It was Newt! Oh thank god!! But, he wasn't moving, the snow around him was black and a little red, all mixed together. His eyes were closed. I ran over, and shook him. No reply.

Idiot

To late

If only you ran faster

Gone forever

Dead

Dead

That word echoed in my mind, as I shook Newt. I squeezed his hand in both of mine, while pleading with him to wake up.

“ Newt please! Please don't be dead! You can’t be! Please Newt, I need you!”

Newts' eyes fluttered. He looked scared, like he didn't know who I was.

“ Newt it's me! It's Minho!”

His eyes looked dark, void of light.

“ Newt! Stay with me please! Please don't die Newt. Please!”

Newt’s eyes opened wide, like he just noticed me.

“ M-Min?”

Oh thank god.

“ Y-Yes Newt it’s me, Minho!”

I fought tears, as I looked into Newt’s pained face. He gave me a weak smile.

“ Look M-Min, it’s sn-snowing.”

Look Min, it’s snowing.

My heart burst.

Like someone had smashed a mallet through glass.

That's how I felt.

“It’s snowing.”

He repeated.

Was it snowing?

I didn't shucking care if it was snowing!

“Oh god Newt, you're alive! I thought you were dead!”

I was so happy, but sad all at once. It was obvious he didn't have much time left.

“They took m-me, then left me here.”

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“I know Newt.”

“Oh Min, d-don't cry,”

Was I crying? I reached up and felt my face. It was hot with tears.

“M-Min, its o-okay,”

He was shivering.

He was in a snow drift, duh, he was shivering

I took off my coat, and wrapped it around Newt.

Your fault

Not okay.

For once my brain was right. It was my fault. It wasn't okay.

“Newt, this is my fault.”

He looked confused

“ No, it's n-not.”

“ Yes Newt, it is. I made a vow to protect you, and I broke it. I made a promise to you that you wouldn't die. I broke that too. I was the one who left you. Me. You should hate me.”

On the word hate my voice broke, and I held back another wave of tears.

I didn’t mention the other vow. My secret vow. My secret vow that I also broke. Newt looked at me with hurt and concern in his eyes.

“ No, M-min, it's not your fault. I c-could never hate you.”

I was sobbing now, not caring about if someone heard me. Newt was crying now too, his tears running into the snow. I reached out a hand and brushed his tears away.

“ C-Can I tell you now Min?”

The cold was freezing my tears now, and I knew it was snowing, because the flakes landed in Newt's hair making it sparkle.

“ Tell me what Newt?”

My voice was shaky and breaking every few words.

“ What I wanted you to know in the shelter. What I want you to know before I die.”

He knew I couldn’t protest now. He knew I couldn't promise that he wasn't going to die. I knew hearing this would break me, but I was already broken. I reached out and grabbed his hand with one hand, and caressed his cold face with the other. Then, I slowly nodded. I had stopped sobbing, but hot tears were streaming down my face, only to freeze before falling. Newt's eyes were full of hurt, pain, sadness, but something else too. Something I couldn't put my finger on.

Its anger

He hates you

“ Min, I-I . . .”

He couldn't get the words out. He knew they would break him too.

“Newt you don't have to say i-”

I was cut off by Newt kissing me. He had pulled himself up, put his lips to mine, and kissed me. His lips were cold, and frozen, his face covered in warm tears. We kissed for what felt like forever, but it was only a few seconds, before Newt collapsed back to the ground, saying

“ I-I love you Min”

I closed my eyes to keep from bursting into even more tears and said,

“ I love you Newt.”

But, when I opened my eyes, his eyes were closed.

“Newt! Please Newt wake up!”

He didn't.

Your fault

You did this

You caused this

No, no, no, no. I scooped Newt up and ran. I didn't know where to go, I just ran. I didn't know if Newt was still alive, but I didn't care. I was crying so hard, I almost didn't hear the voices. I ran towards them, and there were my friends. Teresa, Alby, Gally, Thomas, Brenda, and Chuck. They looked towards me. Their faces were full of happiness until they saw Newt. Gally and Alby ran to me, and took Newt. I clung to him, but eventually they pulled me off him, and started checking him. The instant I was parted with Newt, I screamed for him, and fell to my knees, outright sobbing. Brenda and Teresa ran to me, trying to stop my screaming and sobbing for Newt, trying to tell me it was okay.

“Shhhh.’”

“ They're just checking on Newt!”

Thomas was consoling Chuck, who had broken down, sobbing for me and Newt. After a couple minutes, the girls convinced me to stand up, and they helped me over to a circle of logs. Thomas, who had also convinced Chuck to come sit in the circle, was trying to start a fire. Alby came back, telling me that they had given Newt a sedative, to help with the pain, and that I had to tell Gally what happened so he could help Newt. At the word Newt, I started crying again. Brenda and Teresa saw this coming, and put their arms around me, hugging me. Alby went back to watch Newt, and Gally came and sat across from me.