Ten Years Totaled
(So sad, still no name)
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After choosing the [no] option once again, I then returned to my various activities. Looking over what I have told you so far, it doesn’t really seem to truly show my busyness. Thinking about the lack of details eventually leads me to wonder if I have left a somewhat bad impression.
For example, I wonder if I am misinterpreting myself as someone lazy. If from the way I speak, that you are somehow getting lost under that or other false impressions. Perhaps you even feel that I am gaining too many results from only minimal effort.
I wondered this especially now after I have revealed how I used my brother to interact with others in my stead. Because I came to the conclusion that I am also revealing even more bad sides to my personality, even if some of them are false.
While I am not sure about what kind of person I am. (Who can, in truth, judge someone else let alone themselves?) I do know that, in general this is because of my faults. I am not quite portraying myself quite as acuretly as I should.
It’s not that I am misrepresenting myself on purpose. I as usual, without thinking things through haven’t given you that much real information about who I am or what I am doing. Most likely, this lack of information is the biggest contribution towards your probable misinterpretations.
I think when “She” came to me with that request. For me to tell my story, this is not what “She” had in mind, for “Her” purposes, but as I am doing the best I can. I know that “She” will definitely forgive me. (It is also probable that "she" will come after me, to clean up all the mistakes I am making).
Yet, despite knowing she doesn't mind and in fact expects such work. I am hesitant to act in that way. I think a possible compromise would be to write down things in more detail. This has the potential to be much less work for "Her". Then with much more ease, "She" could re-purpose my words. So that they will sound so much better, despite myself.
As implied and said, I haven’t talked about myself much. This is on the whole because I don’t understand what kind of person I am. And or how to best describe the little I do know.
Most of the time I am just putting down as much information as I can, as quick as I can. I tend to do this while trying not to think about it (to increase my ability to do this at all).
But it is for this reason that I am able to consider the possibility of success. Or rather the idea, that I am accomplishing more then I think I am. Still I worry that it is not enough for “Her”. Perhaps because some of the reasons for avoiding talking about myself. In my opinion is for other reasons that are much simpler and even shameful.
This shameful reason is boredom. Boredom which results from the fact that I have already lived through it before. It is difficult especially to go through it all again. Particularly because at the same time I am trying to edit and censor myself. So with great hope you who are experiencing this are not getting lost. Just because you are facing by a bunch of gibberish…
So it is Probable that just like right now... (It seems I have gotten off track again (sigh) such an easy thing to do).
Allow me to once again start over. I, not wanting to think of myself as unreasonable, selfish, lazy. Or one who is gains without reasonable hardship. Will share a bit of the details of what I have been doing these past few years.
First of all. Until somewhat recently. I had spent most of my time taking of and teaching my brother. Then after I almost finished the greatest amount of his education that I was willing to do. (At least the amount I am willing for now, while we are still in the egg). My brother started taking “students” of his own. So once again I am flooded with free time.
So I decided to do the same things I did before the brother situation. … Actually now that I think of it. There were so many things I was doing that I had forgotten some of it. (At least as much one such as I can “forget”)
Now I with great feeling think to myself that I should manage my time better. I don’t think I can continue talking about what happened with any ease. Especially since it is over such small portions of time.
Since that now that I have the opportunity. I will continue the attempt of trying to summarize all the new information. Information which I have continued to gain without stop. Going back from since the time I had first regained consciousness 10 years ago.
Most of what I do in an ordinary day is sleep. But with my various skills. When I sleep I am not just sleeping but training and working to learn various things.
It was shortly after I grasped the language of my new people. Along with some basic spells. That I decided to stop learning from my people while still in egg. Because if I avoid learning “everything”. When I finally do hatch I would still have plenty to learn from the direct sources person.
Since then I have been spending most of my time traveling the world. As it is through a dream, every time I “wake up” into sleep I am usually in a random place.
It only if I focus. And only if I have traveled to the location that I want to go to before. (Either now through dreams or in my past life) that I am able to choose “where” to be. The default is random. But even with that to me this is still useful. As with every new place I enter while I dream, there is another option available for me to choose from in the future.
While I am dream walking there is almost no danger. Most dream versions of worlds (Or at least those that I know of) are according to fact. Can not affect reality in any direct way. (Though I have certain spells that I can use to bypass this).
It is simple. Dream walking is, as spelled out in the name, in the end is just dreaming. That is not to say, that what I see is all lies(dreams). Because dream walking is also different from ordinary dreaming. In that it is a form of “true dreaming”.
To supplement dream walking’s ability to see the truth. Before I start I focus especially on wanting the truth. And I do this every time I cast the spell. Which I do before every time I choose sleep.
What is the dream world if it is not the actual world? It is (how should I say this?) it is an imprint. An imprint, that reality makes on a layer of substance. And this layer exists between reality and dreams.
(Dreams are another version of reality that souls with an unstable body fixation see. Which usually happens when a person sleeps).
The substance the layer consists of, is a strange sort of energy or material. It is a material that is neither magic nor emotions. But it is probable that it is one that contains a mixture of both.
When reality touches and “imprints” on this layer. It creates sort of, another version of the reality that has touched it. I think to best describe it would be to say that reality is a big foot. Dreams are the soft ground made up of clay that the foot sinks into. The “layer” is the concrete that fills the mold left behind by reality leaving. In time this mixture “hardens?” and forms the dream world.
Now this process isn’t something that happens now and then, but uncountable times. This is because it happens each time almost any person sleeps. Because their soul is no longer stuck to their body with perfect strength. Thus explaining the lack of lag in the amount of time between dream and reality.
This also show cases the main disadvantage of dream walking. (And other forms of dream travel). Because the majority of a dream world consists of sleeping people. (The definition of person is someone with a soul). If there is a place you and no one else has been before. You can’t get to it through dreams. There is also another smaller disadvantage.
If you spend too much time dream walking, soon experiencing “normal” dreams becomes impossible. Or any other kinds of dreams too unless one it's forced on you through magic.
There are many more advantages that make up for these disadvantages. For example it costs no energy to do (in fact it tends to be refreshing). Getting anywhere is almost instantaneous. While I don’t use it often, as I am not the type to care much about such things. There is a rare dream walking ability that can turn parts of dreams into reality.
One somewhat common example is to create renditions of the past through dreams. In reality master level illusions can’t even come close to the details and beauty.
Something done is often comes from the idea: if you can’t go to a place that doesn’t exist or know of. You still have the ability to make your own “version” of that world exist and travel to it.
If you reach a certain mastery in dream walking. You can gain the ability to dream while you are awake. Part of that is having one foot in more than one realities. If you do something in the dream world while in this state it will also effect reality. I currently had a little bit of skill in doing this. (I could somewhat move things about and other small things).
I admit that I would often use this ability for mischief. Often I would play “tricks” on people I discovered that I disliked. However to make up for it, I would also “gift” those I found that I was at least am humored by.
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One time after coincidentally seeing a snobbish man do something I took objection too, I followed him around for days (his time) and when no one was looking or would notice I would do minor things like move his chair slightly so he would fall when he sat back down. Move his ink wells a bit so that when he moved slightly they would fall into his lap…
One of my personal favorites was, one time when he was trying to impress a woman I arranged a certain piece of ground to move slightly so that instead of doing the graceful hand kiss he was planning, he slipped and fell into a nearby pond.
Another time after I had witnessed a most heart wrenching scene between of a pair of orphans. I got a random stray to carry a basket full of food and get them to chase it all the way to a nice family that has always wanted a child but could never think of getting one through any way but fate.
Now and then I feel, someone sensitive to other realms would try to contact me. I would avoid them until they left me alone. Not much later on I was able to come up with better shielding that made it no longer a problem.
My shields were already somewhat top notch for everything in the dream world already. While I have said that in general the dream world is safe. And usually for the majority of people for the majority of time it is. There are still some hidden dangers that do exist.
The more time spent in the dream world. The greater the increase in risk in coming into contact with these dangers.
As I mentioned you can create things in this world. A world of dreams is also in a sense a world of nightmares. As a dream is exactly the same as a night terror the only difference being the levels of emotion.
Nightmares are so much more powerful, that in an attempt to raise my skills in empathy. I sought out the nightmares on my own initiative. In an attempt to gain their experience. A task I failed.
Probably because unfortunately my mental strength was too high, to enter one by mistake. All nightmares but those “god” strength in level don’t seem to affect me. And the gods haven’t felt much like sleeping for some reason.
Besides the “fun” I have dream walking. What I do the most often is practice manipulating my magic. Back in my past life besides the fact that my magic was illegal and I had no teacher. There wasn’t enough time! Thus while I was a natural at using it, I never much got to practice or experiment to see what I could do. During that life whenever I used magic I was flying by the seat of my pants. (Things were never planned out or chosen).
But now that I had about endless time. I spent a good majority of it practicing the things I already know instinctively. Then by working on understanding the things I learned from other sources. This was so that one day maybe I could also understand them. I hoped in the same way or at least a similar version of the way I invented through instinct.
When I got bored of magic, I would create myself a fake body. And using Dream Traveling I would fight various phantom enemies with a sword. I know that I am a dragon, but who knows when something might come in handy? Besides why use magic at all, if you are not going to use it to try shape-shifting at least once?
I couldn't find a decent and safe version. But I am sure there is someone out there somewhere. Who I can learn or steal that kind of technique from.
In the end nonstop fighting gets boring even for me. Especially as my only opponent is myself. And in my unborn (unhatched) state there are many limitations. One is I can’t the penalty that I see or interact with other living beings in the dream world.
An exception to my current no interaction rule. I think this is because I am going to the dream realm on a deeper level than them. A fact I feel that has high probability to do with my lack of a useable body. As I am currently in the state of being in the hibernation of hibernations.
As for the dead, because I have the holy element most of the “dead” avoid me. As I can kill them with ease and they can’t kill me. And I am not yet strong enough to go against the gods and send them to the afterlife.
It is clear that these dead are ones that wish to avoid reincarnation. It is also possible that they fear godly punishment. Don’t wish to forget their memories. Or have too much attachment to the world.
Some may want to avoid reincarnation for other reasons. But as I could not figure out what those were. As all dead with this goal would always immediately rush towards the layer. And then try and force their way through. Some seemed to manage it. While others failed, ensnared by strange golden nets and dragged away to somewhere. Seeing such a scene felt odd, as I had a strange sense of familiarity.
There were a few other dead that didn’t run away. But no matter what I tried it was like there was a thick wall between us and I couldn’t speak to them. Some of them even seemed like they would want to talk to me…but it was impossible…
Some of you may be wondering what I look like…right now. Well as I can’t technically see myself. And I don't want to go through the bother experimenting in order to be able to, I don’t know.
In the dream world as far as I can tell, I take the form something similar to my mental appearance. Which consists of a strange, illusionary glowing ball that casts shadows. That looks to be made of light and darkness.
Occasionally, usually when I am trying to communicate, I take the form of my past self. As this is the dream world that deals with souls not bodies it is rather easy to do.
It doesn’t seem to help me in communicating better at all. However for a few rare weaker souls it lessens their fear a bit. Probably because that form is a non-threatening one.
Speaking of my past’s life’s form. I forgot to tell you of one other thing that I often did these past ten years. And that is spying on the “remnants” of my past life.
Well…interesting things to speak of…oh yeah! Shortly after hero’s companion died of old age, leaving him vulnerable. He got caught by one of his female followers and was forced marry her. I remember laughing for days after I witnessed what happened. It was so humorous that sometimes even now. When I let out a random giggle it is because I am remembering what happened.
That female wasn’t a naive or innocent person, oh no. Though she had the face of an angel and the body of a youthful guileless girl. Her heart was made of ice and her eyes were made out of golden coins. Plus her mind craved ambition and she was slier then a trickster fox.
Unluckily for you. Every time I try to write down this epic experience. I end up laughing so hard that it becomes impossible to write. Suffice to say she had planned the whole thing out weeks and advance. When it came time for her to execute the plan. She did it most carefully and methodically. Step by step like a chess master or a grand strategist.
Maybe one day in the future I will remember to write it down when I am in an extremely morose mood. [FP: side story anyone?]
My brother begged me to tell him what was so amusing. But since there was a lot of adult humor involved I was sure that he wouldn’t understand. So I told him to ask me when he was older and hatched. But he will probably forget by then, right?
But to continue this woman succeeded quite without much hassle. (In truth though I thought it made for great entertainment. Most of the insurance she took was probably unnecessary. Hero is so stupid after all. Then again he did somehow manage to remain single for a long time despite the odds. So maybe she knew something I didn’t) and was rewarded? By becoming hero’s bride, their first child was born 2 years after that.
Around this time. Most of my old family that had been children had grown up. (Even some of the new ones that were born shortly before my death).
Most of them were married if they hadn’t been already. As now as a natural result I have many nieces and nephews.
In other news it seems that I have become sort of a family legend. I have seen my name used as bragging material many times.
Some of my more silver tongued relatives, decided to change the story a bit. With a few tweaks I became a model kingdom citizen and perfect hero’s companion. Then they hung up the portrait of a most handsome guy in the bar of their inn. It was supposed to portray my image. (But it looks nothing like me). I believe that the primary purpose of this act is a gimmick to get in new customers.
From the few glimpses I got of the pope. It seems that old age is finally catching up to him despite his powerful holy magic.
(I admit it) the weaker he looks the more curious and eager for him to die. So I can see if the deal comes through. If immortally is in his future.
So that is just a bit of what happened in these 10 years. Oh except one other thing -towards the end, after a lot of magic practice in dream land…:
Rank up! You are now a red colored dragon!
+25 to all stats
Your color current color means that your affinity to fire has increased
Do you want to bring up Hatching Option?
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This chapter is not really completely finished yet but I am having more difficulty then I thought,"fixing" it so I decided to just put up this somewhat unpolished version first and then later I will upload the more polished version. You guys may not have noticed but now and then I upload corrections to all my chapters...so this is nothing new...I am just being more obvious/open about it this time
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I am kind of sorry all I have to give you guys is "this" and a not that great "this" at that. But as I was thinking, it is either "this" or nothing at all and if I were you I think I would want something rather than nothing.
But there is hope! After one more chapter (possibly two) we will finally get to the action! :)
Update:
As said before this chapter isn't 100% done and I am having trouble fixing it to "be good". So if you have any suggestions or ideas to make it better please share :)
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