Chapter 8: My Transformation

The hot bath in my sister's room.

From the very beginning, she was rubbing my nether regions so lewdly, even though there's nothing at all; the same with my chest.

If only she didn't act so creepily, I would be seriously turned on.

My sister's boobs were coated with soap, rubbing against my back and we both sat on the stool. I eyed Thea, who smeared lotion all over her body, stroking her sensitive parts as she stretched her body and letting out blissful moans; the glistening texture her skin truly gets me going.

"Naughty girl, you have this beauty with you yet you still eyed another woman. I have to pu-ni-sh-you!"

Sis, I know you're the prettiest girl I've ever seen, but when you're like this, it wouldn't turn me on.

Maybe since I wasn't an M or simply not in the mood, I didn't really get aroused with her advances. It's a pity I couldn't even get my voice out even after I strained it.

"Che."

Sis cutely pouted and immediately lost interest; at least she still washed me thoroughly. Nevertheless, the pleasant sensation from before had gone; albeit her gentle touch still filled me with glee.

She quickly went to where Thea was and sexually harassed her.

Dipping my almost loli body inside the tub, I let out a small moan while I enjoyed myself with my precious eye candy.

"Ahhnn..."

I still couldn't form words yet; only simple grunts and moans.

It was delightfully pleasant to see my sis and Thea pressing their breasts together and fondling each other; they even french-kissed in the bath for quite long. The sensation of hot water loosening up my muscles was so relaxing; it's like I'm seeing a scenery from my dreams.

I'm curious about the magic pen, but the moment I opened my mouth and try to strain my throat:

"A...a....u..."

It hurts somewhat.

That perverted couple didn't seem to notice me either, so I went back to the living room. The change of clothes was already prepared in my sister's bed. I lazily wiped my body and remembering the pleasant scenery about two big-breasted girls making out, feelings of jubilation flooded in.

There was something like a white t-shirt which read: Yuri is love, Yuri is life, with elegantly curved words printed. There are also short grey pants; I thought sis totally going to make me wear a skirt.

Yet, when I saw there are small girl panties with a cutesy bear picture in it, I felt the need to scream. Even with my current appearance, I was much older than you thought

I'd wish the undergarments were something more of a risque underwear or the frilly pantsu that goth lolis would like. On a second thought, lewd undies—so embarrassing.

There was surprisingly no bras present. Maybe because I do not need them yet or probably won't need them; the same with all the girly clothes.

It'd be a shock to everyone, if I turned out as a boy, regardless of their wishes. Chances are, if that's the case, they would hate me. I didn't want to hate myself either if I wasn't a cute girl. Still, those thoughts alone riddled me with uncomfortable thought.

I felt a bit of transformation on my body; not sure which one I was going to turn into. Even if it seems I'm becoming a girl, I probably wouldn't have any differences in personality.

When it was done, I hope to always like girls and not men. Maybe if the men were cute; very much like a girl, I could compromise, but I'm still scared if they manage to release their semen inside me.

I was afraid of pregnancy, especially if some men or even a woman with penis forced themselves on me. Giving birth hurts, especially if it's of someone you would hate so much.

What if it's my sister's baby? What if I grew a penis and poured my contents on her?

"You still haven't changed?"

"A..."

The sight of busty young girls with only a towel draped made heat accumulate on my brain. It's weird how I was indifferent when they're naked right away.

"Let's eat dinner, okay? Thea finished her new dish; hope you like it. She worked really hard for this."

"Mistress...no, it's just my job."

Thea blushed and fidgeted; her towel nearly fell. Yes, please fall. I want my sister's towel to also fell so I could burn the memories into my mind.

"You silly girl, gimme your lips...chuu..."

"Chuu..."

Okay, I had come to a point where two girls kissing right in front of me was normal.

Both of them ushered me to go away; sending me naked to change in the living room. Maybe they just want to make out longer? I still wanna watch.

I didn't have my writing tools ready and I could only do a gesture of girly punches to express it.

They ignored me and with a gentle shoo from my sister, I immediately found myself in the living room. Damn, the Goddess magic sure was convenient.

...

So far, I only had issues with putting on the panties; it was a bit too childish for my tastes. Yet, just when I was about done, the door opened, with my sister and Thea wearing casual clothes consisting of a shirt and pants. My sis sure had shapely long legs, I couldn't help but think, I probably developed a fetish other than big breasts.

If I have a penis, it'd be nice if my sis stroke my rod using my feet and let my jism shot after her. The feeling would be greater when she wore various stockings.

Thea too, those thick hips and feet, I really want to lay on her lap every day. Resting my loli body on hers while she cleaned my ear and blew on it hot and cold.

"You're thinking of something dirty again, aren't you?" my sis snickered.

"My, my. It's as expected of the Lil' miss—you sure took over my Mistress."

"More importantly, let's eat. Feel free to bring on your writing tools too, my Lil' sis. I know you're expecting this kind of company for a long time since there are just enough chairs for everyone."

I nod.

Still, it's quite unexpected for her to break the flow when it came to perverted things. Most likely, there's something important.

"I'll go serve the dishes in the meantime, Mistress."

"Hope my sis would like it."

I went to my room and brought the set of writing tools and also the magic pen since I had something to ask Thea for.

When I came back, I saw both of them looking at me in anticipation. Thea and my sister sat side-by-side. While my seat was in front of them. Right before me seem to be a white dish and...wait a second—was that rice? There was this pile of white grainy stuff, with spoon and fork having Lil' bits of it.

I was very sure it would be another sandwich.

"Surprised? It's the staple food form one of my subordinates' world, Rice. It's tasty enough by itself but it could make so many dishes taste better. There's even a saying, a meal wasn't a meal without rice present!"

My sister seems so overly proud of it like it's her own achievement, while Thea was rubbing the back of her head and lowered her face in embarrassment. Geez, so they could actually act like a normal person.

Wait, I forgot they're actually Goddesses.

She continued, "The main dishes here are Mashed Potato Balls and Stir-fried Vegetables. For the dessert, we used the sweet fruits from the fridge, is that okay?"

There were two yellow things shaped like a flattened ball, with brownish spots, placed on a porcelain plate. The other vegetables had a green and yellow color, with a soup having the scent of beef.

"As for the drink, Thea made some tea with the plants from your Underground Plantation. I took a sip; it's rather delicious."

The tea was poured in a small cup and it shone in a beautiful crimson. My sister downed the cup in one go, very unladylike--although Thea ignored what happened. With a bright smile, she refilled the cup from a plain-looking kettle.

Placing our hands together, we say 'thanks for the meal'.

..although I could only say it mentally.

I wasn't very good describing the sensation of foods I ate. The meal was scrumptious as usual. It's just, about the potato balls, I thought it'd be salty, but the potato was sweet and had a lot of crunchiness, despite its flattened look. The meat itself was very tender. It melts in my mouth the moment my teeth crunched; flooding into a saucy texture consisting of a various degree of mouth-watering saltiness.

The crimson-colored tea itself had a good mixture of sour and sweetness; it also gave me a relaxing feel.

No comment about the vegetables since I used to eat it sometimes, prior to their arrival. Just, Thea was much better at preparing the end result. How she preserved the freshness of vegetables while getting it wholly cooked; how the soup had such a refreshing flavor.

Thea, please marry me! You can be my Mistress' maid but please make Miso Soup for me every day!

By the way, this wasn't cheating, right?

I felt rather guilty the moment I realized. Yet, both Thea and my sister put on a rather calm expression like they were thinking about something else.

"Say, Lil' sis, my Thea had something to say since afternoon. She just couldn't stop thinking about it. If not for me holding her back, she won't be here and we all couldn't have such a splendid meal."

...ah, she must be angry after all.

"Don't worry though. I love when you did ecchi things with her, Lil' Sis! I seriously got my pussy wet when cute girls lusted over my Thea."

Just when I was about to sigh, she continued:

"...but what I wanna say: can you let us stroll around your world a bit? Thea was extremely curious about it. She was rarely disobedient, I nearly want to plant many vibrators inside her nose."

Wait, what did she say at last line? I didn't want to remember it.

Anyway, explore? I don't really mind. I simply just nod to her.

"Thank you, Lil' sis. Do you want to come together? Not about having sex, I mean."

No thanks, I already traveled so much before they arrived. I'd prefer to stay at home.

I shook my head.

"I see," she let out a disappointed sigh, "Well, in any case—I'd be putting up a barrier that could withstand any kind of attacks on the level of powerful Multiverse Deity. By the way, Isn't there anything else you wish to say?"

Ah.

Realizing I was stuck on what to express with gestures alone, I haphazardly readied my writing tools; causing both of them to giggle.

[First, I wanna ask 'bout the true nature of this magic pen. When I soaked them in the water that could make myself feel purified, it ends up corrupting the water, turning them into a sticky substance—similar to...a lube, I guess?]

I took out the perverted pen from my pocket and laid it on the table.

"You lost the bet, Thea."

"Yes, mistress—but you didn't get it right either."

"So I couldn't cum on your breasts tonight?"

"Feel free, but I want Mistress to spoil me in return!."

"Thea! I love you."

"...uuu."

Both of the girls just snuggled with each other right there.

It's so heartwarming.

"Don't mind it Lil' sis, after seeing that basin filled with cum--I was making a bet whether you wrote cum or semen when you ask."

Oh...

"As to why it turns out, I don't really care. It couldn't turn into a cute girl after all."

Why did it matter in the first place, whether or not it could become your waifu? Wouldn't it be tiring to have so many waifus? I just couldn't understand Sis.

[What about you, Thea? Do you have any idea?]

"I don't know either, why it would turn water into cum. When I asked the mistress, she told me the same thing.

To tell you the truth, from the very start, the pen always described the user's perverted thoughts so shamelessly, but you actually could set it so only you could see them. Here's that button," Thea pointed at the black button near the head; damn the positioning was all inconspicuous.

She continued:

"I think people in the past use them to masturbate by writing out their own dirty fantasies since it could do so on its own. Apparently, you could use it to draw your own lewd manga when you could turn its words into pictures. This is a very handy tool for perverts like us."

Us? Well, that's right, I'm one of them perverts now.

"Now that's very interesting. If I knew that, I would ask Mystia for another copy."

Mystia?

"I don't think you actually need that. This pen was very limiting compared to the scale of your own Simulation mode, mistress."

Simulation Mode?

"True. How about you though?"

"I still enjoy the feeling of writing your thoughts with a pen. Although this was a downgrade, I think Lil' miss would get more use outta this." Thea brought her pen towards me, and muttered some gibberish, before handing it to me back, "Alright, now it's branded to you."

Hmm...there wasn't anything different? Well, better put it someplace easy to find later.

"Good girl, good girl." my sister embraced Thea and stroked her hair. I don't know what she saw when I did it to Thea, but from my perspective, this cute maid seems exactly like a small animal at this moment.

"Ehehe..."

Hearing her giggles made me blush again.

"That aside, don't you have something important to tell me, Lil' sis?"

[Well, it's very embarrassing to ask.]

Enough about Mystia and that Simulation Mode. It's quite a pain to keep writing like this when the girls snuggled in front of me.

"It's a bit surprising since shame was the last thing I expect you to have."

Did I ever do anything shameless? Really, if what I act so far was considered shameless, then how puritan would a decent person be?

[Believe me, it takes my all just to write this. Even more, than saying it myself...]

It was quite hard to say, as it concerns my identity.

"I don't mind, take your time. No need to push yourself too much."

Since the writing board was full, I erased it the same way. My mind trembled and it got worse and worse.

[Umm....you see, I felt my body was changing, but I'm not sure whether I'd turn into a girl or boy. I'm afraid, if I turn out to be a boy, you would start to hate me.]

"I think you're misunderstanding something. Deep in your heart, you want to be a girl and romance other girls, right?"

{Yes...that's right. I want to be very cute and wear all the adorable clothes, while acting all fluffy and getting spoiled left and right, just like a princess--but I don't want to force myself on acting girlish or learn it if I didn't want to. I'd like a girly appearance, but when I want to act all manly, I also want to do it.]

Stolen from Royal Road, this story should be reported if encountered on Amazon.

Ah...it's so embarrassing, my lewd fantasies, they read everything—yet I just couldn't stop writing.

"See? That is why I think you didn't have a shame and that's a good thing. You gotta be proud with things you believe in. I know from the start you're that kind of person though, if not, we wouldn't be together in the first place. After all, this was the Multiverse where people with similar Wavelength connect together."

[Wavelength?]

"Well, that'd be up for later. Let me just give a piece of advice. While we try to keep our humanity as much as we could, there are just some limiting beliefs you need to let go, as you're no longer human, but a Goddess like me."

[For example?]

"Because you couldn't make a decisive push, even if you know full well you want it, we came here to help you—that's why I came here and treat you like a girl, so it'd be easier for you to let go of all those past inhibitions. Like your fear of people treating you grossly or something. This won't happen; when you're with me, I'll accept it all.

[It's as if you knew that in my past life, I was a man or something.]

Yet I had no idea what gender I was; it all felt muddled up.

"Nah, it's merely based on my past experience. You may or may not be the same way as my past self."

[You mean you're a man in your past life?]

"Does it matter? Just remember this, my Lil' sis. We have incredible abilities to alter so many things with our thoughts alone, given we satisfied the conditions.

Think of what kind of form suits you best, the one you'd feel most at ease. Forget what I expect of you; forget all the expectations of everyone. What's most important, is what you truly want. No matter how you will turn out, I will accept any result."

[Is there some kind of ritual needed, or?]

"No, the most important part of your transformation, was when you truly accepted yourself without any restrains. For now, just get ready to sleep and calm yourself down."

My sis gently stroked my hair. It's very different from her usual perverted persona.

She might be the most beautiful in my eyes, but it's when she acted like this, her charm assaulted me and made me yearn for her and it was even more exciting since we're sisters.

"Lil' sis, it's okay if you want to take the kind of form I'd like, but remember— there are no such things as eternal love.

Although you could shift your form whenever you had a change of heart, the pain from losing the bond would be immense. So, I say to you: this isn't the kind of love I seek.

The only love I would ever approve is the one who made each other strong, even if at one point, our wavelength wouldn't let us join any more. We'll make each other stronger, but when it's time to say goodbye, there would be no hard feelings.

I hope you can respect my belief. As this is one of the things I do not wish to give up."

I gave her one last nod before returning to my bed.

Seems like my sister had been through a lot of things, after all, and I respect her for that.

My previous life also seems filled with its own ups and downs. I wonder if those were the bond which tied us together? Albeit temporarily, I wish to savor my moments with her, each time opportunity arises.

...

Entering the dark bedroom, I closed the door and flipped the pot-lamps; illuminating the room in one go.

I stripped my clothes until I was completely naked and gazed at my genderless, androgynous body which didn't have genitals and even a butthole; saying my final goodbyes to it.

Its face and stature weren't as cute as I'd like; some curves were a bit too masculine for my tastes. Yet, it's also due to this body I could live a carefree life without minding much about identity, although only on the surface.

Thanks for being with me.

I wrapped my naked body with the blanket; leaving only my face out. Cuddling the cushion and rested my whole weight, slowly stretching my body—I turned off the lights.

In this quiet darkness, thinking about what kind of body which came naturally to me.

A cute and small stature like a loli small-chested princess, with a somewhat deadpan face who didn't seem to give a damn, but when I'd like it, I could make as many adorable faces as I want.

A fair skin, white as snow; long black hair which drew a sharp contrast to the sunlight. Slender and frail posture who made people want to protect her, but she herself had a formidable strength and doesn't necessarily need protection.

Thinking about all of the details with all acceptance, not restraining my thoughts at all—I quickly drifted into sleep.

Inside my dream was an ordinary-looking home interior. I could not see my own body, but I was sitting on a sofa, with a couple of middle-aged men and woman.

"Son, you are a boy. So wear this groom clothing and greet your bride at the church!" said the man.

"My daughter, you're a girl. Let me help to put the bride outfit and let us wait for your husband there."

I might be indecisive if it was me in the past, but not now.

The only choice, right from the start, was the door.

"My son (daughter), where are you going?"

When I was about to step out the couple raised their voice at me, yet they didn't even try to stop me. Or, as if they believe this much was enough.

Only for a bit though.

"I'm going to a place where every day, I could see a tranquil scenery. You won't ever find me again so this will be our last farewell."

"..but you are my son (daughter), what about your future?"

"I can decide on my own just fine, thank you for caring about me. Whether I'm your son or daughter, please let me choose the kind of love I desire, I can't imagine living with the person I won't ever love. I don't think it's something that can be forced upon.

I'm sorry—the only way to pay you back is by living the best I could, but I promise, I'll do my best to live, so your hard work on raising me will be worthwhile.

Father, mother, I hope both of you will live a long, healthy and fulfilling life. "

It may not be the best farewell I could give, but at least I was relieved, their expressions of concern faded away. Although it's replaced by a wry smile.

In all honesty, I had no idea about this couple. The closest thing to a parental figure right now was my Sis.

With them bidding me farewell, the scenery changed to the same place as I first started. There were verdant grasses everywhere, with a colossal tree standing tall in its center.

The door was about to disappear, but through force of my will, it's appearance sustained itself, until I finally stepped outside.

Unless I actually managed to step out, I'd never be free from that place.

I was glad my judgment was right. The moment my entire body was on the other side of this door, the scenery changed again to the front of my wooden house.

On the distance, I saw my sister, with Thea sitting behind her.

She felt kinda off, however, as she drank tea while sitting on some ornate-looking chair, with table wrapped in expensive cloth up front. She sipped its contents in a ladylike manner, from a luxurious cup. The maid kept a poker face, only putting up a sweet smile; only moved when Sis said so.

With an exaggerated gesture and tone of voice which felt so unnatural, even for theatrical plays, she beckoned me:

"Ah! Dearest sister! Finally, thou hath became the fairest lady for me. Shall I compare thee to an unchanging summer? So warm and pristine. Yet thine beauty lies in everlasting heat! Come, let us join lips and fornicate. Let us be together forever, as our love is eternal."

....that last line was so like her. About fornicating I mean. Yet, I couldn't feel a bit of familiarity with this woman.

"Who are you?

I just realized the satisfaction of having your own voice. Even if I couldn't see my own body, it's there.

The voice that once appears so modulated you couldn't tell it's belonging to a woman now took its form—as the deadpan voice of a loli princess!

...on top of my tongue, a name popped up.

[My name would be...]

It was something which means 'Future'.

"I am your sister, Reeve Nirvalen. Don't you wish to be a princess? If so, please don't talk like that, Mirai. You need to act more cute and ladylike, befitting of your fluffy appearance. Let's be together forever, sharing our sisterly love."

"You're not my sister."

"How can't I be?"

"Didn't you promise me to accept me as I am? Besides, my sister did not believe as such eternal love."

"Why would my belief matter? Wouldn't it be best if we could love forever? As Goddesses, our lifespan is virtually limitless."

"I won't call such possessive, one-sided thing as love."

"Then, how did you define love?"

"As for now, I don't really understand, but I know yours is not, and you have no right to force yourselves on me."

Right before I walked inside my house, however. She called out to me:

"Wouldn't you be lonely like this?"

"I have been alone for too long, you can say I got used to it."

Waving my hand at her and turning back, their figures seem to freeze in place.

Entering the house, the room was completely black and empty, aside from the full-length mirror in front of me. Reflected within was the figure of the deadpan loli princess.

She wore the usual white silk dress, showing a completely uninterested look towards me. The luminous crimson eyes she had were so beautiful to stare at though. She seems to notice my glance but didn't appear to give a damn about it.

"Is this what you really want?"

When she spoke all the words with my own voice, I couldn't help but be taken aback.

She didn't seem to retort at my own actions, something new as compared to when I was with Thea and my sister.

She spoke once more;

"No, I don't find your antics strange. You are me after all. I just wanna ask, is this what you really want?"

"Yes."

"Even though, from all those in-your-face behavior, you might become alone in the end?"

"I don't really care. Maybe it's better to be satisfied with me alone."

Even with Reeve and Thea's affection, I didn't know whether or not they're genuine. Plus, when they left, I didn't want to become dependent on them.

"You are stupid."

"I know."

"I'm not saying about your general intelligence. You're just too dense to notice. With an appearance like this—who the heck would leave you alone?"

Well, it might be narcissistic for me to say this but, well—she's really cute. I'm not a lolicon though.

"So are you saying, if I didn't realize my own actions, I'd soon be surrounded by people who made me feel alone?"

"No. I'm just saying—never took the others' kindness for granted. Even as a Goddess, your social needs are still there. Just melt down that cold exterior already."

Not convincing at all, when it came from her deadpan expression and somewhat calm. fluffy voice.

"You are very kind."

"I'm not, stupid! I just had enough of being lonely. I don't want to experience it anymore. I don't want to be with others who made me feel alone, at all."

She might look like me and act like me in general, but she's not me.

Actually, we're very different from each other.

"Sorry, but this was something I have to find the answer on my own. You also need to find your own answer. As for me, I don't care about the future—why the heck I got the name 'Mirai' anyway? The only thing I care about was living the best I could in the present, I'll just cross the bridge when I get there—you hear me?"

"In the worst case, wouldn't you have your heart dying again after so long of isolation?"

"It's fine."

"..I already warned you, do not regret this and do not blame me either."

"Do you really think I'm the same person as before?"

"I'm not sure in what way you've changed."

"The only thing that's different with me lies in only one thing, but it was enough."

"Please tell me."

"I have a lot of time to think. That even in this crowded world out there, sometimes it's better to just be alone, basking in my own tranquil scenery. People may come and go. Even if there's that bullshit called 'Wavelength', I don't want to be drawn to others beliefs and lose sight of who I really am."

For many others, what they seek the most was the others' ability to care and love.

...but for me, the most important was their ability to let go and not being dependent on another no matter how deep we were connected.

It's not because I was afraid of losing them, but deep down we're all different people. To tell you the truth, I didn't care about making each other stronger at all.

After being alone for so long and how my awakening triggered some clarity, I realize how intrusive others could be and it'd be for the best if we could respect our own personal space.

No matter if others were there or not, I'd just want to experience what it's like being alive, every day. Even if what I did was something that seems meaningless, if I could just live in peace and quiet, that'd be for the best.

The girl in front stood there silently for a long time, before she raised her face, still with the usual deadpan expression; yet her words are resolute.

"I...understand."

My body moved on its own to the mirror and traced the outlines of her face. My hands only felt the texture of the glass.

There was only one thing to do.

"Nice meeting you, let's do our best together, me."

I placed my lips against hers and I saw streams of energy pouring into me, yet I felt a rush of an unknown, nostalgic feeling. Just the sensation of being at home.

The next moment, when I looked down, I became her. I had her hair, eyes, hands, feet—flesh, and blood—everything her body has.

Yet the current me was someone different.

I wouldn't let loneliness take me over again. I will unfurl my feelings freely and go to see various peaceful sceneries I'd like.

Let us start our new adventure together, me.

...

The moment I woke up, I didn't feel anything was different.

There were small mounds on my chest, but most noticeable of all was the tent that was formed atop the blanket and the pleasant sensation of a hard, throbbing rod on my nether region sliding against the blanket.

...don't tell me.

I rub the place downwards to find a slit, which was slightly wet with juices; it made me sigh in relief.

Yet, as exhaustion assaulted me from all those dreaming, I end up getting asleep, with a nice feeling of morning wood.