After the New Year's Eve holiday, everyone went back to their respective places. No matter how reluctant they were, companies, schools, and stores all opened their doors again, and employees who were almost exploding from work had no choice but to drive or bike to work with their eyes closed.
As for the students, they have to ride in the cars of their parents who drive or ride with their eyes closed, or they have to ride in the long cars driven by the conductor who is about to faint in the conductor's cabin with he or her eyes closed.
Then go to school with eyes closed.
After four days of going crazy and venting her pent-up excitement, Yu once again became the gloomiest female student in the classroom group on the third floor on the right side of the first teaching building of Hanchung High School. After the tutoring get out of class on Tuesday morning, she just walked back to class from the information science classroom alone.
In the corridor around the corner, she happened to meet Jin Shu who had come to deliver interview slips to other classes, but she didn't see him. It was Jin Shu who noticed her, and the reason why he noticed Yu Ruoling, who was still far across the corner, was just because he suddenly felt an extremely strong strange aura.
So when he noticed that something was not right in the atmosphere around him, the first thing that ran through his mind was the similar suffocating evil spirit that had appeared in a special case of his.
Jin Shu turned around without hesitation and saw her walking down the corridor with her head slightly lowered, her hands in her pockets on her left and right sides, her face expressionless and her eyes cold.
Yu's trademark waterfall-like long black hair made her whole person even more terrifying, especially since there were no lights on in the corridor. There was only a small square light that would automatically turn on when someone passed by, illuminating that area.
Although he knew that is his little case, the moment he saw her, he couldn't help but be shocked.
It's really like a grudge coming back to take revenge.
"Ruoling？"
Yu looked up and saw Jin Shu standing at the 90-degree corner, "Hi."
"What's wrong？Are you ok？"He asked, but he felt that the murderous aura on her body suddenly disappeared, "You were so 'that terrible' just now."It was as if it had never existed.
"Is that...？"She tilted her head, deliberately pretending to be confused.
Actually, it was the only thing she couldn't perfectly control. Whenever she entered the school - only when she was alone - this kind of aura would naturally come out, and she could sense it. But once someone calls her out, whether they are known or unknown, these auras will disappear automatically.
It's like all of a sudden, immediately, not slowly fading away, but "disappearing immediately".
Yu Ruoling thought to herself that after the last exam was over this semester, it would be time to meet Fong Xuan - her other half - again.
In the past few months, she had been having three-way communication with Him and Fong Xuan, but they were not all in the same space like last time. Metaphorically speaking, it is almost the concept of automatically receiving signals when a Bluetooth headset is hung up.
"Are you really okay？"Jin Shu walked closer and asked. The 20-centimeter height difference meant that Yu had to look up to see his eyes.
Even though this feeling should be quite oppressive, she felt very safe, as safe as being sheltered by the wings of a mountain.
"It's okay. I'm fine, this is normal."
"...Okay, come to me anytime if you have anything. "He patted her shoulder, "I told you last time, remember."
The black-haired girl smiled from the bottom of her heart, a soft arc spreading across her still very childish face. A pair of dark eyes were slightly bent, almost melting an iceberg-like face.
Her appearance has actually changed slightly. Rather than losing the childishness she had when she was in the third grade of elementary school, it is better to say that she has grown "tougher" and "thinner", so she looks much more mature. Of course, the psychological aspect has been matured so long for who knows how many years.
Yu Ruoling's appearance has been commented by many people she has met as if she is a combination of two famous Chinese actresses, only more childish. Although she didn't take it seriously, she recently discovered that there seemed to be something like that.
Her appearance is gradually leaning towards a state that makes people "feel that way" compared to the "daughter state" that makes people love her. Even if it's a bit confusing, it's quite interesting.
"Okay."She said. The natural expression of trust and complete relaxation made Jin Shu feel warm in his heart.
He had been trying to loosen her tight defenses during the past half semester, hoping that she could more easily believe in others. His efforts were not in vain.
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It was time for get out of class to end again, and students filed out of the door. She was squeezed into the crowd like a sardine, and she frowned in disgust just like she did when she was in Zhonggang Junior High School.
However, the number of students in Hanchung High School was much smaller than that in Zhonggang, so she had that heroic and slightly sharp eyebrow. The expression was not exaggerated enough for people to recognize at a glance that she was expressing disgust. At most thought she just felt the sun was too dazzling.
This year's winter is quite subtle, neither cold nor hot. The double impact of the sun still shining but the cold wind blowing on their face is disorienting. The uniform jacket that was the same color as eggplant felt hot when they put it on, but felt cold when they didn't wear it.
This sense of collapse of not knowing whether they should wear it or not made the students give up on themselves and simply use it as a shawl, which means they can wear it or not wear it, and choose the middle value.
A first-year freshman who was about 155 centimeters tall put on her coat decisively. This feeling of having to wear something but surely wear it is particularly annoying.
Fortunately, she is cold-tolerant and has been trained to withstand heat by the increasingly weird climate recently. It is better to hold one less thing in her hand than to have one more thing.
A petite girl who was half a head shorter than her quickly rushed over from behind. The girl seemed to know that there was a taboo behind her back, so she shouted her name at the top of her lungs from ten steps away from the gate.
Yu Ruoling looked back and saw Li Chengguang running over with a backpack on her back and a head of pretty short hair that looked like a chicken coop.
Although she prefer to be alone now, she is also embarrassed to refuse people at the moment.
"Ruoling~~！"The only high-ranking black belt master in the school stopped, "Do you just go home directly？"
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"No. "She shook her head, "I'll go to church today to review geography. And leave at 5:45 p.m."
“Why forty-five？？”
"I take the bus, in forty-eight."
"Can you make it？"
"Look at that building, "She pointed to a tall building standing alone across the street, and then pointed to a bus stop in front of her on the right, "and then my stop."
"Oh... Wait. "Li Chengguang pulled her sleeves, raised her chin, and said, "Well, do you know those guy from Zhonggang？"
"？"
Yu raised her eyebrows and looked. The Long brothers stood on the sidewalk and waved to her.
"They are the brothers from the church. You have interests？"
"No！"Li Chengguang smiled and lightly hit her on the shoulder, "So you are a Christian, no wonder."
"No wonder？"
"Ruoling, you seem to be a fairy who has nothing to do with the world."
What kind of strange description is this？Yu Ruoling twitched her mouth. Why do Christians now give the public such a conceited impression？No, she seems to have forgotten that the society has been very critical of Christians recently, and many people want to throw dirty things on their heads.
Out of the corner of her eye, she caught sight of someone approaching quickly from behind. She unconscionably switched from Li Chengguang's right side to her left side.
There is really no cure for this sequelae of being unable to let others walk behind her back. She rubbed her nose and thought, the winter vacation will be next Tuesday. She has been in a much lighter mood in the past few days. Compared to last year when she just came in... No, it should be counted from the beginning of the freshman training.
Her state is almost half-dead. Even can just be pushed to feed the eagles.
Yu Ruoling looked at the gray-white sky. A gust of cold wind blew over and invaded her body through the collar of her coat. Her heart suddenly felt cold.
Then what？
The vacation is over, what next？
She still has to come back and face reality...
Although He has said that the healing process must be painful, some of these are not allowed by Him, but they are necessary. She also understood that as long as she crossed this obstacle, everything about her would be elevated to a whole new realm.
A vision that has never been seen, a height that has never been understood, and something that has never been thought of.
She felt a little naive of herself, but honestly, giving her a choice to escape those...
Would she really rather be an ostrich that rather put it head into sands？
She really hated everything about school and wanted to set it on fire and burn it all away.
But when it comes to this question - and according to her personal obsessive-compulsive disorder, she don't allow her life to be left with any unfinished or only half-done to-do items - the answer is probably "no".
She doesn’t want to be a cowardly little loser. Moreover, she has always longed for the day when she would be free and free from any mental shackles, and she had always hoped that one day she would truly reach that state.
If she follows His process step by step, this path will definitely lead her to hope. Furthermore, He didn't want to see her sink into the negative experience of school bullying for nine years, and then stay away from her peers for the rest of her life, so that in the end, she didn't live like a human being at all.
She took a deep breath, waved her hand to Li Chengguang, who was on a different path, and smiled involuntarily at the Long brothers in front of her.
This semester, they often come to wait for Yu Ruoling, who finishes class an hour later than junior high school time. It's just that because of the Techs competition, Long Junxi is sometimes absent, and the Long brothers are probably the ones who understand her situation best besides Jin Shu and Jesus.
Since the first day of school, Fong Xuan has used Messenger to tell them these things. As the two most trusted people in Yu Ruoling's social circle of her own age, and also the people closest to her, the two brothers had been given this request by Fong Xuan from the beginning -
- Allow Yu Ruoling to see acquaintances and trusted people after leaving Hanchung High School, instead of walking to the bus stop, church, and then back to an empty home alone（Li Qiao's off-duty time is at 23:00 in the evening）.
At least there will be a short period of time ahead, and she can have some support in her heart. At that time, they asked Fong Xuan, why didn't He do this？But the message sent back was only a simple sentence, and they couldn't understand it.
「It's not that He's unwilling, it's that He doesn't want to force her will, and she can't do it.」
After a long period of interpretation, the Long brothers planned to think that this sentence was intended to show that there was something between Ruoling and Him. If He forced her to do this work, it would probably be detrimental to Yu Ruoling. Another point is that the person on the other side of the phone is Fong Xuan.
After a series of confusing explanations, the Long brothers finally understood Fong Xuan's "status". It turns out that "she" is not "she", but the result of her losing a part of herself.
In other words, Fong Xuan is Yu Ruoling, and Yu Ruoling is Fong Xuan, but the starting point of memory is different.
The Long brothers walked beside her, one on the left and the other on the right. There is an entire park between Hanchung High School and Erling Church. This walk through the park is her favorite.
For her, the park is not just about recuperating, relaxing, and breathing the leisurely air. The other children playing here, the elders chatting together, and the people playing chess and mahjong are the reasons why she enjoys it.
After being separated from her peers, people who are one round - 12 years - younger or older than her are simply angels.
"Hey, sis, why is your schoolbag so...heavy？"Long Junxi saw that veins were bulging in her left hand, and out of curiosity, he tried to lift her schoolbag on her side.
"Oh, isn't there vacation next week？"She replied, touching the top of his head out of habit, "Take whatever I can take home first."
"No, you can take them in batches."
"The books are completely packed."
"It is heavy."
"...It is not a big deal."
Long Junyuan laughed at the side, feeling that the conversation between his brother and sister Ruoling was really inexplicably funny.
"Brother, have you forgotten, when did sister Ruoling's business behind anything else？"
"Is this considered official business？"Long Junxi looked at her in disbelief.
"Hmm..."Yu thought for a while and finally had to nod, "To a certain extent."
Long Junyuan shrugged, and looked at his brother with helpless expressions on his face.
They have never argued against sister Ruoling on anything, never.
"Ah, by the way, "She patted the two brothers on the shoulders, "have you decided which school to attend for the entrance exam in May next year？"
"I were recommended to the No.1 Hospitality and Comprehensive High School from the technical class."Long Junxi scratched his head.
During the last training of players in the technical class, a teacher took a fancy to his talent, so he signed the contract first and became the first freshman with the student number 080001 to enroll at the First Hospitality and Comprehensive High School.
"That school is very good！"She smiled and patted his shoulder again, "You know you need at least two-thirds of the score to get into that school."
"I know, so I think it's okay."
"Okay？Just show me your tail, you brat."
"Hey, what about me？Ask me, sister Ruoling, are you partial？"
Yu looked at Long Junyuan up and down, and suddenly felt that the second son of the Long family didn't seem to have much interest. Although he dosen't want to go to common senior high school, there seems to be no option for vocational education.
If he is truly this way, it is better to go to common senior high to save effort and be safer, and then explore his own sexual orientation for three more years, than to go to a vocational school just because he wants to get rid of those studies.
The worse is, find out in the end that this is not what he wants.
She sighed and remembered that Dong Tinghua, whom she had not contacted for a long time, sent her a text message a month ago.
It is said that Dong was in pain to death while studying English major in Kongliao Commerce and Industry. She only regretted why she put Kongliao Commerce and Industry as her first choice, and wrote a long heartfelt speech as if the world was about to despair.
She complained about her classmates, teachers, and everything about the empty dormitory, but Yu could only watch the conversation record getting longer and longer, read these helpless words, and then sort out the situation for Dong Tinghua and give her some useless advice that was actually just comfort.
Choose carefully..., Yu thought. She was heartbroken because of her terrible childhood experience. As for Hanchung High School, it was really the school she wanted to attend. But those prospective junior high school graduates who choose the wrong path in one step or one thought...
It's really a pity.
"？？"Long Junyuan stared at Yu Ruoling's increasingly deep expression with confusion and said, "Sister, why do you look like you want to kill someone？"
“I'm thinking. "Yu said seriously, "Junyuan, if you can't think of a direction you like, you should choose common high school first."
"Yeah, I'm already thinking about it."
Long Junyuan looked at the ground, then looked up at the traffic signal at the opposite street.
The remaining orange glow of the setting sun that disappeared very early in winter hits the glass windows and walls of the building. The reflected color is not strong, just like his gentle, warm and stubborn personality. Even if he can't see the way forward, he still have to act like it's no big deal, so that people can't see anything.
"You have two directions. First, find a subject that you don't hate or like and go to a vocational school. Second, finish common high school in three painful years and then find something you like."Yu sincerely suggested.
Long Junxi had been walking aside silently, and when he heard these words, his mouth finally couldn't help but twitch.
Sister Ruoling probably didn't know that his brother would rather force himself than do that. At least he could guess that his brother would choose common high school in the end.
And it will be Hanchung High School.
"...I'll think about it."Long Junyuan was silent for a few seconds and replied.
Long Junxi looked at his younger brother and secretly rolled his eyes, thinking, 'Don't think about it anymore, do you still think about it？All your hair is falling out, stupid brother.'