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Volume 1: Death - Chapter 1: Feeling of Guilt and Death

Volume 1: Death - Chapter 1: Feeling of Guilt and Death

Kaito Nakamura, a 17-year-old beginning his second year of high school in japan, spends most of his time inside his room, playing online games and reading books. His room is filled with all kinds of different novels and manga, he could sit in there and trow away his time reading or playing video games for hours. Playing with his online friends is something he could spend the whole night doing. This leading to being tired, not coming to school and sleeping away his day. Kaito's mother tries to support him with food, stuff to do that's not on his screen and trying her best to help him with stuff happening in school.

When Kaito only was twelve, his father got arrested. One night, after getting drunk, he got into a fight and killed two young men around the 20s. They had tried stealing his bike, and in a fit of rage, he lost control, ending up killing them. Although sentenced to 15 years in prison, the fact that he was drunk played a role in reducing his sentence.

Kaito becomes a easy target for bullying, his awkward, nerdy habits, shy, stays home, doesn't have fiends nor never had a girlfriend. His gloomy eyes of staring at his screen, makes it easy to pick on him and his choice of cloths is something to bring up as well.

Each morning, going to school his stomach twists of pain. Headache following up, Knowing the eyes and cruel whispers are await.

On my way to school after leaving home I felt a disgusting feeling in my stomach.

The felling of going to school made me sick.

I wondered maybe I could just take my life here and now, i look over the bridge edge with no fear in my eyes to kill myself.

The cold morning wind flowing through the sky.

Mom wouldn't care, dad wouldn't either, I'm a loser, no friends, nor a future. What would i even lose? Nothing. Maybe if I die, I could get reincarnated as a protagonist or something cool like that.

But when I think back on it, why would I ever become something like that? I haven't done anything to deserve that in my life, even though that would be nice, I would never get that chance.

When I'm standing there on the edge and I take that last step over the edge, I think for myself in relief, I would never need to go to school again.

But wait, why did I never do anything to change, I haven't done anything at all, couldn't I have started training, stopped playing video games or maybe stopped spending my days reading romance manga and thinking that I could become that character who ended up with the cutest girl, if i only did something!

In fear and anger I close my eyes.

When opening my eyes, a bright shine of the sun shines through the trees on to me as I stand in front of a gate.

Smoke raising in the sky, reaching its way above the wall covering a town.

The fresh wind blows on to me, I fell the change from being cold to warm.

Had I actually got reincarnated into another world? Or is it a dream?

I walk towards the town, it has a small gate that I walk through.

"Rigi o geering" (Greetings, sir), a guard says as I walk through the gates.

"Oh, uh, hajra" (Oh, uh, hey), I reply, trying to hide my nervousness.

Wait, that wasn't Japanese, how did I understand him?? How did I speak that language?

Could it be that I got sent here, already knowing the language??

Either way, that's a good thing.

When I walk through the light gets bright and people are walking around everywhere, there are happy people talking to each other, horse and carriage on the streets, small stands that are selling all kinds of stuff and it's from those stands where the smoke came from.

It smells so good and I could even feel how peaceful this place was.

Everyone is dressing way different then in japan, I would say it's a old medial style to it that goes for the houses as well.

Some of them look like animals, yeh they do, some have ears and tails. Some are really big and don't really look like humans, maybe there are demons or something similar.

OKey calm down now, maybe i should see if this is real or maybe just a dream, how do i know that though.

YEH ik, i could try to hurt myself and see if it hurts, so i suppose pinching myself is the best way.

I try to pinch myself without anyone seeing me doing it, maybe someone would think its weird.

"It hurts!" The words slip through my lips as I cover my mouth quickly as I notice the people around me start glancing over at me.

Time freezes for a second and I start thinking, I can't do the same thing again, if I got a new chance then then I can't be like this. I need to think before I say stuff.

I see their eyes are gazing into mine, everyone around me is looking at me, I swallow slowly and my heart beats quickly, I feel warm and my face burns.

Stop looking at me like that! with those eyes, it makes me disgusted.

I hate, I hate this embarrassment! just stop, stop looking at me already!! Why are you looking at you little shit!

"JUST STOP ALREADY!!" I scream out while holding my hand over my mouth and closing my eyes, I look disgusted. I can feel it.

"Are you okay? I hear a raspy voice beside me. Assuming it isn't meant for me, I turn away. After all, no one has ever cared before.

"Hello? Do you hear me?" The sharp voice persists, and I slowly turn toward it, releasing my hand from my mouth.

"Y-yeah, I can hear you" I manage to say. A scary yet somehow cute girl stands in front of me. Long red hair, fiery red eyes, and an intense expression—I don't think I've ever seen anyone like her. Just her look alone makes me feel like she's going to hit me.

"Answer me!" she shouts at me while changing her voice, I look at her but cant hold eye contact with her.

"Y-yes, i'm fine. Why do you ask" I mumble, avoiding her gaze.

"Speak up! I can't hear you properly!" she snaps, her tone sharp.

I wonder what her problem is, why does it always have to be me people are picking on, I mean I am a worthless shit but still, can anyone just try to help.

"I I'm okay" I repeat myself, I start getting warmer and start sweating a little, why can't I just be normal damn it, stop sweating! Stuttering! stop being weird!

"Shut up and look at me when I'm talking to you" She snaps, raising her hand threateningly.

I look up at her, trying to hold eye contact.

Then she slapped me on the cheek. I guess this is what I deserve. She's right to hit me. I'm worthless, after all.

"mmmh" she crosses her arms and looks away from me.

I try to focus on greeting myself instead of thinking so much, i want a new start right, when I think back all she wanted is to know if I was okay, that's a nice thing right? and all i could do was to think of her as a bad person.

"I-I'm sorry, miss" I bow down my head "I mean, thank you... for caring.

I say this looking down to the ground and bending my back forwards towards her.

She keeps looking away from me "of course!, uhmm. Stop stuttering it annoys me!" She mutters.

"I am sorry!" I apologies

I don't know but her charm is somewhat nice, I don't know how to explain it but I like it a bit.

"Quit apologizing!" she snaps, her voice rough "that's not what i need to hear from you"

Is screaming all she does. She just doesn't sound super girly you know, but it matches her personality a lot.

"ohh yeah sorry I didn't mean…" I was about to say when I got hit in the back of my head by her hand again.

"I said don't say sorry! and raise up when you talk" She shoots at me once again, I suppose that's just like she is, a short tempered, hot headed girl.

While laying on the ground with my face licking the concrete "thank you i guess" I mumble to myself unsure of why I'm even grateful.

Somehow, her roughness snapped me out of it. I'm still weak, but maybe... just maybe, I'm starting to leave that old part of me behind. Thanks to her.

"Why are you thanking me, after I punched you down to the ground" She asked me, looking a little confused.

"You wouldn't understand" I tell her while raising up from the ground "can i please ask, what's your name miss?" I ask this while slowly trying to look at her.

Without a punch to my face, I watched her while waiting on a answer.

She crosses her arms once again "it's Yumiko" she answers, her voice still gruff.

"Why are you looking at me like that!?" She raises her voice at the end and still has that rough voice, she says this while looking away a little by embarrassment.

"I didn't mean to"

"what's your name, weirdo?" She asks, crossing her arms. Despite her gruff tone, there's a hint of curiosity in her eyes.

I straighten up my back "It's Kaito Nakamura" I say feeling good afterwards. I feel somewhat more relieved.

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"I see" She says while looking at me.

"Sorry but i have a question" I ask her while looking around me, wondering about what kinda place this is and where i am.

"What is it?" She answers me with that loud voice.

"I wonder, what kind of place is this?" I ask Curiously looking around.

"You don't know?! this is the kingdom, the Luminara kingdom" She answers, while changing to look a bit more friendly.

"I see, thank you" I say while thinking of how I have changed in such a short time.

Thank you world, thank god i got sent here.

"Of course. Uhm, do you want me to show you around" Wait, is this a date!? oh no never mind but still she is going to show me around this place, i should get to know her, if i do this right maybe we could become friends.

"Yes please, I would love it!" I say in excitement.

She takes the lead "okey then follow me" she turns around hasty and shots at me with her loud voice.

I Followed up, looking at her and looking around me, it was a beautiful place filled with people and buildings, even some music in the back.

I hurry to catch up to her. "Hey, are those guards?" I ask, pointing at the men carrying a sword with poor brown uniforms.

"Yes they are, you really aren't from here are you" She answers me nicely for the first time.

"oh i see, so does that mean there is a pales too?? or a king or something??" There should be right, I mean, there gourds and they do look like royal gourds or something, and this is a kingdom, so there should be some royal palaces or something.

"We don have a king or anything but the royal house hold is up there, look." She answers me and points towards a big mansion that's on the highest point in this kingdom.

I should have seen it even outside of the kingdom, I suppose I was so caught up in everything that was happening.

"ohh yeah I see" I look up at the big mansion and that means there are nobles here too.

"Actually, that's my dad's mansion," she answers me

"Hey that's soooo cool miss" I say of excitement

"Shut up! I don't want to talk about it! huuu!" She says with a bit of anger and turns away from me and continues walking, i wonder why she is like this, she gets so angry so easily damn.

"Ohh yeah i am sorry to bring it up" Well she is a stubborn one alright.

"Don't be" She mutters while answering, she gets angry pretty damn easy, that's for sure.

I thought it's probably best to stay quiet for a bit, she maybe doesn't want to talk to me, but why would she not want to answer why is she angry??

"Miss Yumiko! How's your father? Let him know the wine will arrive at the mansion this evening" A old man who sells wine shouts out at us, so we walked over but Yumiko only looks more upset when we do.

"He's fine, and I don't drink wine so what do I care" she mutters with irritation

"I see, well tell your dad a hi from me" He says and waves goodbye to us with a smile.

"Bye!" I say back while walking away, following Yomiko who takes fast steps.

"just shut uuup" She says quietly while muttering, only i heard it but why is she so angry, the old man only wanted to know that her dad was alright.

I really want to know so I speak up "Yumiko, what is it about your dad, or why are you upset?" I close my eyes waiting for a punch while she is turning towards me.

"huuuuu" she sighs annoyed, instead of hitting me she actually answers "well, it's because I hate my dad, he treats me like his little princes, he doesn't think I can do anything by myself, it's hard for me to go out like this, with out my body guard that is" she answers me angry

"I see" I answer but honestly I think her dad is just a carrying guy.

Ohh yeah it's starting to get a little dark isn't it "anyways hey Yumiko, it is getting a little late but i don't have any place to sleep" if i would guess it is maybe around 5-6 pm right now.

"Don't worry just sleep at the mansion, we have guest rooms" She answers quickly with her rough raspy voice.

But well that's good, then i do have a place to sleep, wait "IN THE MANSION!!"

"Yes, of course. don't you want to?" She asks, confused.

"Don't worry it's just you know i never been in a mansion before it just feels weird you know" i explains.

"The only thing that's weird here is you" ough yeh she will still call me that won't she.

While walking towards the mansion I try to look around and this place is beautiful. It's so peaceful, kids running around playing, old men drinking and having fun and so on so on.

To be fair I would have loved to be born here, I think my life would have been way more different than what it is now.

I wonder though why am I here, how did I end up in a new world that feels so much like it could be a dream but it isn't, I think.

If this were to be a dream I don't know what I would do, I think I would be trying to get back here somehow then maybe just stay in my room trying to dream or try to take my life again.

Wait about that, did I actually die? I don't remember it hurting a single bit when I died, maybe I got summoned or I died so fast I didn't get time to feel the pain. I'm glad I didn't feel it but it feels a little weird.

Well anyways I'm glad that I got the chance to start over or at least come to this world.

I do miss my mom, a lot to be fair, I wish I could just I don't know say goodbye to her at least.

Well sad as it is i cant do anything about that now.

Ohhh yeah i got sent to this world, wouldn't that mean i could become some cool main character or something maybe a strong magic user.

If there even is magic in this world, maybe i can become a cool swordsman user, or an assassin with daggers, maybe a dual katana user, I really want to see if this world has magic that would be awesome.

wait I should probably get some new clothes, it would be so cool to have some cool looking robe or something.

About that, Yumiko said there are guilds, I wonder what the requirements are to join one. If there is anything I would like, it's to join a guild and meet a bunch of cool people.

Let's ask Yumiko about that tomorrow.

We have been walking for a little while now and it seems like we are arriving at her mansion, it's so damn big tough.

"Heyy we are here now" Yumiko looks back at me and says and knocks on the door.

"Welcome miss Yumiko, master has been worried" A cute looking maid opens up the door and speaks with her calm soft voice, to be fair i'm starting to feel a bit warm again I just hope she dont talk with me I don't think I could talk with her now.

"Of course he is worried" Yumiko says while walking through the big door with a disappointed look on her face.

"So who is this boy you have to accompany you miss Yumiko" The maid says and looks at me.

"He needs a room to sleep, he is broke and can't afford anywhere to sleep" Yumiko says with a tired voice.

Damn she cant even say that i'm her friend, if she even sees me as one.

"Welcome, what is your name?" The maid looks at me and asks. I can't deny that I am in a little bit of shock now, would it be weird if I answer with my full name? well i should just be polite right.

I bow down my head "Thank you miss, my name is Kaito nakamura"

"Alright, Kaito, your room will be in room 13" She answers with her smooth voice.

I suppose not everyone is like Miss Yumiko, this maid is a lot nicer that's for sure.

The cute white haired maid leaves us with a smile on her mouth while closing the doors after us.

I took a look around me and damn this place is big, not really as I expected it, I kinda thought more of a, i walk inside and in front of me there is this big staircase in the middle of the supper big and open room, the kind of mansion that almost exists in all manga's and anime's, but this is way different.

It is a pretty big entrance with cool looking staircases on the sides of the big room, two staircases that go up on each side.

At the end of the room there is a big door, I could suppose maybe that's the main halls or a way out to the garden.

The middle of this hall is just a big black carpet with a big lamp that brightens up the whole room, brown wooden walls with stuff filling them up.

I get kinda shocked by how it all looks and it is truly a beautiful place, I try to watch over how it all looks while walking up these stairs, the stairs are wooden with this black carpet covering them and it looks really good.

I almost forgot that a girl is leading the way, I got so caught up in how it all looks I almost forgot that Yumiko was here.

My heart raises a bit, I didn't think I would come to her place nor sleep here.

I hope I am walking straight.

I just hope she don't think i am looking bad and that i am walking right, maybe we get up there and then i start sweating and all, it is getting a little hot in here so i don't know.

Well one thing i learnt after coming here is that i shouldn't think so much so let's just try to relax a little and hope for it to go well.

Take a deep breath, in "uhhhh" and out "ahhhhh" there we go.

"uhh what are you doing back there" Yumiko looks back and wonders why i am taking so deep breaths.

Shit "oh, just, trying to calm myself" I admit felling foolish for being so obvious.

"Yes i know! dumb ass, but why so loud!" She shouts at me, with that look on her face to just make me feel bad.

Should I just say how it is, that i am just nervous, maybe if i get that of my chest i can feel better "uhh hmm well I'm just a little nervous alright" did I say that with a high pitch, yeh I think I did, didn't I, damn it i sound so pathetic.

"What? why are you nervous weirdo" Yumiko says a bit quietly, with a confused voice.

Let's just not answer that, I think it's better not too.

Well anyways, we are up now.

I have been going through so much today, the day has been pretty short but I think it has been a good day, even though i only been here for about 3 hours or something.

And tomorrow is the start of this new world, my new life.

There is so much I want to do, I can't wait until tomorrow, I can't wait for what this world has to offer.

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