The interaction with the queen was a few hours ago . She left my mind intact and obviously plans to try to manipulate me in other ways.
On the outside I looked like a normal 8 year old , so it was easy to see why she would rather make me her servant the old fashion way.
Better to indoctrinate children than to destroy a grown man's mind. Or so she thinks
DIE
She was arrogant, a weakness I could exploit if I was tactful enough. She wasn't aware or didn’t see me as a threat either way her underestimating my capacity for catastrophe , aided me in my only goal. The elimination of the chasm queen.
Every ounce of hatred I had was directed towards her and anyone who might stand in my way.
Kill her
Tun tun who had been quiet all this time talked telepathically
“Autumn , I think I have a solution” she tried to offer help
“A solution? “ I asked my respected half
Hesitantly she offered “ she wants you to be her pawn. And think you should just follow her commands. Of course you would be patiently biding your time until you kill her . But if you look at it objectively she's one of the strongest magics users to ever exist“
A calculated decision that would land me with the most benefit , while negating the mountain half of the negatives.
I knew this already But still could care less. My whole existence was dedicated to killing this person and I had to work under them?
Why god
“ It is the only way. “ she said resolutely
I suppose she was right. I was essentially throwing my life away because of pride and past trauma.
But I could tell even tun tun couldn't understand . It didn't happen to her.
… still for her I could mask my hatred.
“You can always heal yourself when you get better at magic, don't you have Regeneration magic” she added
Good boy
That's right, if I worked under the queen, acted like a good boy , then maybe I'd be allowed to heal myself and live a life of peace .
to be teared to pieces was a preferable death
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Remembering how I begged like that , I was ashamed.
Never again… that hatred started to resurface.
The blazing infernal was insatiable
Please stop
I had numerous physical scars at this point. But what remained unseen was the mental damage.
I could heal myself , to the point where It would seem like it never happened.
Edit reality and remove the proof.I did have Regeneration abilities, didn't I?
…
Then I would forget , wouldn't it?
Forget ,all the deaths , the damage , the misery
I HATE YOU
My misery
Funny thing about hate is that it distorts your perception. And when you're sick like me your mind fluctuates into the uncanny.
Voices have been disturbing me , constantly . All the internalized pain had morphed into a second conscious. That voice of the demon that had concocted from all the grief. To me this was my new goddess.
Goddess
To Put it simply, I didn't want to forget. I liked it here. The place where the light couldn't reach ,my own personal castle . This abyss was my birth place and now I had really been born.
A rebirth of rebirths had ensued
I had no reason to hide my nakedness ,
Especially not here , in the nothingness
Kicking off my shoes, I wiggled my bloodied toes into the marble floor in order to enjoy the pain.
This was me and tun tuns first conflict of interests, more proof that she was her own person. I wouldn't give up on revenge of the queen regardless if I had to lose my life in the process.
I understood she didn't ask to be attached to me in life and death. Of course she wanted someone to help her find freedom , but anyone would find that type of contract troublesome.
I had to find a way to give her a physical body.
An angel must really be protecting the queen . Admittedly tun tun was right and I acknowledged that. For now we waited like the stones from eons ago.
It was fine , my soul had final been ignited
“I'll follow your advice for now and try to get you a constructed body.” I accepted her sound advanced
“... you really plan to dedicate your life to hate?” I heard her from my right ear feeling her cold breath
FOOLISH
If only she knew.
I suppose even the closest of us have secrets.
“ she's not immortal” I replied
“Fine …” then she added “ you've changed autumn, but I understand “
She understands huh? No matter what happens I will never abandon tun tun .
Standing up I guided myself directly to tun tuns mana presence. My mana sense was now the strongest of all my senses and though I couldn't see her , I could still see her.
Extending my hand in a bowing gesture, I offered it “ a dance madam? “
“ oh” taking my hand she accepted my proposal.
Instantly my synapses fired and for some reason I felt like I shared an intuition of tun tuns mind. I was transported into her world.
It was black as well
“ now do you see “ she asked me
Haha of course , how could I generalize her .
When broken down to the basic components we weren't so different.
A FRIEND
Leading her into the middle of the rooming I did an imitation of a nobleman's dance. Though like my body was possessed I somehow found the right footing effortlessly. Gracefully tun tun followed my efforts , a natural dancer blessed with beauty and wickedness.
tap , right foot , twirl , left foot , left foot ,twirl
We elegantly danced around the room and like the specters of Persephone and Hades ,we descended into the depths.
The lights were back , the mana , illuminating the trench that was my mind . This time even more brilliantly, beautifully splendidly fantastically. On the first viewing I was stunned by it but on the second I was allowed actively appreciate its majesty.
but now in my selective state I could only focus on descending into the promised land with tun tun.
What was I even? I didn't even care at this point .
And way down we go
YES
The colors began getting closer and closer
When suddenly.
CLUNK
!! Someone was here , Immediately I was pulled out of my trance. Looking towards the direction of the sound , I concentrated.
I couldn't make out her figure but she did have a pink aura about the size of a basketball.
"Where did you learn that forbidden technique “