Oh, heart of mine

If you could give me a break

Your voice is so loud

Why are you crying child?

They have hurt you I hear your tears

So so wide beyond your years

They have hurt you more than they can see.

Oh, bird caged in my chest

Always fighting with my soul

Why are you ablaze?

Watching everything with a sad gaze

You never truly accepted this cage.

The moon will rise on your fears

And you'll hear the voice you seek

It will call you its child

It will hold you near.

So until we pass this sea

Until we leave,

Can you hold on for me?

Oh, weeping misery of mine

You never run out of cries

My arms don't give you much warmth

And my chest is too tight for your flight.

I whisper late in the nights

With a hand settled on your sounds,

That I'll be here no matter no what

And that I hope you ever let me inside

It's lonely heart

It's lonely.

Dear friend,

I don't have to say you're mine.

You know, and I know

The unspeakable truth of what we hide.

Two worlds never meant to be found

Rather than joined and sewed like a beautiful gown.

Yet I speak with your voice as much as you don't in mine

And if anyone looks they'll see two of the same kind.

Are we just that good at acting what we dream, friend?

Or is it the denial we both drink greedily after every fight?

(You know the answer and so do I, but I won't talk

No, you won't listen.)

Like a child you are

I sigh fondly at your eyes.

Teary and bright,

And yet so so wide.

Like a child you are

You can't let go of what you are.

I smile behind my hand and hide

Oh your ire was always one of a kind

But I'm not laughing at you, dear mine.

No,

I'm laughing at those who see more than a child.

(You'll protest vehemently and you will frown

But under that show of a child

You'll hold a gaze that drowns

Yes, dear mine.

You wish someone would see

How you're just a child.)

Your curiosity never ebbs

It bubbles and rises

Yet hides beneath the surface.

Am I the reason for your fear?

Dear child,

Am I the reason you fear?

I tried to see the world without my eyes

Maybe then the breeze would only carry light

And it will reach the darkness you desire

And maybe

Stay more than a night.

But I couldn't, oh I still can't

Feeling you shrink inside me and hide

What a failure I am.

Your curiosity dims and it's a tearful sight

Like children being at war and birds on the ground

It's a horrible sight

And I only gasp and choke with the plight.

(Would you believe me if I said

That I'm more scared than you somedays?)

Desert of mine,

How long will you search for the right time?

Even a desert can die

Yes even a desert can die.

So where is that dam and what will break its act?

The desert is cruel dear mine

And nobody knows that

Nobody does.

A blue desert they see

Birds flying and waves crawling

A blue desert they see.

(When will you stop? Nobody knows

When will you stop?)

Dear mine, I still ask

With a quiet voice

(You never liked the past.)

If I could do anything to make you live again.

And you shake your head with those stubborn tears

Knowing you can't live and crying it because oh

Yes

We just want to live, don't we?

Yes

We always did.

There was no certain moment when the line beeped

Nothing so dramatic nothing so clear

It was waves chipping away at the sea

Between and in between

You can't see if the living beings cease.

The shore stood still and there

And it's for the same reason our tears never land

The sea screamed its depths and withered

Like a rose dying within those who live

With an intensity that chases even death

And the shore didn't stumble nor fear

It stood sure in its place

Looking at us

With a wistful sorrow that was hard to see.

Yes it knows it does

The nights we spent

Building towers upon towers

Of things that were never us

Like a mother, it looks at us with love

Tainted by the sadness only a mother knows

When she sees her child fighting so viciously

Just to stay up.

If it could give us the boat it would

Throw it with the power only sorrow gives

But the shore can't move it can't change

One detail is enough for it all to fade.

Because towers is a generous word

Dripping in denial and heart-wrenching despair

No

They were not towers.

Nothing that grand

They were sand castles

Built within the sea

Frail and frail.

So it ended

So suddenly

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On a cold night in January

I felt it slip away from my fingers in fright

Oh, I didn't want to continue this life.

You felt it too but you were louder than I

Still young and hopeful

Silly child of mine

I couldn't comfort you and I didn't

The pain of the loss still too fresh for it to be built

Into pretty sand castles and shiny roads.

So I stayed silent and watched you cry yourself into the earth

It was shattering and the waves calmed in front of your storm

I couldn't find the words

I couldn't find myself

How do we explain how it is to die

When we still live?

You continued your screams and I thought

That it was enough.

I see it in your eyes sometimes

Even though you wrap it in your wary knowledge

I always find .

(Perhaps not wanting to be alone in my suffering

Perhaps hoping for a return of anything.)

That absent-minded smile that is buried behind your eyes

It tells me you can still hear the voice of life

It tells me we still can't

Forget our lives.

But it's not just a smile no, dear mine.

When was anything just with you?

It was a fragile hope after an eternity of darkness

A little thing that sneaked in between the overwhelming trials.

(To build the same castles we watched fall

To watch the castles we built fall.)

It was a soft grief

A soft death

A memory that kills

Yet makes you alive.

Watching the boys on the sand passing balls

You smile in that soft reserved way and I know you're remembering the time you ran after them yourself.

(The tears still rush the same after all this time

Grief grief grief.)

Your arms tense around you and your eyes follow like a hawk

We built every castle together and I know

You want to tell them not to stray too far.

Stay away from the sea children

No, it's not the pirates

Not anymore

It's the waves

It's in the waves.

But they won't go near

I don't say

I know that you know

When the smile turns self-deprecating and cruel

I know you know.

(Nobody nears what they fear

No

But some people

In some places

Are born with their fear nestled inside of them

So so close.)

I walk through the warm sand towards the sea

I can see your back facing me

Eyes towards the sky

(A caged bird can't fly)

You hear me coming and you don't move

The scene is too important no

You don't move.

The waves are high today and they crash in your eyes

The fear is there but also resign

Yes, dear mine.

We built mirages for a long while

And the waves are ready to erase

All our sorrowful tries.

I sit beside you, not touching

(A bird never likes its cage, even if it's also caged.)

We watch the waves for a while and I hear you exhale

What is there to say at the end of this way

When we built so many fakes

That we forgot what it meant to be real

But I wait and I don't interrupt

(Still, the cage always tries.

In small, limited ways to make the walls less than what they are.)

You don't interrupt a dying wish

No

You don't.

We've gone far, you say

(Have we?)

We tried hard, you doubt but say anyway.

Shaky, doubtful, yet always trying.

After all those years,

You still know how to break me.

But I think it's time to let go.

You whisper slowly

Afraid of leaving the helm even in your last moments.

(Who knows what would happen if you're not there?

You have to make sure the castles are intact

You have to make sure the waves don't dry.)

Let go of what, I ask the sky

Yet you answer

Always so wise.

We were always meant to crash,

(Like waves, something whispers deep inside)

But we tried too hard to ignore that

To change that.

Even though we were born with the knowledge

That birds fly, mountains stand and seas crash.

(But isn't it human nature you think with a pang of despair that always came in those moments

Isn't it normal to want to live?)

(A voice says you died long ago and you crush it with every will left in you

Because you can't face the grief today

Not today.)

The waves creep closer and the scene almost looks to be horror

Fragile castles surrounded by hungry wolves

Waiting to bring it all crashing down.

(You always watched and you always built after they fell

But now

Now you don't

It's time to let go

The sky agrees.)

Your hand lies on the sand palm up

And it's such a fragile gesture that I can't control my sobs

Oh, dear mine

You were always the better one.

My fingers reach towards you like a whisper

I'm sorry, they timidly offer

And settle on your cold fingers.

(Always so so cold.

I could never give you warmth.)

They ramble apologies and words

Like a small child with hope

How the roles turn how they go.

I see the little smile flickering on your face and it makes the falling castles less the end.

(Not a beginning no, not anymore.

But still

Something lighter and sweeter than the end.)

Your hand engulfs mine with a careful warmth and I

Break down along with the watery sand

Hearing the words you left unsaid.

"It's okay, we tried."

The sand returns to the depths of the sea and I close my eyes and breathe.

(Something sweeter than the end.)