At a moderate pace my computer hummed to life, or rather to enough power to support this fucking game. My God my computer sounded like a vacuum when this game ran. I couldn't fault it though. The game was gorgeous beyond belief, it was like looking through a window into the real world.

The real world with goblins, orcs, and everything in between. The real world with fairies, magic, and giant dragons whose breath could level a continent if you’re unlucky enough to induce their anger. As far as I was concerned for the past few years, this was my real world. This was the single thing I worked on, the thing I constantly improved, the thing I spend most waking hours of my life towards. This was.. home.

Days upon days were spent on that evil rogue of mine. I've known this world for about 4 years now, much to my surprise though, I didn't know every single detail if you could believe it or not. In fact, with the new character I’m creating, I was feeling very overwhelmed and not knowledgeable in the slightest. There was a sense of safety in Elzare, he was strong, powerful, and not many variables could mess with him anymore. Now as far as I was aware, the wind blowing could fuck me over at level 1 if I wasn't careful.

This game's map was massive, I only explored most of the elfs starting area, and the few neighboring "countries" and that's exactly how they felt anyway, huge.. I spent most my time in the game and I laughingly knew less than half, if that even, despite that I did almost get to max level, though it might've been because of my disposition to kill most things, even if I didn’t travel very far to find said things.

Now, with newfound resolve and intrigue, I was going into this world again, as a blonde beauty and protector of all. I was playing a human this time, a starting place I've never been to before flashed onto my monitor as I loaded in.

A bustling little village with children happily playing, green grass all around, trees as beautiful as could be, with leaves gently falling to the ground in a hypnotic sway. it was a wonderful place in my opinion. Only lacking thing was the buildings, very crude and not many at all, I suppose I could understand for a small village though.

I walked along the main dirt path, in awe of the world around me, I had a new mentality this time around, I wasn't looking to be the best now, I was in no rush, no trouble, simply there to enjoy the world, and that's exactly what I was doing. A young boy skipping along the path stopped in his tracks and stared at me in awe.

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I instantly knew why, I had spent the better part of 5 hours creating what I thought to be the most beautiful thing I could imagine, a noble goddess was probably his visual, albeit lacking in equipment department as my fence shield dangled off to my side. I stopped and gave the boy a smile emote which instantly turned him as red as a tomato as he ran off. Effective, I thought to myself.

Moving along down the road, I realized that my head was throbbing in pain. I let go of the mouse and closed my eyes thinking it was just my head playing tricks on me from being away from this world so long.

Boy was I wrong, pain beyond belief was drilled into my skull as I dropped to the floor from my chair. Blackness slowly embraced me as I felt what could only be described as my life force drain from me. Darkness.. Nothingness.

“Shh.. ” An oddly seductive but strange voice range over me from behind.

I was floating, I was in an abyss. Flashes of a red haired girl rang through my vision, have I seen her before? How many times have I dreamed of her? More brutality met my eyes, and sadness to her very core swept over me. She.. she looks like Rosie.

What will I do to Rosie!? Is this the future? I’ve just created her? No it can’t be, I chose blonde hair for her, the girl in front of me had blood red hair, that stood straight up like the horns of a demented devil. This was a psychotic bitch.

My precious Rosie will be kind, gentle, noble, protective and caring. She will save those in need, give to those without. I just want to sleep again, I just want to be able to eat a meal without it being forced back out. I want to know I’m not a murderer! I want to.. I just want to.. Die.

No more thoughts overcame me, just nothing. A complete and total abyss covered me. Staring at nothing for god know’s how long. I’m scared.. I want my mother, I want to be in my apartment, I want something! Anything to comfort me.. The flash of Elzares face, a bit older and disgruntled came into my view. Feelings of safety swept over me in waves.

Slowly I heard my breath regain itself, I could feel my lungs again, I wasn't nothingness anymore. How long was I out, I thought to myself. It felt like.. years to me, of just.. Floating, nothingness. Enjoying the feeling of my lungs returning to me, I slowly committed to opening my eyes.

What met me was the bright look of a young man with a clearly worried look on his face.