March 31st.

Sleeping all night was impossible. No, as of lately, it's been impossible. Ever since March 27th, Hyunda hasn't spoken a single word to me, at all.

Henceforth, at the early dawn, I am finding myself, sharpening the edge of my knife.

"No calls. No texts. Nothing from you. I know you are in there, but your supervisor won't let me in. Why? Are you that mad? I'm sorry that I stalked you back then, but it was because I couldn't help myself. Look, I've learned my lesson, so please let me be with you. I can't stand this, love!"

Only with my chandelier's light on, I am firmly glancing upon my sharp knife while carrying thoughts of suicide.

This is a dilemma. Should I kill myself, then I won't be able to be with you but right now you aren't with me and I am not with you which is exactly the equivalent of that!!!

"I did everything you asked, love! I executed your order to make Sana and Daniel somehow share a kiss! Ah, do you have any idea how hard that was to pull it off?! You didn't even give me specific instructions because you said that you fully trusted me on the task and while I am super grateful for that compliment, it was hard nonetheless! Plus, I also rudely replied back to Yulia as you also asked! Yet, yet, you...! I've never felt this ignored! It's so sad! You are the depth of my being yet you keep yourself away from me... I really am just gonna..."

Tears on my face, what's new?

Your negligence affecting my entire emotional state; the common things I go through.

At least, if I close in this knife and place the edge of the blade on my throat and advance, I will never leave your mind in my absence, that's for sure.

"I wonder how will you remember me? You will remember me, right, love? We are meant to be together forever so-----"

A sudden sound that I had not heard in a while came forth through my phone.

Lying on my right side of the bed, I whipped away my endless tears as I saw your name on the screen.

I got so happy that I got up from my bed and took a few spins out of happiness before picking up your call!

"Y-Yes?!"

"Hey. Today's the day. I'm waiting at the entrance."

As per usual, not allowing me to further speak with him, Hyunda ended the call.

However...

"Oh my god, oh my god! So he wasn't serious! I knew it! You wouldn't forget about your own sayings! That damn fucking supervisor lied to me then?! He actually faked that?! Out of all the words to tell me?! Tsk! You bad, bad liar. You can't keep my future husband away from me, you tyrannical impostor! Haha, look at you now. I'm about to finally meet him!"

In a rush to get ready, I did the usual necessary preparations.

Faster than usual though.

I still remember your scent yet the very thought of meeting you once again after we have been separated from each other for two days straight fills my heart with joy.

Love, distance? Did you do this for the sake of practicing it?

I almost killed myself just now. Don't repeat this again please.

School entrance.

Just like always, exactly like last time, there you stood, with your back against the wall, listening to music through your blue earplugs. Yet this time, you were yawning. Lack of sleep?

Unnecessary thoughts?

I don't know.

However, as I approached you, in this beautiful morning, as soon as you grazed my figure, you just went ahead and did something that I honestly wasn't expecting you to do.

"....."

Perhaps far too shocked at his sudden movement, as I normally am the one who has to break the boundaries, your magnificent sudden kiss went far beyond my expectations.

"Sorry, I just really missed you."

"A-Ah... I see! But... you know... if you missed me... and... if what you say is true then... why did you ignore all my calls and texts?! I was worried, for crying out loud! I thought you might've died or something! Do you have any idea how much worry you caused me?! Geez, please don't do that again..."

"Well, I----"

I'm pretty sure Hyunda had something to say and I will listen to him later on. But now, I resumed to what was even more important.

You started it. You kissed me. I missed you so much. What the hell have you been doing these past days?

Nevertheless, I still couldn't resist the urge to connect our lips fiercely and so, we started engaging in a romantic activity otherwise known as kissing.

"You really like kissing, don't you, Arkalee?"

"I haven't touched your lips for days. I've missed your scent. Your natural scent. The way you speak. Your overall existence. Let's keep on kissing for an hour or two, kay?~"

With every touch and with every movement we trade with each other, as I feel your embrace from your arms as well, I naturally started to enroll my tongue thus intertwining with yours.

You're even going as far as pinning me down against the wall.

Yes, I know what you want, which is why I will gladly---

"Arkalee, there are people watching, you know?"

"...."

As I look to my surroundings, I hatefully glanced down on the students who have the horrible gal of interrupting our romantic moment with their gazes.

However, that's not really going to happen. Thus, I looked back at Hyunda and simply said this.

"Whatever! I want to kiss and kiss a lot! And you won't get away~~~"

I already have my arms around you as you also do. Your leg is between my legs and you know you want it. Come on, consume me here. Ignore our surroundings, just ravage me alre---

"Are we really going to lose time kissing each other here? We can just find other private spots to kiss, you know?"

"Ah, fair point! Okay, let's leave the school and search for a spot where we can kiss more! I'll still keep on kissing you though!"

"Arkalee, that's far too inconvenient."

"Oh, I see... How about in the cheek though?"

Although it was an inferior suggestion, as I accompanied Hyunda to the main gate, linked to his right arm, I pondered if that suggestion would go through.

"Fine. But listen first. We are repeating the same process as last time. Understand that."

"Okaaaaaay!"

Thus, so we did, and eventually, we finally left school, free to do as we please!

We additionally started to descend down the huge stairway that would lead to the main city and as we did, we finally could go back to kissing, or so I thought, but Hyunda had a serious look in his face, which made me hard to go for a kiss on his mouth.

I was already busy with kissing him on his cheek, but...

"Hyunda? What's wrong...? Your expression looks---"

"Who did you talk to in specific these last days?"

With his monochrome yet serious expression as his trademark, he asked me that very serious question.

But okay, I'll be honest.

"Your supervisor and Yukishiro. Why though?"

"I see. Don't talk to them anymore."

"Um, why?"

"I don't want you to talk to anyone else but me. Are you fine with that?"

"No, but Hyunda, why is that the case? I'm just really curious to know."

He has this bad habit of never telling me the reason for his own words... And... I'm really, really curious.

Plus, this means that you did care about my activity! Were you worried that I had talked to another boy and sought to cheat on you!? I would never do anything like that!

"Soon enough, I will gain unnecessary attention, most likely. And as such, you will be a common target for my exposure because you are always attached to me."

.......????

"Okay, but who? Who do you have in mind?! This is about someone, right?!"

Unnecessary attention!? And why is Hyunda going to receive unnecessary attention all over the sudden?!

Someone has to be able to direct their attention to Hyunda and I want to know who!

Yet, despite that, he really answered my question with honesty and with a calm expression, not emitting any visible anxiety.

"It's just an assumption. Nothing more than that. On second thought, you are free to interact with them. That was a stupid choice of words."

"Huh....? Hyunda, you still aren't answering my question...! What about the honesty you spoke of?!"

Geez.

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You always speak about the fact that I have to be honest and I really am but you on the other hand...

"Don't make such a face. More importantly, how have you been these past days?"

"Lonely. Sad. Suicidal. It's all your fault."

It was a bit more than that. I almost decided to cut myself with a knife but that's not necessary for you to know love.

It's all good now.

"Sorry about that. There's a valid reason for my absence. I was busy making preparations."

"For...?"

"Future events that might display. Essentially, I will have to fade away from the current image and settle down a little bit. Therefore, I went ahead and-------"

"Geez! Can't you say the whole thing without being soooooooo indirect?! I am so honest with you but you are not! I love you so much but this is really bugging me! Please be honest!"

I'm tired of this! Being unrewarded feels so bad! I have this waterfall of precious feelings for you yet you still treat me like this!?

What happened to treating me specially?!

I got so mad that I stopped walking midway the staircase and stopped clinging to his arm like usual.

He, however, kept on advancing a few steps before eventually looking at me slightly and replying.

"I don't want to bore you with the details. I value our relationship far more. Being honest about this won't amount to anything. And besides, today, is the day. So, lead the way."

"You won't bore me though..."

"Arkalee. Come here."

"...Okay..."

Slowly, while looking down on the staircase and its long steps, feeling a spring breeze, I started to walk up to Hyunda, who, as soon as our distance got closer, held me tightly with his arms and delivered a powerful hug.

"I love you, you know that, right? That's why I want to show you a good time. Our talks should be about us, not others, correct?"

"Y-Yes! I agree! A-And, we should also, you know... Start thinking about some other things..."

Ahh... I can barely finish my sentence. Just the thought of being linked to your whole body in your arms gives me a transcendental feeling of jubilant bliss.

I also adore how tightly you are holding me. It's as if you know that I like to feel every single part of your body and that I am more than fine with also allowing you to feel mine. This level of intimacy is one that I can respectfully agree with.

However, I seek to take it further.

"Ummm.... Hyunda..."

"What? Tell me when you want the hug to stop."

"Um, never. But, listen... You will stay forever with me, right...?!"

"I will. I promise that."

A promise. Okay. You said it. I will not attempt to kill myself any longer since it's bound to happen now.

You and I forever. Yes. It will happen. No doubt. We are meant to be, undoubtedly.

You even went ahead and confirmed this yourself and you will take all possible responsibility.

"Okay. Okay. Okay... Listen... I think we should start thinking about our future family."

"Future family?"

"I-I realize this might be sudden but think about it...! If we are going to be together forever then we should start a family! It makes complete sense! So, I was thinking, we should go to a hotel today and engage in logical commitments."

Not that we can't do this whenever I come to your room though. It will happen eventually, yes.

However, I do like the scene where we both rationally shape our futures romantically in a hotel room, yes.

I think it would make the most sense, yes.

"Arkalee."

Pushing me back a little bit, Hyunda, for some awful reason, decided to shatter the atmosphere by breaking us apart while calling my name calmly.

"You need to cool your head."

...........!?

"N-NO, I don't! I'm serious! Mega serious! We should also start thinking about our future children's names! Um, do you have a specific number in mind?! Hey, wait! Don't leave me here by myself!!"

Apart from the fact that he started to progress with his march on his way down the staircase, I entered a panic state of mind as I could not comprehend why Hyunda had said something like that!

Cool my head...!?

You're not trying to run away, right?

No.

No, no, no, no, no. Oh no. You're not escaping your duty, love.

"Hyunda, I really think we sh----"

However, regardless of my worries, as I chased after him, he turned around one last time, and coldly replied in a harsh tone.

"Not now, Arkalee."

"..."

Okay, yeah, that's...

...

No.

"I'm not taking a no for this!"

"Arkalee, I'm not denying your offer, I just said for you to cool your head."

"Okay, but why would you tell me to cool my head if you don't plan on passing my offer? Actually, it's not an offer... Please take this seriously..."

"You're crying again..."

Naturally, I started to shed some tears as I held his sleeve tightly.

Even this fragile breeze didn't phase me quite as much as your words just now, love.

Thus, without any intent on being rejected, I argued back.

"I am crying for a reason, you know?! I don't really mind your cold-hearted words because I love you, but it's a different story when it comes to a serious topic like this! I want to make a family with you as soon as possible and so, again, I think we should start as soon as possible! Have sex with me!"

"Arkalee, don't be stupid. If you get pregnant in the middle of the program then I am extremely positive that you are out of it. And if you are out of it, then the child will die. Do you want that?"

"...No... But----"

"Furthermore, we can just wait. We will be together forever and so, we will have time. I understand your rush. What? Did you think that I wasn't thinking about it too?"

"Y-You were?!"

"Of course. Which is why you need to cool your head. Don't be irrational about your decisions."

"....Sorry..."

He's right.

If we decide to have our babies right now, then it will backfire. I see, I see.

You qualify more and more as a father, Hyunda! Not only are you rational about this but you can make me stable by making me see how rushed my decision is! In other words, you will always show support when I make the incorrect decision!

Ahhhh....!!

"By the way, where do you live? We are still meeting your parents, today, right?"

"Yes, we are!! In Osaka... It might take a while to get there though..."

Wait, wait. This is a big chance... Instead of telling him this, I will, instead...

"Wait, Hyunda, where do you live?! I want to meet your parents instead!"

"That's impossible to accomplish. Osaka it is. Let's catch a train."

"...Okay."

What did he mean by that? Impossible to accomplish? That statement can be far too open for interpretation.

That aside, as soon as we reached the bottom of the staircase and entered into the main city, we went to the nearest-by train station and took a train to Osaka.

Inside the train, almost at the end of the morning, we did have a particularly interesting conversation.

It all started when Hyunda decided to stop looking outside of the window and took a sharp glance at me, who was, of course, adoring his very existence.

"Arkalee, what do you want to do once you pass the program? At the end of these three years?"

Without any hesitation whatsoever, I answered back, with a big smile on my face.

"I plan on being your wife. Full-time!"

"Really? But that's a waste though."

"N-NO, it's not!"

Why would you say that?! Don't you know how much love I can give you and support you endlessly throughout your life...?

It gets hard to hold back my tears when you offend my feelings with that savage bluntness of yours...!!

"Wait, don't cry. I didn't mean to say what you think. I was just thinking about your future. Don't you want to be something outside of my wife?"

"No. Not at all. Being your wife, means being by your side, so I could not have any bigger dreams outside of that one!"

"But Arkalee, you should start thinking about a job that you like. In the future, I will need you to be someone who can also financially support our children. If we plan on having a lot of kids, then it's only the right measure to apply. I need your help, so to speak."

"Ah...! Of course, yeah, I plan on getting a job! Eventually, I will try my best and get pretty good academical knowledge regarding advanced subjects and advance to university. There, I will try my very best and grab a chance to cultivate a better future for our children! So thoughtful of you!"

I am so happy that you are thinking that far ahead, Hyunda.

Honestly, I wasn't joking that I planned on being your wife in the future but I will obviously have to get a job in order to help you financially support our family.

We should just hurry up and start our bloodline already! But I guess we will have to wait...

As I got happy yet sad, I took a glance outside of the window, reflecting on the current situation that had its ups and downs.

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"Arkalee, I think you should try and figure out what area you'd do best in."

"Ah, I think so too! Let's think about it together then!"

"Arkalee, don't think that what I am about to say is out of malice or anything of that sort, but it would be better if you did this on your own. You should do some solo research and figure out what sort of area is the best area. Because, I will not be with you in your job."

I don't agree with that at all, love. Also, even though you said that it's not out of malice, here you are, stupidly implying this abhorrent wicked idea of distance.

Therefore, I'll have to exemplify it to you, honey.

"Your job will be my job. We will be together, intertwined, connected, glued to each other respectively. Our choices should honestly just be the same at this point."

"Is that what you want to teach our children? Being dependent and not independent?"

"Well... No... But that's different, right? Because I'm talking about the two of us..."

"Sure, it's different. However, they will learn from us. Do you want to give our children that example?"

"No, I don't."

I'll admit, I'm clingy and very needy, however, I would like to give our children the will to be independent. I'm different in this case though.

What did you expect to happen, Hyunda? When you came into my life, being without you would automatically be the equivalent of death.

Nonetheless, there's only a copy of you and while I would love to remain optimistic about the possibility of our children in the future meeting such an amazing person as you, I know for a fact that there's only one Hyunda in this universe.

Henceforth, it's best to be realistic here...

"Okay, I get it. I'll make an exception for this. It's for the sake of implanting the correct ideology to our children. I will attempt to pursue a career that I, hopefully, can come to terms with!"

"Thanks, future mother. You know, don't you agree that it's wrong not to pursue this type of talk early on in romances, Arkalee?"

"Oh my god, yes! I think that in every early relationship that's meant to last forever and eternally, the two individuals should just discuss this ahead of time!!"

"Right? Oh, also, here is a suggestion. When the month of April starts, you should try and join some club based on areas that your future career's area might revolve around."

That does seem pretty helpful. It would help if I already knew where to start looking and given that all this time I've been obsessing over you, Hyunda, and I still plan on doing so until my being is dry, I believe that it's time to start taking that matter seriously.

So, in agreement, I spoke with sheer blissful enthusiasm to Hyunda.

"I agree with that suggestion! So, when do you want us to collectively start this task?!"

Sure, our jobs might differ in the future, but we will do it together regardless.

I swear, if I HEAR another nonsense about that distance stuff, I will throw myself out of this window right now!

"I see. So you are not fine with the idea of doing this alone?"

"I am glad you understand that. Be with me in this! It will be so much fun!"

"I don't want that though. I wanted you to seek this by yourself and for you to think about this for yourself. Because at this rate, you won't be able to make a decision without me."

"That's fine!"

This talk about not being around you is almost making me cry, love.

I. Don't. Want. To. Be. Without. You.

Understand that. Get that through your thick skull. You are my lifeline.

"Arkalee, you do know I care about you, right? I'm even speaking about our children's future."

"Yes! I'm aware, love! I also very much care about you! I love, love, love you!"

"I love you more. But, here is the thing. I want you to seek this by yourself."

"That again, love? Haha, no. Sorry."

"I see. One week then. Starting from April 1st."

??????

"W-What are you...."

"What's wrong, Arkalee? Is something bothering you?"

"Of course something is bothering me! You just said 'one week'! What did you mean by that?!"

Oh no.

No, no, no!!!

Don't tell me that you are actually suggesting something like that again! Please, never again, I beg of you, Hyunda!

Getting far and far more nervous within each second of silence that Hyunda created while aimlessly looking at the outside view that the ongoing train would present to him, my anxiety grew larger.

To the point where I started crying and clung onto his chest right away, thus erupting from it and looking at him in the eye closely.

"Please... You're not actually gonna say that are you?!"

"Oh. You're aware then. Well, since I love you and care for you, and ultimately since I have the duty of being kind towards you, I thought of holding my ruthlessness back and gave you some time to think about what I had implied with those words. It looks like you arrived at the correct conclusion."

"N-NO! You can't do this to me...!! That's not caring! That's evil, evil, and evil! Being away from you is evil! These last days were hell! Do you want me to go through that again for a week?! I'll suicide!"

"Arkalee, don't behave like that in public..."

"Why?! Oh, I see! Somehow, they just matter ever so more! Is that it?! Am I too much of a nuisance?! Well, I am sorry for loving you too much! Ah, everyone, don't worry, just a couple's quarrel! We actually love each other very much, so please kindly look away!"

Or else I'll kill every single one of you right here and now.

Though, after some murmurs, the rest of the passengers looked away transiently which allowed me to cling onto Hyunda ever so slightly in order to get back to the topic.

"Looooooook here. Look into my eyes, please!"

"That's what I'm doing."

It really sometimes bothers me how your facial expression shows literally zero emotion when you are inside a dramatic atmosphere.

Yet if we were to take a look at mine, a face full of tears, anxiety, sadness, depression, betrayal, and lack of love, you would see how hurt I am right now!

But you... just don't---

"Don't cry. I'm trying to make you more emotionally resistant but you always cry. Thank you though. I know how much you love to love. And that's why I'm serious. What's your choice?"

"Wow. Just wow."

After that poor choice of words, I stopped being so clingy and went back to my seat while seating on the edge of my seat, not looking to Hyunda.

"Arkalee?"

"Hmpf. I am mad right now. Yeah, you will have to deal with my mood. I'll make you actually care for once! You said that you wished for me to be more emotionally resistant?! Well, I want you to be more emotional! I'm not talking to you until you show me some actual emotion! Also, physical contact is forbidden!"

I refuse to be the only one that shows emotion in our relationship.

Hyunda, if you want me to change then you have to be willing to change too!

I want to see your emotional side!