpit but sniffed around my chest

"I'm your tutor, Princess! And you are my student, our loves cannot be made without your father's approval."

"Please hold yourself back, Princess! You are loving me without thinking, we should stop our love relation now."

"You are so heartless, Sir Rigen! But I won't be mad at you, I think you should relax more instead of being serious with me, I will do anything to let my father approve the two of us to love each other."

What should I do? Scold her? No! I must...let's harsh with this naughty Princess a bit.

"I said no, Princess! Immediately stay away now!" - I got Princess out of me by pushing her away, I have pushed her a bit rough away from me to not let her fall

"Sir Rigen, why?" - Reimi immediately ran toward Shera to grab her because she was scared that Shera would fall because of my push

"As a tutor, I must be strict with my student, Princess is still young, she loves me without thinking so she would bring unfortunately to her own and her relatives."

"I just want to teach your Princess about that to let her know the consequences of loving at a young age but I taught her many times but she didn't want to learn anything!" - I yelled quite loud to Reimi and Shera, I must be strict this time

"Reimi, don't pick up a fight with Sir Rigen, I fault this incident." - Shera ordered Reimi when she was getting out from Reimi, maybe this Princess has learned something, I guess! She was quite calm and didn't act risky like the previous times when I rejected her love

Or she was very mad at me but she kept calming down.

"Sir Rigen, I'm sorry!" - Shera walked toward me and apologized

"We must start our training now, it's time for us to train, Princess! Today I will train you about pushups and sprinting."

"Understood, Sir Rigen! But what kind of training should I start first?" - Maybe I should tell Shera to do pushups first, sprinting will be trained later

"Uh, Sir Rigen! May I ask?" - Reimi suddenly raised her hand above to make a sign that she wanted to ask me

"Speak."

"What are pushups?" - Maybe the military in this fantasy world didn't have this kind of exercise

"Pushups is a kind of training exercise without using equipment in my military's homeland. Performed by putting your hands and your feet on the ground and then press your body down and up to make the resistance on your body to build your muscles."

"Pushups are used to train both strength and endurance for the soldiers, we will have to use the weight of our bodies to perform the pushup."

"Pushups will help build our muscles more flexible by training endurance and also train our strength by building thick muscles slowly from each time training to make our body stronger."

"When I was learning in my school before graduating, I have been taught that the elf's military uses the training that is similar to what you said to us, Sir Rigen."

"But our military didn't teach that kind of training to our soldiers, thank you, Sir Rigen! Thanks to you that I have widened my mind."

"Ah, I'm sorry! I will do guard for you two now, I must not let my Highness's lesson get wasted of time just because of my questions." - Reimi bowed toward me and Shera and then she turned back to do the guard

'Should we train now, Sir Rigen?" - Shera asked me when she was going around to choose a clean ground to perform pushups

"Come here to me a bit, Princess! I want to remind you of something before heading to the training."

Shera slowly walked toward me curious, I didn't want to say rough but I will try to persuade her to calm herself down, she should not express her feeling to me so freely when I was her tutor and she was my student.

Shera has finally stepped close to me, she was a bit losing her calm when she was near me, maybe...she was thinking that I would kiss her or do something that romance to her, ahh!

"Princess, listen carefully! I'm your tutor and you're my student, we should not love each other, I don't mind if you love me, I have to admit that I also...love you."

"But please, Princess! Keep calm down, you should not express your feeling to me so madness like that, you should love with your feeling and your mind, don't just use one."

"You're truly matured in your nation's laws now so behave like you're an adult, Princess! I'm not going anywhere, I will be with you forever till the end of our lives." - I will have affair with the other lovers behind her too, hope she won't read my mind!

"Your father may approve me to love you in the future but if you keep behaving like this then he would not let us love, your father is worried about your happiness, Princess." - Or he was worried about me when he and I have to survive with two Yanderes

But wait? What kind of lesson I can tell Shera next? Maybe...

"Princess, you should not love when you're young, you must have stable work and a stable income, must be aged and have experience in life before thinking about loving someone and having children with that person."

I didn't think my brain could dig up those words to teach Shera, and I taught her the things that I have never experienced.

And the funny thing is that Shera is a Princess, she only needs to eat, play, collect the taxes and sleep and repeat those acts in the Palace till the end of her life.

Shera didn't need to work because the people of this Kingdom were now working for her and her relatives because she has the blood of the chosen one, that's why feudalism is a bullshit regime in my eyes.

But about living in feudalism as a ruler, I want it! Everyone wants to have power, we all want to live in wealth and have people to serve us, I will have to manipulate all the people I know in the Palace to have the throne in my hands.

Shera and Reimi are now the good puppets, Reimi surely obeys me when Shera is her master, Reimi is also secretly in love with me so she won't betray me. About Shera, she loves me madly and absolutely obeys me too, those two have become my good use puppets for me to control.

About power, Shera is a Princess of this Kingdom so her words will be obeyed by the people and the officials, even her father goes soft on her so I must use Shera to take the throne from the King.

Reimi is nothing but a guard in the Palace but with her ignorance and her devotion to me and Shera, she will remain with us till her life ends. Reimi will protect us even if her life is in danger, this girl will be a good puppet for me to use as a meat shield.

About two of my subordinates, Sarah and Hatano, I think I will do many things to earn the King's trust till he dies. The King will trust me to give me his throne but if he is not willing to give the throne to me but to give it to his son - Hoster, then I will have to make an uprising, that's when I will use my subordinates.

Sarah is just a less brain and pure, she may be naughty and annoying to me but I will have to keep her as my uprising forces' member at all costs, she is the only key to let me chain Hatano - her big sis, she is the most useless puppet but I must keep her alive.

Hatano is smart - according to my thought, less talk and mysterious, I don't know what she thinks but I am sure she will be the most dangerous member and the most reliable member of my uprising forces.

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Must keep Sarah with me at all costs to make Hatano stay with me by using her little sister as a key to harm her. I must manipulate Hatano, must use her as my strategy advisor, she will be the puppet that is hardest to be controlled in my puppets.

I just have newly known about the woman named Sherry Sharri - a childhood friend of Hoster and now is his tutor. If I can take over her mind and her body to manipulate Hoster then that will be a very good way for me to take his throne.

Hoster only knows to play and is lazy in studying so he will be a useless King, must use Sherry to make Hoster more useless, I'm wondering if Sherry and Hoster have feelings for each other or not.

If they have then I will make Sherry cuckold him, think about when I force Sherry to cuck her childhood friend, it makes me excited every time I think about it.

When the time comes then I will gather my uprising forces to overthrow Hoster, even persuading the lord and the officials to stay on my side by using Shera to persuade them.

I will overthrow Hoster by an uprising and then use Shera to persuade the official to elect me to be their ruler. But at first, I must control Shera to make her forget about her older brother to make her obey me completely, I just want to make sure, I must be cautious.

About Zofe and Zofana, those maids might be useful though I didn't know which position I should put them in my uprising forces. Maybe I will train both of them as spies to collect intel, but I must have fun with them first and also to make them trust me first, I must use the money to buy their "loyalty".

So I will have to build real loyalty...no! The real devotion from those maids, loyalty is to serve and be rewarded with benefits in return, without benefits then loyalty will slowly run away and turn into betrayal.

But devotion comes from the voluntary without asking for benefits, I must train those maids to be my devoted slaves, they must obey me everything I want.

But at first, I must have fun with those sexy maids though I focus on Zofana the most, I want to have sex with her first, I must sweet my voice to her and do something to make those two devoted to me till their lives end.

I don't think my mind can think about those strategies, perfect! The throne will be mine sooner or later, hahahahaha!

Enough laughing, I should not illusion myself too much, think is easy, work on the plan is hard, I should do it slowly, from the small tasks first and then the high tasks.

Now I must focus on training Shera, she will be the most useful puppet for me to use because she has power in her hands, this little Princess will be my wife and also my devoted puppet to control the lords and the officials.

The plan to take the throne from the King or to make an uprising has been done, now I must work on it, it won't be easy to work in real life, there will be things that are out of my expectation so I must cautious.

"Sir Rigen, you mean...you accepted to love me?" - Why did Shera breathe hard? She was excited when I told her I loved her?

"Princess, calm down! Wait until your father accepts to let us love each other, calm down! I won't go anywhere, just calm down." - I patted Shera's head, how could I calm down this Princess when her mind has many things that I could not read?

"Yes...Sir Rigen...okay..." - Again, she was raising her hands toward me, can you stop hugging me?

"No, Princess! Do not express your feeling for me so freely like that, I don't mind if you do that but do that when we're alone." - I grabbed Shera away from me

"But except Reimi here, there are only the two of us, Sir Rigen! Can I hug you for just a second? Just a second." - Stop being smart, why did she always bring me hard situations!

"Stop, Princess! You should not!" - I looked straight to Shera to warn her

"Commander! Help us!" - Suddenly a woman's voice called me from behind, that was Sarah's voice

I looked back and saw Sarah and Hatano, both of them were now bringing the equipment that I told them to draw and to send those drawings to the blacksmiths, they were bringing those things to me.

Did they get into the arena all by themselves? Sarah was quite miserable when she has to hold the handmade barbell with both of her hands and brought a pair of dumbbells which were strapped to her belt while going toward us. Hatano was now moving a long wooden bar that looked to be a bar that used to do pull up, maybe I can hang that thing somewhere to teach Princess to do pull up.

"Commander! Help me! Help me!" - Nope, do it alone, I won't help you!

After a few seconds of bringing the equipment to our position, Sarah dropped the barbell and the dumbbells on the ground. I saw that the material of the plates to attach to the wooden bar to make the barbell and the dumbbells were stone material, round-shaped, maybe that was enough for me now.

Hatano didn't drop the long wooden bar on the ground but pointed it toward me to let me see. I saw that the material of this bar was quite good, thick wood or something so the bar won't break easily.

"Good job, you two." - Hatano dropped the bar to the ground and made a bow toward me, maybe she and Sarah were about to go away from the arena

"Commander...hmmph!" - Sarah turned around as if she was frustrated when she asked me to help her to carry the barbell but I didn't

Hatano and Sarah have now gone to a position not so far from us, they were talking to each other about something but I didn't care much, Shera and Reimi were now pointing their eyes to the equipment.

"Sir Rigen, what are those?" - Shera asked me when she saw the equipment, she even crouched down to touch a handmade dumbbell, Reimi didn't say anything but she also crouched down and examined the barbell instead of doing her duty

"Those things are called dumbells, the barbell and the bar, we will use those to train our muscles."

"That's so? Strange." - Shera seemed to be curious about the equipment but she later stood up and headed toward me

"I will head back to do the guard now, my Highness, Sir Rigen! I'm very sorry for losing my concentration." - Reimi bowed toward the two of us and then stood guard

"Commander, remember to promise that you will date two of us in the next two days, see you!" - Sarah yelled loud and then walked with Hatano away from the arena, shit!

"What did I just hear, Sir Rigen?" - Oh no! Shera was now jealous

"Nothing, Princess! Sarah just has talked nonsense thing."

"Really, Sir Rigen?"

"Yeah, I swear to you, Princess!" - Half swear will be more right to say

"Hmmm...okay, I trust you, Sir Rigen! I...trust...you..." - Maybe Shera didn't trust me at all

"Can we...wait for me a bit, Sir Rigen."

"Sir Rigen! I forgot a thing, before heading to training, can I ask you one thing?" - What did she want to ask?

"Of course."

"Can you...give me permission to cut your beard and your hair, Sir Rigen?"

"Okay."

"Then can I ask the others like Lady Sarah and Lady Hatano to come to help me to do it?"

"I won't mind, Princess! But when?"

"I don't know, Sir Rigen! But I will plan a proper time to do that for you, hehe."

"Can we head to the training now, Sir Rigen?"

"Yeah." - After hearing my word, Shera stepped to clear ground and stretched her body

Then Shera slowly stretched her body, Reimi was doing guard but she seemed to be curious about what Shera was acting so she has stay focused on looking.

...

The afternoon lesson schedule has passed, now I was heading to Shera's room to teach her the night lesson schedule, I have finally asked the King's permission to get into the library after days of forgetting to ask.

I grabbed some books on different subjects in the library, I will head to Shera's room to examine them before teaching her, oh, Shera's room is here. I came here a bit soon today instead of coming at the right time to teach Shera, maybe these redundant minutes will be a good chance for me to examine the books.

"Knock! Knock! Princess, may I come in?" - I knocked on the door to call Shera

"Get in, Sir Rigen." - At the time I heard Shera's voice, I opened the door to get in

When I got in, I saw Shera's study table has a hot tea cup, this girl...was silly or something? Who will drink tea at this hour? Especially when it's the night!

Shera slowly drank the tea and then put the cup on the table, she looked at me very happy.

Reimi was now standing behind Shera, Sarah and Hatano were standing beside Reimi for some reason, why did these girls gather here?

"Sir Rigen, may I cut your beard and your hair right now?" - Why did Shera ask me like that? I will have to take another bath after cutting my hair, she wanted to cut my hair at this hour?

"That's okay, Princess! But you please cut my hair quickly, I will have to take a fast bath before returning here to teach you."

"Okay." - Shera stood up and gave me a seat, I took a seat and then the others brought out the things that seemed to be the tools to cut my hair and my beard

"You want me to cut your beard or your hair first, Sir Rigen?" - Shera asked me with excitement

"Cut my beard first, I think! It has grown quite much so I want you to shave it a bit, Princess."

"Okay, Sir Rigen." - Shera suddenly grabbed...my M9 bayonet which I wore on my belt, I felt very nervous now! She wanted to shave me with that thing!

"Princess, what are you doing with my bayonet? You should have shaved my beard with a razor, why did you hold that knife?"

"What is a razor, Sir Rigen? In our place, we cut beards for men by using knives, your knife, which you called a bayonet is deeply sharp, I think I can shave your beard more advantageous by using it."

"Stop, Princess! I think you should use another thing, like a scissor, there is a scissor over there but why you don't use it?"

"I think using a knife to shave you will be better, now sit there and relax, Sir Rigen." - Shera slowly raised the M9 Bayonet toward me, that bayonet brought me much trauma!

"Haah! Haah! Princess, stop! Please! Haah! Haah!" - I breathed very hard when I saw the bayonet!

"Just calm down, Sir Rigen! You don't need to be so tense, I don't want to make you injure, please sit still and let me shave you."

"No! No! Please!" - I stood up from the chair and then stepped back to avoid the knife but my body has been grabbed by someone from behind

"Commander, don't make Princess sad, she has persuaded us very much to join to help her to prepare for her the tools." - Sarah said to me while grabbing me from behind, I tried to get out but I could not

"Sir Rigen, please calm down, you don't need to be scared because of using a knife to shave, I know our place is more backward than your homeland but please calm down, Her Highness will shave you fast." - Reimi said to me

"I don't want to hurt you, Sir Rigen! Please stay still and I will shave you safe." - Shera pointed the bayonet close to me, I could not calm down anymore!

That scene kept haunting me every time I think about it, it happened before I got to the war in Afghanistan, it happened during the last night of my basic training when I graduated to become a Marine.

My Drill Sergeant has made a long line of scar in my chest by an M9 bayonet, now every time I saw that knife pointed toward me, I would be scared!

"Sir Rigen, please calm down." - Shera told me to calm down when she kept pointing the bayonet toward me

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" - I yelled very loud and then I kicked Shera away when she was holding the bayonet

"Sir Rigen, wha-" - I also kicked Reimi away, I immediately smashed Sarah to the wall many times to let her stop grabbing me

Sarah has finally stopped grabbing me and being hurt, I saw that Hatano was charging toward me so I hit her with my fists. Reimi charged toward me from behind so I grabbed her shoulder and pulled her body to the floor.

Sarah tried to grab me from behind so I hit her face very hard, Sarah kept grabbing me to stop me so I have no choice but to kick on her belly. Sarah held her hurt belly and then stood weakly while grabbing a wall to take the balance to not let her fall, she breathed hard after having the pain.

"Sir Rigen, please stop!" - Shera yelled toward me, she slowly stepped toward me with both of her hands unarmed, she looked very worried when I hit the others

"Sorry, Princess! I! I didn't mean to..."

"Sir Rigen, please calm down."

"Hold him down!" - Hatano yelled and then I felt my body and my face being pressed very hard down on the floor, Hatano, Sarah and Reimi have to cooperate to press me down completely

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" - I kept apologizing to the girls and I heard the room door has been opened

"What just has happened here!" - Seemed like the Royal Guards have got into the room

"Stay out, nothing happened here, do not come in without my order." - Shera ordered the guards to stop getting in so they immediately closed the door and stayed outside

"Sis, no!" - Sarah suddenly yelled toward Hatano for some reason

"Smash!" - I heard a big impact that hit my head, I slowly lost my conscious