All I need is me

Yeah

In the end

It's all just me.

Words repeating in my head

Trying to be a belief

Against that voice that whispers

They are here and near.

All I need is me

Yeah

With all those scars

I can't have more than me.

Even if they hurt

Even if they bleed.

Tears running down my pillow

Another night of no sleep

Spent in the harrow

Of killing the only thing I need.

I know all I need is me

I have to know

I have to believe

Because others are not near

Not a mile

Not a street.

So I walk down the road

Soaked from head to toe

Wondering if at the end

Is anything worth fighting for.

It seems weird

Having all you need

Yet aching for everything in between

Hollow middle

Hollow being

A hole where your heart should be.

Because it's probably not that you are all you need

But that you are all what you have

No matter what scene

Misery is it or serene.

Hey you

You are all you need

Tomorrow, today and yesterday

You are all you will ever need.

So, please

Please

Forget about being complete.

Because for people like us

Dreams end with tears

Tears in your eyes

Tears on your hands

It always just ends up with a tear.

I walk down the road

The rain is loud and strong

It washes the wish of before

Of having someone to call my own

Of having someone that is not buried in my bones.

With the rain comes the blood

Like washing dirty mud

It soaks the streets and the sky above

And the world turns on its axis and runs.

So much blood

So many scars

Just

What am I fighting for?

What is at the end of the road

What was at the start

What made me ever think

I can move on

In this bloody world, I call my own?

So much blood yet people go

Come and go and come and go

Maybe I'm silent maybe I'm mute

Even though I can feel the sorrow tearing my throat

Maybe I'm water maybe I'm clear

Like a mirror maybe they don't see.

Come and go and come and go

Always like a ticking clock

They go and row

Down the streams of my blood, they row

Leaving and forgetting with a boat full of laughs

I watch their fading backs

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Watching my blood leading their way back

And I think that it's how it is

It is how it should be.

Because all I need is me

Even if my blood sings and streams

All I need

Is me.

The time moves around my feet

I'm standing somewhere

Probably from fear

Frozen with the reality of who I have to be.

Reality was always so severe

The heartache and the screams

Always so severe.

The time moves and I mimic its ticks

Tick tock, I sing.

Balancing on a thin thread with no wings

I sway with the wind and sing.

Tick tock tick

How much more til I leave?

Tick tock tick

How much more is left of me?

I open the windows to the sun

Letting it chase out the dark

Not needing darkness to be aware

That night is always there.

I open the windows and wave

At the birds flying on their way

To a home they always change

And marvel at their brave

With a heart that's still weeping in its first home

I marvel at their brave.

They sing in the vast skies and I laugh

Because who other than birds can make leaving not so sad?

I laugh and hold my battered soul

Hearing it open the door and peak

At a scene it never really knows.

Always leaving

Always in joy

How?

It wonders, torn.

I stay silent because I don't know

Because I who broke down on every road

Can't possibly know the joy of the birds and their soars.

Stumbling on words

It became a hobby, a chore

Always struggling to explain

Why is it I'm so far away

Always struggling in my struggles

Because circles have always empowered

The mind of a ten-year-old

That thought of them as endless worlds

And she grew up and knew

Endless she was right

But worlds is far away from their sight.

They are endless and they end

More than you can understand

More than she did.

They ended a child

Ended a life

Created a monster

That doesn't stop circling itself

Like a predator with no prey

The only prey it found

Was the fragile star inside.

It flickered in the day

Flickered in the night

Never finding the right time

And if the predator ever won

No court would welcome it in

Because if there is ever a win

The only name it would be called

Is a being that killed itself.

Nobody can save you nobody can

Nobody is coming nobody will.

It's written in the rules with all your blood

All you need is you

No

You are grown enough

To know the truth and know what it is.

You are grown enough

And it was written in the rules

That you, the ten-year-old child

Will always

Have just you

And that it has to be enough.