Zel Pov

As I go to leave, the girl at the front flags me down, motioning towards me with her lithe hand. “I thought you would be one of those bookworms that I’d have to kick you out when we closed tonight by the look of you.” I blush, thinking that's exactly what would have happened if I didn't need to get a breather from the thoughts that the diary elicited from me.

“Oh uhhh sorry to ruin your expectations of me, I just needed to get some sun and I'm sure I’ll be back inside in no time wan!” I'm not going to lie to the girl, I guess she must have been here a while to see what kind of girl I am… Is that how Lilia see’s me?... She has called me her little nerd a few times, not that I don't enjoy it heh

“I'm glad I’m not wrong then, been here 10 years and can spot the massive bibliophile from the ‘oh shit I need to know this one specific thing and then never visit again’ kind of people. I’m Jay, came over here to be a librarian, then realized that just meant letting people in since the library Core takes care of everything hah. At least it means all I have to do is sit down and read everyday with the slight interruptions for visitors” She shrugs, I can tell she loves her job… who wouldn't, getting paid to sit and read sounds amazing. With an entire library at my disposal… ugh! I have to pull myself back before I start to drool.

“I'm ZelAwoo, you can call me Zel wan!” I bow and she waves me off, as she does she picks up a book with a teacher on the front with a whip in her hands, on the cover are the words ‘Horny teacher teaches a lesson she won't forget!’ Damn… that's my kind of book! I wonder if it's from the position of the teacher or the student… I really hope it's from the student! I make a mental note to ask her when I get back where the extra copies of it are.

The sun is shining on my fur making me feel warm and fluffy on the outside and inside. Near the library I find a nice patch of grass to sit on, I can smell the salty air from nearby. It's sort of tantalizing… I'm tempted to take a walk to the docks but I do really have some things I need to do… I pull out the Bloodline crystaI and hold it in my hands, it’s body temperature to the touch but also… fuzzy?... It reminds me a little bit of the moth lady, her beautiful fuzzy light fur, maybe more like a fuzzy carpet than fur?... She was sad when she died… but not just for herself… she couldn't save her friend… I was able to save Lilia at least, or more like she saved me and I saved her, I push on the Crystal and activate it, it gives one last warning.

< Are you sure you want to use this Bloodline Crystal? > I mean I know it's moth related and I love moths! How bad could it be? I click yes and the Crystal shatters into tiny motes of light that remind me of how the celestial moth disappeared when she died.

< You have been bestowed the Lineage of the Enlightened Celestial Moths >

< Beginning Character changes >

< Unable to log-out until such time that changes are finished >

< Thank you child of the wolf >

What?? I swear I just heard that moth ladies voi-AAAAAAAHHH The feeling of thousands of shocks go through my system as I’m knocked sideways. Clutching my stomach I feel as if my entire being, body, and mind are being torn apart. The feeling of an increase in space inside my skull along with the sound of tiny fluttering wings. I lean over and start to vomit out whatever could be considered in the stomach of this character. Whatever it is, it’s inside me, every part of my body is in an inferno of pain as well as glacial hell. Why is the game tormenting me like this?! I just wanna be a pretty moth giirrrllll!!! Blllaagghhhh Red shining blood in the sun comes out of my pores and mouth as I feel it dribble down my entire body, bathed in blood I can only hope no one sees the monstrous thing the game is doing to my body.

It continues and continues, all I can do is wish for it to go quicker. At one point in my desperation I get a message from fifi.

< You can do this, once it's done you will be even more amazing >

I laugh weakly, what even does that mean?! My own cute monotone doll is pushing me through… If I can't log out she probably can't even force log me like Fia did with Lilia… I’m so fucking glad she isn’t here to see this!! My precious cow would be a crying mess watching me struggle.

After what feels like forever but records as 20 minutes of fiery, icy, burning, continuous, indescribable pain as my body is torn limb from limb again and again in as metaphorical a sense as I can describe… It ends. I didn't even realize it at first, my teeth clenched together so hard that my gums were being pushed outwards, my tongue pushed to the side of my mouth so as to not bite it again and cause myself more pain.

I flop onto the ground and look around me at the pool of blood I've conjured around myself. With a sigh, I pull out a small notebook and cast a create water spell… or at least I try too… I see that my stamina and mana are completely empty. I can only lay there in the warmth of the sun, drying the nasty blood around me, fucking terrific…

I hope Lilia and Keeks are having a better day… I mean… I know for sure Lilia is, I'm looking forward to Lilia in 8k video getting taken advantage of tonight, we can watch it in bed and make out together… All I can do is daydream while I wait for my resources to refill. After a bit of a wait they finally refill to about half way. I let the torrent of water splash over me as I try and scrub what I can of the blood out… Why didn't I get one of the cleaning spells?… Ugh, the only reason I just got create water was because I thought it would be more fun to scrub off together in the water… stupid gay brain!

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I stand up and take stock of myself. The first thing I notice is that my blue fur now has a silver tinge to it, it's also more… see through? Not less hair, just lighter, I can see that it's nice and bushy and good to hold onto, I check my notifications and see that a few new ones had appeared while I was barely conscious.

< Gained Active Ability - Reformation - Racial >

< Gained Active Ability - ???? - Racial >

< Gained Passive Ability - ???? - Racial >

< Gained Passive Ability - ???? - Racial >

Oh… oh I see how it is, can't just throw a girl a nice bone after all that goddamn pain, ya have to make it all mysterious and shit! Ugh… fuck I love a mystery but after that I could at least have had one of the passives revealed as well… Fuck. I'm just not in the mood after all that.

< Gained Bloodline - Lineage of the Enlightened Celestial Moths - 1 of 2 Unique >

Lineage of the Enlightened Celestial Moths

Effect:

+10 Intelligence

+10 Wisdom

-3 Strength

-3 Dexterity

-3 Constitution

+2 Luck

‘You have been imbued with the Bloodline of the enlightened celestial moths, bring hope to Iselgurd and the world beyond, don't let the light go out, the moon always watches and waits even if they are not in the sky.’

Holy fucking mother of moth eggs all my good stuff up and the stuff I dont care about down?! That's just… chef’s kiss! I mean on top of the mysterious abilities, not that I know what exactly they do, but surely they can't be bad?... Even if I did just have to deal with excruciating pain. My head is still a little foggy from coming back from such torment, I feel like a new wolf!

Reformation - Racial - Active Ability

Become the celestial light and scatter to the winds.

Uhh okay that's super vague… I activate it, hesitatingly, and get ready for anything to happen… except it doesn't… It definitely says it's activated… Maybe I have to do what Lilia does and think about changing things OH GODS!

I focus on my body and feel my entire self shift. I look down and see countless small flutterings of moths leave my body, leaving nothing behind where I just was. My legs are fucking gone! I feel where they are though. Thousands of small silvery moths floating in the air, I can feel each one down to the singular moth. I try and focus on one of them and nudge it gently with my mind, it moves to my rhythm, it gets further away until I’m suddenly wracked with intense pain that shudders through the rest of the moths as if they were my body itself… which In this case I guess they are?...

I imagine my body coming back together and it does just that, the small moths pushing back together, smooshing until my legs are where they were. Holy fucking shit! It's experimenting time! The blood that was covering my legs before seems to have been absorbed by the moths, my clothes becoming part of them as well, giving countless possibilities of the fact that the moths could also be my clothes as well. So I could possibly change them into whatever clothes I want? It feels… wrong, just a little bit, moths are supposed to eat clothes not become them hah!

I sit down with my legs crossed and try to feel my whole body, my eyes, clothes and I have a sense of distance with myself, like every part of my body is a hivemind of tiny wings, fluttering slowly. I imagine a center within me… and push out. The impact to my psyche as my entire body, limbs, brain, heart, thoughts, explode into what feels like millions of sentient pieces, my whole world expanding. Instead of seeing with 2 eyes I see with countless, my whole being is now eyes to compensate for the loss of my vision as I can now see in 360 degrees around myself.

I promptly pass out.

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Ping!

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Ping!

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Ping!

Fuck my head… what… was I doing?... Oh right I became a moth… uhh lots of moths… maybe too many moths? I’ve really got to test my limits, I see that I’ve received a bunch of messages from Lilia and Keeks. The sun is nearly fully gone, shit… Well there goes my library time, I check the messages.

< Hey love haven't heard from you so I hope your not going too hard, I’m at the docks now with keeks, she's mad I didn't invite her, my poor ass, need you and love you, see you soon >

< WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME LIL WAS GETTING FUCKED?! I COULD HAVE HELPED!! >

Oh shit I must have been out a while, completely ignoring Keeks I quickly message Lilia back.

< I’m sorry love I had the most fucked thing happen, uhh I used the white crystal, I’m all good so don’t worry about me, just uhh lost consciousness for a bit hehe, love you and I’ll head over there now! >

I make sure I’m not covered in blood, apparently using scatter is just a new way of using the clean spell. I make sure my ‘clothing’ is adjusted and head off to the docks, my head starting to clear. A fluttering of wings at the back of my mind that I'm not completely sure is my imagination or something I will just have to deal with from now on.

Either way, two lovely ladies that I adore await.