She was alone.
The black-haired girl swiped her phone with her head sideways, her clear waterfall-like hair slightly covering the right half of her face. It was obvious that the screen of the online literary novel page kept sliding down. She glanced at the time marked on the screen almost every three minutes.
She probably didn't know how much of the novel she had read. A week ago, on the third day after she returned from IKEA, the freshman training at Hanchung High School officially began. When it's night, she planned to go out to buy dinner and go home. She happened to see Long brothers and Brother Xinyoung near the church.
They were about to go to the basketball court of Hanchung High School to play, and Long Junyuan was wearing... Hanchung's sportswear.
She was stunned subconsciously, and for some reason she automatically went around to another road, completely missing the three people on the opposite street. But she guessed that she didn't want to face Long Junyuan's familiar yet disgusting color. It was as if it was a deliberate reminder to her, not only to remind her that her new peers were about to meet, but also to remind her in disguise that the axis of time was gradually tightening.
When she saw Su Peixin, did she remain silent and pretend not to know her, or would she just suddenly disconnect from her mind and "pop" out like a bubble？
What a great question.
Speaking of this matter, she thought about it over and over again, and finally made up her mind.
If Su Peixin takes the initiative to talk to her, regardless of whether mentions what happened back then, she should try to forgive her and forget what she did.
No one wants to live with hatred all the time, and no one can live with hatred all the time.
She is really tired. If she doesn't let go, she will be stuck in this damn cycle forever, no matter in university, graduate school, career, etc. Unable to escape, unchangeable, unstoppable, unbearable, unextricable, and will never be happy for the rest of her life. And this is definitely a situation that the Lord Jesus is not happy to see, and she is tired of this feeling.
Even though she couldn't bear to talk to Su Peixin, it had been so long...eight years...
Enough. Really it's enough.
She was still swiping her phone, occasionally looking out the window at the new second grades passing by one after another. After the summer vacation, a new season is coming. In addition to Su Peixin's affairs, in another year, she will also be about to embark on the battlefield of university entrance exam.
Yu Ruoling took a breath and suddenly remembered that Long Junyuan was staying in a certain classroom in Hanchung High School like her. She hope he can bear it. Senior high school courses are really troublesome. There is also Fu Xiangqin. Although the business school exam is a different kind of test paper, everyone has their own pain.
Every student is a great fighter, she thought.
Brother Tianmo said something to her after the last IKEA trip. Yu Ruoling's thoughts jumped from the novel on her phone to Su Peixin, and from Su Peixin back to IKEA.
Brother Tianmo - Her piano teacher said that the both of them have almost identical personality traits. She - Yu Ruoling, has exactly the same personality as Lin Tianmo.
The black-haired girl sighed, not knowing whether Brother Tianmo was comforting her or whether he was really hiding it. Lin Tianmo really doesn't look like a person who knows how to get into trouble. Well, she thought, maybe he also had a past story, and he said these things to her based on his identity.
As a team leader, he is actually quite a wonderful person.
The whole style is hard to describe.
A set of footsteps gradually approached and stopped in front of the door of classroom where she is here. Yu Ruoling's heart tightened, and she suddenly became nervous, and the hand holding the phone trembled a little.
She looked over out of the corner of her eye, and saw a female classmate with simple short hair, side-swept bangs, and square-rimmed glasses standing at the door, seemingly checking class name tag.
Yu Ruoling quickly averted her eyes and continued to read the words on the phone screen before new classmate noticed her. However, she accidentally saw the injured left foot of her new classmate who was blocked by the desk and chair.
...This kind of person who can wear slippers without crutches while wearing a plaster is also very strong.
She guessed that the new classmate must be someone who has a great obsession with "sports" - or just "moving".
…
As soon as Ron walked into the classroom, she couldn't help but wonder about the female classmate sitting in the last seat in the first row, with legs crossed, a mobile phone in one hand, an arm around abdomen, and head tilted to the side. Her black hair covered half of her face...
…She should be the legendary "bad girl" in every “oh no” stories.（Smile）
Maintaining a "slightly" uneasy mood, Ron dragged her left foot, which was covered in plaster and was a bit heavy, to the seat next to the delinquent girl, feeling risking her life.
"Hi~ Good morning！"
"..."
Yu Ruoling couldn't be more speechless. Here we go again… Li Qingfeng is like this, He Xiyun is like this, Liu Muxi is like this, Su Hangyi is like this, fellowship those damn guys are like this.
Why is everyone like this？Classmate, do you want to do this again？
Simply copy and paste it. Jesus, He must have set up her plot. Yu Ruoling promised that she could almost hear the merciless laughter of Him and Fong Xuan in her ears.
"…Hi, good morning."
Woowowowo, not delinquent！As Ron put her schoolbag away, she felt a sense of pride in her heart. Although she didn't know where this feeling of pride came from. She was a person who liked to make friends, maybe it was because Not Delinquent responded to her？
She observed Yu Ruoling's self-study all morning and guessed that Yu might be a cold-faced but kind-hearted person.
"I'm sorry, but, "Xiao Mushuang, who was in the same class as Yu Ruoling, came closer, "is your name really 'Ron'？"
"Huh？That's right！What's wrong？"
"The names of you and the person next to you are the most like the characters in novels I have ever seen. "Xiao Mushuang said with a bright smile, "Hey Rouling, I guess you will choose the first row when you choose your seat. You really have been sticking to it. No one in the first row."
Yu Ruoling raised her head when she heard this, and showed a perfect smile in an official manner. Just this one glance -
- Su Peixin walked in from the door with dignity.
Yu's whole body trembled suddenly, and she was pushed down with all her strength. The slight numbness caused by the dilation of blood vessels everywhere made her change her position uncomfortably.
She pretended to be nonchalant and continued to scroll through her phone with her head lowered, while her heart was beating so fast in her chest that only she could hear it. The torrent of pain that was about to burst her chest shocked her brain, and her hands began to shake uncontrollably again.
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Yu Ruoling simply put down her phone and crossed her arms across her chest, trying to hide her trembling predicament. The ongoing seat lottery assignment on the blackboard became her life-saving medicine.
"No. 33, "Monitor Zhuang Xin'an called, "Where is No. 33？No. 7 wants to change seats with you！"
Yu looked away from the table, trying to distract herself to find where No. 7 and No. 33 were.
"I'm throwing garbage in the back corridor！"No. 33's sweet voice sounded like a clear blue stream, "Wait for me, I'll be fine soon！"
The black-haired girl looked around, and No. 33 waved in the direction of the blackboard. This familiar black color suddenly came into view. No. 33's mind went "buzzing" and she froze in place.
Yu didn't notice who No. 33 is, the sight from her to corridor just blocked by a wall.
But No. 33's position can absolutely see her.
Haven’t seen each other for eight years... The person she felt most sorry for was Yu Ruoling.
Ruoling..., her lips moved, as if she wanted to say something. That incident back then... she had her own reasons. That person..., that person's utility knife...
"I finally see you again... "Su Peixin murmured to herself, in a big stunned, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."
"Number 33！" Zhuang Xin'an shouted again.
"O..okay！"Her cat-like eyes flashed, and blood seemed to flow slowly inside.
…
Ron was a little troubled because the female classmate who looked like an iceberg but didn't seem so iceberg actually sat in front of her.
It feels like her life is in danger, she thought, taking a sip of black tea. But what should she does if she really want to talk to that iceberg？
She thought again... why not, she could drag this one that was in a plaster, that was injured, that was pitiful and unloved, that was miserable, that prevented her from playing volleyball, that couldn't do sports, that had negative luck left foot, and dangling in front of her classmate. Keep saying good morning, good afternoon, good afterschool, good go home, good night to her...
It should always be possible, possible...probably？Maybe？It will have some effect, right？If Yu Ruoling hears her inner words, there is a great chance that she will say -
- Are you Marvel’s cute Spidey？
This feeling is like Spidey's constant "Mr. Stark, Mr. Stark, Mr. Stark, Mr. Stark, Mr. Stark, Mr. Stark, Hey Mr. Stark！I tell you balabalabala..." all day long.
She felt like Spidey was broken.
After one week of school, Yu Ruoling almost suffered from schizophrenia. In addition to the damn severe PTSD and panic, as well as seeing Su Peixin walking past from time to time, plus Ron's greetings that were no different from brainwashing... Under attack from both inside and outside, she felt that her spirit was about to collapse.
Not only did she have to work hard to suppress the situation that could explode at any time, but she also had to concentrate on responding to Ron with a smile.
She seemed to have become a clown wearing a mask, looking not the same in front of and behind her.
Do what a clown should do, and do what Yu Ruoling doesn't want to do.
Yu Ruoling raised her left shoulder and walked down the stairs, leaving Ron behind who seemed to want to follow - of course the distance would not make people misunderstand her thinking. She had a huge grudge against anyone walking behind her.
She sighed in her heart, eager to walk out of the gate of Hanchung High School.
The moment she stepped down the steps, she felt a wave of relief and relaxation from the bottom of her heart, but it was heavy, not light. At this moment, she is looking forward to the fellowship gathering tomorrow at Saturday night.
Since the end of Jin Shu's internship, although she has lost her motivation input at school, this mentality of absorbing has been transferred to the whole fellowship, so she sighs more and more often when she looks at Erling Church.
When she noticed someone tapping her left shoulder, she turned her head. But no one. After wondering for a while, she suddenly realized it and turned back to the right.
Ten thousand percent was Long Junyuan's fault. This was not the hundredth time the two brothers had played this trick on her. The most tragic thing is -
- That she still gets fooled every time.
"What？"
"Tsk, so fierce. "Long Junyuan said with a sullen face, "How are you today？"
How about her day？ She complained secretly, what else could she do？
"Same like old before."
He burst into laughter with a "pff" sound, "How old？"
"Ancient."
Long Junyuan smiled unkindly and secretly observed the face of his sister.
Although her eyes looked tired, she felt pretty good overall. Since Long Junxi's school is too far away from here, the task assigned by sister Fong Xuan last time fell on him.
"Is that your classmate just now？"He asked.
"Hmm, a passionate volleyball girl."
"Volleyball girl？"
Yu nodded and said, "Although her left foot is wrapped in a plaster, she has to drag it off the field to play volleyball during physical education class. She is a strange person who says volleyball is "her life" all day long."
What？Long Junyuan frowned, feeling that this "strange person" was very similar to Fong Zhiting, who accidentally sprained his ankle while playing basketball a while ago and was sent for surgery.
"What's her name？"
"Ron."Yu Ruoling said calmly, a familiar feeling suddenly surged in her heart, as if Ron's temperament had been seen somewhere.
Fong Xuan, Fong Xuan..., she sighed secretly, began to miss Fong Xuan and the three of Him together again.
"She dragged her foot that with a plaster to play？On field？"
Long Junyuan seemed to have just realized that this was a weird behavior that normal people wouldn't do.
"She made it very clear just a few days after school started. She went out to play volleyball happily with her friends during the winter vacation, but ended up falling into a hole in the grass. She originally thought it was just a normal sprain, but who knew it turned out to be a torn ligament. It was simply she is on par with brother Zhiting.”
"Haha, "He leaned next to the sign at the bus stop, "it's rare for you to remember it so clearly."
…What's the meaning？Does this mean that she has always been a goldfish with only seven seconds of memory？The black-haired girl was at a loss for a while, then decided to knock him off the head with her hand.
"Ron has a regular schedule of good morning, good afternoon, and good afterschool every day. It would be hard to explain if I don't remember this person."
"Are you considered friends？"
"Have no idea."
Long Junyuan looked at his sister who seemed to be arrogant and coquettish, and rolled his eyes perfectly.
Yu Ruoling calmed down her thoughts and saw the K8 southbound bus traveling along Zhonggang Junior High School. She waved to it and walked forward on her own.
The driving style of the driver of the K8 bus was still very scary. Even if she was sitting upright in her seat, she had to be careful that she might fly out the next second.
Especially at every turn.
Damn, this guy doesn’t slow down, why he still speed up？
What does he want？Send people to hell..., oh wait...
Sorry, Lord Jesus.
The black-haired girl was thinking twice, and unconsciously thought of Ron, a passionate and unrestrained girl who would explode on the spot if she didn't touch a volleyball for a day.
Ron has always been cheerful. Although there are times when she is angry or sad, she has almost never shown a negative expression.
Yu frowned slightly while leaning against the car window, feeling that Ron is also a Christian, or that someone in her family is a Christian.
It has to be said that Ron's gentle policy paralyzed her to such an extent that she began to subconsciously say "good morning" to the volleyball girl when the word "good morning" came out of Ron. Yu Ruoling got off the bus, still a little confused.
Why does she uncontrollably jump into this "friendly pit" every time？Seriously, there were 8 or 9 people in total who had set a big trap like this for her that would make people jump. Sure enough, she was still too easy to deceive.
Several motorcycles passed by sideways, and people and vehicles competed with each other for the right of way on the Beifong road.
Every time, humans were faced with the danger of almost being ejected. Yu sighed and found that she seemed to have acknowledged Ron's status unconsciously. Although they are not friends yet, they are not classmates either. She couldn't find any descriptors that could describe this delicate relationship, but if she had to say it, there might be one.
She thought silently, watching a passenger plane painted with "Long Prosper" flying over a tall building not far away in the sky.
If Jin Shu is the one who asked her to stay in school well, then Ron is probably the only reason why she is looking forward to going to Hanchung High School at this stage -
- Just to hear her say "good morning", "good afternoon", "good afterschool" and "see you tomorrow". …Okay, she's not lesbian. To clarify, she is heterosexual.
This is so ridiculous...
She fell down on the sofa and stared at the ceiling blankly, thinking. Ever since Ron appeared, she had no time and almost no time to sort out the Su Peixin incident. Can it just be left to rot？
Anyway, she haven't seen Su Peixin coming to say anything to her in the past few days. She has long been used to Su passing by her from time to time.
"...Jesus..."She sighed again, "...Milty！！Did you miss me today！"
"Woooorrrrrruuuuuuu！"
She turned over and sat up, patting her furry son's butt casually. After all, it's one thing to feel relieved about thing, but it's another thing to see people in eyes. She is no longer worried, resentful, or bitter, and she is determined to overcome it...
However, when the person is here, there is no wave in her heart -
- It's really impossible.
In other words, she hasn't let it go at all, and the so-called relief is just to comfort herself not to continue to sink in. She thought about it again and again, and the scars that deeply hurt her heart a long time ago appeared in her mind.
The moment she saw it, she could almost imagine the pain and torture, the humiliation, and the exhaustion. Even what kind of terror and fear.
He was afraid, too, at times like that.
When she saw these hideous scars, she suddenly felt that what she had suffered was nothing, and she was nothing. Yu Ruoling was still out of focus, stroking Milty's shiny black fur with her hand, letting his wet dog nose keep poking her calf.
Ah..., she remembered again, the words "I love you", "rest", and what she saw vaguely before falling asleep -
- His tears are as translucent as diamonds.
…
The black-haired girl paused, then knelt down and hugged her furry child, which was about the same size as a German shepherd.
It was difficult to make a decision, but as she promised a few days ago, she didn't want to make Him sad anymore. The only condition is that the person speaking is not her.
"I'm sorry Jesus, "She murmured into the back of Milty's neck, "I'm going to cause you trouble again."