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Volume One Chapter 14: Preparing the Way

Volume One Chapter 14: Preparing the Way

 ***Warning***

Spoiler :

Just a reminder this chapter is probably very boring to most people (especially if they like action)  and dislike info dumps

Despite what I promised IT DOESN'T" CONTAIN A HATCHING SCENE!

Also because right now when I read some of the comments I have started to get into an increasingly bad mood...if I reply or comment to your posts...you may get offended (don't be surprised if you are not offended either I am unpredictable) I am putting this in because I have been feeling kinda stifled preventing myself to post really rude/mean comments...and I am worried that some might slip past my self control...so you have been warned.

oh yeah...let me know what you think and stuff...(if I didn't scare you off) I appreciate any comments you might make even if it is critical of this story (though I would prefer if you will be very specific of what is wrong if you give me criticism).

Preparing the Way

(The Same One: Now With More Hope)

(continued)

Once I reached my brother, I held back. I had managed to come out of my depths of despair but the effects still lingered I didn’t quite feel up to dealing with my brother. I had the instinctive knowledge, that if my brother made one little move towards me that ended up hurt me, I would shatter and fall back to the abyss.

Although it was not the first time I had felt weak, it was the first time that been aware of my weakness that much as well as the first time it had influenced me to the point where I had felt true terror about another person. And this person was someone I had thought previously was completely safe.

My brother however as soon as he ‘saw’ me in this spiritual pane, rushed towards me and enveloped me in his aura. (It was sort of like he was hugging me on a deeper level) when my mind managed to compute that no intentions to harm were forth coming I relaxed, and managed to take even more steps towards recovery.

Some of you reading (hearing?) this may be confused. Others may, through misunderstanding or because they completely lack empathy may find humor in it. Think that I am joking, greatly exaggerating or maybe that I am being “childish”.

I am not. In hindsight what had happened to me was simple. Although I had given things very little thought when my empath and emotional skills increased. They had a much stronger effect then I had realized. Maybe because I had spent so much time with infants not even ‘born’ infants that hadn’t really experienced much emotion beyond the shallow because they had not yet experienced life much. But I had no clue as to how those skill was affecting me.

In my past life I had been a bit sensitive to what others felt but as I was human I had no official skills. And what I had felt had not been much really just the slight almost knowledge of what that person was feeling or what that persons intentions were. I also didn’t really get myself involved with anyone and as a peasant a great deal of the kingdoms suppression effect was tamping down the emotions of commoners so that they didn’t feel as much.

So I had not any experience in dealing with so much emotion. I didn’t realize the warning signs as I watched my father die. I didn’t realize that trying to ignore the emotions I had been dealing with after his death would end up as a trigger effect that would slowly drag me down into that ‘tempest’.

I didn’t have the experience. And I didn’t even really realize what had exactly happened, until much later after much reflection and several instances of sudden insight when I witnessed similar (though lesser) events happening to others.

All I had felt then at that instant was increasing relief. Like being in a desert and suddenly receiving water being trapped in darkness and suddenly seeing the light.

Then when I realized that part of part of the emotions giving relief where coming from my brother. I wondered if what he had experienced when I had accepted his contact was anything similar to what I was feeling now.

I turns out I had been in that strange emotional and mental state for over a year. I theorize that it wouldn’t have been quite as bad if I hadn’t been in an egg or cut off contact with the other eggs but at the time I had felt that in the mood I was in I might have unintentionally hurt them or even worse so it had seemed reasonable to do that action which had so greatly contributed to my downfall.

It was quite amazing to me that my brother was able to figure out how to use his special talent to break into to my spirit/mind and reach me after only a year. I was so impressed that I suddenly grew quite concerned with the thought that he might have felt even a fraction of what I had felt.

But to my relief although he had impressively gotten pass all of my outer shields. I had closed my inner self off enough that according to him he hadn’t felt anything. He also said that the reason he was able to come so far in a year is after they realized something had happened to me, they had all worked together to come up with a way to get to me.

This made sense as my brother was too weak to reach me with his mind on his own so he had to have at least one other person supporting him while he broke into my outer mind. But I wondered somewhat why they had all bothered.

It shouldn’t have mattered as much to those other than my siblings. Especially sense all the protections I had put in place were self-sustaining and didn’t require me in order to exist. But I was really grateful to them, and so tried to pay them back somewhat by finding the most amusing images and fun other miscellaneous information that I could, to give to them.

Later after my hosted ‘party’ was over…and all of us seemed to be happy and relieved that I was back. My brother asked me to explain exactly what happened…and why I hadn’t contacted them.

I brought him into a more protected corner of the mental web I had created and tried to explain. I had already given him the basics on death. So part of the explanation was that a person I cared for had died.

He attempted to comfort me in his clumsy way and feeling my great love for him, before I could stop myself I mentioned that silly phrase my father had said in his last moments about “preparing the way”.

At the time that phrase had seemed to represent the whole inequality and injustice of my father’s life and death but I didn’t know how to explain that to him especially since I hadn’t told him about my past life. So I fell silent.

Then my brother took those words differently then what I had been trying to convey and said something along the lines of:

“Is that why you encourage us to go on and hatch without you? Not because you don’t want to be with us but because you want us to prepare the way for you?”

I was about to answer firmly in the negative when I had a second thought. I was indeed trying to get them to do what they wanted and hatch without me but they had continued through my brother to stubbornly refuse.

What if, however instead of just telling them to hatch I gave them a goal to work toward in the real world? If so maybe they would feel more secure and thus be more willing to feel free to hatch without me.

“Yes, in a way yes.” I answered

After this conversation as the main leader of the eggs my brother started to convince them of his new plan. They would hatch soon yes, but they would all hatch together at the same time, after all of them had ranked up at least once. And in the real world they would all stick together as a group, no matter who or where their parents were and together they would “prepare the way”, to make things easier for me.

My brother had seemed to have gotten inspired and he started working on the training methods I had given him harder than ever. Quite soon after this he ranked up a second time.

His second ranking was surprisingly a very dark colored blue, even darker then my color had been from what I could remember of me at that stage.Then soon after my other siblings, including my sister with the abnormal mind sensing abilities ranked up for their first time.

My sister was, as we could see from the minds of those who looked at her from the outside (as well my use of dream skills) was a bright yellowish green. The other two males of her triad were also green but of a more ordinary variety.

A few years or so after my siblings first ranked up, slowly but surely one by one the others in the eggs also started to rank up. So far besides one male ranking up to a very light blue, the rest were also various shades of green.  

Then soon after the majority of the others ranked up, my brother ranked up to an even darker purplish-grey-blue and my sister ranked up into a shocking shade of bright violet that was closer to pink. The only thing that had changed had been the hue, her shade had maintained its great vibrancy.

Stolen story; please report.

My brother even more desired to hatch now, and many of the other eggs did as well. They were very curious about the outside world and slowly many activities were beginning to become boring for some especially for the more intelligent ones.

But they were determined to stick to the plan and there were still several stragglers that hadn’t ranked up yet. Knowing how annoying it is to have nothing to do, I recommended to my brother that he and the others work on making it so that most mind mages would be unable to read their minds.

That way they would be able to keep the promise they had made to me not so long ago, even if a mind mage attempted to read their minds. There were also other skills they could practice or develop while still in the egg that had various user in the real world

After that my brother and the other eggs began to train and practice on a much large skill and with all of them involved. Especially when I gave my theories that most of them would lose their ability to communicate psychically when they hatched, and my other theory that they may be able to retain it if they managed to get those sorts of skills to a high level.

While my siblings and ‘friends’ were all busy I decided to overcome my fears and take another look at my past life’s family. I am not sure exactly what brought me to that state previously but as it wasn’t a fatal outcome and I was prepared and would be cautious this time I felt confident enough to be able to look.

Before I dream walked I turned my notifications back on deciding that later if I had the time I would read over all the ones I had missed while in that…eh…”state”.

To my surprise my mother was still alive though she looked the most sickly that I have ever seen her. Her current eldest son had become officially the head of our rather large family and the main owner of the inns they owned.

I was happy to watch them busy taking care of the inn and although several times I felt sad about the lack of my father’s presence. The livelier atmosphere and rougher family dynamics were interesting enough to distract me, and I didn’t go anywhere near the state I had been in before.

Then a few months after watching over her again she took to complete bedrest. My mother unlike my father wasn’t exactly cold to me, however as said she had been much younger then my father and since she had married him, she had carried a baby a year.

In fact around the time of my death, she had been pregnant once again and even for a few years after my death this had continued. Always having at least one human being at various life stages including toddler and infanthood, not to mention the housework the garden and the occasional field work she participated in she was a very busy woman who understandingly had very little time for me.

She didn’t have any time for any of her children once they were old enough to take care of themselves she couldn’t afford to. And once I and my siblings had gotten old enough we had to take care of some of the slack by watching over those weaned and younger than us.

My father had taken myself and most of the rest of my brothers that were strong enough aside and had taught us how to do various chores. While my sisters had followed my mother around and attempted to copy what she did or watched over the younger siblings while the men were working.

Even if I had been alive when they had bought the inn from what I observed she would have had even less time for me. And my father when he didn’t have something to mend at the inn would be off helping his friends with their fieldwork.

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So I wasn’t completely surprised when now that her children and grandchildren had taken over her work for her and she had nothing to do she showed a most kind and nurturing side that had been probably smothered by her busyness before.

Then on her death bed I saw a scene a bit different from my father’s. Unlike his where only my siblings and she had been at his side because he had hinted multiple times that he liked quiet.

Not only were ‘all’ and I mean all my siblings and relatives there but also a few gaggles of noisy grandchildren and cousins which she didn’t seem to mind at all.

She also seemed much more peaceful and less miserable then my father did despite seeming much sicker and weaker. And now and then she would quietly chat to whomever was standing watch by her side.

Then just before she died she said. “Your father is doing our duty as a family taking care of the master, so I feel that I can afford to decide to do what I desire. I wish to to continue to take care of all of you, unfortunately it seems this will soon be no longer possible in this world.

So while your father prepares a place in the next world for the master, I shall be trying to discover how to prepare the way for all you loves no matter what the next life entails.” Thus one of the greatest amazing women I have ever met passed on from this world and possibly even beyond others.

Unlike at my father’s death there was a lot more noise as almost everyone was crying loudly if not silently.

If I had been able to cry in the egg I would have, and this time I allowed the sensation of sadness to go through me and I mourned not only her, but also my father and my long lost past life in a most pure and sincere way.

After comparing what comparing what all three people had said about “preparing the way” my father, my mother and my brother. I realized the words had a much deeper meaning then what I had thought initially, and I decided in order to truly and sincerely accept my new life, I must not think of my past life with regrets but as something that had prepared the way for this life.

Then a status update appeared

You have successfully overcome a ‘Crucible of Emotional Tempest’

Level up! +1…

Emotional and Empathy skills Level up! +1…

+You have unlocked a subskill: status check (emotional)

+You have unlocked a skill: Equilibrium

+Your resistance to emotional pain has increased

+Your control over emotions has increased

+a class change option is now available

Status check (emotional)

It is not just others that an empath must empathize with, but most importantly their self.

Now you can check your current emotional state in your status and take precautions to avoid going into a state of instability again.

Equilibrium(passive)If one sensitive emotions, feels too much or too little they may go out of balance and cause damage to their self and possibly others

* helps one to maintain one's balance even in the event of sudden large emotional changes

* +5% emotional resistance

* +10% increase in willpower

Level one

Class Change Option: EmpathOne who is sensitive to emotions or who is able to influence the emotions of others can be considered an empath, but only one who has control on when and where such ‘gifts’ happen is able to work professionally as an empathEmpathy and Emotional Skills Increase faster and are more effective

Some social and magic skills will increase faster are more effective

Willpower and Charisma stats increase

+50% resistance to personal emotional backlash

+20% resistance to the negative effects of the emotions of other people

+70% resistance to any attacks that affect the emotional state of the target

+new skills available

+class tree and class evolution and skill options become available

Main branch basic class does not prevent you from learning most other skills and classesDo you want to change class to [Empath]?

***WARNING***

Know that you won’t be able to change your class or add a new class or subclass until a predetermined time after hatchingYes?No?

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Update: I had thought I had already written this update but it seems I had forgotten? Well for anyone who hadn't read my comments where I explained my self let me just say my comments in the spoiler are mainly because the combo from writing these sorts of emotions as well as my own personal life lead my extreme negative personality to act up and for my self control to slip a bit. So sorry if anyone got offended or even just disliked them, and thank you to all of those who wrote supportive and encouraging comments! You really perked me up. :D