What controls my behavior?

Logic or emotions?

This is a difficult question, and I cannot answer it no matter how much I think about it

I always use logic and rational thinking when making any decision

It is not that I am a heartless person, but I learned from the experiences I went through to control my actions and decisions, and to suppress feelings and emotions.

I cannot intervene in a conflict in which I am not a party, and I cannot save a person in danger without knowing his identity

What if that was a bad person?

If someone as bad as a serial killer is being tortured in front of me, I will grab some popcorn and enjoy this nice show

However, I still do some good deeds from time to time. I don't think there's any harm in helping an old woman cross the road, or finding a lost child.

Do I consider myself a good person?

Of course not, after all the things I've done it's impossible to call myself a good person

If I dare to call myself a good person, then the demons who wreak havoc and destruction will be considered angels of mercy.

I am a good person when circumstances allow me to be good

I would like to point out that I am not a brutal and cruel person. Even if someone insults me, I will not take revenge on him, even if he is weaker than me.

This is an ability I developed after years of being insulted and disdained

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If a powerful person insults me, I will keep my poker face

I am well aware that if I show anger or unwillingness, what awaits me is a fate worse than just a few harsh words.

I'm not going to look up and scream that I'll only kneel to my parents and to heaven

Nah, I won't do such petty things

I will bend and kneel when needed

I don't brag about my ability to withstand insults, but it's a method that has saved me a few times

This is life...or at least this is my view of life

Of course, there are some times when my emotions get out of control, like after I woke up in this body, but these are rare cases.

Therefore, I pride myself on my ability to control my anger in difficult situations

Because if I wasn't such a kind, tolerant type.....I would have blown Maria's head off

Maria was standing in front of me and looking at the table full of food. When she saw me sitting quietly at the table, she started cursing and insulting me out of nowhere. She kept saying that I was useless and a trivial person, or something like that. In fact, I was not taking her seriously, because I was focused on the dishes in front of me and thinking about which dish I should start with

Maria looked at me coldly. "It seems there is no benefit to you other than consuming food and space..."

I used a fork and knife to cut the steak into small pieces, and I answered it without taking my eyes off my plate. "You are still as sweet as ever, big sis..."

Maria placed her hand on her forehead and sighed. "You don't know what trouble you and Lucas have caused."

"Lucas?.." I looked at Maria in surprise

What is this girl talking about?

"It is natural that you do not know that. You locked yourself in your room after insulting yourself in front of the rest of the nobles..." Maria scoffed, planning to start another round of scolding

But a boy with dark red hair entered the room. The young man was wearing white clothes with a red flame symbol embroidered on the left area of his white coat.

This young man is Elliot Rayman

The Rayman family is a family that has served the Ford family for several generations. They are skilled at gathering and exchanging information

Elliot is Maria's childhood friend, and they often train together

In fact, Elliot is Maria's punching bag

I would have looked at this young man with sympathetic eyes under normal circumstances, but there is something strange about him

Even after being beaten up all these years, Elliot still smiles every time he sees Maria

He is not a helpless person. After all, he is the heir to the Rayman family. He can file a complaint so that Maria will stop treating him this way.

Even if the Rayman Family is just a family subordinate to the Ford Family, it is still a family that has some influence, and the head of the Ford Family must listen to their complaints.

But Elliot did not object or reject any order if it came from Maria

Is he a masochist?

Elliot noticed my gaze, raised his hand and waved with a kind smile. "How are you, Alexander?..."

I tried to return his greeting, but my mouth was stuffed with meat, so I contented myself with shaking my head and taking some incomprehensible words out of my mouth.

"Slow down, you will suffocate..." Elliot was not upset by my actions, on the contrary, he was amused

He wasn't a bad guy. Even in Alexander's memories, Elliot greeted Alexander cordially every time they met. Even when Alexander was being rude, Elliot still maintained his manners.

He was not close to Alexander, but he followed common etiquette when meeting a member of the Ford family

But I'm sure this boy wasn't being hypocritical. There was no sarcasm or disgust when our eyes met.

But there was something fishy

I was chewing the meat while looking intently at Elliot's face as he spoke to Maria

I'm sure I've seen this stupid expression before, the expression that results from the petty emotions of youth

This is love