Uwaahhh yawning

I woke up rubbing my eyes a soft and cold feeling just like "Mom, Dad?"

Mom isn't here I was sleeping on her lap but woke up on our couch

"Ashwin are you okay?"

"Grandpa?" Catching my breath "Where are.....Mom and Dad?" I asked not wanting to hear the worst

Grandpa frowned, opening his mouth "Well..."

'no' "Your parents..." 'no no no' "They left after you went to sleep" '........' he averted his eyes with guilt but what's the point everything's gone

Turning my lifeless body towards our television

'I don't want to watch the news' Surely the news already covered the plane crash, with the darkness outside it's already been hours after they left

'that's why I don't want to watch it'

"Did Ashwin wake up?" Grandma asked entering the room

"It's time for dinner......Ashwin?" Grandma stopped mid-sentence when she looked at me

'How do I look' I don't know, but definitely not good I probably look.....ugly

'I shouldn't ' Yes 'I can't worry my grandparents ' Right 'they are the ones who raised me and took care of me' I need to be my best 'after my.....parents......left me' From now on

Smile "Yes Grandma" don't trouble them

Smile "Let's eat I am hungry" run to the dining table like a kid

EAT "Yay I was really hungry" even if you don't want to

Say it's tasty "This is really tasty Grandma" even if you can't taste

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SMILE even if you want to cry

SMILE

SMILE

Your pain is only for you to endure

You can't rely on your grandparents

They shouldn't need to understand you

You should not go to them for comfort

Bottle up your emotions

And

Give them the most brightest most cheerful SMILE of a kid

"Thank you Grandma Grandpa, Thank you for everything"

***

I can't.... not anymore

"I am going to sleep now" yawning "Good night Grandma, Grandpa"

I left

Dragging my lifeless body up the stairs

The door in my room made a creaking sound piercing my ears

I got inside, locked the door

My legs gave up, falling down with my back at the door

I am finally alone

My grandma, and grandpa didn't say anything at the dining table, how can they?

The boy who was crying and shouting refusing to let go of his mom and dad

The boy who looked ugly after waking up, not seeing his parents

That same boy suddenly became all smiling, cheerful, innocent

They must be confused, I hope

"Why?" I didn't do anything wrong, then why do I have to go through this

"Tell me" The god's up in the skies I am asking you "Why?" If you exist then tell me "Why?" If you are hearing me then "tell me"

"I know you are hearing me God damn it"

"A sign A feeling anything just fucking tell me WHY!!!"

I covered my mouth I can't scream Grandma and Grandpa are downstairs I-I have to be silent

sniff I-I should keep my voice silent sniff

even if my own tears choke me sniffle

I have to keep my mouth shut aughh sniffle even if my body gets twisted inside gasping I can't let my grandparents hear me sniffle they are the only family I have left sniffle for them I am nothing but a child, an innocent child who don't know anything, that's how it should be