Right now I am taking a bath. After we returned, all the soldiers not from the city were given access to some of the empty houses in the lower districts of the city where they could stay for a few days. All the women of the Purple Dragons are either in this house or the ones around it. The men went somewhere else we don’t know. I wish I had other clothes, but the purple leather gear I was using is the only thing I can use.

I am still thinking about that kiss and how I feel about it. Now I know that Lucia for sure likes that boy, but what about me? I am not into men, that's for sure.Aria is also taking a bath in front of me and I have to hold back myself. As this body is not only mine and I am pretty sure that something bad would happen if I gave in to my desires.

“Did something happen sweety?” Aria asks me.

“Yeah, and I am thinking about it.”

I am probably with a really serious face right now.

“Tell me what happened, maybe I can help.”

I stay in silence a little but I decide to tell her.

“Arnold kissed me.”

“That little devil… And?”

“And I don’t know how to feel about it.”

“Don’t you like him?”

“Yes, I mean no, I mean, I like him, but…”

“But what Lucia?”

“What if he doesn’t like all of me. I am not normal.” I say while looking down.

“If he truly likes you that will not be a problem, I can promise.”

“But that is not the only thing.”

“What else?”

“I can’t tell you…”

“Why!?”

“I just can’t…”

“Can I help?” She asks in an innocent voice.

I stop to think. Am I ready to live as a woman or I will always be a man sharing a woman's body? I don’t know. My desires are always to the side of Lucia’s. If I want to live like a woman I need to make both of them one. This is what is causing this conflict inside me. I want to do good by Lucia’s soul but my needs and desires as a man will conflict with her desires, it’s happening now and will in the future.

After several seconds thinking I finally reach a conclusion.

“Aria, can you enter my tub?”

“Of course, it’s been a while since we took a bath together like that, don’t it?”

She leaves her tub and enters mine. Now I am resting my head on her boobs.

“Do you think I will be beautiful like you in the future?”

“Of course, you have a pretty face and your boobs are growing. You will have a bomb body.”

We stay a few seconds in silence. Then I turn to her.

“Aria, can you give me a kiss?”

“Of course.” And she kisses my forehead.

“No, an adult kiss.” I say a little embarrassed.

“What?” She asks confused.

“You said you would help…”

“Will this really help?”

“Yes I promise.”

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“Ok.. let me prepare a little.”

We both are kneeled in the tub in front of each other.

“I am ready.” She says.

I hug her and begin to kiss her. Her tongue twists with mine as we kiss each other. At this moment I transfer all my desires to Lucia’s soul with a message to her.

“These are all my desires, use this moment to take care of it, satiate my lust and after that I will not hold you back.”

This was the only thing I could do. The only thing I could think. If my sexual desires go away, I will be able to truly live in the body I have now, not the one I had. That way everything I feel from now on will be from this life not a past one.

Lucia’s soul accepts all of it. I begin to kiss Aria more ferociously and for the first time in my life I have an erection. Aria notices it and begins to masturbate me. My dick is not that big so her hands are completely wrapping it. She slowly strokes me up and down while kissing me. Then she begins to speed up, she holds me by the head, so I can’t move it, with one hand while also glueing my body to her and with the other she strokes me even faster. I finally cum on what seems to be like an eternity later and just drop down on her as a shocking sensation passes through me, but it's not pain, it is pure pleasure in every cell on my body, this is not something a person would ever be able to feel normally. I feel like I just fucked a thousand women. If she wasn’t kissing me I would have moaned in ecstasy and because of the tub we are both clean, so there is no evidence of the crime.

“Are you alright now?”

“Yeah…” I say in a weak voice while huffing..

“How are you feeling?”

“Good. really good.” I say trying to put myself together from the bliss I am feeling right now.

“Did you get what you wanted?”

“Yes”

“What will you do now?”

I get back up and sit in the same we were before.

“I will tell him.”

“Tell him what?”

“Everything, how I am, how I feel, how I want to be with him forever, even just as friends.”

“Then go do it. And if he does anything stupid, tell me so I can punish him.” She says while she gives me a tight hug from behind.

“Thanks”

I quickly put on my now clean gear and go look for Arnold.

After some time asking around I found out that he is in an infirmary not that far from here as it’s not been even half a day since we got here.

After a quick walk I find the place. There are a lot of injured people here. Arnold on the other hand being given the worst thing any mage can receive. A mana potion. Those things taste worse than a corpse and you have to drink a lot of it for it to have any effect.

After the nurse tortures him I ask to talk with him alone. She gives us some space.

“So, why are you here? Did something happen?” Arnold says while drinking his water.

“Yes, when you can leave?”

“In a few minutes probably.”

“Then I will be waiting outside.”

“What happened?”

“It is better to show you.”

I leave the room and around 10 minutes later Arnold is out with his bow and spear in hand.

“So, what happened?”

“Follow me.” I grab his hand and begin to guide him somewhere.

I guide him to an empty house that I found while looking for him.

“So, can you tell what is happening please?”

I hug him and kiss him.

“Do you like me?” I ask.

He stops for a moment. And hugs me back.

“Yes, I do.”

“Then I need to show you the truth.”

“What?”

I begin to drop my pants and then my panties. He is a little stunned seeing all that.

As he begins to eye me down more I begin to cry.

“So you don’t like me anymore?” I say while crying.

He still can’t say anything.

A lot of bottled emotions begins to pour. They are not mine, they are from Lucia. What this boy thinks of her is of great importance. I lost the ability to care about what other people, for the most part, think of me a long time ago so I never noticed that until now.

I pull my panties and pants back up and hug him again.

“I’m sorry, please don’t hate me, I want to stay with you. I want to be your friend at least.” I say while crying on his chest.

“Please don’t hate me, I didn't want to be born this way. It’s a curse, just a curse…” I continue to cry and fall to the ground.

Seconds later he kneels down, hugs me and kisses me.

“I am sorry, I didn’t know how to react. How can I say no to you after all that if you like me this much?”

“Yes, I want to be with you forever, you are my best friend. You almost died for me more than once, you were always there by my side, if you are not there I don’t feel like I have a reason to do what I do.” I say screaming and crying while hugging him.

“It’s all ok now.”

“But I am not normal. Will you be ok with that?”

“You yourself said it was a curse and in the case we can’t get rid of it, that thing between your legs means we probably will have something in common no matter how much time passes.”

“What?”

“That we would like beautiful women around us.”

I stay in silence. My souls are in harmony. I reached my conclusion. I am not attracted to men. Probably will never be. But I like this boy, at least as a person. If it’s him I think I can truly become who I need to be in this world. I can accept Lucia’s feelings as mine, at least for him.

We lie down on the ground and hug each other. He kisses me and I kiss him. He kisses me and I kiss him. He kisses me and I kiss him…