HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
God damn, a year has already passed? How emotional! It feels like I blinked and then bam, 2024 is already here.
Honestly, this year had its ups and downs, plenty of downs for me, but that’s what makes life life, right?
I made plenty of bad decisions this year, many of which stems from the months of September to December. Sigh, what a wacky four months that was. I got into my first talking stage, my first mu/situationship thingy, and now I’m also kinda in a talking stage/kind of not because of some shenanigans so honestly, ROMANCE IS EXHAUSTING but FUN.
Okay, I’ll admit I was in the wrong regarding the fucked up situations I had experienced with romance, so boohoo, I was stupid. Shut up, I don’t care, I do care, but I don’t care.
Anywho, I also lost a dear friend who has departed, and would soon lose another dear friend once I graduate from high school. It’s kind of scary to think that I’ll be in college soon in a few years, but that’s just the inevitability of things. At least very few would know of my bad reputation once I enter a new university.
Sigh, if I didn’t have this bad of a reputation, I’m pretty sure more people would have a crush on me in my batch.
On the topic of crushes though, I currently know four people who had developed feelings for me this school year so that’s pretty ego boosting. Like, what in the heck??? It feels like yesterday when I was met with the most disastrous first rejection ever in my life and now I probably have to do a second rejection in the foreseeable future (or repeat a mistake and lead someone on again because I’m just too friendly. Sorry for being so friendly, okay?)
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Is this a sign that I’m perhaps above average in terms of looks? Probably yes.
Anyways, my writing experience this year has definitely improved a lot and I learned a lot about developing characters, world building, and developed my writing quiet well. Oh god, I just panicked because I thought my laptop’s q key got fucked up but turns out there was just some junk under it.
Continuing on, Fortune Stealer has been a wonderful learning experience. Writing so many reoccurring characters really helped me with writing characters in general and that definitely translated into my current progress with Zenith.
So yeah, this year in terms of overall progress has been okay. Like, not just in writing but life in general. Like, I’m not some bitchless loser who hasn’t felt the touch of a woman their whole life anymore and that one week of pure bliss was a life changing experience for me. It changed my whole mindset and now I am afraid of commitment and would probably only get into situationships for the rest of high school, and only if I ever felt the need for romance which I don’t since I’m unfortunately a demiromantic, a being nerfed by fate
Maybe I should really just make a first move on others and flirt with them for fun, but I ain’t risking that shit with my already bad reputation.
Lastly, New Year Resolutions:
Practice art (yep, as in like drawing).
Learn the handstand (no more bitching out of this one)
Talk to strangers/make the first move (mostly because I want to overcome the fear of talking to random people I find attractive)
And that’s pretty much it I think.
Fuck, writing, art, and social skills. Sigh, I really gotta develop my social skills.
But yeah, that’s all folks. See you around when Zenith is finally published this January.
And don’t worry, I’ll return to this novel once I finish writing Zenith. That’s gonna take a long while though so be patient, okay?
Love you all, I secretly hope there’s more plot twists this year so I get into more wacky romanctic experiences, that’s all.
SAYONARA MOTHERFUCKERS! GO ENJOY YOUR LIFE THIS YEAR BECAUSE I SURE AS HELL WON’T WITH ALL THIS WRITING (I HATE BRAUN ALREADY).