It was just passing midnight when Lili found herself in a familiar situation. Ian lay in her bed next to her, clad only in dark boxer briefs, sound asleep. Meanwhile, she lay there next to him, in a simple t-shirt and panties, staring up at the ceiling as she went at least ten rounds with insomnia.
She sighed and pushed herself up from the bed once more. She then moved to the common room to get a sip of water and check on their daughter. Once those two tasks were complete, she found her turquoise eyes wandering to the doorway that led to Ian’s quarters. She forced down the million arguments for or against going through that doorway and finally took a breath as she let her feet carry her in that direction.
As she poked her head through the door, those doe-eyes came up to meet her, as Will offered her a small smile. Inside, he was laying atop Ian’s bed, upon his stomach, his arms cradling Ian’s pillow against him. Lili managed a smile, though just barely, as her eyes wandered over him, where only his mid-section was hidden by a sheet draped haphazardly over those impossibly narrow hips.
“So, you’re still awake too?” she hoarsely stated the obvious as she stepped into the room, letting the door, of sorts, drape shut behind her.
“Thinking” he smiled back at her.
“I have that problem too” she returned his smile, letting her feet carry her a few more steps into the room, “I’m sorry if you were waiting up for Ian. He fell asleep” she informed as she gestured back over her shoulder.
Will allowed another small smile before responding, “I know I only had a, how do you say, fifty-fifty chance, of him choosing to be inside me tonight instead of you” he stated with that unshakable innocence in the face of any and all subject matter.
Lili couldn’t help biting her lip nervously as she moved to take a seat at the edge of the bed, “we didn’t do that tonight either, actually” she attempted to offer some consolation, not then mentioning the entirely different matter of the previous morning.
“Why not?” he asked with that same childlike way that somehow managed to make him even sexier, as strange as that thought was.
“Well, after the baby, and all that” she looked down slightly, “we haven’t been doing that nearly as much as we used to” she offered, again selectively editing out that morning from her explanation.
Will looked down for once then himself, “he doesn’t want another baby to come and hurt you that bad again?” he posed his oddly correct guess as to the reasoning behind such deprivation on their parts.
“Yeah. That’s the main reason we’re, uh, not doing that as often now” she agreed with a slight blush.
Though before their slightly awkward conversation could continue, Lili startled as she looked up from her companion.
“Something wrong?” Will asked, his own alertness obvious from spending his entire life there, alone.
Then Lili smiled, “it’s Kyle”
Will blinked a bit at the sound of that name, considering his own morning activities with the teen she now spoke of. “In your head?” he asked, to which Lili just nodded and smiled.
After another moment of listening to whatever Kyle needed to tell her, she grinned widely over at Will.
“Good news?” he asked.
“Yeah, it’s my mother” a long breath, “she was one of the survivors that you took Jared there to save today. And she’s actually ok now!” she wiped away a few tears of happiness as her relief flooded her with so much joy, she just had to share it by moving across the bed to give Will a huge hug. Her gratefulness to him for his part in saving her mother’s life, more than obvious.
As she pulled him into that embrace, the sheet fell away from him when he sat up to more easily wrap his arms around her in return, also glad that he could save yet another mother.
Finally pulling back slightly from the embrace, Lili couldn’t help her eyes moving downward to where the evidence that he was truly a male, was quite obvious now that the sheet had completely fallen away. More than that, he was starting to slightly harden at their closeness already.
She swallowed a bit as she moved her eyes back up to his. Though neither said much else as Will couldn’t help responding to his arousal for her. In the next moment, he was pulling her closer still, covering her mouth in a kiss much more similar to the one Ian had received earlier that night.
When they both had to break off the kiss simply due to the need for oxygen, they still remained close, breathless, their foreheads still touching. Will kept one hand upon her cheek, and the other upon her waist, holding her there next to where he had now fully hardened in response to that kiss.
He then breathed his next words, as best he could speak them at all in his current state, “I’m sorry Lili. I don’t want to put another baby in you that may hurt you like that again. I just want to know, so badly, how it really does feel to be inside of you.”
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Lili was more than a little floored by the sincerity with which he shared both his desires and fears all in one somehow nearly heartbreaking statement. She then breathed her own response, “we can keep another baby from happening. Jared found medicine that will stop it.”
Then Will looked up immediately at her words, “You mean, I can touch you? Be with you? Feel myself finish inside you?”
Lili thought a long time on his words. She knew then that the decision she had been struggling with all evening was finally upon her in that moment. This would be her very last chance to decide once and for all if she wanted to fall back into trying to once again be all the things society expected her to be; or if she wanted to continue to follow her own heart, her own desires, her own needs, no matter what strange and unfathomable places those may take her. Then she mentally scolded herself with the reminder that there was no society anymore, not in the true sense of the word. And it was now up to her to be one of the few people who would decide if she truly wanted her daughter to grow up into a new one that was just a carbon-copy of the old, after all.
On that final realization, she finally looked back up at his waiting face and found her own voice, “just...go slow, ok?”
Will then smiled down at her as he realized he had just been given permission, “I can be slow” he smiled as he moved closer, allowing his hand to move down from her cheek and join its twin at her waist.
Ever so slowly, just as Lili had asked, he began pulling her t-shirt up from her waist where Lili easily lifted her arms above her head to let him remove it. Letting it drop to the bed beside them, those huge brown eyes of his hungrily moved down to take in the sight of her now there on her knees before him. Seeing her now clad only in the thin panties as he let his gaze move over her full breasts openly then, closer than he had ever been before, even during all those months of watching her other companions make love to her.
He gently, almost curiously allowed himself to reach out, gently cupping her breast in his hand, where her nipple was already hardening at the prospect of his touch there in the dim lamp lip quarters. With the same ever so strange combination of innocence and desire, he gently let his thumb move over her nipple, as his eyes continued to just take in all that he was seeing.
Then, moving closer still, he let his hands move back to her waist as he lifted her slightly towards him, leaning down to place the gentlest kiss upon the nipple he had just been touching. As his desire grew he began taking it into his mouth, tasting it, feeling the way it reacted to the feel of his tongue against it, and even smiling as he tasted the slightest bit of milk that that tongue of his easily coaxed to the surface.
Lili couldn’t help the tiny gasp of pleasure as he continued to the other breast, as she reached out to wrap her arms around his shoulders, her eyes closing in anticipation of even further pleasure as he continued to explore her body with all the awe that only he could display at the very ‘newness’ of her.
Moments later, he finally moved back from her breasts again, only, this time it was to reach for her last remaining piece of clothing. As he slowly begin inching her panties down from her waist, Lili easily moved from her knees to lay on her back where he could easily pull them the rest of the way down her legs, leaving them discarded upon the floor. His eyes then moved over her once again. He only faltered a moment, with a slight sadness as his eyes moved to the scar that was left from when he had had to cut into her flesh on that terrifying summer’s day to save the life of Lili and her daughter both. But he soon pressed himself onward from that memory, his breath catching as his eyes moved over the small patch of red curls between her legs.
“Can I...?” he whispered after having moved to lie next to her, leaving the rest of his question unspoken.
Lili simply smiled and nodded her answer to him, accenting her agreement as she slightly parted her legs to allow him easier access to her body. Will took a deep breath then, moving to kiss her mouth once more before he then turned his eyes downward again, to the newest part of her yet. Just as slowly, he moved his hand to that scar, and gently traced his fingertips downward from it, where he couldn’t help smiling as another small gasp of anticipation left her lips.
Only a moment’s exploration later and his fingers had moved further down to find a flood of wetness waiting between her legs. He then smiled back up at her in response, causing her to speak, “I guess that means I really do want you to” Lili breathed the words through a smile down at him.
“Wetness means same as hardness, for boys?” he asked for that final confirmation from her.
Lili allowed another ragged breath at that question before responding, “the wetter I am, the more it means I really, really want you inside me” she confirmed once more, her voice shaking with desire then.
Will smiled again at her words as he found the courage, and the desire, then, to slide his fingers deep inside her, though slowly, causing an even louder gasp from her as she arched her back in response.
Feeling how warm, and wet she was inside, soaking his fingers as he gently moved them, he had to smile back up at her as her back arched again to meet his touch, drawing those fingers even deeper into that intense wetness, which was only growing more intense with each passing second.
His own breath ragged then, he managed more words, “I definitely think I like how you feel, inside.”
Lili couldn’t help the small laugh that turned into a near moan as his fingers moved even more deeply inside her, “and that’s just how it feels when you only put your hand inside me” she managed.
Will smiled again at her words, taking a brave breath as he finally removed his fingers from inside her and moved to place another long kiss over her mouth, pulling her tight against the length of his body where his own hardness was throbbing for release just then.
Another deep breath as he ended the kiss, then cautiously, slowly moved to a place above her; taking a position that was beyond foreign to his usual one during the passionate moments he had shared with Ian and even Kyle. Smiling up at him, Lili immediately parted her legs to him as he took that spot above her.
“Is this right, then?” he had to ask, though his words barely made it past his lips as the tip of his hardness just barely grazed her, feeling all that wetness there waiting for him to enter her.
Lili couldn’t help another smile at that same innocence, despite the very activity they were sharing. Rather than answering with words though, she instead reached up, placing her hands over those narrow hips of his. Another deep breath as she looked up into those waiting brown eyes. Then, in the next moment, she grasped those hips even more tightly and guided him so easily to slide himself deep inside her, both of them gasping at the feel of suddenly becoming one at last.