February 23rd.
Regarding the exact time where or when this phenomenon began, I am not certain, but certainly, I think that after it took place, I, Yukishiro Kyoko have begun to hate everything there is in existence.
Everything that is around me or just anything in general, whether it is objects or humans, I hate them all.
Though, if I were to be more specific, I hate humans in general far more than anything else.
This hatred swirling inside my heart, the unreasonable intensity for these strong resentments, I know the source.
My hatred for everything is far too strong.
There are times where the sentiment is so intense that my heart feels like it's on fire. It often happens to me, but the searing feeling of wanting to hate everything consumes me consistently.
"............."
As I woke up, my eyes immediately blinked. It's impressive, even after closing the blinds, this daylight makes my eyes blink constantly.
I hate it. I hate it all so much.
I hate the fact that I have to get up every damn morning just to attend some stupid classes. I hate that I allowed myself to be in this position and that there is nothing that I can do except to obey the system in order to escape.
God, I wish how every other human would just die.
Wouldn't it be nice?
I'm not a narcissistic person, but I deeply like silence and an aloof atmosphere where I am able to solely exist, but that's just not possible.
Other humans still breathe.
...
Right now, I could simply just go and descend down to have breakfast but I would have to look at their faces.
I don't want that. They are extremely repugnant and their tendencies are repulsive.
And for that reason, I will just wait in my room for the right time to come out. Mainly when class begins.
Just the thought of being greeted by every single one of them is urging me to vomit.
"Shit..."
As a matter of fact, just by thinking about it, that urge became far too realistic and so, I went to the bathroom and threw up on the toilet.
While throwing up, I reminded myself of my previous life before this.
It wasn't half-bad.
But having to endure this feeling of disgust every day and night is stressing me out.
I'm not sure if I can take this for too long.
This daily effort of enduring unnecessary struggles isn't making much sense anymore.
I need to escape from here.
9:45 am.
Something I always do is being on my phone. It's very helpful.
In the presence of humans who I dislike, which is just about every single one of them, it helps me take my mind off the never-ending hatred that I feel for this species.
I like to search for animals though. Something that has human influences or the hands of a human behind it isn't worth the outlook.
Animals, however, are different.
They are cute and sweet. They value their own private space but can be caring at the same time.
Back in my old apartment, I had a cat named Tobias.
Now that I think about it, I spent a crazy amount of time with him. It's scary how much I devoted my whole being towards something that doesn't belong to the human species.
Nonetheless, it died.
It happened when I was walking home from school and a truck passed by a street parallel to my old apartment's street.
Without a single stop, the truck went ahead and killed Tobias.
Furthermore, the driver didn't even notice.
Tobias just died and no one cared about it.
But not me.
I cared.
So much.
Although, the bastard never returned and I couldn't catch a glimpse of the bastard's face.
I was mainly sad for two reasons. The first reason was that Tobias had just died and the second one because I could never do justice for him.
On top of being my source of hatred, humans never cease to take away what I love without a second thought.
"Yo, got a lighter? Mine just went out last night."
Obnoxiously interrupting my deep reflection, this oblivious human being named Kan, spoke to me.
His breath stinks.
Plus, his dialogue is always full of either profanity or lax words.
It's not as if I care about what he does, but I once took a short notice of what he does and it's straight-up disgusting.
Not only is he being undiplomatic towards someone like me, who has never for once spoken firstly to him, but he has the sheer audacity to roll joints in my presence.
Needless to say, I ignored him.
But, that wasn't enough. I moved my chair to the maximum edge of my table just to be vastly far away from him.
"Tch. What's her problem? All I did was ask."
Kan mumbled to himself shortly.
However, his words piss me off.
First of all, I don't have any problems. You do.
Your lack of manners is an immediate turn-off and the mere fact that you are upholding a non-hygienic stance in front of me proves that you simply aren't worthy of consideration.
Aren't your nails too long as well? What's with that? Can't you take better care of your self? Your teeth are borderline yellow. My stomach just took three spins just from that thought alone.
Secondly, why would I have a lighter? I do not share your unpleasant habits, you feeble creature.
Even if I did have a lighter, why would I give it to you? Do you think that you are suddenly worthy of touching whatever is mine? That's pure nonsense.
Humans don't think much in general, do they?
Why not though?
Is it really hard to be considerative when speaking to another person? I don't feel that difficulty, but I will never show retribution in spite of that.
Thirdly, I hate you.
Oh, lastly, I don't care.
Die.
"Alright! Class is over, but we will move on to P.E next, so follow my lead!"
Out of many things I hate thus far, this specific event surely takes the cake.
For some unpleasant reason, someone decided that it was a logical thing for students of this class to take special exams that have massive distinguishing features from your average exam.
While that sounds appealing in its nature and in theory, in practice, it's very bitter.
If it was an individual test where I can proudly demonstrate my ability and keenness, that would be very much welcomed.
Yet, such was not the case.
In this horrible scenario, pairings were formed.
How detestable.
Despite that feeling of rage and oppression, my sad excuse for a partner approached me without a second thought.
He did not even let me pack my stuff inside my bag, he just intruded like that.
"Kyoko, let's do our best today! I'm counting on you!"
"Don't talk to me, trash."
Don't ever spell my name with such excitement like that, you waste of oxygen.
"Look, I get it. You hate me. But you know, Kyoko, we do share something in common."
"We share nothing in common. We stand on different grounds at all times. Also, do me a favor and recall what I just said to you a while ago, would you?"
Though, he's correct about the fact that I hate him.
His existence is poisonous, his past persistence and current attempts of persuasions are pathetic as well.
And so, I moved on from the classroom that was still full of students to the rightful field of physical education.
Still...
"Wait just a second, will you!? We should talk! No, we have to talk! Listen, I don't care if you despise me or something of that sort, the truth still stands, we need to work together in order to win the upcoming exam! I want to win, you want to win, so why not make the best effort possible into winning!?"
Additionally, I hate when people refuse to pay attention even if minimum, to the true meaning of my words.
If I tell you to not speak to me, why do you persist?
Even after speeding up a tad bit, this benevolent creature continued to chase after me.
Why?
"Ignoring me won't work, just saying. I don't mind being ignored. I know that I'm not one of a kind, but damn, I am not letting you be the one who screws up my victory chance!"
Just as I was about to step outside block F, he stood there blocking my way.
With his arms fully extended to his right and left, Rayazaki illogically kept on being annoying.
Your poor strategy to get my cooperation will not work Rayazaki.
Because I've already decided to screw you up in the worst way possible.
"Move."
"I won't. Not until you give me your consent."
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"And what will my consent do? If I say yes, then I can just go back on my word. You can't do anything about this."
So annoying...
So annoying...!
"I don't understand you. I've tried to endlessly talk to you in the previous days in order to achieve your cooperation, but you either ignore me or just give spiteful replies. What gives? Did I do something to deserve this? I don't think I did, but enlighten me please, if I'm wrong here."
He's too much of a fool to understand that it doesn't matter who it is.
Whoever was my partner in this stupid nonsensical exam would get backstabbed the second he was selected to be paired up with me.
My hatred for the likes of you is increasing potency within each second you mere plebians speak such sporadic and preposterous words to me.
"You're not passing the exam. Let me tell you some words of truth for once, just so you can get a clear image of what's about to happen. You will attempt to pursue me by using fancy reasonings and whatnot, but it will not work. And that's because I'm deadset on failing this exam. I refuse to be apart of this bullshit. This parasitic co-dependence and spew of teamwork can all go to hell. I'm not doing it."
He's still in the way...
Do I have to call out to a teacher?
"I understand where you are coming from, but you will be prejudiced way more than I will if you fail this exam-"
"No, I won't. Are you retarded? On second thought, I don't have to question such an undeniable factor."
"What!? Watch your tone!"
"Or what? You'll hit me? You'll report me? You'll do what?"
"Kyoko, you've been unreasonable for days now! What the hell must I do to get you to cooperate!? I'm desperate, you know? Don't make me use secondary methods..."
I can hear the descending steps of the rest of my classmates from afar.
This means that this will drag out to be a scene should we remain here.
But that's fine. I don't exactly care if I have to be dramatic, I will prove my point nonetheless.
Secondary opinions will not get in my way.
"What are those secondary methods you speak of? Surely they must be able to produce flawless results if you are speaking in such dreadful tone about them. Let me guess... Violence? Is that it? Ah, it is. I hit the jackpot. Your exasperated expression tells it all. It's so typical. Whenever someone loses a political argument, they will always attempt to utilize force because they know that they cannot win!"
"Do you just not care at all!?"
Though I didn't look behind me, I'm fairly sure that certain existences have stepped into this dramatic territory by now.
"That's right. I don't care. You will suffer far more than I will. Sure, I will get a supply exam, but you? That's the second one. Your loss is far more reassuring than any victory of mine."
Because your defeat equals a victory to me, after all.
"What the hell! You're just like a bomb, you know!? Whoever you are set on will explode along with you!"
"And? What about it? What's your point?"
Unfortunately, my endeavor was fully stopped by a familiar feminine voice who spoke out loud despite the current scenery.
"What's going on?"
Rayazaki looked like he was ready to fire complaints but my mouth is far faster, thus I gained the immediate upper edge in this.
"Rayazaki started this. He is complaining about my lack of cooperativeness but he's just insensitive about my situation and in addition to that, he's unreasonably demanding far too excessive tasks which are beyond my current keen..."
To the still youthful and gorgeous figure who I spoke out to, Yuka-sensei was looking severely worried about the situation.
I can understand why you would be worried about your own students especially when they refuse to behave like partners, but the truly important part is that I make Rayazaki feel completely hopeless.
Hopeless to the point where he will realize his inner useless and superficial hypocrisy.
Also, behind her, there were a few of my classmates observing the scene.
This is uncomfortable. Stop looking at me.
Look elsewhere...
"Sensei, that's not true at all! I just attempted to talk to her normally! I never demanded anything unreasonable! She refuses to cooperate, please do something about this!"
There is no way that I will allow those words to just go out to the air like that.
"He's lying... Several times, he asked me to cooperate and that implied doing physical activities beyond my power. Isn't that abuse? How am I supposed to cooperate when Rayazaki is demanding outwardly things from me..."
It's not my first time faking to cry in public, but it always manages to have a positive effect. Plus, it aids my argument's appeal in the face of sensitive people.
And, it's undeniable that emotional responses can be provoked by triggering memories of unpleasant moments, which I have just implied.
"Rayazaki, is this true...?"
"Mph..."
I continued to pretend to cry, which was visibly angering Rayazaki.
"No! It's not true, alright!? I would never demand such unreasonable things from her!"
"But I can't ignore the fact that she is crying. You did do something, didn't you, Rayazaki?"
Perhaps he was feeling slightly pressured, but Rayazaki strongly kicked the block's steel door with a powerful kick, which even shocked me a bit.
"I didn't do anything of that sort! Damn it, please believe me! I'm trying to succeed here, but she's not making this easy! Yeah, I know that I'm acting violently right now, but she's lying alright?! Also, can't you be a little more competent and supervise the actual fucking training sessions!? What's the damn point of you being a teacher if you can't even do such basic fucking shit like that?!"
It appears that Rayazaki has abandoned all sorts of reasons and is going full ahead with his anger.
The fact that he called out to Yuka-sensei like that just sealed his fate.
He's not winning this. And his expression of frustration with an exquisite mixture of rage is delightful.
"Rayazaki! Don't speak to Yuka-sensei like that..."
A fragile and small voice came from behind me, but she made her appearance be noticed in a flash.
Her blue hair shone deeply despite the cold weather contrasting the usual amount of sunlight.
What's more, Hinagiku was showing a worried expression when talking to Rayazaki, who still had to explain his side of the argument here.
"............."
But, Rayazaki just looked down on the ground without replying.
What? What am I missing here?
What happened to his anger? There's no way it's that short-lived...
How strange. What gives?
Yet, he was still clenching his fists.
"Hinagiku, sweetie, it's fine."
"Sensei..."
"Rayazaki, you're right about one thing. I've been neglecting my supervision for quite a while, but I don't intend on changing that. Whatever you do to achieve victory in the upcoming exam will be the result of the choices you make now. Whether they are the correct ones or not, only you know. That's why I will not intervene. Because it's not up to me to know what to do here. It's up to you."
Since the door was fully open now, with only his body covering up the entrance, a massive gust of chilly wind invaded this tense atmosphere.
By contrast, Rayazaki gritted his teeth rigidly which showed frustration on his part.
"You don't need to tell me what I already know. I know that it's entirely up to me to make my decisions and how to perceive the correct path with them. I know. However, I can't help but notice the major flaw in this whole thing, and that is her!"
Still not giving up, Rayazaki had the gal to point at me.
Not only has he not made his side better but he still continues to blame me in this scenario.
Idiot. Do you not realize just how much of your grave you are already digging?
"She does nothing. If she doesn't, then how am I supposed to get a good grade? It's unreasonable. She can just easily screw me over by not doing anything. And what will she get? A supply exam? That's just fucking bullshit! In contrast, I receive a grand worth of a supply exam which counts as two supply exams! That's right because according to last night, we got screwed about this, isn't that right guys?!"
In the middle of this, Hyunda had just passed by Rayazaki's shadow secretly.
To surprise me, who did not expect a positive reaction from any of the current boys in the background, they erupted like creeping darkness.
"Rayazaki's right, teach! There are far more consequences for us than to them! What's up with that?!"
Out of nowhere, Tsudo was the first one to make such bold accusations.
"It's not fair, Yuka-sensei! This is such a rigged exam! We demand equality!"
Following Tsudo's spiteful words up, Susaga continued by claiming this exam to be rigged.
What a joke.
"If we get a grand punishment, then why can't they receive punishment as well?!"
Kuzan this time, also participated in this side of the argument.
Although I wasn't expecting anything from anyone else, my expectations contradicted themselves surely.
"What are you boys talking about? The consequences are partial because you bunch did something to deserve them surely, otherwise, it wouldn't make any sense to alter the consequences from the start. Also, this exam isn't rigged and just for the record, you boys are a pain in the ass to deal with, so don't make your sides of the argument seem to be something that is totally different from the reality."
Great going, Akimiyashika.
"Bullshit! Consequences regarding the exam should be equal to all, not to just some of us!"
"No, they shouldn't. You are so wrong, Tsudo. Why should the consequences be equal when our side did nothing to deserve them in the first place? Surely, we will receive the natural consequences of the exam if we do fail, but now you are trying to make an argument while appealing that it's fine for us, who are completely uninvolved in this to suddenly receive the exact same treatment as you boys?"
"Aki, you forgot that they are also just arguing for convenience. Isn't it just funny how they all talked as soon as Rayazaki mentioned their names? Hahaha!"
"You're right, Ikkiri. So, on top of being unreasonable, you are all being sly about this."
Amazing.
Amazing!!
Hahahaha!
Not only did you make the worst argument possible, Rayazaki, but you dragged the rest of your crew along with you!
Serves you right, piece of shit.
"All of you who are not Yukishiro and Rayazaki have the right and should remain silent. Furthermore, you are all dismissed from this scene. Go to the usual place in P.E and I will meet you all up there in a while. Those who remain here even after this warning will receive punishment. I hope that I don't have to repeat myself~"
Those words that came out from the stunning figure that is our homeroom teacher were enough to make sure that after a few moments, there would only be three people in the current moment.
After they all left, the scene would resume itself.
This seemed to have escalated itself into big trouble, but that's entirely fine.
As long as I can screw Rayazaki along, it doesn't matter what has to be done.
No one can bend over my will as they please and if they even try to, they will for sure feel my wrath as a consequence.
"Rayazaki, before you say anything, you do know that you, along with several other boys, received that additional consequence due to the aftermath of yesterday, correct?"
This is news to me.
It's been implied that something did happen, however, what exactly?
I couldn't help but screw my posture and tilt my head in order to give it some thought.
".......Yes. It's still not fair, regardless."
"You could argue that it's not fair, but that isn't relevant to the situation, is it?"
"Of course it is! I've been trying extra hard lately because I don't want to receive that hellish consequence! Can't you see this from my perspective, sensei!? I'm stuck with a useless lump of meat who refuses to do anything and is spiteful even after I showed visible caring for her!"
I'm sorry, what did you just say?
You fucking trash can. No way, did you just? What?
Useless lump of meat!? How dare you... How dare you!!!
And visible caring?! Where?! By constantly verbally pursuing me without ever respecting my free will!?
You call that caring?! That is the opposite of caring, you retard, it's called complete oppression.
God, I hate you humans so muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch!!!!!
I swear, I will catch you in your sleep and I will slice your throat in hal-
Oh no.
I'm showing too much rage.
That's not good. That's really not good at all.
My acting will be gone if that's the case.
I am the victim here. I must portray such an act, otherwise, it's all for nothing.
Hold it in. You can do it.
You've been through worse, this is absolutely nothing in comparison to those days...
"Rayazaki... Why are you trying this hard to censure me... Mph... I've done nothing to you yet you are so spiteful towards me..."
"I know what you are up to, you cunning cow. Your acting may fool the rest, but it won't fool me."
"W-Why do you keep making such spiteful accusations!? What did I do!?"
You'll pay dearly for calling me that false nickname, you mountain of shit.
"As I've said previously, I'm not allowed to change anything here. However, I will give you both words of advice, otherwise, you two will just not be able to advance at all. Learn to respect each others' wills."
"Sensei, that's impossible. I can't respect someone's will when her will implies me failing this exam. It's unacceptable."
"T-That's not true! I do intend on passing this exam! It's just that I can't coop up with your demands, that's all..."
"Enough already... I have no patience for this. I'm skipping today."
At long last, he quit.
Finally, he realized just how futile it was to compete against me in a political argument.
Fucking moron, hope you die in a dumpster fire.
But, luck isn't on his side today. He said many things that he should not have said.
Bet you didn't take that into consideration, did you, you obnoxious peasant?
"Not so fast, Rayazaki. While it is true that I don't have time to lecture you right now because I have a class to commence, your actions were far too repulsive. Therefore, you will have to reflect on your behavior. Seek Basara and have a talk to him for a while. Think of this as kindness, because I could have just led you to the principal's office instead."
"What!? But that's worse! That monster's batshit crazy! No way!"
"Do you prefer the principal's office? Well, that's fine with me. But don't be surprised that by the time you start to accumulate too many warnings that you--"
"Wait, stop. I get it. Thanks. Tsk."
Yet in our presence, Rayazaki kicked the door so hard that it started to swing like an uncontrollable pendulum.
Typical.
Violence is their only way out and when that doesn't work, they meet defeat.
"Are you alright? If something is troubling you, you can just tell me, Yuki."
"Thanks... But, it's nothing that big of a deal..."
"No, he made you cry. That itself is outrageous. Something did happen, didn't it?"
I hate how easy humans are easy to fool.
It just shows how inferior they are in all possible regards.
"He made me do tasks which severely are affecting my health... Ever since I was little I had heart problems but he kept on pressuring me to run and do physical exercises even after I've explained it clearly that it was impossible for me to do them..."
In the process of explaining this, I clung onto Yuka-sensei's body while strongly hugging her. Furthermore, I had to keep up my crying to ultimately finalize this act.
"I know that what I'm about to say might not aid the current problem, but please try to talk to him. You know that he feels opressed constantly, so someone needs to show him the way to correctly act, and that's one of the main points of this exam, to guide your partner."
But that's counterproductive. Rayazaki has all the rights to suffer.
As a matter of fact, he is facing opressions caused by no other than me.
There is no greater joy than inflicting pain and anger to other humans out there.
"I'll try to..."
"Come on. Let's get going, or else the other will be waiting. Can you walk on your own?"
"Yes..."
Ultimately, Yuka-sensei and I talked about several things on our way to the P.E court, but my mind was fully occupied with knowing just how oppressed Rayazaki is feeling.
I bet that he wants to kill me or something right now.
It's just purely funny how they think that their hatred for me can ever outgrow my own hatred that I feel towards them.
Nevertheless, Rayazaki, you are on my blacklist.
There will be respective consequences for calling me out like that.
And this is just the beginning.
10 am.
It's not as if I was going to cooperate with Rayazaki either way, so I decided to go to somewhere quiet.
Every single one of them are going to distinctive sections, so I suppose that the gymnasium should be fine.
Thus, I went exactly there.
So far, my day has been going fairly well, which is rare.
It gives me vast joy to see the likes of Rayazaki suffer like that.
Seeing massive oppression in another person's expression is simply ecstatic if I do say so myself.
"Hm? The door is open...?"
How weird.
I don't recall the gymnasium ever being open like this previously, which means that someone is here.
"That sucks. Unreal."
Just out of curiosity, who is it...?
And, as I looked into the inside of the gymnasium, without being noticed by the two people who were having an intense discussion, I stumbled upon the most interesting conversation thus far.
"...What does that have to do with it though?"
Is that Daniel?
Ah, I remember this trash. He couldn't stop staring at Yulia's body parts vulgarly...
He even tried to play the fool, but I know that he was looking at her with perverted and dirty intentions.
Scumbag.
"Everything. Daniel. You and I. Let's kill her."
That is Yulia, right?
Yep, it is, and why is she-
"Huh? Wait, what?"
Unable to hide my sudden shock, I mumbled those words quickly.
..................
What is this conversation?