Woohoo, the snake and pig have both been defeated by my wonderful Noth! And the mouse has been effectively tamed! I’m so proud of my cute smart amazing lovable boy right now that I could scream!

It also doesn’t help that I feel waaaay too good from him using my madness on (and eliminating) the pig. I was honestly proud of myself for not accidentally disappearing for a while from how amazing it felt, unlike how I did the last time. Throw in the fact that Noth actually ate those sacred flowers and ohhh maaan, idunno how I didn’t just freaking die from all the pleasure~.

Okay, so maybe I tricked him a little bit to get him to eat them, but it’s not like he didn’t know that I was tricking him somehow, so it’s basically not even my fault! Hehe, he knows me so well by now. And since he knows me so well, he can’t really get mad at me for tricking him a little bit sometimes. It’s the perfect loophole! Besides, it’s not like I even tricked him all that hard with this one, I mean, he totally needed the power boost on that one, or else he would have been in quite the pickle. In a way, he really just had no other choice but to eat them, right? And maybe he went on a tiny little delicious powertrip, but all in all he didn’t handle the excess power too badly I think. If he were the Noth I knew and loved from the book then he would have ended up rampaging through the streets by the end of it all. Awww, that would have been so fun!

Honestly, he’s very different from the original Noth I fell in love with. I mean, of course he is, I literally did all of this so that he could have a different life. Sure, he can still brood over things and get a little too emotional sometimes just like he used to, but he just… He just lost so much of his sealed off emotions, emo, badass-ness that I loved about him. Not that he doesn’t have his badass moments! No no no, I really relish those, believe you me, but… Maybe I helped him too well? I only wanted the best for him, and I wanted to give him some of the things he never got to enjoy before, but maybe I would have preferred if he stayed a bit more tortured? Part of me was hoping that him killing all those assassins would help to bring back some of the old Noth’s memories that I’d hidden away inside of him, but no such luck. Maybe I should pollute his soul a little bit more?

I can’t tell if this feeling is my natural emotions, or if it’s just this new, madness inducing body that’s making me feel this way.

I’m tired of having to second-guess every motivation I have.

Why can’t we just all be crazy all the time!? It’d be so much more fun!

At least Noth was still growing into the dark and cunning hottie looks that he'd had in the book! Dear god he’s so gorgeous! And the fact that he was also slowly being dyed in my colours was making me want to melt~!

…Anyways, moving on.

I gave Noth a friend. He needed someone other than me and his father to talk to; Someone who was broken in a similar way and could relate to him, but was still more on the normal side comparatively. Then they could help to heal each other’s wounds in a way that I never could have done. BUT WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN ME?! What’s so bad about him only getting to tell me about all his deep angsty feelings?! Why can’t he just pour all of his misery on me and me alone?! I know meeting her made him happy in the end, I know he needed this, but why does it all have to end with me being the one who hurts because of it????

On that topic, I also stupidly helped Noth get even more family. Let’s face it, I screwed up everything with how good I was feeling and re-cursed his dad. Boo hoo. We all mess up sometimes, get over it. Anyways, eventually that creeping looming madness will get the man killed, and when that happens I don’t want Noth to feel like he’s been left all alone or something. Even if I think he’d be positively delicious drowning in his loneliness, and even if I want him to feel like I’m the only person he has left in the world, that doesn’t mean that I can handle the little puddle that he’d become after the fact. That last little stint of depression he had proves that I can’t really do well enough to pull him out of extreme despair; I mean, it’s basically just the opposite of what my powers are, really, so of course I can’t. And if I can’t be the one to keep it together, and Elillith just barely helped, then perhaps having those three kids there will be enough to motivate him.

It’s amazing how much Noth actually secretly wanted a family. It’s something I never would have guessed from the book’s Noth, who didn’t really seem to want anybody around. Although, I suppose he was perfectly fine with the butler and Elillith’s presence, so who knows. Maybe they were his family in that instance. Perhaps this Noth only really wants one so badly because he’s desperately seeking out normalcy deep down inside. That’s really too bad for him, though; There’s no way I’d let him live such a boring and normal life! Even the extra family members that I gave him are in no way normal! Two of those children have obscenely strong [Gifts], and one of them is a ticking time bomb!

I just... you know... I wish I was the one who chose them for him, and not that nosey shitty God-dess thing that keep fucking with my plans all the time! Hmph.

Let’s take a closer look at the abnormal [Gifts] of the children that I led Noth to, shall we? For starters we have Jean, the [Beauty]. A [Charming Beauty] to be exact, meaning not only is she pretty, but she actively charms everyone around her into doing her bidding, making her all the more powerful. Interestingly enough, the [Beauty] class of [Gifts] actually doesn’t go past the 'Superior' rank, and if someone were unlucky enough to get that, then just using their powers on someone would be enough to kill them. The fact that she has a 'Greater' rank on hers is actually crazy powerful, I mean she could basically take over an entire nation if she didn’t run into a good enough number of people whose [Gifts] somehow negated hers. Sadly, most of the God-dess’s priests and anything with a rank higher than 'Superior' wouldn’t be affected by her ability’s charm, so there won’t be any fun instances like that happening. Either way, if the girl learns how to use her [Gift] well enough she could become insanely powerful, so long as she has access to the right human resources. There’s also no way anyone could possibly kill her either, considering her [Gift] would automatically cause them to stop any attempts at major harm. The fact that she’d even managed to get slightly beaten up by Therrus was only due to the fact that Jean had been desperately suppressing her abilities at the time. How silly of her to let her and her friends get hurt just for the sake of her precious pride. I'll never understand that.

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Then there’s Helt, the Krysthid. Honestly, knowing about them as a race was wayyy different from seeing them in person, I mean their skin is practically mesmerizing. Helt may have been a halfbreed, but he didn’t lose any of the beautiful crystalline skin that the Krysthids possessed. And because of that single fact, it meant that the God-dess had no choice but to both love and hate the boy, just the same as all the others of his kind. Hilariously enough, the myths of his people were actually accurate to a surprising extent. Once upon a time, the God-dess had found such a beautiful crystal that it was actually deemed worthy of living. They were given life in the hope that they’d create more and more beautiful offspring, but one day the most beautiful Krysthid of them all decided to marry a human, creating the more humanoid species of Krysthids that we now have today. The God-dess of course didn’t like this; They’d made the crystals to look like crystals and the humans to look like humans, they didn’t want their beautiful crystals to look any different. And yet, the God-dess still felt a deep love for what crystalline looks remained inside of these new Krysthids, so it decided to both reward and punish the beautiful, sinful beings. That’s how we get the Krysthid blessing/curses that they have today.

And Helt certainly has a blessing and a curse. If anything, he had one of the worst curses of them all.

His [Gift] is so strong that it’s steadily growing more and more uncontrollable, to the point where it will either eventually drive him mad, or he’ll be forced to kill himself. If he gives in to the inherent temptation that everyone in this world has to use their [Gift], then he’ll eventually find himself surrounded by constantly screaming thoughts, and won’t be able to hear his own. And yet, the boy would effectively get to know everything, there would be absolutely no secret that could escape his grasp. That also would become a curse, however, considering all the things he’d learn that he’d wish he hadn’t. The only possible silver lining that Helt could hold on to to keep his sanity is my Noth. The fact that he has my powers means Noth negates most of the automatic [Gifts] that try to touch him, so long as they were 'Superior' rank or lower. That means that neither Helt’s, nor Jean’s [Gift] can ever affect him.

...Even though Jean’s looks and voice did fluster Noth the first time he met her…

Hmph.

I guess someone's appearance doesn’t count as an automatic [Gift] usage.

...Stupid Beauty [Gift].

The most interesting one for me was the last one, Ren, however. That tiny little cutie was the most pure person I’d ever met. It was to the point where the evil angel parts of me wanted to corrupt her immediately, although I’ve been doing my best to hold that part back, thank you very much. And yet, even though Ren was so pure and sweet, she was deeply plagued by her feelings of inferiority. Her friends had been helping her with it, but deep down she still desperately wished she could stop feeling like she was such a useless burden. It didn’t help that she’d gotten a [Gift] that seemed practically unusable, and that everyone else she knew had such cool and useful abilities.

Honestly, it broke my heart that the tiny girl was spending all this time wishing that she could get the same powers as Noth, especially since I knew that it would never work. The problem is, what she’s wishing for wasn’t actually a [Gift]. The rules of [Choose Your Own Path] were actually quite finicky, and if you didn’t specifically name off the exact abilities you wanted, and if those exact abilities weren’t explicitly a [Gift], then nothing would happen. There was no way that Ren knew all of the things that Noth could do with my powers, because even Noth didn’t know, so there was no way for her to ask for the correct things. And besides, Noth may be a [Chosen], but to become one of those, you had to have a higher being choose you, not you choose a higher being; It had nothing to do with wishing for a [Gift] in the first place! Until something big and important snuck up and decided to make a contract with her, there was no way it could happen.

There was no way that I was going to tell Noth about any of that though.

I may feel bad for all of the girl’s wasted efforts, but that doesn’t mean that another part of me isn’t eating it all up.

Besides, I need Ren.

I need her softened up and desperate, so desperate that she’ll agree to anything.

It’ll take some time, but once she’s nice and ready she’ll have no choice.

And then…

Well, I still have some promises to keep with the God-dess.

You think they'd let me wiggle around and change things willy-nilly without coming to some kind of agreement?

They’re not nearly so nice.

It has big changes planned, and it’s about time that I started getting ready to uphold my side of the bargain.

Speaking of the not nice God-dess, it had begun to move in the background again. I could feel it shifting things around once I set my sights on the kids. Just like with Jeck, the pieces had been moved around by a subtle hand and pitted against each other. How clever of it to use him like that to take care of its trash. I suppose that even if I have been given my free will unlike the others, I am indeed still an angel at my core. Angels are meant to be the hands and feet of the God-dess, and if my powers are currently being used by Noth, then it only makes sense to make an angel’s contractor take care of the God-dess’s trash, especially if we’re already so nearby.

But… ya know?

I fucking HATE that.

This is MY Noth.

I’M the only one who gets to make him do things!

How dare someone else interfere with him?!

This isn’t what we agreed upon at all!

And even now, I could feel that dirty God-dess moving things around once again! There’s something disgusting coming this way that’s going to force him to hear something that I really don't want him to! It’s not enough to force my boy to clean up its messes, now it’s even going to make him meet one of its toys?! I can’t even take the thought of whatever sick information it’s planning on feeding to Noth through that dumb mindless mouthpiece it uses. I bet Noth won’t even want to go! I bet he won’t even care whatever that stupid God-dess tells him! I bet he’ll like me and keep me around all the same, no matter what kind of slander he hears! My Noth is a good, sweet boy now, a caring boy, and he’s growing into a wonderful man, so wonderful that he won’t just listen to whatever gossip he hears about the people important to him! ...No matter how true it all likely is to be.

Ok so if I’m being honest, I’m scared.

I’m scared that Noth will hate me after this.

I want to rush over and kill that dumb toy right this instant so that the God-dess can’t speak to him.

But, in the end...… I’m just an angel.

There’s no way I could just go against the God-dess like that.

…At least, not yet.

Not until I do what it put me here to do.

If it wants to watch me squirm and cry, then I’m just going to have to do what it wants.

…I’ll just have to wait until it sets me free to get my revenge.